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My Judgement's Clouded

I'm in love with all of these little things

The day after we came home was a Monday, which meant school started again. The days were back to normal and everything just went along fine. I talked to Liam at least four times a week and sometimes more than that. People back in Sweden now knew who I was and who was the father of my unborn child, so to say my life was a bit crazy was an understatement. Sure everything was fine when I was at home or in class but in between that I never had a moment of peace. People, mostly girls, were always coming up to me asking me about One Direction and Liam. I was actually surprised when I noticed that most of the girls supported me and Liam in all of this. They were generally curious about our relationship and wished us good luck. But the ones that was determined that they were going to end up with the boys, or just hated any girl who went out with them, wasn’t very nice to me. I really hated being hated but that kind of came with being pregnant with one of the boys from One Direction.

I had managed the last one and a half month of school okay but when summer came I stayed inside every day and sent Maddie out to shop for food. Every time I walked outside I was either attacked by paparazzi or bullied by fans that thought they knew me. It was kind of hard dealing with tons of hate all the time. Some nice fans still came up to talk to me but most of them stayed away, actually respecting my personal space. Maddie helped me a lot through all of this but I still decided to stay behind these four walls as much as I could. The boys were going to get here in about two weeks and after that they were staying in a flat in Malmo. They had set it up so that they were renting one. It was pretty close to mine and Maddies so it wouldn’t be too difficult for them to get to us. I really missed all of them and Maddie did too. Liam and I talked a lot, he even began paying my phone bill because I called him after every doctors appointment. I tried to make him not to pay it, but he was very persistent.

As I said, they all were going to get here in two weeks and both Maddie and I were really excited. Of course I didn’t know if Harry was going to come too. I hadn’t talked to him since that last night where I yelled at him. I was still mad at him. Anyway, I and Maddie were now walking through the supermarket. She had forced me out into the world and I was currently mad at her for it.

“Oh stop being so damn immature!” Maddie punched my arm before leaning down to grab some milk.

“Ow, that hurt.” I pouted and stared at her with deadly eyes. “And I am not being immature, I just don’t like being hated every where I go…” I sighed and shook my head slightly as I pushed the cart in front of me. Maddie continued to grab stuff and looking at her little list that she made.

“I know that, but you can’t just sit around the house all the time. You’ll have plenty of that when the monster arrives.” I rolled my eyes at her nickname for my unborn child. Ever since we got home from London, and Maddie actually got to know Liam a little, she realized that we were both slightly crazy. And there by she figured that our child was going to be worse, ergo a monster.

“Do you have to call her that?” She laughed at my failed attempt to sound hurt, because she knew I actually liked that nickname.

“Yes I do.” We had just gotten to the register and Maddie was putting all of our groceries up on the counter. I realized we had been shopping for what seemed like ten people.

“Ehm, Maddie?” She didn’t turn to look at me, she just let out a ‘mhm’ and nodded in my direction. “Why are we buying food for an army?” She didn’t answer me at first, she actually finished putting all of the stuff on the counter and that took about five minutes. Then when she had paid and we were going to pack everything down into plastic bags she looked at me happily.

“I want to train to cook for plenty of people, for when the boys get here.” She smiled largely and I just shook my head. She seemed very thoughtful today and overly excited. She must have been feeling the day getting closer to their arrival. I shrugged and helped her pack. While we were packing the stuff into the car the one thing I didn’t want to happen, happened. A girl walked up to us and just stood there for a few seconds.

“Yes?” Maddie put her hands on her hips as she spoke to the staring girl.

“Is that Rosanna Hedlund?” She spoke with such venom in her voice I felt my back stiffen under her stare.

“Not that it is any of your business, but yes that is her.” Maddie sounded like she was going to punch the girl any second now. I still stood with my back against them and acted like I didn’t know she was there.

“Well then, can you tell your whore of a friend that she needs to stay away from the boys. Or bad things will happen to her.” The girl raised her voice as if to really make me hear. I cringed when she used the word whore and could easily imagine Maddie looking furious. Without a word Maddie turned her back to the girl and walked to the car.

“Get in.” She spoke to me and I happily obliged. I was grateful that she hadn’t punched the girl and also that she didn’t say anything. We both got into the car and she began driving us home. Once we were out on the main road she spoke her mind. “That is it. I am talking to Liam and you are getting a bodyguard.” I gasped at how blunt she was being and felt myself becoming angry.

“No you are not! I don’t want him to know about any of this.” Maddie sighed and shook her head.

“Liam told me he offered you a bodyguard but you said no.”

“So? I don’t need one.” I tried speaking with firm words but some how I failed completely. Maddie sighed very loudly and she sounded frustrated when she spoke again.

