When In Cancun

Emma’s P.O.V


Tara answered the call and put it on speaker. The rest of us remained silent.
“Li?”

“Um- no- um, its Niall.” He said nervously. The sound of his voice panged at my heart, especially since it was so raspy and sad. I knew he had been crying. I wanted to just grab the phone and tell him I loved him and not to cry. But I couldn’t. He cheated on me. He doesn’t love me; the only thing he did was play me and make me out to be a fool.

Tara’s face instantly turned to anger.
“Fuck off dickwad! Your not talking to her, so stop calling. You can go find some dumb whore to blow your small penis! LEAVE EMMA ALONE BEFORE I CHOP YOUR BALLS OFF IF YOU EVEN HAVE-”

I cut her off but I couldn’t hold back a small smile, I love this girl. I grabbed the phone from her and gave them all a nod to let them know it’s okay. I got up from my bed and took the phone off speaker. I went to the other side of my room and sat on the couch.
I didn’t say anything for a few seconds, but I heard heavy breathing and sniffing from the other end.

“I’m such a dick,” he whisper cried to himself. No matter how much I didn’t want to I had to stay strong.

“Hi,” I croaked. I heard him take a sharp intake of breath.

“E-emma? Is it you?”
“Yep.”
“Oh my god, baby please listen to me, let me explain! I hate myself so much! I am so sorry. I know I don’t deserve to but please! It was a mistake, the worst mistake of my life. The lowest moment of my existence. I’m not this kind of guy Emma. I don’t cheat. Especially not on someone I love as much as you. I have known you for two weeks and you’re already my whole world. I can’t believe I fucked it up after one drunken night. I was just so upset after our fight. I thought you would never talk to me again. I was humiliated after I confessed my love for you and you didn’t return it right away. And then I hated myself for saying those cruel words to you. I drank a whole bottle of tequila Emma! I wasn’t myself! Please please please tell me you can forgive me because I don’t think I can deal if you can’t.”

I was once again crying listening to him beg for my forgiveness and explain his mistakes. I want nothing more to forgive him but I don’t think I can.

“What did you do with her?” I asked him with no emotion in my voice as I tried to hide that I was crying. I wouldn’t let him know that he did this to me.

“W-what?”

“Did you just kiss her or did you do more?”

“Emma please, it doesn’t matter either way I fucked up and I’m so sorry. I just need you.”

“Did you sleep with her or not Niall?!” I screamed, my sobbing voice breaking through.

There were a few seconds of silence, and that was all I needed for an answer.

“Y-yes.” He sighed, I had never heard someone sound so ashamed in my life.

“Well I hope you got her number too, because maybe she’d like to be your new ‘girlfriend’.”

“NO! Emma you can’t break up with me! I love you! So fucking much it’s ridiculous considering I only just met you. You’re everything to me, everything I need. The only thing I need. It was a mistake and if I could take it back I would, I would give anything to take it back. Please give me another chance, take time to think just please don’t end us before we really had a chance to begin.”

How was he so good with words. He was so close to breaking through to me but I had to remain strong.

“I’ve heard this all before Niall. Remember? My last boyfriend cheated on me too, I clearly remember opening up to you about it. This apology is just like a bad déjà vu to me. I guess I’m just never enough for guys, they have to go and get more from somewhere else. Now, if you will excuse me I’m quite tired and this conversation is exhausting me even more. Have a nice night Niall, and most importantly, have a nice life.” I hung up before I could here his response. I didn’t want to hear it, and I couldn’t bear to.

Once I put the phone down I cried harder than I had all night. This was it. We were officially over. I was no longer his. He was no longer mine. I would never see him again. I couldn't let myself see him, I would just want to run into his arms and taste his amazing lips.

I fell asleep in his sweat shirt, promising myself that it would be the last time. I could give it to Bella or something. She would go ape shit over it.

The next two days at home were pretty boring and uneventful. Brunch with grandfather wasn't as bad as expected. I could tell him and dad felt sorry for me and they were trying to be as nice as possible. That was surprising from grandfather. They basically just told me that they were disappointed in the press I had received, and that it was effecting Williams campaign. They were planning on asking me to lay low with Niall until the election, but now that wasn't something I had to worry about any longer. My dad wanted nothing more than to kick Niall's ass.

After that I basically spent the rest of the days eating my pain away. Yes, I'm one of those girls who eat their feelings. I am definitely not the type that starves themselves to feel the pain. I like to feel comforted by food, what else could you expect from a chef though? Luckily I have a fast metabolism, but I still had to make sure I went to the gym every day once I got back to school.

