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My Judgement's Clouded

So we can start it all over again

I was done. I heard my baby girl screaming as I felt my body go soft. The pain was mostly gone and my baby girl was screaming like a healthy girl. I tried raising my head to get a peak at her but my body said no. Liam held my hand as he too looked over to see her. Maddie was filming everything. Elma walked over to us with a screaming bundle of fabric and placed the little creature in my arms. When I held my daughter for the first time I couldn’t help but tear up. I stared at her little head that had barely noticeable curls on it, dark blonde curls. She began calming down and I looked up at Liam. He had tears in his eyes too. He leaned down to place a soft kiss on my lips as he whispered softly.

“I love you.” I could only smile, feeling to exhausted to speak. I looked down at our baby in my arms and Liam stroked her head. Elma cleared her throat and spoke without waiting for us to look at her.

“We need to get her cleaned up and you need to sleep, Rosanna.” She held out her arms and waited until I was ready to let go. I stroked her face softly and then kissed her forehead.

“I love you baby girl.” She had fallen asleep in my arms and as I gave her to Elma she woke up and began screaming again. I felt my heart break as I watched them walking out of the room. Some nurse helped me clean myself since my body was a bit sore and then I got dressed in comfortable clothes, with that I mean my pyjamas. When I was finished all of the boys were in the room along with El. I smiled largely before walking over to her and hugging her tight. She hugged me tightly back, but not to tight because of what I had just done that made me sore. When she let me go Liam put his hand around my waist and helped me over to the bed. He also helped me up onto it and pulled the cover over me. Everyone was looking at me expectantly and I just sighed and felt really tired.

“Okay, you guys know I love you.” They all smiled and nodded. “But can you please get out? I really need to sleep and we will all talk later.” I closed my eyes and leaned back. Liam leaned down and kissed my cheek.

“I will be outside with the guys. Just call me if you need anything.” He whispered softly and kissed my cheek again. I nodded and heard all of them walking out of the room. I felt the painkillers I had been given start to kick in and I drifted into a dreamless state.

When I woke up four hours later I still felt tired but I didn’t mind. Elma was currently checking my vitals and when she noticed I was awake she smiled largely. I smiled back at her and tried sitting up. She however pushed me back down and lifted the bed so that it supported my back.

“You should try to save your powers.” She winked at me and I laughed a little. “How are you feeling?” I thought about it for a second and then sighed.

“Tired. And a little sore. But other then that fine.” She smiled as she wrote down something on my clipboard. She looked up at me and then nodded.

“That’s good. Do you want me to tell Mr. Payne that you are up?” I nodded and she walked out into the hallway. She didn’t go far because she stopped outside the door and spoke to someone next to it. Only seconds later Liam appeared in the doorway and he walked up to me with a big smile on his lips.

“Hello.” I smiled largely and he leaned down and placed a soft kiss on my lips.

“Hi.” I blushed madly and he grabbed my hand. When I looked behind him I saw that Elma was still in the room. She smiled at us and nodded. She does that a lot.

“Would you like me to bring her? So you can see her.” She smiled a sweet smile and I nodded.

“Yes please.” Liam spoke with such a silly voice that Elma rolled her eyes as she walked out of the room. Liam turned back to me and I just smiled. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m fine.” He raised an eyebrow at me and I laughed a little. “I am a little sore but that’s it.” I squeezed his hand and he relaxed.

“Good.” I stared at him for awhile before it hit me. He wasn’t supposed to be here until two weeks from now. Not that I wasn’t happy, I just felt confused now. When I thought about it I realised that Maddie already knew they were coming.

“You were supposed to come in two weeks. I thought you had concerts?” He smiled the biggest smile ever and sat down on the chair next to the bed.

“No, actually our last concert was yesterday. Right after we flew here. We only have to do a few interviews and I told our management that I needed to be here.” He kissed my palm and I sighed. “I’m sorry if you didn’t want me here so soon.” He looked down at his feet and I smiled.

“I sighed because I am happy, and it feels weird. Of course I wanted you to come. I missed you so much and hated that it was two weeks left.” Before he could answer Elma walked into the room rolling a little cart-like thing in front of her. In a small plastic box-like thing our baby girl was sleeping. Liam kissed my hand one more time before letting go and standing up. He walked over to her and began picking her up. Elma walked out of the room, letting us have our moment. I watched the father of my baby hold her like she was the most precious thing in the world. His face told me that he adored her and his stance told me that no matter what he would always catch her. The image made my eyes tear up and he lifted his gaze. I couldn’t help but smile as he walked over to me and handed her to me. I let her lie in my arms while she slept and I couldn’t believe she was ours. She was so beautiful that it made sense that Liam was the father. I gently caressed her head to see if you could feel where the bump had been.

