When In Cancun

I lay on my bed thinking about all of the moments I shared with Niall today. I sat there smiling in my bliss until my insecure conscious began to ruin my mood. I was falling for Niall, falling for him very quickly. I have a tendency to let guys in easily, but this time it was different. There was a different feeling in me that I never felt before. Not even with my old boyfriend. I knew that this guy could really hurt me if I were to give him a chance. There was no way Niall could feel for me the same way I feel about him. I knew the guy for barely 2 days and I was already in falling so deep. Once I fall it’s so hard to get back up if it ever ends. I don’t think I could handle going through that with Niall. With him I knew it would be particularly difficult to get over a heartbreak. I already felt so attached to him and I barely knew him. I didn’t want him to think I was clingy. If he doesn’t already I knew he would start to think I was very soon. I felt like I was acting as if he was my boyfriend today. I really did not want him to be nervous that I was getting the wrong idea. A guy like him did not want or have time for a girlfriend like me. He’s one of the most wanted and famous guy’s in the world. Someone like me did not belong with him no matter how much I wish that wasn’t true. He probably just wanted some piece of ass while on his vacation.

I decided not to let myself worry about that right now. I should realize how lucky I was to have received any attention at all from a guy like him. Millions of girls would kill to be in my position so I had to be grateful. I decided to give Niall some space tonight. I’m going to let him dance with other girls tonight and not be all over him the way I was last night. This way he will see that I understand he doesn’t want anything more from me. I knew it was going to hurt to see him with anyone else but he needs to know I’m not clingy. I was about to get up to shower and start getting ready when I heard Jen and Tara walk in to the room. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. As I assumed, I know my best friend better than anyone else.

“Shotty shower first!” she shouted.
“No Shot!” I said slamming the door behind me and locking it. I laughed in triumph like a weirdo.
“Seriously, Em! You don’t even have to do anything to your hair, you know how long it takes for mine to dry!” She said whining and banging on the door.
“Yeah, and I also know how long it takes for you to take a shower!” I shouted back while turning the water on.
“Boo you whore!” She yelled in defeat, I laughed at her mean girls reference.
I stripped off my bathing suit and shorts and stepped under the water. I knew the shower was a dangerous place for me to be when I’m trying to avoid thinking about something. The negative thoughts about Niall were slowly creeping their way back in to my mind. I had to distract myself the best way I knew how. I started belting “Sparks Fly” by Taylor Swift as loud as I could. I couldn’t help comparing it to Niall.

“---My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something,
You find I'm even better than you imagined I would be.
I'm on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it's no good
And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would---“

Jen cut me off; she was banging on the door and screaming at me.
“Shut the fuck up Em! You got to shower first the least you could do is spare me my ear drums!”
“Sorry no can do babe! I have to warm up the vocals for tonight!” I yelled back laughing.
“Ughh..” I heard her grunt and walk away.
I started singing even louder just to annoy her. She really should know better by now than to tell me to stop singing. It just makes me want to keep going.

“Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green(BLUE) eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile---”

I finished showering, and walked out of the bathroom in my towel. Jenna was laying out her outfit for tonight on her bed.

“Finally!” She said running past me slapping my ass before going into the bathroom.
I shrieked and shot her a glare before going over to the closet. I had no idea what to wear. I didn’t want to look to desperate but I needed to look really hot. I wanted Niall to notice me and only me. Even if I was going to give him space I wanted him to come after me anyway. I was going to play hard to get tonight. I really needed help right now from an expert.

“Tara! I need you!” I shouted as if I was in grave danger. She came running in in her black lace bra and matching thong.
“Jeez, Tar you could have warned me!” I said looking away.
“I thought you were being murdered you bitch!” She said holding her heart. I laughed and gave her a sad look.
“I need help.” I said gesturing to my closet. She smiled excitedly.
“Do you promise to wear whatever I pick out?!”
“Fine as long as I don’t look naked! And I’m trying to play hard to get tonight with Niall so I want to look desirable, you know?” I explained.
“Yeah I totally get it.” She said looking kind of upset which was off for her.

“Everything okay?” I asked her.
“Yeah, its just I need to talk to someone about Liam.”
“I’m here,” I said waiting for her to tell me what was bothering her.
Something must have happened with them. I wonder if that was why he wasn’t Jet Skiing today. I thought that was weird since all the other guys were there. She gave me a nervous look and started looking through my closet while talking.

