When In Cancun

Niall’s P.O.V.

I woke up from the obnoxious loud snores coming from my left. I also could no longer ignore the pounding headache or the dehydration. I was on my side and I had my arm slung over someone’s body. I had never woken up more confused in my life. I reluctantly opened my eyes to see a naked girl lying next to me. I couldn’t see her face but she had long brown hair, similar to Emma’s. It wasn’t nearly as beautiful.

What was she doing in my bed? Naked. With my arm around her. Holy Fuck. No. No. No. Please God No! Then the events from last night hit me like a truck.

I finished the whole tequila bottle and drunkenly stumbled out of my room. I found Liam and Harry getting ready to go out. I made them take me along although Liam was reluctant.
We got to some random club, in the middle of the town. I headed straight for the bar. After downing two beers, I spotted her. In my drunken state it looked just like her. The long flowing brown hair, the petite body, it was Emma. I thought. Although I didn’t get a look at her face as she was dancing. I made my way over to her and the rest of the night is a blur.



In the midst of my moment of realization the bedroom door flung open and Louis pranced in. He noticed the girl in bed with me and his content face turned to horror.

“Please tell me Emma surprised you and came back last night.” He said angrily. I immediately pulled my arm away from her. I could feel more tears coming on, I have never cried so much in my life. Louis walked over to the girl and moved the hair from her face. She was average looking; I don’t know how I could have mistaken her for Emma. This girl had nothing on my princess. My princess, my fucking girlfriend, what would she do when she found out about this? I couldn’t let her find out. It would crush her.

“You’re a fucking ass mate!” Louis yelled at me, making the girl stir next to me. “Emma’s going to be so hurt, did you even think of her last night, or did you just send her off and move on to the next one?” Those words stung.

“She’s not going to find out about this Lou.” I warned sternly.

“Really, you don’t think that the papz got pictures of you guys? I give it two days tops before she dumps your ass. Is this not how her last relationship ended!?”

“Oh my god! I’m such a fucking idiot!” I yelled pulling my hair and jumping out of bed, ignoring the pounding in my head.

The girl rolled over and yawned. Mine and Louis’ heads snapped to her and she sat up in confusion, covering her naked body with the blankets. She had make up all over her face, and she smiled when she looked at me. I felt kind of sorry for hating her so much in that moment. It wasn’t her fault. I was the dick.

“Good morning Niall,” she said seductively and I winced.

“Uhh mornin.” I had no idea what her name was.

“What’s your name love?” Lou thankfully asked her reading my mind.

“Colleen.” She smiled, making googly eyes at him.

“Okay Colleen, do you stay at this resort?”

“No actually, but I would love to look around.” She said looking at me.

“Erm well- we um- sorry were actually checking out today, so we need to start packing up.” I hinted in. I really just wanted her to leave so I could punch myself and drown in my pity. Her face fell and I felt kind of bad.

“I’ll call you a cab.” Lou said leaving the room. I really wish he didn’t leave me alone with her.

I awkwardly smiled at the girl and went into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and punched as hard as I could. Luckily it didn’t crack but my knuckles would definitely be bruised. Tears poured out from my eyes as I tightly gripped the edges of the sink. How could I do this to Emma? How could I fuck it up even more than I already had? I quickly ran out of the bathroom and checked my phone.

I had eight missed calls. Three were from Liam, Two were from Harry and the last three were from Emma. She must have called me right after she landed and I was too drunk and selfish to answer. I should have been the one waiting for her flight to land so I could call her. I shouldn’t have gotten drunk. I should have been there for her. I noticed I had a voicemail so I played it.

“Hey it’s Emma. Right, you probably know that. Um- well, okay well- anyway, we need to talk. Please call me back. Thanks. Emma.”

I smiled slightly at the sound of her voice. She was so cute when she was nervous. I just wanted to talk to her, to apologize for what I said yesterday. I know she would forgive that, we would move past yesterdays fight. But this, I hardly think she could forgive. I hate myself so much. She opened up to me about how much her ex boyfriend hurt her. Then I go and do the same thing. I would never forgive myself, so how could I expect her to do any different. I was about to cry more when I looked up and noticed ‘Colleen’ in my shirt and im assuming her shorts from last night. She couldn’t compare to the way Emma looked in my clothes.

Luckily Louis came in before I had to say anything.

“Cabs here.” He smiled at her.

“Thanks,” She said looking at me awkwardly. I gave her a fake smile and waved. She waved back and walked out of the room while Lou glared at me. What did he want me to do? Kiss her goodbye? I don’t even remember kissing her last night, although I obviously did. He left the room with her and brought her down to the lobby. I owe him one.

I showered, scrubbing off all traces of last night and put on some clothes. I went through a few of my things getting ready to pack. I found the papers and sheet music that I had been working on the past few days. I started righting a song, influenced by Emma obviously. It wasn't done but I had most of the lyrics. We will probably use it for our new album. I sighed thinking about how happy I was when writing all of this. I put it into my folder and away in a bag. I was starving and would have to finish packing later. I nervously left my room to see Liam and Harry in the kitchen eating.

“Where’s the others?” I asked. They both looked up at me, they seemed pissed. I noticed Liam had a black eye. I wonder what happened.

“Zayn and Lou took El and Perrie to breakfast.” Harry told me. I nodded and sat down taking a bagel.

“So.. Um- What happened last night?” I asked nervously, I felt both of their eyes on me and I looked down at my plate avoiding their gazes.

“Hmm, what happened last night? Where shall I begin?” Liam said sarcastically. “How about where I found you gropping on some girl that WASN’T YOUR GIRLFRIEND, so me being the great friend I am tried pulling you away. Guess what I got in return?” He asked. I slowly lifted my head up and met his angry glare. “A fucking punch in the face that’s what I got.”

“Shit, I’m so sorry Li.” I shook my head and dug my palms into my face. “What happened after that?”

“I got pissed and let you make your own mistakes.” Liam said.

“You ended up bringing that girl here and from the sound of her screams she seemed to enjoy herself.” Harry smirked. Liam and I glared at him. “What? I’m just making light of the situation.” He defended himself.

“You didn’t tell Tara right?” I looked at Liam.

“Lucky for you no. I honestly don’t want Emma to find out, only because it would hurt her, not for your sake. But I hope you know that it’s inevitable. There were cameras everywhere last night.”

I groaned loudly and got up from my chair.
“I’m such a prick!” I screamed pulling my hair again. “I fucking hate myself!” I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to Liam. His face was softer than just before. He pulled me into a hug and I sobbed into his shoulder.

“Calm down mate, it’ll work out.” Wow he had a change of heart. If I were him I would have punched me in the face. I deserved it. “Go get packed. Were leaving for the airport in two hours.” He informed me. I nodded and went to my room locking the door. I needed to be alone.

I heard my phone ringing and sprinted to it on my dresser.
Emmas name flashed across my screen. My stomach dropped to the floor. I knew I needed to talk to her. What if she found out already? If she didn’t could I act like nothing happened. I nervously swiped the answer button and lifted it to my ear.

“H-hello?”

“Niall!” I smiled, she didn’t sound angry, only relieved.

“Hey Em.”

“Hey, um are you alright? Did you get my message?”

“I’m not really alright, but yes I got it and we do need to talk. I have to tell you something.” I couldn’t keep this from her; it was best if she heard it from me anyway. This way I could give her my side of the story.

“Okay, but can I go first?” She asked and I nodded although she couldn’t see me.

“Yeah sure,”

“Niall, I thought a lot about what happened yesterday. I was a bitch and-” I cut her off.

“No! I was a dick, I should have never said that I didn’t mean it you have to believe me. I do not think that way about you, you mean so much to me Emma. I love you.” I sighed not expecting her to say it back this time.

“I really wanted to say this in person but it can’t wait. I love you too Niall. So much that it freaked me out yesterday when you told me you felt the same. I should have said it back right away but I was in shock. I love you Niall.”

I was smiling like an idiot. She loved me?! I could not be happier, and then that moment was ruined when I realized what I had done. I fucked up big time. My heart sank, and I wanted to cry. I couldn’t tell her now. I had to at least enjoy this moment.

“I wish I could kiss you right now.” I whispered into the phone.

“Me too.” She sighed.

“I’ll be with you soon babe. And that is the first thing I am doing once I see your beautiful face again.” I could imagine her blushing right now, and I smiled at the thought.

“Looking forward to it.” She replied cheekily making me chuckle.

“I have to start packing right now, but I’ll call you before we take off and once we land.”

“Okay.”

“I love you so much Emma.”

“I love you too.”

I hung up and let out the sob I had been holding in.

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