Finally after two days of chocolate ice cream, Andie's famous brownies, and a Nicholas Sparks marathon, it was time to go back to college. It was a relief because I would be distracted most of the time. That way there was less time to think about you know who. I also couldn't wait to see my friends there. My crazy friend Lily would definitely get me drunk every weekend and drag me to the bars with her. Mostly, my gay best friend Seth, who has the apartment right next to ours. I had a small crush on Seth in the beginning of freshman year, and was extremely disappointed when I found out he liked guys. It's a shame too because he is the perfect catch for my family, not that it makes a difference to me, but he is loaded and lives in the upper east of manhattan. His family even does business with grandfather. No one knows he's gay except Andie and I so my mother doesn't understand why I'm not dating him yet. He is absolutely gorgeous and an amazing pastry chef. He is only at this school for fun since he is basically taking over his fathers empire one day. I can't wait to see him because he already promised to bake for me.

Andie and I drove up to school together. I'm mostly happy that I would have her there with me to get through this. We got to our apartment building and carried our bags up. It was such a relief to be back. I went straight to my bedroom and looked out the window to see my beautiful view of the campus. It was right along the Hudson river and looked absolutely gorgeous. I decided to Instagram since it's been a while. I took a photo of my view and uploaded it with the caption 'So glad to be back at the C.I.A.! Won't ever get used to this view ! @AndieFuller' instagram.com/p/jMusnsiD6/
I walked back out to see Andie reading on the couch. I plopped down next to her and not two minutes later there was a loud knocking on our door.

"I saw your car! Open up bitches!" Andie and I smiled and raced to the door. I opened it and jumped into Seth's arms.

"Hey baby girl." He whispered kissing the top of my head.

"Missed you." I gave him a toothy grin as he put me down. He winked before hugging Andie as well.

"I'm taking you girls out tonight."

"No, I think I'm just going to relax, maybe watch-"

"Emma! You are coming out tonight. I won't watch you mope around another day over that jerk. Do you hear me?" Andie said sternly.

"I just- I don't think I'm ready." I sighed.

"Well I'm not taking no for an answer." Seth butted in. "Lily and I are coming over here at 9 to make sure your dressed, tipsy and ready to go by 10."

"Fine," I agreed, knowing that if Lily was involved there was no use in arguing.

"Good, see you later babes." He kissed my cheek before walking back over to his place.

Andie shut the door and looked at me weirdly.

"If he wasn't gay I would say that he want's your shit."

I giggled and smacked her arm.

It was nearing six O'clock so we decided to order pizza since our kitchen was pretty empty. After we ate I jumped into the shower and got ready. I picked out a cute simple outfit. I honestly didn't feel like trying hard, so I let my hair fall natural and barely put on any make up.

I was standing in just my bra and thong when there was a tapping on the door. I was putting one leg in my jeans when the door opened and Seth came in. He has seen me in my underwear before, I don't exactly care, he's gay, it's not like he's checking me out. He just always gets a little uncomfortable and I laugh at him, I guess he must really not like the sight of naked girls.

"Do I gross you out that much?" I chuckled as he froze awkwardly in the door way. He shook his head and laughed walking in and plopping on my bed.

"No, did your boobs get bigger though?" He joked. I whipped him with my shirt before putting it over on my head.

"Very funny asshole." I stuck my tongue out at him.

Lily came barging in with two drinks in her hands, I could tell she was almost drunk already. She squealed when she saw me and wrapped me in a hug without spilling.

"Missed you bitch, here." She said handing me a drink. I chugged the whole thing, and winced after realizing how strong it was.

"Yes! Thats the spirit! Niall who right?" I winced at his name.

"Come on Lils, dont bring that shit up tonight." Seth said annoyed.

"It's fine," I forced a smile. "She's right anyway, fuck him." I grabbed Lilly's drink and threw it back as well. Seth gave me a smirk and a wink.

Two hours later I was at the bar, and completely wasted. I took shot after shot with Cole, Seth's roommate. He's a good looking guy, just not really my type and he's kind of a man whore. He'd been trying to get with me since freshman year and I never gave in to him.

"Dance with me babe." Cole grabbed my hand and led me to the sea of people dancing. He pulled me against him and I could already feel his erection. I didn't like being close to another guy, no matter how drunk I was I would still want Niall and only him. That's why I can't buy into his 'I was drunk' excuse.

