Does he know?

Zayn kissed my neck then he traced my jawline with his lips. He moved up slowly and kissed my lips. I bit his bottom lip, and he seemed to enjoy it. He ran his hands through my blonde hair and put a loose hair behind my ear. I eagerly pulled his shirt off as he lifted his hands above his head.
"I’m starting to enjoy this" he said teasingly.

I put my finger over his mouth to make sure no one would hear us. I really don't know why but I enjoyed the whole situation. My body was filled with mixed feelings. A mix of pleasure and guiltyness spread all over my body.

However Zayn kept kissing lower and lower and then he undid his belt and slid his pants down. He began to rub me through my panties. "Z..Zaaayn" I moaned.

"You like that don't you?" He teased as he rubbed faster. He was about to unclip my bra but I stopped him.

"Wait.." I said now looking in his dark eyes.

"What’s wrong babe" he asked softly

"We shouldn't be doing this Zayn this is wrong"

"Wrong is sometimes right. If you and Harry could have a secret why can't you and I have a secret then?"

Before I could take in what he had said, he once again rubbed my clit. He took off my panties. His touches made me so weak I couldn't resist him anymore.

"I don't want to rush it but do you mind..?" he looked with a puppy face at me. I nodded and he started trusting me. Harder and harder each time.

"ZAYN" I moarned. I couldn't help myself. He was so amazing. A true badboy.
"Shhh" he placed his hand over my mouth.

I held in a moan and bit my lip instead, trying my best to make the least noise possible. started playing with the tip, teasing him.

He didn’t even bother starting off with a slow start, instead he began thrusting hard and fast. He pinned my hands above my head; his chest almost touching mine. He kept his eyes on me, making sure to see my reaction at each of his thrusts. I moaned as he thrusted even harder this time. He lowered his face so his nose was now touching mine; both of us were panting. He touched his lips to mine. We kissed for about a minute as he still thrusted. I moaned in the middle of the kiss, which he seemed to love. His thrusts became sloppier and slower and soon, we had both came. He layed down beside me, exhausted. He giggled as he looked at me with his big dark adorable eyes.

What the hell did I just do?

The weird thing was that it didn't even feel awkward laying with him. I know I sound like an idiot but it was wonderful being with him and feeling his love.. I shouldn't be admitting this but Zayn was amazing. It was like my mind cut off from the moment he kissed me. I truly got lost in the situation.

I kept thinking of it while we laid in his bed side to side. I turned to my side and looked at my bed. For few hours ago everything was okay. Now the things were even worse.

How come I was acting like this?

This isn't how I am. I've never cheat on anyone and I should definately not cheat on my boyfriend with my bestfriend.

I didn't have feelings for Zayn, how come I got lost when he kissed me?


Bradford badboy was the only thing I could think of. I turned to Zayns side, he looked like he admired me. His smile caused me to smile even bigger. He caress my cheek with his finger.

"I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did" he whispered.

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