“Well, you know how we were hooking up last night?” She asked, I nodded for her to continue.
“It was all going really well, he’s a great kisser by the way. Anyway, when we all got back to the hotel I went to his room with him. I figured he wanted sex, I mean he’s rich and famous he could have any girl and he chose me so I figured it was only to get laid, you know? Obviously I was going to do it, Its Liam Payne for god sake!” She said and we both laughed.

“So we were in his room and I started taking his clothes off. I got his shirt off and went for his belt buckle but he stopped me. He said he didn’t want to have sex on our first night together. I thought it was the sweetest thing but I couldn’t help feeling a little embarrassed. I also got a little freaked out because he was so nice. So I pretended I thought he wouldn’t ever want to sleep with me, and that I was offended. I threw his shirt at him and ran out of the room.” She said quickly.

I was in shock. I mean Liam didn’t do anything wrong, I know that she knew that too. I wanted to be on her side but I needed to make her see that she had to be more trusting.

“You can’t be afraid of nice guys Tar” I told her in a motherly way, pulling her into a hug. She started to cry, I felt so bad. I have never seen her this way before. She always hides her feelings so she doesn’t get hurt.
“Nice guys are the ones who end up hurting you the most in the end.” She said sadly. That I could agree with from experience.
“Tara, trust me I know it sucks. If you go for the douche bags though, there’s a guaranteed heart break.” I sad matter of factly.
“At least I expect the pain that way, and I never let myself get attached.”
“You have to give the nice guys a try. You never know when the love of your life is going to come a long, and you don’t want to make the mistake of accidentally pushing him away.” I told her.
“Oh Emmy, I wish I could be a romantic like you” She said pulling me in for another hug.
I realized that I wasn’t even taking my own advice with Niall. I had to make sure I didn’t push him away. I just want to give him space for a night and see if he’s willing to chase me while I play hard to get.

“Here, the perfect outfit for your hot bod!” She said handing me the clothes.
“Come in our room when you’re ready so we can judge!” She said walking back to get changed.
I put the clothes on and walked into there room while brushing my hair. Tara was going through her closet, Andie was curling her hair, and Kalie was sitting on her bed in a towel going through her phone. They all turned to look at me when I walked in.

“What do you guys think?” I asked observing their faces.
“Niall’s going to jump your bones!” Tara said. I turned to Andie hoping for a more helpful answer.
“Do you think it’s trying too hard?” I gave her worried eyes, why was I freaking out this much over him?
“Your way to sexy to ever look like a try hard!” Andie said smiling widely. I was shocked by her answer that was so not like her! I threw my hairbrush at her without hitting her.
“Seriously Em, You look gorgeous,” she said. I rolled my eyes to hide my blush.
“What shoes?” Kalie asked.
“Ummm my brown wedges?” I half asked, running back to my room to get them. I put them on and walked in to show them. They all agreed.

I decided to wait to do my make up so it would be fresh. I let my hair dry naturally in its waves not feeling like touching it. I spent the mean time helping my friends get ready. I straightened Kalie’s hair and did Jens make up. Before we left Andie did my make up in the natural way that I like with subtle brown eye shadow.

When we walked to the lobby we saw a big crowd of people waiting for a cab. I recognized Steven and his friends from last night and I almost died. I did not want him to notice me. Sadly the one who was all over Jen called us over to ride with them. They were about to get in a taxi van and said there was room for us. None of us wanted to wait on the long line so we decided to go. I reluctantly agreed, this was bound to be awkward. I remember him slapping my ass last night while I was dancing on the bar right before Niall saved me. We all got in the van. I saw Steven in the back and made sure we did not make eye contact. I sat up front between Kalie and Jen. Jen was flirting with the guy who invited us in the cab. I could tell she liked him and I knew she would not be staying loyal to who ever this boy was she was kind of with at school. Not that I cared I’m just a little sensitive when it comes to cheating since it happened to me. She claimed it wasn’t cheating though and that they weren’t official.