Too bad for me, I can't have Niall anymore. I needed to get over him. Plus I was over the top drunk, grinding with a hot guy. So it was time to get the cheater out of my head. I turned around and pulled Coles face to mine connecting our lips. They moved together roughly and desperately. He wasn't a bad kisser but there was no spark like I had with Niall. There was nothing special about it but it felt good to be wanted by someone. I lifted my right leg around his hip and he held on to my thigh and deepened the kiss. I was about to lock on to his hair when I felt myself being pulled away.

"What the fuck do you think your doing?" Seth shouted in Cole's face. "I told you to stay away from her! Especially tonight!"

"Relax dude, we were just having some fun." Cole slurred.

"Your lucky your my best friend or you would have been knocked out on the floor. Move the fuck along and stay away from Emma!" I had never seen Seth so angry. Why would he care if I hooked up with a guy? Maybe he likes Cole! Oh no! Now I feel like a bitch, that probably killed him to see him kissing someone. Cole shrugged and stumbled away. I could see him already coming on to some blonde, I rolled my eyes and looked at Seth. He seemed to be calming down. I put my hand on his bicep to relax him, and he flinched slightly.

"I'm sorry Em, It's just I told that fucker to stay away from you."

"Why? Do you like him or something?" I whispered so no one could hear. He looked bewildered and in shock that I would ask him that.

"What? No! Not at all, it's just I see how many women he goes through and I don't want you to be one of them." This angered me. Why does he care? He knows how upset I am at Niall, I've cried the last few days to him over the phone. He should be happy that I'm trying to move on.

"That's not your decision Seth! I need to get that cheating jerk out of my head, and for once I started feeling good since I found out! Why does it bother you so much what I do, I get your my best friend but your supposed to be pushing me to move on!"

He looked at me in a way that I had never seen from him. What was that in his eyes? Lust? Before I could do anything he grabbed the back of my head and crushed his mouth to mine. I immediately responded wrapping my arms around him. He slipped his tongue past my lips and explored my mouth. Wow he was a good kisser, though it didn't compare to Niall. I moaned as he bit my lip. We pulled apart and were breathing heavily. He stared down at me with the sexiest look.

"How's that for moving on?" He smirked.

"But your- your gay?"

He sighed and squeezed the back of his neck.
"I'm not gay Emma."

I looked at him baffled. What the fuck?

"What?"

"I'm not gay Em, never was. I- I love you."

I slapped him hard across the cheek and stormed out of the bar. Is he fucking kidding me! He lied to me for two fucking years, made me believe he was gay. He practically saw me naked! I was confused, in shock, and ready to break down. I just wanted Niall. I wanted him to hold me, I wanted to kiss him, no one else. But he hurt me. He doesn't care about me. If he did he never would have betrayed me. I doubt I would ever be able to find it in myself to trust him again, no matter how much I wanted to. I still hold a grudge against Jack, although I never felt for Jack the way I feel about Niall.

I texted Andie that I was leaving and took a cab back alone. I buried myself in my bed crying for so many reasons. Mostly for losing Niall. If I had only just said I love you back, this wouldn't have happened.

Then I had a really dumb idea. I ran to the kitchen and dialed the number with our land line. This way he wouldn't be familiar with the number, and wouldn't know it was me. I was so nervous I could throw up. God I wish I wasn't drunk right now. I'm so stupid to be doing this.

"Hello?" A sleepy irish accent answered. My heart stopped at the sound of his voice and I went mute. What was I planning on doing? Screaming at him? Hearing his voice made me realize how dumb that was you would only be making your self a bigger idiot. He doesn't care about you.
"Emma, is that you?" I still couldn't say anything. "I have caller i.d. no one else would call from Poughkeepsie, New York. What is it love? Please talk to me, I'm so sorry for hurting you baby. These have been the worst days of my life, I need you Emma. You don't understand how much. I fucked up, and I will spend the rest of my life proving to you how sorry I am If you give me the chance."

I don't know if it was because I was drunk but I finally had hope that I would forgive him. I just needed time.

"Niall?" I whispered.

"Yes baby, yes I'm here." He chuckled slightly and it almost sounded like he was crying.

"I think-" I started to say but was cut off.

"Niall! Who is that?" An annoying whiney girls voice called. I could tell she was right next to him. He was with another girl. He didn't give two shits about me, only his damn needs.

"This was a mistake." I blurted feeling the lump in my throat and the tears blurting in my eyes.

"No Emma wait!" Niall shouted and I hung up before I could hear more. I ran back to my room and cried myself to sleep. I was done with Niall Horan. For good.

Notes

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