Does he know?

His words hit my heart like never before. He still wanted me, he missed me. Just like I wanted and missed him. The feelings were returned. I smiled inside, my heart skipped a beat but I couldn’t make myself kiss him back. He held me tight and kissed my cheek. I could feel his breath getting slower and slower as he touched me. He was drunk and I knew if I did something sexual it would just be a drunken mistake.

”Zayn please stop, I can’t do this” I whispered as I pushed him from me. I wanted him so badly but I couldn’t do it to Harry. He was in the back of my mind all the time but there still was something that attracted me to Zayn.

”Are you sure you don’t want me? For real? I thought you loved me?”

”Zayn I do love you but –”

”STOP”

He cut me off.

”You love Harry more than you love me even though I can treat you better.Fine if that’s want you want then be with him. But don’t come tomorrow and say this was a mistake and that you never loved me. I can sense when someone loves me. The way you kiss me back, the way you touch me. It’s real and you know it deep inside. I’ve shown you so many times that I want you badly, that I love you with all of my heart. I even backstabbed Harry. I have NEVER backstabbed anyone before" he confessed as he looked with this stubborn look at me.

He threw the water bottles on the floor and smacked the door behind himself as he walked out of the room.

Holy shit what was that all about?


He was drunk and angry which is the worst mix ever. My feet started walking by themselves as I followed him walking down the hallway.

”Zayn wait!” I yelled but he kept walking faster and faster, I speeded up, almost running after him.

”I SAID STOP ZAYN” I yelled as I became short of breath.

”Leave me the fuck alone Annabelle” he said coldly as he walked down the stairs.

”Zayn I need to talk with you please stop” I begged him. I had catched him but he still was purposive to not talk with me

I grabbed his shirt as I pulled him to me.

”I said stop”

He looked oddly at me ” What do you want. You said you don’t want me then why are you running after me?”

”Because.. I don’t want to lose my best friend. I fucking need you Zayn can’t you see that?”

”I need you too but you don’t return my love then don’t think I’m once again able to ignore my feelings for you. I can’t pretend to be fine with you decision”. He looked at me with his cute puppy eyes, and as always, I lost myself in them.

”I really love you, I do and I enjoy every single minute with you but I don’t want to be a fucked up girlfriend anymore. Harry doesn’t deserve this”

”But I deserved that you guys lied to me and sneaked behind me back?”

”No you didn’t and i’m sorry for that.. I just don’t know what to do”

”Make up your mind I don’t want to be your puppy. You’ve cheated on Harry I think it’s a really good proof of that you don’t love him with all of your heart” he said as he walked away from me. Zayn had never talked to me like that before. He was so serious, so mad and angry. All at once..
I walked into our room as I saw him sleeping heavily. Gosh, what a night.


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I woke up with the worst headache ever. I looked confusingly around in our room. The two water bottles were on the floor and both my and Zayns clothes were a mess on the floor. What the fuck happened?

“Zayn.. Zayn” I shook him until he opened his eyes. “What?” he mumbled.

“What happened last night?” I sat next to him in the bed while he still laid with his eyes closed.

“I don’t know “

“You can’t remember anything?”

“Hmmm”

“What?”

“I had a couple of shots with Niall and Lou. Then we fought. That’s what I remember”

I starred on the floor for awhile as I tried to rewind what happened yesterday. I remembered everything from Louis’ party and that I was at college with Zayn but no further details.

“Zayn do you wanna grab some food?”I asked out of nowhere.

“Why are you talking to me anyways when we fought last night?” he asked

“ I don’t remember us two fighting. What happened?”

“Oh you really don’t remember? Well that shows how much you love me” he said ironically.

“Zayn please stop, I feel like shit and if you’re going to be mad without telling me why, I’m not gonna talk to you. I don’t wanna have my weekend ruined “

“You wanna know why we fought?” he asked as he changed clothes.

“Because I confessed that I love you more than anything else, because I told you how I’ve felt the last couple of months but all you do is ignoring that because you can’t make up your mind wether you want me or Harry’ he said as he threw his tanktop and the floor and walked angrily into the bathroom.

“You don’t have to be so fucking mad, I was drunk you gotta understand that Zayn god damn it!” I said and walked out the room. I was not in the mood for coping his frustrations.
I checked Twitter as I walked into someone. “ OH I’m so sorry” I said and I looked up. This high curly haired boy also known as my boyfriend stood with candle lights in his eyes as he spread his arms. I imideately jumped into his arms. " You're back love" I exclaimed.

“Godmorning love” he said and plented a kiss on my forehead. God damn how could he have such soft lips?!

“How are you?” he asked as he squeezed me tighly.

“ I have the worst headache what about you how come you’re aready back?”

“I wanted to make sure you were fine you left sick so I came to check on you and spent time with you”

Oh god I loved him even more know. I didn’t feel bad about dumping Zayn know that I had a proof of how wonderful boyfriend I have.

“You’re such a sweetheart Harry! I’m fine, just hungry as hell” My mood had completely changed now that my love was back to make me feel good again. We agreed to get some food at a café.

..And by the way.. We’re going clubbing tonight, are you in?”

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