“So do you think Harry will be there tonight?” Kalie asked, trying not to be so obvious about how much she wanted him to come.
“Well Niall said he was coming and I doubt he would come alone.” I assured her. She smiled widely.
“So you really like him huh?” I asked her.
“Well duh! It’s Harry Styles! But there’s just so much more to him than the famous guy he shows the world. We were talking today after jet skiing, getting to know each other a little.”
“I’m so happy for you Kal,” I hugged her.
“Well I have you to thank for bringing us together. If you never hit it off with Niall.” She said raising her eyebrows at his name. I sighed.
“What?” She asked confused.
“I don’t know, I just really like him. I think a little too much. You know how I get. I’m just afraid he’s going to think I’m to clingy and annoying.”
“You are not at all! You should see the way he looks at you. It’s as if he’s loved you for years. I swear he was drooling today.” She said laughing.
“Well I’m playing hard to get tonight. So if that’s true and he’s worth it he will have to win me over tonight.” I said smiling proudly.
“Trust me he will.” She promised. I hoped she was right.

We got out of the taxi and immediately there was an arm around my shoulder. I looked over to see Steven and I rolled my eyes.
“Hey hot stuff,” he whispered in my ear. His hand was coming dangerously close to my right breast.
“Hi.” Was all I said, coldly.
“Someone needs a drink,” he said in fake offense.
“Yeah I really do,” I removed myself from his grip and walked in to the club with my friends. Off to one side there were tables were people could sit eat and drink. In the middle there was a huge dance floor and a stage for Karaoke. On the opposite side of the tables was a V.I.P section with it’s own tables and couches. I knew that’s where Niall would be when he got here.

We sat at a large table and to my annoyance the guys sat with us. The tables were high up with barstool like chairs. We ordered 3 rounds of tequila shots for everyone. I ordered 3 pitchers of margaritas. Two were for the table, but one was for me and only me. I wanted to get drunk already so I could karaoke. I was so excited. I wasn’t too hungry so I just ordered some french fries. Plus, I didn’t want bad breath incase I would be kissing Niall. Which I hoped I would be.
The shots came and we all took them. I actually took them with the group this time. Everyone was toasting to random funny things.

When the margaritas came I took my straw and placed it in one of the pitchers. I started slurping as fast as I could without getting a brain freeze. Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy and laughing. I noticed Steven get up from his chair and walk over to his friend who was sitting next to me. He whispered something in his ear and the friend got up and walked to Stevens seat and sat down. Steven took over his friends seat. He was so annoying. I don’t know why he couldn’t take a hint. It’s not like he was a bad looking guy. He would have no trouble getting another girl, probably one a lot prettier than me. I silently prayed that some other girl would distract him from me later. This place was smaller than The City club from last night so it would be harder to ditch him. Luckily it was really crowded and it was only around 10:00.

“So, someone’s planning on having a fun night.” He said to me gesturing to my pitcher, which was now almost half way gone. I can drink really fast.
“I told you, I’m more fun when I’m drunk.” I said reminding him of what I said last night.
“Right, too bad I didn’t get to experience the fun you for most of the night. Although you looked like you were having a great time dancing on that bar. That is, until you were interrupted.” I knew he was talking about when Niall came and helped me down. I really did not feel like talking to this guy he was making me not like him more and more with each word.
“I wouldn’t call that an interruption, not one that I minded at least.” I said as harshly as I could and turned to away from him to join Andie and one of the guys in a conversation.

Our food came and I ate half of my fries. I started to really feel drunk as I finished my pitcher of margarita. I probably should have eaten more but I wasn’t feeling nauseous just really fun and ready to karaoke.

I stood up on my chair and announced to the table that it was time. I asked all my friends if they would sing with me. I knew Jen and Andie would never because I was way too embarrassing. When it was only Jen and I two years ago I had to sing by myself or find random people to sing with me. I looked at Tara and Kalie. Tara got up and stood on her chair too.
“I’m ready! But only if we do Britney!” She said excitedly. I started to jump up and down and almost fell. Steven had to help me so I wouldn’t.

“Careful there gorgeous,” he said. I could tell he was trying to be nice since he could tell I was pissed at him.
“Thanks,” I mumbled before running to Tara and grabbing her arm pulling her towards the song selection station. We picked our song but there was one person in front of us so we went to the bar to get another drink. We were flirting with the bartender who ended up giving us two free kamikaze shots and extra large glasses of cranberry vodkas.

Then we heard the announcer call out our names. We screamed with excitement, took our drinks and ran on the stage. I just hoped Niall was here by now to see this, since it was directed at him.

