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“I can’t give blood Princess!” He said and I looked down
“Oh, I forgot it, you have a lot of tattoos!” I said and bit my lip.
I was starting to become desperate. I mean, it’s my little sister we were talking here and if she’s ill I will find a way of giving her what she needs. I don’t care what I have to do, I just want to find someone who can donate blood. People are so selfish that it will probably be difficult to find someone who does it for free, but I’ll pay, I’ll grab my savings and give them, I just want her to get better.
Niall’s thumb covered my chin and with a little bit of strength, he made me look up. My glaze met those beautiful blue eyes and all my body went numb with the feeling he was passing me: strength, courage, faith, hope, but most of all, love. I swallowed and I wrapped my arms around his neck, resting my cheek in his scapula and let the silent tears falling as my back were against the wall. I was slowly lifted from the ground and a hand wrapped under my knees as another one was on my back. I let a sob escape and buried my nose on Niall’s neck. He started to walk and suddenly turn to push the door with his back. Once the door closed I started to cry even more. Desperate, that’s the word that describes me.
“Shh!” Niall said, sitting down with me on his lap “Shhh! Everything is gonna be alright! We’ll find a way!” I let myself cry against his shoulder.
My dad was sat in the chair next to ours and I felt him grabbing my hand and put it on his leg, making circular movements so I would calm down. Niall rested his chin in my head and his long fingers started to trail up and down in my back to calm me down.
“W-Where’s Ade?” I sobbed, worried about my little sister
“Your mother went to pick her up!” Dad said with a sad look in his eyes.
With a loud sob, I went back to sobbing. I let go of his hand and wrapped them both in Niall’s neck, sobbing really loudly. He kissed the top of my head.
“Shh! Calm down Johanna!” He whispered “She’s going to be fine! I promise!”
“How do you know?!” I said, pulling back from him to look in his eyes “How do you know?!” I asked, looking with my gray eyes in the blue ones in front of me, the ones who lost the sparkle. I was angry. Not at Niall, but at God! “Why did this had to happen to her? Why couldn’t this have happened to me?!” I asked. I noticed all the blood in Niall’s face was drained and he swallowed “She doesn’t deserve this!” I got up “She deserves to live! She’s so young!” I cried “Why?!” I looked at the ceiling “WHY?!” I let out in a loud squeal, attracting some glares I didn’t mind.
Niall got up and hugged me by the back. I tried to get lose but he wouldn’t let me, and he was stronger than me. He made impossible for me to even move and his arms wrapped over my arms and he smashed me against the wall, turning me around.
“Niall, take her home please!” Dad said.
I looked at him over Niall’s shoulder. I didn’t recognize the man I saw. The blue eyes didn’t have any type of sparkle at all, the hairs were pointing to all directions and he had a tired look in his face. I can understand what he’s going through! Damn it, I can understand it better than he does! I am the one who saw her crawling for the first time, the one who changed her diapers countless times, the one who helped her with everything she needed even if I had to put myself in second. I am the one who’s grieving more, I’m the one who she can call a mother, not the woman who gave birth to her! I’m the one who was always been there for her, not our mom, I was!
When he said those words, I panicked, I wanted to stay here, I wanted to follow the procedures and be there for her, like I have been for all my life. I want to be there, in her bedside as she wakes up and smiles or giggles the least bit. I didn’t want to go home where it’s lonely, and big and cold. I just wanted my little sister!
“No, dad! NO, no, no!” I desperately said “I want to stay!” I squealed again and
“It’s for your best!” Dad said
“No it’s not!” I yelled “She’s here and I want to be here too!”
“Johanna…” Niall started
“It is Johanna! You need to rest, this is starting to get to you and we don’t need any type of stress around her!”
In that moment I hated my dad!
I hated him!
He was telling me I was bringing stress near Jess? I just wanted to help her, I wanted to be here! I let out a frustrated yell and tried to get lose from Niall as I angrily looked in his eyes. How dare he tell me this?! How dare he when I’m the one who never stresses in this type of situations. Ok that I never was in a situation similar to this one, but I never stressed. Could I be doing it this time?!
“How … How dare you?” I asked “I have ALWAYS been there for her…” My voice cracked “…not you!”
“Niall, now!” My dad said
“No, Niall no!” I yelled as the tears started to fall down my cheeks again
“I’m sorry princess!”
Niall tried to hold me bridal style but I shrugged my off of me. He tried to hold my hand and pull me but I closed my hands into fists and he tried to slowly push me out, but I grabbed a side of a chair that was nailed to the ground. He sighed and kneeled in front of me. I crossed my hands in front of my chest, taking that as a sign of defeat and tiredness.
It wasn’t. Niall grabbed my legs and put me on his shoulder and I squealed once more. I felt his hands in my calf as he walked. I started to punch his back as hard as I could. People were starring at us, some of them laughed, some of them were concerned but most of them were so engulfed in their on grief that they ignored.
“Niall let me go!” I said, applying another punch in his back, if I could call that punch. I was just flouncing to find a way to set myself free. He groaned
“It’s not worth it Johanna! You can try to hurt me, but I’m not letting you go!” He said
“Please!” I said low pitch and Niall stopped in the middle of the hallway that led to the exit of the hospital, the same place I used to walk in.
He took me from his shoulder and looked at me in the eyes. Mine should be surrounded by a red aura and swollen too. My iris should be gray almost black and my skin tone should be as pale as snow. His lips were pressed in a thin line and his eyes had no sparkle at all. He sighed
“Princess!” He said, hugging me “ I know it must be difficult to hear this, but you are stressing, and you’re making things harder on your family!”
“But I want to stay!” I squealed, crossing my arms in front of my chest as the tears fell, turning my head to the right
“Johanna!” He sighed, letting his forehead rest in my cheek “You’re acting like a spoiled little girl right now!” He said and I widened my eyes “Don’t take it personally, you have the right to do it in some point of your life and being stressed caused this in you! I’m not judging, but you need to go! We need t go! Let your family handle this!” He looked into my eyes
“But, I’m always there for her!” I said as I turned to look at him
“And you always were too young to even consider that you have to always be there for her! Johanna, you’re not her mom, or Marias’ or Adriana’s. You’re an eighteen year old who put up with a lot of stuff, you need to stop stressing!”
“But I never stress!”I desperately whispered, looking into his eyes. Niall’s immediately softened
“You get to be stressed in a time like this!” He smiled weakly
“Why?” I asked as he held my hand and we started to walk out
“Because when you’re at risk of losing someone you love, your emotions get all mixed and the only thing you can do is stress!” Niall said, as if he knew what he was talking about.
“Have you ever felt that?” I asked as he pushed the hospital door open
“Once!” He shrugged and kept walking with me till his car.
“Do you want me to drive?” I asked and he nodded
“I almost finished a bottle of scotch so it’s better if you drive!” He said and I nodded.
I opened the door for him to get in and he did. I closed it and walked around the car, my hands hidden in my pockets as I did so. I saw different flashes that looked like lightning’s but ignored them. I opened the door and hoped in.
Niall occupied more space than I did when it came to the drivers place. I had to adjust the seat and once I was comfy, I put the seat belt on. I looked to Niall to see him smiling at me. I smiled back weekly.
“What?” I asked
“I like you!” He smiled and I let myself giggle “I like you when your using my stuff, I like you when you’re driving my car, I like you when you’re in my house, I like you when you’re in my bed, I like you when you sleep against my chest! I just simply love you in every second of my day! I can’t stop thinking about you!” He smiled and I let myself smile too, for a second, I forgot that I was troubled with my sisters illness.
Niall leaned in and kissed my lips slowly and passionately as I felt my heart racing and my legs trembling. I really do love him, so much it’s dangerous to society. I think he’s driving me crazy, and that’s not good. If I’m not crazy than I’m obsessed and that’s not good neither. He pulled back and kissed my nose before he let himself rest against the car seat.
“We’ll talk when we get home okay?” I asked and he nodded
I knew I needed to talk to him about Megan and how I didn’t enjoy the fact that he kissed her. And I didn’t enjoyed the fact that he practically cheated on me with her. I mean, he asked me out, he probably had kissed me already. I had no idea what he had done with me, I didn’t even know if we were dating back then.
I sighed and started to drive to his place. I don’t think I would be able of going to my house and be safe there. I imagine that my head will bring the memories to me and I will start crying. I just want to be safe in Niall’s arms. I sighed and turned on the radio. Clarity by Zedd was on and I smiled to myself.
II sang the beginning of the song, trying to keep my head off of what was happening in the hospital. Niall was humming along with me and it distracted me till we got to his place. When we stopped, I sighed. It was late and I had no intention of sleeping, plus, I had no traces of being tired, not the smallest one. I sighed and got out of the car. Niall got out too and closed his door before I locked the Range Rover.
I frowned. Normally guys don’t like having girls driving their cars. Why doesn’t he mind? I asked and walked towards him. He had one hand out, waiting for me. I gave mine to him and he started to walk away, dragging me behind him. He grabbed his keys from his pocket and opened the door.
Once the door was opened I heard voices coming from the living room and frowned. Niall smiled at me.
“It must be Greg! I let the restaurant running and I didn’t have the chance to tell them why!” He scratched the back of his head and I shrugged, smiling weakly “Let’s go!” He pulled me again.
I was blaming all this rush in the alcohol, but I don’t know… he seems perturbed somehow. I walked behind him as he pulled me to the living room. Greg was there indeed, along with all the other people that were in the restaurant.
“Hi!” Niall said and I cringed so much behind him I think people didn’t saw me.
I was embarrassed by my previous behavior. I liked Brook and Allison, Ted and Jordan! Basically, I liked everyone except Megan!
“Niall, honey!” I heard the voice, I swear, I have no time for this girl
Megan got up and was walking towards Niall seductively. You know that look in people’s faces when they are trying to appeal to the male brain to think about not so pure stuff? Well, that look was printed on her face. I snorted and before she could reach Niall, I pulled his hand back.
“Look here Megan!” I said angrily “He has a girlfriend, that girlfriend is me, not you! You better keep it for yourself or I swear I’m going to flip!” I told her
“How can you be his girlfriend when you told him you don’t love him?” She asked! Okay, this girl is a bitch. Sorry, I’m not sorry
“You have nothing to do with this, but I actually do love him. But some people just don’t understand that relationships are exclusive!” I spat.
“You ran away from him!” She narrowed her eyes to me. I can tell she doesn’t like people talking back to her
“I ran away from you!” I said
“You caused a scene!” She angrily said
“You started it!” I shrugged “I don’t really have time for this Megan, just leave my boyfriend alone!” I said and she rolled her eyes
“I’ll leave him alone if I feel like it!” She said and I snorted again, closing my eyes. Keep calm Johanna, keep calm and don’t stress! Mission failed
“Why can’t you…?!” I was cut off by Niall pulling me to him
“Megan, I’m serious, leave me alone!” Niall said “I love her, why can’t you understand that?”
“You don’t fall in love Niall, remember?!” She yelled, frustrated “That’s why we get along so good, because I don’t fall in love neither! But you fell in love for this brunette and uglier version of Barbie doll and expect me to be okay with it? No, we had a thing!” Niall frowned and snorted
“We didn’t have a thing, we weren’t even in a relationship!” He sternly said “Having sex whenever we feel like it isn’t a relationship Megan! I find innocence attractive, what I don’t like anymore is how you get between me and the person I love! I might be a little bit drunk, but I know what I feel, and I love her! Just leave me alone, please! This is the last time I ask you politely!” Niall snorted and the others got up
“So, I think we’ll be leaving!” Jordan said
“No, please stay!” Niall said
“No, we just wanted to be sure you were alright!” Niall nodded and took them to the door as I stood in the living room with Greg and Denise, Theo should be resting upstairs. Greg smiled at me, and so did Denise. I sighed , waiting for Niall to come back. When he did, he was frustrated and angry, and combining that with his drunken state isn’t good.
“Are you alright?” I asked him immediately
“Don’t worry about me love, I need to take care of you!” He said, giving me a weak smile
“Okay!” I nodded and Greg got up along with Denise
“We’ll be heading back home too!” Greg said, hugging Niall
“Don’t you want to stay for the night? I mean, you came here just to be with me an Johanna, I think that you deserve to stay a night!” Niall said and Greg shook his head negatively
“No, I think you both need to spend time alone!” Greg smiled
“Okay, thanks!” Niall said, walking to go hug Denise
“I’ll go grab Theo, I’ll be back in a second!” Denise said and left
“So, what’s wrong with you guys? What scene was that in the restaurant?” Greg asked, crossing his arms in front of his chest
“He kissed her!” I said
“No, she kissed me and I pushed her back!” Niall carefully said “I told you, you’re the one I love, she was just a fling!” He said and I swallowed
“I know! That’s why I’m afraid you’ll give up on having a relationship with me and follow after her!” I looked at my feet that seemed too important suddenly
Niall chose not to answer my statement and Greg cleared his throat. I felt my cheeks burning and peeked up. I saw Denise holding a sleeping Theo in her arms and Greg standing by them. I walked over to Denise, kissed her cheeks and then kissed Theo’s forehead, taking a second to admire how similar to Niall he is. Then I hugged Greg.
“Have a nice flight!” I wished them before Niall took them to the door.
As I stood alone, the memories came back to me. I wish they didn’t, but they did. How is Jess right now? Is she okay? Did my parents found someone to help her? I grabbed my phone and called my dad immediately.
“Hello? Johanna?” Dad said
“Yes dad!” I felt my eyes getting wetter “Can you tell me how she is please?”
“She’s still the same!” He sadly said
“Didn’t you found anyone to help her?” I asked, almost squealing low pitch
“No honey! Tell me, where are you?” He asked
“I’m at Niall’s!” I said, seeing him walking in the living room “Dad, tell me she’s going to be fine?” I asked, looking at Niall. I got no answer “Dad?” I asked, disconnecting the phone from my ear to see if my dad didn’t hanged up. He didn’t “Dad?!” I yelled “Dad! Tell me she’s going to be okay!” I panicked and my cheeks got immediately wet when I blinked
“Johanna, I…” I cut him off
“You nothing, just tell me damn it!” I yelled
“Johanna… I-I don’t know!” My dad sadly said
“What do you mean you don’t know?!” I sobbed “I’m coming to the hospital!” I said and someone grabbed my phone
“Don’t worry Mr. Skyes, I’ll take care of her!” He hanged up
I looked at him. The tears were falling down my cheeks but I was angry at him. Why did he took the phone from me? I deserved to know what was happening to my sister. Niall threw the phone in the couch and looked at me, arms crossed in front of his chest. But then his eyes softened when he saw my eyes. He sighed and opened his arms for me.
In that moment, everything faded away. The anger I was feeling disappeared with that simple action. He opened his arms for me to cry in them.
I sobbed louder and ran to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. I let myself cry loudly in his shoulder as he walked. One of his hands was in my waist the other one in my back. I needed him to comfort me. I was sad, I was useless, I was a child. I needed to forget this stuff and I know the only thing that can make me forget is carrying me to his room right now.
The door opened and Niall walked to the bedside table. He laid me there and sat by my side. I sniffed and grabbed his hand, pulling him to me. He nodded and laid next to me, pulling me to his hug. I had my head turned to him, hidden in his chest and our legs were wrapped in each others. He had one hand in my waist and the other one was over my head, playing with some strings of my hair. I let myself feel comfy when the tears became silent.
I was being weak! WEAK! I couldn’t be weak! As Niall said, my family doesn’t need me to stress unnecessarily. I need to keep calm and have faith that everything is gonna be okay. Niall told me that, and even when he was just a little bit drunk, he could be one of the wisest people I have ever met.
“Are you better princess?” He asked me and I nodded, my nose rubbing against his shirt “You want to eat something?” I shook my head negatively “What do you want to do?”
“I want to be here!” I said, getting closer to him “I want to be like this with you!”
Niall kissed the top of my head and sighed, wrapping both of his hands around my waist and letting them rest. I kissed his chest till his neck and felt him shivering. I let my lips touch the spot behind his ear and felt the grip in my waist getting tighter. Niall turned up, trying to make me stop but I climbed into his body, my legs around his waist.
“Babe, what are you…” I cut him by kissing his lips.
My tong roamed out of my mouth almost immediately and finally, dominance was mine. My hands found the spot above his v-line and supported there, my soft fingers applying some strength. Niall stopped immediately. He stood there, very still, only corresponding my tongues’ fondling. His hands flew to my waist and did nothing but small circles. I stopped the kiss, only giving him a small peck and then kissed both of his eyes so he kept them closed. He did as I pleased.
I had no idea what I was going to do, but I wanted to do it. I kissed his chest again and my fingers skillfully grabbed the fabric of his shirt without moving from his hips. But then I had to take it off. Niall raised his arms and separated his body from the mattress to help me.
I kissed his left scapula, admiring how perfectly my lips fitted in there, and how soft his skin was. I trailed to the right side, noticing how he leaned his head back when my lips touched the end of his neck. He was trying to enjoy this to the fullest. I kissed the right scapula, kissing the entire length of it till I reached his shoulder. I applied a kiss in there and trailed to the middle again.
I kissed down a line till I got to his happy trail and he stiffened. I ignored and kept kissing till I got to the end of his jeans. He grabbed my head and turned it to look at him.
“Stop!” He said and I frowned
“No!” I simply said and took my hands to the button of his jeans, opening it
“Johanna!” He called, holding my hands “Don’t!”
“Why?” I asked
“Because I don’t want you to feel discussed when you see me… down there!” I blushed
“I could never feel discussed of you Niall!” I said, freeing my hands and took them to the zipper, already feeling a certain level of height under my hands.
I opened the zipper and grabbed the end of his jeans, pulling them down. I took them out of him, letting them fall on the ground. I returned to him immediately and kissed his chest as I looked down. Okay, now I was worried.
What was I going to do once I took the boxers out of him. I sat back and looked at his boxers. I was scared. I didn’t want to admit it but I was! I took my fingers to the band of his black Calvin Klein boxers and slowly pulled them down. Niall put his hands over mine.
“Johanna, listen to me you don’t need to …” I kissed his chest and he moaned low pitched, it always worked
“I want to!” I said and he gave me a nod with his eyes narrowed to me not intentionally
I slowly pulled down his boxer and my jaw line fell open. Wow! Niall’s eyes were stuck on my face and I saw a small smile crossing his face, but he must have thought about something because it disappeared. I think my innocence is a bad thing in his case.
His length was apart from his body as he stood there, gorgeously naked in front of me. I felt myself run out of breath as his size intimidated me. Without thinking about what I was doing, my thumb caressed the tip and I felt him trembling under me. I looked up to see his lips parted and his eyes closed. I missed the blue eyes in mine. I bit my lip and slowly moved till I got between his legs. I was about to lean down when Niall quickly grabbed my jaw.
“N-No!” He gasped “W-We don’t have to!”
“I-I want to. Please?” He nodded as a small smile appeared in the corner of his lip. I rolled my eyes playfully
“But hel-help me out here okay, because I-I don’t know what t-to do!” I said and he nodded “How d-do I start?” I nervously asked
Niall didn’t said a word, his hand just held my wrist and took it to his length. I surrounded it as I had done before under the boxers. My other hand rested in his thigh as I looked at him for confirmation. He gave me one nod and I nodded back but I had no idea of what to do.
I shyly planted a kiss in the tip of his erection. I heard a heavy sigh and looked up to see Niall holding his lower lip captive between his lips. I swallowed and leaned forward. My tongue automatically got out of my mouth and with a act of courage, I licked his tip and heard a loud moan. Suddenly I realized his moans were making me keep going, as if getting him satisfied was making me happy.
As I scattered my memory, I realized that back and forth movements were the pleasureful ones. It took me a large amount of courage to take all the length I could in my mouth. I heard Niall moaning loudly and smiled to myself. He winced. I took him out of my mouth with a popping sound and look at him.
“Sorry, sorry! No teeth right?” He laughed low pitched and nodded.
I could tell he was appreciating my effort and that made me smile. I took him in my mouth again, but this time I licked his tip for longer and I felt something tightening in my hips. Niall’s hands. I took the most of his length in my mouth and made pumping movements, up and down. Niall’s hands flew to my head as he filled his hands with my dark brown curlied hairs.
I admit having him pulling my hairs was turning me on, and that made me go faster. Niall sucked on his teeth and started to command my movements. Up and down!
“Your hand!” He said between breaths “Move your hand!” He told me and I did as he pleased
Taking my previous movement as base, I kept my head in motion as my hand moved in sync with my head. Niall moaned loudly.
“Here!” He grabbed my hand “Squ-Squeeze!” He told me as my hand found something round.
I did as he pleased and kept the movements with my other hand. For a first time I think I was going okay right? I will say I am basing on Niall’s moans. I tried to put more of him in my mouth but I gasped and Niall seemed to appreciate it. Really?
“There Johanna, do it again!” He asked and I made his tip hit the back of my throat.
I swallowed and tightened his balls at the same time. He sucked on his teeth, eyes closed as I looked up to see how he was in terms of position. He was pressing himself in the mattress, his hands pulling my hairs.
“Oh My Fucking God! I won’t be able to… I can’t…” He said between breaths.
I understood what he wanted, but I had no idea if I could keep my mouth there when he did it, I mean, can I? Danny told me some things but I never asked her how it was supposed to end. She said something about something called ’The Walk Of Shame’ but I don’t think there’s any type of shame between us, and I don’t want it to be. I repeated the movement of his tip hitting the back of my throat and swallowed. Niall let out a loud groan and held my head tighter, pressing me more against his length. I swallowed everything, everything he had to give me. Some people would consider this discussing.
Well, I’m not discussed of him, so I don’t think it’s discussing!
It tasted a bit salty. Danny told me it can taste sweet too depending in the guys diet. I felt two fingers making round circles in my temples as I noticed the grip in my hair was now looser. I took him out of my mouth with a popping sound and looked at him, expectation flooding my soul.
“You have any idea of how amazing you are?” He asked looking into my eyes
“N-No!” I said, blushing. I looked down
“Hey!” He said, making me look up with his thumb in my chin “Do I discuss you?” He asked, truthfully shaken by and I widened my eyes
“No! Of course not! You’re amazing!” I said truthfully and he sighed in relief
“Dear God woman! You’re going to be the death of me!” He said, gabbing my hips and making me lay over him, my legs around his waist
“I think I need practice!” I said and then blushed with my eyes widening thanks to the look he sent me
“I offer to be guinea pig!” I laughed loudly “C’mon let’s get cleaned up!” He said, grabbing his boxer from the ground, putting them on.

Notes

Wow!





I wrote three or four of these and it never stops surprising mewhat goes through my own mind! I take the full blame for my own thoguths.
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