Do I Frighten You?
Chapter 79
I had gotten a text from Ethan telling me how sorry he was, I was asking him who he was, because I did delete his number after he had came to my house and wished my baby would have died instead of Jess'. That hurt me. He had texted me that Night.
Unknown Number: Hi.
Me: … Who is this?
Unknown Number: Listen, I know you are trying to ignore me but we really need to talk..
Me: Who is this? What is your name?
Unknown Number: Ethan, You know your brother....
Me: Uhm, Okay, Hi?
Ethan: I am sorry, okay, I came to realized and I know that I was wrong to make you feel so hurt, It was wrong for me to choose Jess over you, I know now, that she was an honest mistake and now I just want us to be cool again.
Me: Oh, Okay then.
Ethan: That's it?
Me: Well, Yeah, I don't know what to tell you, You choose Jess over me and That kind of made me feel useless, I mean, I know that we use to have something but still you made me feel worthless and You don't understand how much Harry hates you right about now.
Ethan: I know... I wasn't thinking, I thought she was this nice person and I thought that the both of you were the bad people.
Me: Really? Someone you knew, someone you dated...
Ethan: Well, I was hurt when I seen that you were kissing Harry when I was going to get tickets for the movie we were going to see.
Me: You saw that?
Ethan: Yup, I was hurt too, you know?
Me: I'm sorry.
Ethan: It is okay, See how I can just forgive you, Why can't you forgive me?
Me: It is different. You wanted something that I have to die and you don't even know it. Jess had did many things to Harry to make him feel unwanted, That is why Harry wants me instead of hurt, She carries a bad memory of him on and he wanted to get rid of her, You should have found out the real story on why he left. Why he left her and how much better he is, Now that he is without her.
Ethan: Well, I don't know that Harry guy well enough and he was the one who hated me first, Remember, He was always coming off as a jerk towards me when I seen you at the hospital and when I met him for the first time, He was always wanting you to himself and I don't think that is fair, He needs to share you.
Me: I am sorry, I can't be shared, I am his girlfriend.
Ethan: Well, You are my little sister, and now that we both are related by blood I feel like I need to grow up and be the big brother that I am and care about you and make sure you are safe 24/7, Something triggered in me when Mum said that I was her son. I never had a mom, and I had always been the only relative in my house and I want you to understand how much I am sorry for hurting you and making you feel bad and making you cry, I just want to start over and be the person I was in the beginning and have us be there for each other..
Me: I also feel horrible for what I did to you and you should have told me that you were hurt from that and then I was going to make sure that you were okay, I mean I knew something was up. I know that you are hurt, and you should know how much of the hurt that just caused me, But you knew I still had feelings for Harry, Harry had always made me feel some sort of way that I can't feel with anyone else and sometimes there is something about him that makes me want to stay. I can't be happy without him.
Ethan: Meaning, you were never happy with me, Meaning, I was just being used, I was just a side effect or something. That is okay, I'm sorry, All I was asking is was for forgivness and a new future instead of us disliking each other for the rest of our lives. Mum, told me that you were having a boy, Congratulations. It would have been nice to have a little Nephew around to see grow up.
Unknown Number: Hi.
Me: … Who is this?
Unknown Number: Listen, I know you are trying to ignore me but we really need to talk..
Me: Who is this? What is your name?
Unknown Number: Ethan, You know your brother....
Me: Uhm, Okay, Hi?
Ethan: I am sorry, okay, I came to realized and I know that I was wrong to make you feel so hurt, It was wrong for me to choose Jess over you, I know now, that she was an honest mistake and now I just want us to be cool again.
Me: Oh, Okay then.
Ethan: That's it?
Me: Well, Yeah, I don't know what to tell you, You choose Jess over me and That kind of made me feel useless, I mean, I know that we use to have something but still you made me feel worthless and You don't understand how much Harry hates you right about now.
Ethan: I know... I wasn't thinking, I thought she was this nice person and I thought that the both of you were the bad people.
Me: Really? Someone you knew, someone you dated...
Ethan: Well, I was hurt when I seen that you were kissing Harry when I was going to get tickets for the movie we were going to see.
Me: You saw that?
Ethan: Yup, I was hurt too, you know?
Me: I'm sorry.
Ethan: It is okay, See how I can just forgive you, Why can't you forgive me?
Me: It is different. You wanted something that I have to die and you don't even know it. Jess had did many things to Harry to make him feel unwanted, That is why Harry wants me instead of hurt, She carries a bad memory of him on and he wanted to get rid of her, You should have found out the real story on why he left. Why he left her and how much better he is, Now that he is without her.
Ethan: Well, I don't know that Harry guy well enough and he was the one who hated me first, Remember, He was always coming off as a jerk towards me when I seen you at the hospital and when I met him for the first time, He was always wanting you to himself and I don't think that is fair, He needs to share you.
Me: I am sorry, I can't be shared, I am his girlfriend.
Ethan: Well, You are my little sister, and now that we both are related by blood I feel like I need to grow up and be the big brother that I am and care about you and make sure you are safe 24/7, Something triggered in me when Mum said that I was her son. I never had a mom, and I had always been the only relative in my house and I want you to understand how much I am sorry for hurting you and making you feel bad and making you cry, I just want to start over and be the person I was in the beginning and have us be there for each other..
Me: I also feel horrible for what I did to you and you should have told me that you were hurt from that and then I was going to make sure that you were okay, I mean I knew something was up. I know that you are hurt, and you should know how much of the hurt that just caused me, But you knew I still had feelings for Harry, Harry had always made me feel some sort of way that I can't feel with anyone else and sometimes there is something about him that makes me want to stay. I can't be happy without him.
Ethan: Meaning, you were never happy with me, Meaning, I was just being used, I was just a side effect or something. That is okay, I'm sorry, All I was asking is was for forgivness and a new future instead of us disliking each other for the rest of our lives. Mum, told me that you were having a boy, Congratulations. It would have been nice to have a little Nephew around to see grow up.
Notes
I felt like I was arguing with myself. LOL xxx
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What do you guys think of Ethan now? See where he is coming from with his anger?
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I'm glad its that way. XD.
5/6/15