Not for me

Harry drove me to the corner of my street where he waited this morning. I looked at him with disappointed eyes. He smiled and drove right up the street to my house. I took his hand in mine when he turned off the engine. "This is t going to be the last I see of you is it?" I asked him tears filling up my vision, I blinked and tears fell. Harry put his hand on my cheek and whipped my tears away. I looked up at him but he wasn't crying. " of course it won't be. On Friday ill pick you up and well travel to Holmes Chapel, were seeing my mum remember?" he gave me a weak smile. I nodded and reached over to him and gave him the biggest hug. I began to sob. "why are you crying beautiful" I began to cry even more. I put his forehead on mine and looked into his eyes. "Because I don't want you to go, I know we've known eachother less than a week. But it honestly feels like forever. And when im with you I feel diffrent, in a good way definitely. But I love the feeling and if you go so will my feelings. Harry I think im in love with you." he just stared at me. He pulled back and got out of the car. I was heartbroken, he didn't feel the same. He walked around to my side and opened the door. I hopped out and just stood there. We stood there in silence, no kissing, no hugging, nothing. My heart was crying and so was the sky. Raindrops began to fall heavy, disguising my tears. He walked up to me, centimetres apart. He brought his hand to my face and planted a kiss on my lips. He then took as step back and got back in the car, and drove off without a word. What! What was that? I just stood there in the rain, processing everything. I eventually fell to my knees in pain, hurt coming from my heart. I began to scream for him but he never came back. "HARRY HARRY!" I screamed, I was brought to my knees by my mother. Why was she helping me, why has he just gone.? I feel empty. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Harrys p.o.v. I just drove and drove trying to think things through. I drove to a cliff top that was over seeing the part of town where Ali lives. I thought I could hear her scream my name. It was just paranoia. I didn't know why to say. Do I love her or do I just love her company. As I thought about her tears escaped my eyes. I violently whipped them away. And got back into my car, I drove home as it wasnt that busy on the road as it was a sunday evening, i knew id come back in the morning but that wasnt the point right now id do anything to get Ali back. As so as i got in, I walked down the bargin booze and brought numerous liters of alchohol. Could she ruin my fame or by takig her out have I ruined her life. OMG MY HEAD IS SO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW. After I drank at least a bottle of vodka all to myself, I decided to text her. Ali: Hey erm, im really sorry for leaving you in that way. Have a nice week at school see you Friday. X after about an hour I sent the same message again. She was ignorning me. HARRY OBCOURSE SHES IGNORING YOU, YPU BROKE HER HEART. YOU TWAT. I thought to myself. What have I done? I was so lucky to have Ali know I've thrown it all away. Fuck you styleeeeesssssssss. Then everything went black.