Punk Direction (Niall Horan love story)

“Tell me again who are these people!” I asked, holding to the soft hand connected to mine
I had no idea why I even said I would come, it was a bad idea. I felt like a drop of sweat was rolling down my back and my hands were getting sweaty. I was even starting to doubt my outfit for the night. What I’m about to say might sound stupid, but here it goes… I didn’t want to lose to Megan so I pushed my outfit a little bit.
I chose a pair of shorts way too short and a top that ended above my bellybutton. I opted for converses instead of high heels because… well, it’s me we’re talking about. I was feeling insecure now. Maybe I pushed too much and it wouldn’t look good, or people would stare, or Niall will be embarrassed of me… I don’t know what to think and I know I’m being melodramatic. I can’t help it. I saw her, I don’t exactly remember her face right, but I thought she was gorgeous. That’s enough to scare the hell out of me.
“My high school friends and my brother!” He answered, shrugging
“And your ex-…” I thought about a proper word “…fling!”
“Why is she here?” I asked
“Because she was in high school with me!” I frowned “Don’t worry, she’s nothing compared to you!” He kissed my cheek as we stopped in the door of the restaurant.
“Niall!” I heard a chorus of masculine people calling and I smiled at him.
“Hey guys!” He said, letting go of my hand.
I looked around the place, searching for Greg, Denise and Theo. But I couldn’t help to notice the place was gorgeous. Niall told me to dress casually, but I feel like I dressed too simply for this, and I never worry about my clothes. The restaurant is huge, and almost empty too. It was rather modern and sophisticated. I can’t believe he told me to dress normally. I heard a sound behind me and turned.
Theo was smiling at me and I smiled back at him, recognizing his similarities with Niall. I also saw Denise holding him and Greg behind her.
“Hi Johanna!” Greg said, hugging me and I smiled, hugging him back
“Hi Greg!” We pulled back “How was your Christmas?” I asked, kissing Denise’s cheeks
“Kind of good, but also annoying! Niall is madly in love with you!” I widened my eyes and then looked down, feeling my cheeks burning. I leaned to Theo nd kissed his forehead
“You know Megan is going to be here right? Niall…” Greg was cut off by someone yelling Niall’s name, someone that was a girl
“I know!” I whispered to myself, knowing they heard.
I turned around to see a girl wearing a red dress with no back, and high black high heels. I recognized the face. Brown hairs, blue eyes, carnie lips and a burnt by the sun skin. She was visibly prettier than I was and that made me sick to my stomach. I knew Greg and Denise could tell I went pale if they wanted to, but I wish they didn’t make any comment. I was feeling awful already.
There were more girls in there too, but none of them was dressed as provocatively as Megan. She was taller than me, but still smaller than him. And when she hugged him, I felt my stomach flipping. I took a step back, hitting something hard behind me. Someone held my arms in place. I knew it was Greg.
“Breath Johanna, you stopped doing it!” I only noticed it now when he told me.
I let all the air in my lungs come out and turned to face him. I smiled, knowing he would understand it was fake and forced, but I knew I had to keep myself distracted from that moment they shared.
“Thanks! Let’s eat something, I’m starving!” I said and both Greg and Denise laughed
“You’re just like him!” I shrugged to Denise’s comment
“What can I say?!” I smiled sadly and turned around, walking towards the table.
We sat in there, me next to Denise and Greg was by her side. I rested my hands in my lap and looked at them. I was feeling uncomfortable, maybe I was overreacting. It was just a hug right? A hug where the hand who touched me yesterday morning touched her back seconds ago! It was nothing right? Having a pair of breasts pressed against the chest that should only feel mine, clearly I was over reacting… Or not.
I looked up to find two pairs of eyes on me. I widened mine and blushed immediately. Two girls were looking at me, and when I saw looking, I say starring, like really starring. I swallowed.
“Hi, you’re Johanna right?” A blond girl said and I nodded “Sorry we were starring, but you’re just gorgeous!” I smiled weakly
“That’s not true, but thanks!” I said
“Are you kidding?!” The brunette next to her asked “Those eyes and that bone structure! And you cheekbones!” She sighed and I allowed myself to laugh
“You have to thank my dad then! This is all him!” I turned my head to where Niall was still talking to Megan “And apparently it’s not enough!” I sighed and turned my head to the table again and smiled at them. I’m probably being stupid
“And who are you?” I heard someone asking.
A guy was standing behind the blond girl. He had brown eyes and was relatively tall. He wasn’t as tall as Harry, but he was tall. He leaned his head down and kissed the blond. I smiled sweetly at them and wished it could be me right now.
