Sweet Lullaby
Alone
Swiping the screen to unlock my now somewhat shattered phone, I stared at her beautiful face, as she stared back at mine.
The tears came heavily and I had no energy to stop them as I knew the only person who made me feel happy -- loved, was gone.
My sobs increased, no longer caring if I was surrounded by four other boys. Because in all honestly, I needed this relief... just like she needed the long, tan, worn out rope.
Louis followed by the others, all wrapped their arms around me, squeezing me so tight that I thought I might die from lack of circulation.
As my crying had died down, they released their grips, one by one giving me sympathetic stares, trying to get me to whisper -- yell, return with anything but silence. They were tired of silence.
Becoming interested at the ground, where mud from our shoes was scattered, I sighed one last time before letting my screen fade to black with my thumb on the button.
I knew I shouldn't be like this. All they were trying to do was help me cope. Generous and grateful for that I was, but I didn't want to speak with a failing voice and anger that would make me break every glass in the room.
It was as if that day was haunting me every passing second; Almost as if there was a clock and television placed in my brain with the same images reappearing and disappearing as the clock ticked.
We always fought over the most pathetic things, making up at the end of night, just to fall asleep in each others arms where we belonged. Why did I have to be so cruel and leave her to go shopping, knowing she wanted to out with me? WHY?!
Biting my tongue, I closed my eyelids trying to calm myself down so the boys wouldn't get suspicious of my heavy breathing.
All I wanted to know is why she had to leave me here, in this world, by myself? Why was it that I felt it wasn't over some stupid trip to the shop to get groceries? What happened while I was gone for that hour?
My heart is shattered into so many tiny little pieces. My mind is jumbled, yet so blank. Anger and sadness are all I feel. Numbness doesn't even take the pain I'm feeling away.
Answers, I desperately need answers. But will I ever get them? Will it help me feel at peace even though I know my one and only is no longer with me?
Emily Renae White, never forget how much I love you. Please show me signs that you're still here. Because I, Harry Styles, am slowly falling into darkness with no light at the end of the tunnel.
The tears came heavily and I had no energy to stop them as I knew the only person who made me feel happy -- loved, was gone.
My sobs increased, no longer caring if I was surrounded by four other boys. Because in all honestly, I needed this relief... just like she needed the long, tan, worn out rope.
Louis followed by the others, all wrapped their arms around me, squeezing me so tight that I thought I might die from lack of circulation.
As my crying had died down, they released their grips, one by one giving me sympathetic stares, trying to get me to whisper -- yell, return with anything but silence. They were tired of silence.
Becoming interested at the ground, where mud from our shoes was scattered, I sighed one last time before letting my screen fade to black with my thumb on the button.
I knew I shouldn't be like this. All they were trying to do was help me cope. Generous and grateful for that I was, but I didn't want to speak with a failing voice and anger that would make me break every glass in the room.
It was as if that day was haunting me every passing second; Almost as if there was a clock and television placed in my brain with the same images reappearing and disappearing as the clock ticked.
We always fought over the most pathetic things, making up at the end of night, just to fall asleep in each others arms where we belonged. Why did I have to be so cruel and leave her to go shopping, knowing she wanted to out with me? WHY?!
Biting my tongue, I closed my eyelids trying to calm myself down so the boys wouldn't get suspicious of my heavy breathing.
All I wanted to know is why she had to leave me here, in this world, by myself? Why was it that I felt it wasn't over some stupid trip to the shop to get groceries? What happened while I was gone for that hour?
My heart is shattered into so many tiny little pieces. My mind is jumbled, yet so blank. Anger and sadness are all I feel. Numbness doesn't even take the pain I'm feeling away.
Answers, I desperately need answers. But will I ever get them? Will it help me feel at peace even though I know my one and only is no longer with me?
Emily Renae White, never forget how much I love you. Please show me signs that you're still here. Because I, Harry Styles, am slowly falling into darkness with no light at the end of the tunnel.
@tayy
Oh okay
4/12/14