Niall’s P.O.V

We got to the club where I would find Emma. I was getting anxious. I had on navy khaki shorts and a white short sleeve polo. I got the tip from Harry who asked Kalie for me what Emma likes guys to wear. He quoted Kalie saying “Emma finds guys in polo’s irresistible.” Luckily I brought a few with me. It was so weird, I never cared so much about what a girl thought of my outfit. This girl was doing crazy things to me.

We were led over to the V.I.P section and sat down at a table. It was only Harry Liam and I. Zayne and Louis took their girlfriends on romantic dates for the evening. Thinking about that made me want to take Emma out on a date. I would have to ask her one of these nights without sounding too desperate. I didn’t want her to think I was getting the wrong idea. I knew that this was probably only a vacation fling for her. There’s no way she would want to stay with me after this. I know I would have to let her go, but I just couldn’t see myself doing so. I didn’t want to think of her ending up with another man one day. I wanted her for myself.
I didn’t want to think about that for now. We still had 8 days left together and I planned to make them count.

I ordered five rounds of shots for us. I just wanted to get drunk already. Tonight I was getting wasted. I haven’t allowed myself to get that drunk in front of Emma. Tonight she would see my party side, apparently it’s when I’m most fun.
The shots came and we were on our third one when an announcer began to speak in a microphone.
“And now Emma and Tara singing ‘Toxic’ by Britney Spears.”

I choked on my shot, and Liam spit half of his out. We both turned that second to see them running on stage with large drinks in their hand. My jaw literally dropped when I saw her. She looked amazing. I felt something twitch in my pants like always when I looked at her. She was so sexy tonight; I knew I would have trouble keeping my eyes off her breasts in that top. I did not want to be disrespectful but it was so hard to control them from wandering down.

They were laughing hysterical standing on stage waiting for the music to begin. I could tell Emma was really drunk already. I wanted to catch up so I took my next two shots without taking my eyes off of her. The music started and they began singing.

“Baby, can’t you see
I’m calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It’s dangerous
I’m fallin’ ---“

They actually sounded really good. Emma is not a bad singer at all. At least not when she actually tries instead of just goofing off like this morning. She sounded really hot tonight; it was so sexy watching her. They were dancing sexually on stage. Touching their bodies and their hair to the music.
Then she noticed me. She looked me in the eyes singing the next verse while running her hand from her hair to her thigh.

“---There’s no escape
I can’t wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You’re dangerous
I’m lovin’ it ---“

I have to say that was the sexiest thing a woman has ever done to me, and I have seen a lot. It took everything in me not to run to that stage wrap her legs around my waist, carry her into the bathroom and fuck her. I noticed she was avoiding looking at me for the remainder of the song. She gave me occasional glances but quickly looked away. If she was trying to drive me crazy it was working.

“---Too high
Can’t come down
Losing my head
Spinning ‘round and ‘round
Do you feel me now

With a taste of your lips
I’m on a ride
You're toxic I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I’m addicted to you
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
And I love what you do
Don’t you know that you’re toxic---“

Then all of a sudden Tara walked behind Emma and put her mic on the ground. She slowly began to caress Emma's Thighs, moving upward over her hips, stomach until she got to her breasts. Emma was singing the whole time making faces of pleasure. If I had to guess at least every straight guy in this room had a boner right now. The only thing I knew was I would be the next guy to give her that kind of pleasure for real.

“---It’s getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It’s taking over me

Too high
Can’t come down
It’s in the air
And it’s all around
Can you feel me now---“

Then Emma got on her hands and knees and flipped her hair. Tara walked over to her and put her foot on Emma’s back.
“I want to fuck your girlfriend.” I heard Harry say to me like he was in a trance.

“---With a taste of your lips
I’m on a ride
You're toxic I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I’m addicted to you
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
And I love what you do
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
Don't you know that you're toxic---“

She finally looked at me again making eye contact while singing the last few lines.

“---Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now”

I officially had a boner.
“Please go have sex with her before I do.” Harry said.

I just got up and started walking towards her, never taking my eyes off her. She was walking down the stage. A guy with light brown hair made it to her first. I recognized him from last night. He was the douche that was slapping her ass and glaring at me for taking her away. Well he was going to do a lot more than glaring now, she was mine and I was once again going to take her.

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