“She’s Johanna!” The brunette said “She’s Niall’s girlfriend!”
“Niall’s girlfriend?” He raised an eyebrow and I just nodded, not trusting my voice and my own thoughts right now “He chose wisely! All those years of teaching him how to chose…” He sighed “The apprentice became the master!” I laughed loudly a that, and best was, it was a true laugh, well, in part
“Oh, I remember you!” Another guy said, putting a hand in the brunette’s shoulder and caressing her neck with his thumb “Niall showed me a picture of you!” He smiled “Can I say you’re prettier than in the picture?” He asked and I smiled
“Thank you!” I said
“Don’t thank me, I had nothing to do with it?” I raised an eyebrow and laughed. I was actually liking these people “I’m Jordan!” He said and I smiled
“And I’m Brook!” The brunette said
“I’m Ted!” The guy behind the blond said
“And I’m Allison!” She finished with a smile
“It’s nice to meet you all!” I said, smiling
“Hi there guys!” I heard a voice behind me say, a girls voice. I think even my bones froze.
Brook, who I was clearly enjoying the company of, rolled her eyes to the person behind me: Megan.
“What do you want?” She asked and took a sip of her drink
“Oh nothing, I… I just wanted to see Johanna” She sat right next to me.
Too close, too close! My brain was screaming at me. She grabbed my chair and turned it around. I felt a hand in my shoulder. It was soft, I guess Denise. She starred at me while I felt awkward. I don’t like people watching me, and she was squeezing my cheeks against each other while holding my chin. She was leaned towards me… Claustrophobia is a pain! I guess I should be pale because I heard Greg speaking behind me.
“Give the girls some space Megan, she’s claustrophobic!” She let go of my chin and I took a deep breath.
Better, I thought, but she was still leaning towards me. She was looking at me like a hawk, searching for an irregularity, or some kind of mistake or malfunction. I could see it in her eyes, the way they sparkled and slowly lost it… I could see she was planning something to bring me down. She leaned back against her chair and relaxed.
“So, great hair, great eyes. Your nose job couldn’t be more perfect!” I took both of my hands to my nose and I turned my head to Greg and Denise, my eyebrows raised “Oh and you’re too pale! And your thighs should be thinner! And your teeth, you should put braces on!” I swallowed and heard a chair dragging in the floor but I kept listening to what she was saying “I know a great way of losing weight and you could meet some guys that were going to be just perfect for you!” She kept going. I finally reached the point where I knew she was just mean “And you need to start dressing better. You look like you were born as the daughter of a salesmen. Expensive clothes. Aren’t you Tom Skyes daughter? Oh God, your dad is so hot!” I made a discussed face towards her “And that ring? Darling you should…” She was cut off
“…keep it on your finger for as long as you can until I decide we need something better!” I turned my head
Niall was behind me and Greg was sitting in his place again. I looked at him and he nodded. I smiled weakly. He shrugged like it was no big deal and just turned to Theo again.
Niall put his hand in my shoulder. I turned to face him and he smiled, leaning down to kiss my lips. I smiled and kissed him back, as chastely as I could. When we pulled back, he turned my chair around, held me by my waist, got me up, sat in my chair and sat me back in his lap. I only squeaked happily while he did that. He smiled at me, putting both of my legs to his left side.
“Oh God, are those the new Nike’s?” Brook asked and I smiled
“My sister gave them to me on Christmas!” I said, shrugging
“My shoes are way prettier!” Megan said, resting her back against the chair and rising
She lift one feet so we all could see her Christian Louboutin’s heels… and maybe to show her thigh too. I sighed and shrugged, resigned they would probably like her heels better.
“Ah, no, I actually like Nike’s!” Allison said and I smiled to the ground
“You never had any taste anyways!” Megan said with a hint of contempt towards Allison
“Thanks!” She smiled and I laughed, covering my mouth instantly
“Here she is again!” Niall said and I smiled to him.
His hand surrounded my waist, pulling me closer to him. I let my head rest back in his chest. The other people sat on the table and the only place available for Niall was in the other side of the table, as far away from me as possible. I bet Megan was happy about it.
“So, how long have you two been dating?” A brunette asked
“Almost two months now!” Niall said and I smiled
“Oh, but my last visit was a month and three weeks ago Niall!” Megan said and I froze.
I felt like something went through my chest and back. I also felt all the color in my face go away and my throat dried. Luckily, I was saved by my phone. I had story of my life ringing now, what a dumbass. I grabbed it and answered it, getting up and walking away.
“Hello?” I asked
“Hi love, how are you doing?” Danny happily asked
“Not great!” I shrugged, knowing she wouldn’t see me
“It’s that Megan girls isn’t it?! Tell me where you are, I’m coming to you and I will…” I cut her off
“Danny c’mon, aren’t you going out with Brian latter today? Calm down love!” I laughed low pitched, knowing it was fake but she wouldn’t understand right?
“Oh God, that’s so fake Angel!” Damn it “Is it that bad?” She asked, her voice soft like honey
“I just found out that Megan’s last ‘visit’ was a month and three weeks ago, meaning, Niall had asked me out already!” I said, feeling he bitterness in my own mouth and the sting in my heart for recognizing the truth
“I’m going to kill him! No I’m going to kill her! Better yet, I’m going to kill the both of them and then I’m going to tell everyone he’s a lying bastard!” I laughed. I didn’t knew why, but I did. I always appreciated Danny’s protectiveness about me, maybe that’s why… Or maybe I just didn’t want to seem weak anymore. “What’s so funny?”
“You!” I said, stopping the laughing “I love you!” I said
“I love you too! Now, go kick that girls butt and the call me! Brian can wait!” I started walking back to the table
“Brian can so not wait! Girl, he has two jobs and works almost twenty four seven. Just enjoy time with him!” I said “And don’t you dare track my phone. Danny Michelson I’ll be mad at you if you do!” She laughed
“Oh my little Angel! You think you can beat me?” She asked when I was close enough to the table so they could hear me
“Hey, I had Krav Maga lessons with you!” I said “And I think I can beat you if I want to!”
“Ah, think twice, I’ve been practicing you fat ass!” I laughed
“That’s just not fair! You’re not playing fair!” She laughed
“I never said I was going to play fair!” She said
“Well, you never said you were going to cheat neither!” She laughed again and I giggled
“Well, if you see things from that point of view…” She let the words hand
“Ah, I knew it, I was right!” I punched the air
“You just punched the air right?” She asked and I sield
“How can you even guess what I’m doing?” I askd
“You’re predictable love, that’s what I like about you, I always know what to expect!”
“Ah-ah-ah! Funny, Michelson, very funny! You traitor!” I smiled
“Okay, okay! You want me to tell Mr. Paxton your coming to my next training session?” She asked
“Only if you promise we’ll eat ice cream next!” She groaned
“Johanna, it’s supposed to make you learn how to defend yourself AND lose calories!” She asked “You’re asking me if we can go eat ice cream?!” She sighed “Really?”
“Oh C’mon Danny, you’re too skinny anyways! Where are your curves?” I asked
“I never had them!” She said with fake displeasure. I bit my lip, trying not to laugh “Just laugh already!” I let all the air come out by my nose, making a loud noise and laughed uncontrollably
“You…You…” I couldn’t even talk “You need to stop doing this to me. I’m in the middle of a restaurant and I’m laughing like a lunatic!”
“Maybe that’s because you are one!”
“You’re the one to talk!” I said and she giggled
“I guess you’re right! But even so, Mr. Paxton will be waiting for out Krav Maga lessons wich I will double! What a weird name right? Krav Maga!” She tried to say it in an American accent but fined miserably.
“Krav Maga!” I succeeded “It’s a self-defense system developed for military in Israel. The name in Hebrew means ‘Contact Combat’! Did you know that it combines an extensive number of techniques from other genres like Boxing or Judo, Jiu-Jitsu and even Wrestlin…”She cut me off
“I don’t want a lesson about Krav Magas’ origins love! We have our roles defined. You’re the brains, I’m the person who sets everything in motion!” I laughed low pitched “Now, I have to go get ready!” She said “Try not to kill them for me okay?”
“Okay!” I said “Bye, I love you!”
“I love you too!” She said
“Have a good date!” I wished before I hanged up and slipped the phone back in my pocket
I heard a chair dragging on the ground again but this time, someone’s hands were in my arms, rubbing them up and down.
“Does she want to kill me?” I got rid of his hands and walked to my chair, sitting and not looking at Niall
“She said she is doubling her Krav Maga lessons and I’m going with her! She said he’s going to kill you and then tell everybody you’re a lying bastard, and I actually agree with her!” I said, ignoring Megan’s laugh next to me
“You know Krav Maga?” She asked
“I have been practicing since I was twelve years old! I guess you didn’t even got dress by yourself back then!” I said, grabbing a piece of bread and taking a bite
“Johanna…” I heard Niall starting but I cut him off by showing him my extended palm
“Talk, my palm will listen!” I said, while my body was turned to the front and I kept eating, faking happiness, but if someone looked in my eyes, they would know the truth. I’m tearing apart.
My phone beeped and I bit my bread, holding it in my mouth and taking my phone out while pulling my hand back to me. I had a message from Danny.
‘Show them some toughness! Ps: I know where you are!’ I laughed at her text.
I could only count on Danny, and my dad. No one else but them. I texted back
‘Do you remember Brian, that Brian who you completely drooled over and is asking you out and you’re wasting time tracking my phone! GO OUT WITH THE GUY!’ I smiled and sent the message
When I felt someone touching my shoulder, I grabbed the wrist, pushing it back.
“Claustrophobia!” I announced and a hand grabbed my wrist, pulling me form the chair till I got up.
He walked with me to the bathroom and locked the door behind him. Then, he rushed over to me and kissed my lips. I pushed him back but he returned. I pushed him back and now with the light I could see his lips. He had red lipstick on them… The same color Megan had.
I took both of my hands to my face, rubbing it up and down while starting to crack up. I wanted to cry, I wanted to make the pain stop. I wasn’t going to be able of taking it anymore. I grabbed the end of my shirt and opened the water, wetting the tip.
“Johanna, what are you…?” He asked and I turned around, putting the shirt in his lips.
The tears fell silently when I was taking the lipstick off his lips, but when they got clean, I started sobbing and crying loudly, rubbing his lips so roughly I thought the skin would peel off. He grabbed my wrists and I let my head fall down, my eyes turned at the ground. I got rid of his hands and opened the door. I looked at him, sure he could see the redness in my lips. I grabbed the end of my shirt and cleaned my own lips with it, spitting on the garbage next to the door.
I turned around and walked as fast as I could to the table to get my phone back. Once I got it, I turned around and saw Niall in front of me. Nobody else talked, it was like it was just me and hi there.
“Please don’t go, please stay! Please princess, I love you!” He grabbed my hand and kissed it.
I got rid of him and cleaned my hand in my shirt. He cheated on me. Niall widened his eys
“Oh no, no, no, no! No! No! Just, no! You can’t… you can’t…” He grabbed my hands, intertwining out fingers, I tried to make the butterflies go away “…you can’t leave me! I know you love me, I know you do, you told me so, you love me! Tell me you love me!” He asked and let go of my hands to grab my face “Tell me you love me damn it!” He asked and I looked away.
I knew I was hurting him, but he hurt me too. I’m tired of being the only one who suffers, the only one who thinks about stuff and gets herself hurt with it, I’m tired of things getting between us and ruining everything… I’m tired of being strong. They can tell the magazines we’re over!
“Johanna… Please…” He begged. I heard his voice cracking up “Please tell me, tell me, talk to me, yell at me, slap me, just do something!” He asked and I closed my eyes, distancing my head as much as I could from him “No, no! No, please!” He was panicking “You’re breaking my heart Johanna!” He rested his head against my cheek “Please don’t break my heart. Please, no! I can’t handle it again, please!” We were causing a scene. Even the other people in the restaurant were turned to look at us now. But the only thing I could think of was the pain he was causing me by saying those words “I’ll fight harder, I’ll always be with you, I’ll never leave again. I just want you to tell me you love me!” he begged, closing his eyes. I felt something wet in my cheek. Oh no, he can’t be crying. I contained a sob “Just tell me, please. I love you, I love you, I love you! It’s just three words. You told me, you swore to me you loved me. You… you love me! I know you do, you just need to think and tell me, please tell me! Tell me!” He shook me, holding me by the shoulders “What he hell is wrong with you? Talk, say it!” I could see his eyes now… he was crying “You’re breaking me! You’re breaking my heart and if you leave, he’ll go with you, all the little pieces will go after you like you’re a magnet. Please don’t leave princess, please stay with me! Tell me you love me and stay with me!” He shook me again, more tears clouded my vision upon him “I don’t want you to cry, I want you to tell me you love me!”
Part of me knew it was a lie, and I was sure it was always going to be, but the other one wanted to just move on so I won’t suffer. But it’s inevitable, so it took all the courage in me as a woman, as a girl, as a sister, as a best friend and as a girlfriend to say the next words: “I don’t love you!”
I knew it was a lie!

Notes

So, my heart is aching aftr this chapter... I don't know what I'm going to do when this ends...
I hope you comment and give me your ideas an oppinions on this because it's immportant to me.
My heart is breaking and I'm listening to Drunk by Ed Sheeran and feel like crying with no reason at all, but that's okay... I guess.
Anyways, love you and hope you recover from this small hear break :3