“Ross, that girl is not the first one to threaten you. Sure maybe not all of them mean it, but one day someone will and what will you do then?” I shook my head and looked out the window. I couldn’t believe how stupid she was being. I didn’t want a bloody bodyguard and she had to accept that. We drove in silence the rest of the way home and then carried all the bags in, in silence too. I began unpacking all the stuff while she went in to her bedroom to fix something. She and I didn’t fight that often, but when we did it usually lasted for a couple of hours. We never fought about anything mayor.
I was putting the soap in the cupboard underneath the sink when a felt a contraction in my stomach. I was beginning to have them about a week ago, only small ones that was preparing my body for labour. This however was a little bigger then the other ones and I felt my knees go weak. I leaned against the cupboard and was trying to breathe evenly. I felt another one come and called out Maddies name.

“Maddie!” I was beginning to hyperventilate when she answered me in an annoyed tone.

“What?!” I mentally rolled my eyes and felt the pain in my stomach loosen a little. Maddie was walking into the kitchen when she suddenly stopped. “What do you want? You can’t just call my name and the-.” She ran up to me and knelt by my side. “Are you okay?” She wasn’t mad at me anymore. Now she was just worried.

“Yeah I’m fine.” I nodded but stayed seated. “I got a contraction that really hurt. I think she’s co-” I didn’t get to finish as another one came and I let out a scream. I wanted to double over in pain but seeing as my big belly was in the way that was impossible. Suddenly I felt myself becoming wet between my legs and realized my water had just broke. “Maddie, she is coming NOW!” I screamed the last word as another contraction hit me. I held on to her hand as hard as I could when I heard the doorbell ring. I looked at her in confusion when she started standing up.

“I have to get that.” She looked at my hand that was still holding hers and I realized she wanted me to let go. She walked to the door and opened it. I couldn’t hear what they were saying. I sat there on the ground waiting for the next one to come and when it did I hit my head hard against the cupboard behind me.

“Maddie!” I screamed with a mixture of pain and horror in my mouth. In stead of Maddie shooting through the door, Liam ran into the room. As soon as he saw me he knelt beside me and started asking a hundred questions at a time. Feeling myself getting annoyed, both with him and the pain, I yelled at him. “SHUT THE FUCK UP!” He stared at me in shock as Maddie and the rest of the boys walked into the kitchen.

“We have to get her to the hospital, now.” Maddie pointed Niall towards me and he and Liam helped onto my feet. When I stood up I felt kind of icky, seeing as my pants were wet.

“I need to change pant first.” I said as I leaned against Liam. He nodded and helped me walk into my room. I unbuttoned my pants and took them of, as well as my panties. Thank the lords that I had on a tunic so I didn’t show anything. Liam was looking for pant for me and I grabbed a clean pair of panties to put on. When I realized I couldn’t lean forward without feeling like I was going to fall over Liam told me to sit down. He gently helped me with both the panties and the pants, without looking awkward about it. I thanked him and we walked out into the hallway where everyone was waiting for us. We all piled into the cars and went straight to the hospital. The boys were all acting crazy, screaming at people to help us and asking me about a hundred times if I needed anything. I tried to stay calm as we were shown into a room where they asked me to change into a robe. Maddie signed me in, because she knew most about me and Liam was helping me with the robe. Once I was on the bed it had gone about half an hour from when my water broke and the contractions were about five minutes apart. The nurse told me that there could be a long wait but you just never knew.

When the pain had gotten to the point that I was crying non-stop and I was cursing Liam for doing this to me, I really wanted to die. Liam had a constant pained look on his face and the other boys looked scared of me. If I wasn’t in such pain I actually would’ve laughed.

“Maddie…” I tried speaking as low as I could, thinking the pain might go away if I did so. Maddie heard me and walked over to me leaning down beside me. She smiled slightly and waited for me to continue. Feeling the pain increase I grabbed a hold of her shirt and pulled her so close our noses touched. She got a frightened look on her face and I spoke with sharp words. “Get that bloody nurse or I swear I will cut this baby out!” Liam stood up and tried to pry my hand of her, when he finally did Maddie ran out of the room with Niall following her.

“It’s going to be okay Ross.” Liam rubbed my arm in attempt to sooth me but I felt anger built up.

“Please don’t touch me.” I practically whined and he removed his hand. We all sat in there in silence as Maddie came back with a nurse. The nurse smiled at me.

“Shall we check how far dilated you are?” I just nodded as she lifted the sheet and check just that. When she looked up at me again she nodded and smiled even more. “It looks like you are fully dilated. It is finally time to push.” I sighed in relief and looked at Liam. He had a glassy expression in his eyes and looked utterly happy. He grabbed my hand and we looked at the nurse again, who was looking around the room. “Are all of these people staying in here? I think it is best if it is only you and maybe two more.” I looked at Liam and he nodded to me.

“I’m staying and so is Maddie.” The rest of the boys looked disappointed but were still glad they could leave. They didn’t want to see all the blood and hear me scream. They were pansies. And I would’ve told them if not for the fact that I was giving birth. The nurse, who now introduced herself as Elma, waited for the boys to leave before telling me to keep my legs up. I did as she told me, while grabbing on to both Liam and Maddie. I pushed and pushed and the delivery lasted for hours…


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol