Hayden's P.O.V.

I got home and I went up to my room. I closed the door and walked over to the bed. I plopped down on it and tried to relax my nerves.

*Knock* *Knock*

I lifted my head and looked at the door, "Come in." I put my face back down on the door and heard the door open. I heard footsteps come over to the bed and more weight sat down on the bed.

"Hayden?"

I looked up and saw Jamie sitting next to me. He had a worried look on his face and I didn't want that. "Yes, Jamie?" I tired to act like everything is fine, but I knew he could see right past it.

"Are you alright I've seen you come out of the room once."

"No, I'm not fine but thanks for asking." I sat up and saw Jay sitting there, too. She had tears forming in her eyes and I quickly Favre her hug. "Don't cry over this Jay. It's fine...I'm fine now that I'm with you guys."

I pulled away from her and wrapped both my arms around. I pulled them into my chest for a group hug. The door opened and Mom cane in carrying a tray of my favorite snacks. She walked over to the bed and put it on the nightstand, "Thank you."

The twins pulled away and smiled at me, "We love you, Hayden."

"I love guys, too." They hugged me again and this time Mom AND Dad joined in. I smiled mentally to myself for having such an amazing family.

"Come on, let's let Hayden have some alone time." Jay and Jamie got up and gave me kisses on the cheek. They walked out the room with Mom and Dad right behind. They closed the door and I looked at the tray of food.

They put my all favorites on it: Hershey candy, sour cream and onion chips, and twizzlers. I picked the twizzlers and started eating them. I picked my phone and headphones off the floor and put them in. I turned on my music and "Say Ok- by Vanessa Hudgens" began playing. I laid back on the bed and closed my eyes.

~Dream~

I'm walking down a the school hallway with a long white dress on. I heard noise and chanting coming from down the hallway. I picked up the dress and started running towards the noise. I turned the corner and saw Harry punching Niall in the head.

"Get up, bitch." Niall stood up and looked at him. Harry punched in the stomach causing him to fall down to the floor in pain. "GET UP!!"

He grabbed Niall by the hair and made him stand up. Niall looked at him and I could see a tear fall from his face. "Please, Harry stop."

"And why should I?"

"Because I apologize for the accident multiple times." That only made Harry knee him in the gut. Accident? What accident? I picked up the dress and walked over to them and listened.

"You're the reason she's dead Niall, I have nothing else to lose." I looked at Niall and he was crying. I looked at Harry and saw tears about to fall but he blinked them back.

Am I dead? I walked over to Harry and tried to touch his hand, but my hand went straight through it. What the fuck?...I'm dead. Harry picked up his bag and walked away. I looked at Niall and he just sat there on the floor.

"Niall.." I walked over to him and sat down next to him. I put my head on his shoulder and looked at him, "...I'm here." I felt him tense up and I knew he felt my presence.

I looked at him and a tear rolled down his cheek. I picked up my hand and touched his face. He closed his eyes and more tears flowed down his face.

"Go check on Harry, Hayden." I was a little taken back by what he just said considering Harry just beat the fuck out of him. I got up and picked my dress up. I looked at him one last time before I walked away.

I looked up and down hallways trying to find Harry when I spotted him getting to his car. I ran over to the car quickly and got in. He started the car and drove off.

*Skip Car Ride*

He pulled into a graveyard and parked. He got out and started walking to one of the graves. I got out of the car and followed him over to where ever He was going. He stopped in front of tombstone and bent down.

"I miss you, so much right now." What?! I walked around and saw he was talking to my grave. "I never got a chance to tell you this, but if I had to my whole life over I would want you there." A tear fell from my eye as I read the tombstone:

Hayden Florina Mitchell

A beloved sister and friend

June 14,1995-January 27, 2014

Another tear rolled down my cheek as I looked at Harry. He began crying and I walked over to him. I put my hand on his shoulder and he stopped crying. "Hayden?" He looked up and wiped his face.

"You're amazing Harry and don't you forget that." He closed his eyes and put his hand on top of mine. I smiled at him and rubbed it a little bit. He pulled away and slowly got up. He turned around, but since he couldn't see me he didn't look directly at me.