When I was in London they told me that she had a growth on her head. In some cases it would grow away but in other it would remain. Thankfully it hade disappeared and she now looked like a very healthy little girl. My little angel.

Before we could enjoy the moment too much all of the boys and the girls walked into the room. They all said hello and took turns on looking close at our baby. When everyone was done looking at her we all began talking in hushed voices because she was still asleep. They all shut up though when they heard a person clear their throat in the doorway. We all turned towards the person and I was utterly shocked when I saw Harry standing there with a guilty expression on his face.

“Harry…” I whispered his name in disbelief and just stared at him. Even though the last time I saw him I was mad at him I actually wanted him here. I felt Liam move and saw that he was walking towards Harry. He pointed out into the hallway and Harry looked hurt.

“We need to talk.” Harry just nodded and walked out of the room. I looked around the room nervously and Louis noticed. He placed a hand on my arm and rubbed it gently.

“It’s okay Ross. Liam is only going to tell Harry not to bring up you-know-what.” He smiled and I smiled back. I let out a shaky breath and nodded to myself. It was all going to be alright. They both walked into the room, Liam walked to my left and Harry walked to my right. He stood there staring at her for such a long time I started to get nervous. When I was about to say anything to break the silence he spoke up.

“She really looks like you.” I looked up at him and saw him staring at only her. He lifted his gaze and met mine and then looked up at Liam. “Both of you.” I smiled at him and then looked around the room. Everyone looked relieved that it was going well. Louis cleared his throat and looked at me with serious eyes.

“I have a very important question for you Ross.” Liam was about to speak but Louis put his hand up and stopped him. “Not you Payne.” He kept his eyes on me as he continued. “Who is the god-father?” I laughed at his words and just shook my head.

“Well we thought a lot about this.” He nodded and I looked at Zayn. “We thought that Zayn would be an excellent choice because he would bring another religion into the mix and he is just adorable with kids. He would spoil her to bits.” I turned to Niall who was holding Maddie tightly. “And then we thought that Niall would be great because he is a huge bear and just lovely and we need someone like that in her life when things get hard.” I looked at Liam and then at Harry and continued. “After that we remembered our little Harry. How he had been there for Liam after his break up and how awesome he is as a friend.” I emphasized the word ‘friend’ and smiled at Harry. When I looked back at Louis he looked really angry and he was tapping his foot on the floor. “And then we remembered there was this one person that acted like a little child all the time, made a perfect big brother and a loving boyfriend to one of my best friends.” I looked at Liam and he nodded. “We decided that even though that boy would never grow up he would be the perfect god-father to our little baby girl.” Louis pointed at himself and I nodded. He squealed and we all laughed at his reaction. I felt the little creature in my arms stir and when I looked down I saw her yawn. I smiled at the sight and everyone calmed down.

“And who is the god-mother?” Louis spoke with excitement and I looked up at him. I then looked at El and smiled at her.

“You know I love you El, but Maddie called dibs.” I shrugged and Louis mouth hung open.

“She can’t do that!” Louis yelled.

“Yeah I can.” Maddie smirked and Niall hugged her tighter. He kissed her cheek and I smiled at how sweet they were. “Have you guys decided the name yet?” I looked up at Liam and smirked. He returned it and looked over at Maddie.

“Yeah, we did that when you two were in London.” Everyone gaped at his words, not believing that we had decided but didn’t tell them. I shook my head and kissed my baby’s forehead.

“Well, what is it?” Zayn spoke with an eager voice. I smiled down at my girl and felt really happy.

“Well first of all we couldn’t decide which last name she should have so she got both, Hedlund Payne.” Liam told them.

“And when we thought about middle names we wanted to honour you all. So we came up with Minnieh Eliza. The H is silent in Minnieh so we didn’t forget about you Harry.” He smiled sweetly at me and I looked at Liam. I nodded for him to tell them the first name of our child. This was the big moment. The name we had decided was what this person was going to be called for the rest of her life. But it felt right and when Liam grabbed my hand I smiled.

“ Everyone, say hello to Antonia.” They all actually said ‘Hello Antonia’ and then waved at her. I started laughing and felt like the happiest girl alive.

Welcome to the world Antonia Minnieh Eliza Hedlund Payne.


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol