Punk Direction (Niall Horan love story)

I remember the worst feeling in my life. It was when I first saw Titanic and found that they didn’t end up together. My heart ached for a week and as long as I tried, I couldn’t get rid of that feeling. I think that was small compared to this. Having to lie to my own boyfriend? Tell him I don’t love him? I know it’s a lie, but does he? I know he doesn’t, I know he isn’t going to forgive me but damn, I was mad. He kissed her, he had sex with her when we were together, or almost still it’s the lipstick what makes uncomfortable the most. That makes me wanna puke. The thought that I kissed the lips that the perfect model of a girl kissed makes my stomach flip.
Niall let go of me and took a step back. He looked up till his eyes met mine. His were red and had no sparkle at all, they seemed gray and sad. He stepped closer, connecting his lips to mine. I shouldn’t give in, I shouldn’t give in.
“I love you!” He said, pulling back “You might not love me, but I do, I love you and I’ll always be there for you!”
I closed my eyes. I wanted to cry! But how can’t he understand it? He kissed her in the lips. He cheated on me, again. No, I won’t… No, I … I won’t be like Danny, I won’t! I pulled back from him, grabbing my stuff and walking out of the restaurant, sobbing but doing my best for them not to notice me.
Unfortunately, there were some papps there and they took pictures of me. I tried t pass them, but it was hard. Still, I wanted to go home. I called a cab and when it came, I ran inside, telling the man the address of my place. He drove happily, ignoring my sobs and crying.

Niall P.O.V:
When she left the restaurant, I knew it was over for me. It was over, I knew it was over. We didn’t said it but I knew, I felt it. She had broke up with me. She broke up with me! Now what am I going to do? How am I going to get pass this.
Suddenly, I felt anger flood my body, anger towards Megan. Greg held me back, but I was screaming already.
“Why? Why you bitch?” Ted had to help Greg on holding me back “You ruined everything I cared about in this life! You ruined my only reason to live, you ruined it, you ruined us!” I yelled.
“But Niall, she is the one who ran way!” Megan said, making a puppy face.
“She cleaned my lips, she spit when I kissed her!” I struggled to get free “Let me go!” I yelled “She spit when I kissed her, because you kissed me!”
“You never complained before!” She said
“But I complain now!” I yelled “I have a girlfriend!”
“Not anymore!” She sang happily.
I suddenly lost my strength. She was right! I don’t have a girlfriend anymore! She just left me, the only girl I loved in my life left me. She promised she would never leave me, she promised me. But I can’t be mad at her. In her head, I had cheated on her. But I didn’t. Megan kissed me, I only pushed her back. If I even had thought she was wearing lipstick, this wouldn’t have happened.
I sat in a chair, my hands covering my eyes. I let the tears fall with different sibs. We were over. We, me and her, we didn’t exist anymore. I couldn’t just let her slip through my fingers, not when I love her so deeply my chest feels like it’s tearing apart right now. I have to chase after her, I need to chase after her.
“Where is the pos-Johanna Niall? God, you’re a fagot now or what? I miss the old Niall!” Megan said
“Shut the fuck up!” I said, raising my hand to call the waiter.
He came immediately and stopped in front of me.
“I want a bottle of scotch!” I said and he widened his eyes
“Sir, we don’t sell the bottle!”
“I don’t care! I’ll pay whatever you want! Just bring me the fucking bottle!” The man nodded
“Anything else?” He asked
“I think they might want to eat something!” I said, signaling to my friends sat around the table. They all nodded “It’s on me!” I said, wanting to apologize for the previous scene with Megan.
The man wrote all the orders down in a small black notebook and walked away. The first thing that came to the table was my bottle. I grabbed a glass and poured a bit into the glass. I needed to drink and forget about what happened. I’ll think about what I’m going to do to get her back tomorrow when the hangover attacks me.
I drank the first glass, and then the second. I got up next, everybody was eating, but I wanted to make a toast. I raised my glass.
“Here’s to the girls who break our hearts! And the bitches who don’t get that a relationship is for two only!” I drank all the content of the glass with only one gulp and let my body fall back in the chair.
I kept drinking while everyone looked at me. Greg knew I needed to get drunk to get better, it’s just the way I handle bad things. I know no other way, no other way that doesn’t involve her in it. She normally makes me forget about everything, but now she isn’t even here.
I heard something beeping in my pocket. I took my phone out and saw Danny’s number there. I sighed, I knew she’s going to yell at me.
“Yes Danny?” I said, annoyed
“Niall…” I cut her off
“yes Danny, I know you’re going to yell at me! But guess what?! It’ not my fault! Yeah, you know why? Because I didn’t kiss her! She kissed me!” I drank the small amount of scotch left in the glass
“Niall, no!” She sobbed “It’s not that!” She was scaring me
“Danny!” I said, excessively calm, what in my case showed I was panicking “Tell me!”
I felt the ground being pulled from under my feet when I heard what she had to tell me…

Niall P.O.V Off


When I walked inside the house, I was able of putting one of those fake smiles that I wore so many times before. I was prepared to face whatever came in my direction. It’s not my best day, I was supposed to go out and I’m home earlier so I think I’ll be facing some questions. But I only found an empty house.
“Mom?” I yelled, but I got no answer “Dad?” No response again “Hello? Is anybody home?” I asked
“I’m here!” I head Maria saying under her cracking up voice
“What’s wrong love?” I ran towards her that was cringed under the chairs. That was always her favorite place to hide
“M-Mom and Dad are in the hospital!” She said and I felt my throat closing with the panic
“Why?” I was able to ask. I needed to be strong
“Jess! She-She…” She started crying again and I held her against my chest while she cried “Jess is ill Johanna, she had to go to the hospital! Nobody knows what she’s suffering of! The doctor came here but he said she needed to go to the hospital! She’s really ill Johanna!” She cried in my chest again
“Calm down love, you might be over reacting!” I told her, while I caressed her hair
“She coughed blood and she was in pain! I saw Johanna, I saw she was bad!” She cryed louder in my chest
“Look, where’s Ade?” I asked her
“In Anne’s house! You know, her best friend!” I nodded “Let’s keep her in the dark okay, there’s no need for us to worry without knowing the reason she’s like this!” I tried to sound calm. Maria nodded “I’ll take us to the hospital okay?” I asked her and she nodded
I got up, trying to stay on my feet. I extended my hand to Maria and she grabbed it, getting up with my help.
We both walked to the door and I told her to go I would catch up with her in a few seconds. I needed to think. I gave her the car keys and off she went. Once the door closed, I allowed myself to let the blood in my face be drained. If something happens to Jess, I think I’ll die! If she dies…
Okay Johanna, be strong. Nothing’s going to happen to Jessica, she’s strong and healthy as a horse. Yes, she is, and she’ll get through this. I took a deep breath and convinced myself she would be okay! I needed to be strong, for me, for my family, for myself.
I got out of the house and ran to the car. Maria was waiting for me, cringed in a corner and sobbing. I tried not to seem desperate like she was, but in my head I was imagining the worst case scenario. That’s one of the perks of being a melodramatic. I always expect the worst in stressful situations like this one.
I drove as fast as I could to the hospital. When I got there, the entrance was blocked by a body guard next to the door. Seriously? Are these guys everywhere now? Heard a woman calling me.
“Miss?” I turned to a red haired woman, holding a paper in her hand
“Yes?” I asked
“You’re the Skye’s daughters?” She asked and I nodded
“I’m Johanna and this is Maria!” I told her
“You girls need to be here!” She said
“Look, my sister is inside and I’m worried sick about her! I don’t have time to be here and have my way blocked by only two people, my boyfriend and I broke up and my sister is probably ill o let me walk!” I said/yelled and Maria tighten her grip in my arm “You can understand if I don’t take this from you!” The nurse sighed
“Bob, let them in!”
“But Kendra…” She cut him off
“No buts’, yo heard the girl! For what I know from the Skye’s the girl inside could have eight or ten years. Let them in!” Bob nodded and took a step to his right
“Thank you!” I sighed “And sorry for yelling at you!” She smiled at me
“Child, if you knew how many times I get yelled at you would be surprised!” She let out a laugh full of humor
“Still, I’m sorry!” I said before I ran to the doors, pushing them behind and running.
I knew these hallways. I stayed here for two days when Ade got food poisoning, walking back and forth till she got better. I ran to the pediatrics are and asked a nurse where my mom and dad where. She answered, after searching a little, that they were in room 207 of the floor. I grabbed Maria’s hand and ran out to find room 207.
When those thin black number collided with my vision, saw a small window that let me see Jessica laid on a hospital bed and my parents talking with a doctor. I opened the door without knocking first, in time to hear:
“Your daughter has liver failure!” And they all turned to me.
I stopped, Maria started crying again behind me and I took a step back, almost getting out of the room. I felt all the blood being drained from my body and if it wasn’t the adrenaline, I think I would pass out. But I had to be strong, for the, for my family. I had t be strong. My dad looked at me, his eyes darker than anything I have ever seen in my entire life. I couldn’t blame him, if it was my daughter I would feel that way too. Mom started crying uncontrollably and the doctor made what he probably leaned from several years in this job, he left the room without saying anything.
“Dad?” I called
“Johanna!” He said, and I saw a tear run down my face
“What can we do?” I asked. Mom and dad looked at me, both with an unexpressive face on “Don’t just sit there, tell me!” I yelled “Tell me what I have to do! I’ll do anything!”
“She needs a blood transfusion sweetie!” Dad said and I frowned
“If that’s it I can give her my own blood! Just take it, I don’t want it anymore!” I spoke like a two year old would do
“It’s not that simple dear!” My dad explained “You have to be a match! I’m not, your mom has a low level of iron in her blood. It makes her excluded from donating blood!” He finished
“What about me?” I asked
“You’re blood type isn’t the same as any of the people here Johanna! You have AB type of blood!” I frowned. How could it be? AB blood type comes from a mix of A and B blood types. But my mom has the A blood type and my dad the same!
“Which type of blood is she?” I asked, looking at a sleeping Jess in a bed
“She’s A, negative!” Mom said and I sighed
“We don’t have any choice but to wait and see if they have blood to give her a transfusion!” Dad said
“But dad… What about Maria, or Ade?” I asked
“They’re minors, they can’t donate blood!” He answered and I sighed, I grabbed my phone “I’m gonna make some phone calls!” I said, getting out of the room
“We’re coming with you!” My dad said “Jess needs to rest!”
I nodded and we all walked out her room. We sat in some couches that were next to the elevator and I started dialing Danny’s number. I had no time to cry, I was trying to find my sister someone that could donate blood so she could be fine!
“Hello?” She answered
“Danny!” My voice cracked a little. No I wouldn’t cry “I need your help!” I told her
“Johanna, are you okay?” She asked
“No, No I’m not! Jessica’s in the hospital Danny! She has liver failure!” I said, crying in the phone. Weak.
“No! Oh no, no, no!” I could tell she was crying
“She needs a blood transfusion Danny! I’m not a match, my dad isn’t neither, my mom is excluded from the donating people and my sisters can’t help because they’re minors! Do you know your blood type?” I asked, between sobs!
“Yes, I’m A!” I sighed, feeling the least bit relived “Positive!” And it went down the rail
“Shoot!” I said “She’s negative!” I said
“I still wouldn’t be able of helping you love! I’m on antibiotics, I’m ill and I can’t donate blood when I’m on antibiotics’ cause the disease can be transmitted through the blood!” She sobbed
“Oh, fine!” I cried “I have to keep trying! I’ll see you later!” I said
I hanged up and looked through my contacts. I had another two or three usable numbers, but I knew I couldn’t trust anyone like I trusted Danny. I had no idea of what other people could have in their bodies. At least I know that the only thing Danny had under her skin is something that helps her check her birth control, I don’t even know the name of that thing.
I let my head fall back in the blue couch. I never cursed myself before, but I was doing it now. Why can’t be more friendly? I mean, I could use some true friends right now and I have none but Danny. Why can’t I be social like she is? That would sure help me get some blood for my sister now. What am I going to do?
I closed my eyes. I was feeling horrible, worst than I have ever felt before! I felt useless. I felt like I couldn’t help my little sister. The sister that always counted on me to help her. Always, no matter what the consequences are, I was always there, always! Why can’t I help her this time? Why can’t I be helpful now when I’m really needed!
I heard the sound of parallel talk in the hallways, the sound of the cleaning carts’ wheels rolling in the ground, the sound of steps on the floor. The pediatrics is always like this. Noisy and full. Still, almost no one cares to donate blood. They only care about themselves and if they are fine. Nobody cares about the other people, that’s a fact, people grew meaner and careless, reckless and immature. They don’t care, and now I can’t do anything.
I knew what was going to calm me down. His hug. He would just calm me down. I needed him here, but no, I was stupid enough to care about that stupid lipstick. It seems so petty and insignificant next to what’s happening right now… I was a child, again! He needed a woman and I was a child. I knew Megan only did it to provoke me and as the child I was, I let her get to me.
I felt my eyes getting wet and I opened them, looking at the ceiling, keeping them from falling. I had succeeded on stop crying, I don’t want to cry again. But my chest is so heavy, and it’s pains so much. My heart was broken and now the little pieces are even smaller. This can’t be happening to me! I mean, why me? I never did anything wrong in my life, so why me? Was I supposed to be a nun so when I fell in love I sinned? Or was it our moments? What if I want him to take my virginity? It was his all along! Since the day he slept with me for the first time, I fell in love, and I am willing to give him all my love if he lets me.
I heard a beep coming from the elevator and looked over to see who it was! Niall was standing perfectly still in the middle of the elevator, holding the doors open but looking at the ground. I somehow found the strength to smile and yell
“Niall!” He looked up and his eyes found mine.