"I will always remember you, Hayden...forever and always." I rose up to my feet and kissed him softly on the lips. He closed his eyes and another tear fell. I pulled away and looked at him.

"I will always be here when you need me, Harry....forever and always." I picked up the dress and took a few steps away from him. He opened his eyes and looked at the surroundings. He brought his finger to his lip and touched it gently.

I cried to myself as I walked away leaving him standing there crying next to my grave.

~End of Dream~

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I woke up to a big fucking thunderstorms and heavy rain hitting the window. I got up and walked over to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw a piece of twizzlers sticking to my face. I took it off my face and looked at myself.

You look horrible, Hayden. You're not worth shit,.. you're a fucking disgrace. Harry was right to cheat on your ass. A tear rolled down my cheek as I slowly sat down on the floor. I am worthless and a disgrace...I AM!!

I took out the first aid kit from the cabinet and took out the pocket knife. I held out my arm and looked at it. I took the knife and began carving the word 'DISGRACE' across it. Blood ran down my arm and dripped the floor.

I looked at my arm and more tears started falling. I got up and cleaned the blood off the floor. I turned the sink on and put my arm underneath cleaning off the blood. I walked back out to the room and went into the closet. I changed into this and walked back into the room.

I grabbed my bag and keys off the nightstand and rushed out of the room. I ran downstairs into the kitchen and saw Dad, "Hey Dad, can I drive the car to school today?"

"Sure." He tossed me the keys and I walked out the front door. I put my hood up and ran through the rain to the car. I unlocked the door and got in shaking my hoodie off. I started the car and pulled out of the driveway. I pulled off and headed to school.

*Skip Car Ride*

I got to school and parked the car. I got out of the car and flung my bag over my shoulder. I began walking inside when I saw Harry getting out of his car. He looked at me but I looked away and quickly walked inside.

I walked to my locker and opened it taking out my biology book. I saw Niall standing near the water fountain talking when he looked at me. I quickly closed the locker and walked away.

I walked into the class and rushed over to my seat. I sat down and waited for the class to begin. The girls walked in and waved at me with small smiles on their faces. I waved didn't wave back but then Niall walked in looking so fucking sad.

The bell rang and he quickly walked over to our table. He sat down and put his bag on the floor. The teacher came in and set her things on her desk. "Good morning class, today we will be solving some questions relating to the human body."

I felt Niall looking but I ignored it. "Hayden?" He tapped my shoulder and I looked at him.

"What?"

"You're bleeding." I looked down at my arm and saw blood seeping through the hoodie. "I'm fine."

"You should tell the teacher."

I snapped my head in his direction and looked at him, "I'm fine." I looked back at the board and the teacher was writing vocabulary words on the board. She turned around and looked at us, "Who would like to go first?...Ah, Ms. Hastings, can you go first today?"

"Sure." Spence got up and walked over to the board. She started doing the first words when I started felling dizzy. Ash threw a piece of paper at me and I looked at her angrily.

"What?!"

"Why are you so white?" I looked at my hands and they were pale as shit. I ignored her and turned my attention back to the front of the class. Spence finished her words and the teacher looked at me.

"Ms. Mitchell, can you do the next two?"

"S-sure." I got up and slowly made my way over to the board. I picked the marker to start writing but the world felt like it was spinning. I put it down and looked at Spence. That was the last thing I remember before I fell backwards onto the floor and everything went black.

Niall's P.O.V.

I ran over to Hayden while the whole class got up to see if she's alright. "Hayden?" I began shaking her but she wasn't responding. I saw the blood on her sleeve and I slowly lifted it up. The word 'DISGRACE' wad carved in and I didn't know why or how it got there.

"Spence, come over here." She came over and I showed her Hayden's arm. She looked at me and I rolled it back down. I got up and looked at the teacher, "Can we take her to the nurse?"

She nodded her head and I bent down. I carefully picked her up, with Spencer's help, and carried her bridal style. I walked out of the classroom and immediately headed for the nurse's office.

Notes

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Evelyn<3