I got up from the couch, running towards him and throwing my phone on the ground unintentionally.
I ran to where he was and hugged him tightly. His hands wrapped around my back, tightly and he hid his face in the curve of my neck. I heard my bones cracking from the strength I was doing.
“I’m sorry Niall! I’m sorry, I’m sorry” I was stupid, and childish and …” He cut me off by kissing my lips slowly
“Is your sister okay?” He asked and I hid my face in his chest and started to cry
“No!” I shook my head negatively, my nose rubbing in his shirt.
“What’s wrong with her?” He asked, passing a hand under my knees and walking me over to the couches. He sat with me on his lap
“Her liver’s failing!” I told him and Niall’s hands tightened even more around me.
“I’m so sorry love!” He said and we both got covered by a shadow.
When we looked up, we both found my dad and mom looking at me. My dad smiled slightly, but my mom was more angry than sad. I cut her off before she started talking
“Don’t even bother, we’re going to see Jessica!” I said, getting up from Niall’s lap and pulling his hand with me
I opened the door slowly and got in, Niall right after me. He leaned towards me and whispered
“That woman scares the crap out of me!” I laughed what made Jessica wake up
She blinked twice and tried to sit to look at us. I immediately ran to her and helped her sit. She looked horrible. She had two tubes connected to her nostrils and her eyes had bags underneath them, black bags. Her eyes were different, they had a bit of yellow in them.
“Hi!” I said low pitched, like I was talking to a new born. She smiled at me
“Hi” She spoke
“Lookwho’s here!” I said, pointing at Niall with my chin!
“Niall!” She tried to yell
“Hello little bird!” he said normally. I wander how he can act so relaxed near someone who’s sick.
“What are you doing here?” She asked him “Don’t you have stuff to do?”
“I’m here to see you! And, I don’t! Even if I did, I would cancel them to be here with you!” He said and Jess smiled
“Thank you!”She smiled
“So, what do you wanna do?” I asked her, noticing I was talking normally now.
“I wanna lay here, I feel tired! But I want you to stay!” She said and I smiled.
I sat in one side of the bed and helped her lay back in bed. I held her hand and Niall sat next to me, wrapping his hands around me. Jessica smiled and closed her eyes. She looked like an angel, sleeping so calmly.
“I don’t imagine what it’s like to have a kid that get’s like this!” I said
“You want kids?” He asked me
“I’m gonna be a bit of a cliché and I’m gonna tell you I want a boy and a girl! You?” I asked
“I don’t care as long as I’m the father to your kids!” He said, making his hand run down my shoulder and ending up holding mine with Jessica’s and mine wrapped in each other.
I was so dumb. So stupid. I needed to be a grown woman not a five year old in a body of an adult.
“I’m so sorry Niall! I love you, I love you, you know I love you!” I turned my head to the right and rested against his chest “I was mad at you and said something I didn’t want to! You know I love you. I love you, I love yo, I love you, I love you!” I turned to him completely, letting go of Jessica’s hand.
I wrapped my hands around his neck as he got up, his hands holding my waist. He pushed me up against the wall and kissed my lips just how much desperate he was.
“Niall, are you drunk?” I asked, frowning. I didn’t notice anything in his breath, or in his scent.
“Yes, I am!” He smiled against my lips, pressing his against mine immediately. His tongue found its way to my mouth when I opened a gap between my lips. His hands run down my body and grabbed my thighs. He put them around his waist and pressed his growing erection in me.
I hit my head against the wall once. That’s not fair. His hand ran up my thigh and his lips moved down from mine, to find their way till my neck. I grabbed his hairs and moaned What was he doing? My sick, eight year old sister in the same compartment as us and my parents only need to open the door to find us. Even so, I had to tell him, because I was sure.
“I want you to take my virginity away!” I whispered against his lips as I pulled his head towards mine.
He widened his eyes and frowned
“What makes you feel so sure?” He asked me
“I love you and I want to give you what you want! Life’s too short to spear all the small detail of every small little things and protect things that are only going to give us pleasure!”
“I’m going to be the one who gives you pleasure Johanna, only me!” He whispered in my ear. I was about to kiss him back when the door opens and my feet are on the ground, but Niall and I were very close to each other.
“Johanna, Maria wants to see Jessica!” She said, looking towards me and Niall
“She can’t! Jess is asleep and she really needs to rest now! Tell her she’ll go in two or three hours. My mom nodded and closed the door. I sighed in relief and that’s when it hit me “Niall what’s your blood type?” I asked

Notes

Hey! I hope you comment and like the chapter. I think you guys are losing intrest on this since you don't even comment anymore. Anyways, I hope you like the chapter and I need to tell you that that gif was just like I imagined the hug.
Ah, kisses :3