I was in my room, headphones in my ears, feeling completely in the clouds. I had recently downloaded Niall’s new song, that perfect one we heard in the car. I’ve fallen in love over it, it’s so perfect and it makes my heart melt when I hear his voice! I closed my eyes, my head in my pillow.
I sighed with a stupid smile in my lips and let the song lyrics sink inside myself. When the song was about to get to the end, my phone rang, making the music stop. I opened my eyes and, mumbling thanks to the music stopping, I picked up the phone. I disconnected the headphones from the phone and answered without seeing the name.
“What?” I said harshly
“God! What’s wrong with you woman?” I heard Danny speaking
“I’m sorry love, I was listening to Story of My Life and I was actually liking it, very, very much!” I bit my lip, sorry for my attitude towards her
“OMG!” She squeaked “You were listening to their song?” I smiled, noticing she was actually very excited to be able to share this with me.
“Yes I was! I heard it in the car with Niall and it was just… awesome!” I laughed low pitched and sighed
“Yes, Niall, well, that was why I called! DRY HUMPING!” I immediately turned red and looked down, biting my lip, trying to keep a smile from playing in my lips “And right now I know you’re redder than Taylor Swift’s CMA Awards dress! Wich was vermilion for your information!” I giggled
“It was… Something!” I started playing with the tips of my hairs and smiled widely.
“Something what? Good, bad, horrible, great? C’mon, you gotta fill me in here!” I widened my eyes “Oh c’mon it was just an expression!” I bursted out laughing, letting myself fall back again in my pillow.
“OMG! I can’t even believe you just said that when we were talking about sex!” I laughed more
“C’mon Johanna! Don’t mock me!” She said, probably a smile playing on her lips. My laughing ceased because I didn’t want to mock her, never.
“Sorry!” I said
“Come by my house!” She said “We’ll talk better about that DH thing!” If we were together, she would have blinked, for sure.
“Hum, okay then! I’ll be there in twenty!” I said, feeling my cheeks get redder again.
“Oh c’mon, I talked to you about that, you don’t have to be ashamed with me love!” I smiled
“I know, but it’s still embarrassing to talk about this with you!”
“Why?” She asked
“Because you’re my best friend who’s addicted to sex and has an incredible amount of experience and I’m completely new to these things and what if I have done something wrong?” I blurted out
“I’m sure you did nothing wrong, love! And I say this because I’m sure he did everything by himself!” I frowned
“Mean! You’re mean!” I spoke like a two year old… Even thought the subject we are talking about is sex. Danny laughed
“I was just kidding Angel! But come here, and we’ll talk, I want to know every…” We were interrupted by my phone telling me I had another call waiting for me
“Wait a second, I’ll come back to you in five maybe!” I said and took the second call “Yellow!”sad
“Happy are we?” I heard the Irish tone and melted against the phone
“Hi!” I said, still melting.
Why am I being like this? Why am I hanged on every word that might come out his mouth? It’s so stupid and, I guess, it’s love! It’s so weird that even his voice is causing me butterflies and making my heart run faster. It’s awful and yet, the most addicting feeling ever.
“I thought you said that before!” He laughed and I shook my head, trying to wake up
“I did, sorry for that!” I giggled
“No need to apologize, love!” I smiled wider
“Why did you called?” I asked tenderly
“We agreed to do something today!” He said “You forgot?”
“No! I just thought we would go later today! Like, night later you know!” I said
“Today is a perfect day to do some of my favorite activities!” He said
“Wich are?”
“A secret!” I giggled “Just get dressed in something cozy!”
“Wait, cozy how?” I asked
“Sweatpants and a large t-shirt!” I smiled
“Oh, something for P.E?”
“Yes love! And pack a white polo and a pleaded skirt!” He said and I frowned
“What are we going to do Niall?” I asked
“Just get ready and wait, curious George!” He laughed
“Are you calling me a monkey?” I asked, faking annoyance
“No, I’m calling you curious!” He laughed and I followed his lead
“Okay love, I’ll be at Danny’s for the next hour or so, you’ll pick me up in my house?” I asked
“Sure, see you in two hours then! I love you!” I let a stupid smile appear in my face “Bye!” He hanged up , leaving me with the stupid smile in my face
“Johanna?” Danny called “Angel?” I kept without answering because I was in the clouds “OMG! He just told you the ‘I love you’ over the phone hasn’t he?” I giggled “All the confirmation I needed!” I giggled harder
“We just don’t say it that often!” I said
“It’s good, that way you won’t let the word get too used, that way it’ll remain special and it’ll make you be like this all the times he says that to you!” She sighed “Pretty romantic of me hu?” I smiled
“I want to know where you got that deep feeling thing!” I said
“Disappointments!” I could tell she shrugged “But don’t try to change the subject. Twenty minutes, my house, DH stuff!” She said “HURRY!”
“Okay, okay, bye!”I said, smiling and I hanged up.
Can I just say that I’m seriously happy I have Danny as my friend? She’s so open to talk about everything. About things I could certainly not talk about with my mom. Can you imagine? Me talking about sex with my mom? God, it would be too weird! She would probably ran out of words and I would just stand there, awkwardly, without anything to say. I don’t even want to imagine. I got up, pulled my hair in a bun, pulled my brown uggs from the box and grabbed an equally brown jacket with fake fur, because animals have rights too, and dressed it over my simple white hoodie and my pair of skinny jeans to cover me up from the cold.
The day was rather cold today, tomorrow we will have snow, for sure. I ran out my room and grabbed my car keys.
“Mom, dad, I’m going to Danny’s!” I got out of the door, running to my car and opening the door quickly. I turned on the heating and started driving, damn, it was cold today.
**
“Wow!” Danny said
I was holding a shaking cup of tea in my hands to keep them warm. I had told Danny everything. She pushed me to do so. But I still don’t know what I did was right or wrong. I was just so confused. Overwhelmed is the right word. Overwhelmed about the love I felt, about the feelings that only he could give me, overwhelmed by the burning on my skin every time he touched me… The sense of being complete when he was with me. That’s right, I was overwhelmed.
Danny looked almost dreaming, day-dreaming, and I was not liking it. When she looked at my frowning, she shook her head, waking up from her own dreams. I frowned harder and Danny laughed out loud, completely amused.
“It doesn’t matter how hard I try, I will NEVER be capable of imagining you doing that!” She laughed again and I felt all of me relax.
My shoulders relaxed, my eyes closed and a feeling of peace invaded my soul. Wait, was I suffering from jealousy?
“I know that look on your face!” Danny said “it’s the same look you have when you see someone eating and you can’t do the same!” Danny smiled “Your jealous!” She laughed and jumped on top of the me, making the cup fly and dump all the content on us.
We both laughed out loud when Danny started ticklish me. I am extremely ticklish, everywhere. Danny knows that and she uses it as her advantage over me, it’s kind of annoying sometimes, but I’m actually glad she knows me so well.
“I’m not jealous!” I said over laughs.
“Oh yeah? What if I went to Niall and started kissing him?” Her words stung like a needle in my heart “What if I gave him what he truly wants? Sex? How would you feel?” She was smiling and I understood her true intention. I smiled towards the ground, answering truthfully
“I would probably kill you!” I whispered and Danny smiled wider
“See? That is jealousy!” Danny said, making me look up at her
I never liked being jealous. It’s awful and a feeling that almost kills everything inside of yourself. Your start thinking about things you shouldn’t, you start warring too much and then you start smothering the person you want to keep as yours. I know this because I was jealous when Danny got Steve Peterson as a boyfriend and she spent all the time she could with him, hiding in the bathroom. Like I didn’t knew what they were doing… But I needed her. I needed her to keep me company because, I had no one. I had no one, I was the complete opposite of her so called ‘boyfriend’ who had and entourage of friends so big they wouldn’t all fit in my houses’ enormous living room. I felt alone for a week, just a week, until Danny got tired of Steve’s body and came to me again. Of course I was seeing things in places where I shouldn’t. Danny was just having fun without me because I didn’t knew how to do it. Jealousy is just bad.
“Jealousy is not a bad thing Angel!” Danny said, looking up at the sky “It just emphasizes the fact that you do really love him!” Her huge blue eyes touched mine and I was just hypnotized.
Who was this girl and what has she done to my best friend who doesn’t care about feelings? Danny never talked to me like she had done the past month. We never talked a lot about emotions and stuff like that. Danny didn’t like it and I never had true feelings towards anyone that wasn’t her or my family. We didn’t had a lot to talk about when the topic was feelings. We just talked about random things here and there, and it was enough to make me love her to pieces. Seeing my frowning, she smiled
“I talk like this now, because I know your feelings for him are true!” She sighed, looking at the sky again, like I used to do “Before you didn’t have anything to compare my feelings with, now you do. You know the happiness you felt when he said it back?” I knew she was referring to the ‘I love you’ in the beach moment. The moment when I gave another ‘first’ to Niall. I just simply nodded and Danny looked at me “Well, multiply that by five!” She paused “And turn the happy feeling for something bad, change happiness by sadness! That’s how I felt!” She sighed “The feeling you had when he broke up with you… I was like that. That’s how I know you truly love him, so deeply it even hurts you to stay away from him. The touch of his fingers on your skin makes you set on fire, the slightest glimpse of his shiny eyes are enough to make your insides melt and his lips… his lips make you go crazy just to feel the softness and the warmth, to feel the love flow between the two of you!” Danny sadly smiled “Yeah, that’s love!” She said, playing with my hair.
My head was now on top of her lap, she was sat back in the couch and when we stopped joking around and started having this serious talk, I laid back on her because I knew she would always comfort me when I needed, just like I comfort her when she was the one in need. That’s the type of thing I love about us, we’re always there for each other, no matter how many boyfriends may come, how many ups and downs, sadness and tears, laughs and smiles, I will always know she’ll always be here for me when I need her to.
“Thank you!” I said
“For what love?” She asked, frowning
“For being my blondie!” I said, smiling truthfully
“For every blond there had to be a brunette!” She smiled like I had done before, truthfully “That’s why you love me so much!” She said, grabbing some of her hairs and pushing them back in a weird ‘I’m the queen of the world’ movement. Of course she was joking.
“Maybe!” I laughed as Danny’s mom walked into the room.
“Oh, hello Johanna!” She smiled at me
“Hi Ellen!” I said, getting up and hugging her
“How are you dear?” She asked
“I’m fine!” I shrugged
“Oh really, your mum told me you were quite sad this past week!” I sighed. I would be much more sad if she had let me do so, if she didn’t force me to keep a fake smile on my lips “But I see my daughter made you laugh!” She smiled at Danny, a loving smile. Oh, how I wish I got that “That’s good, you know she’s always here for you, and me too!” She smiled
“Thank you Ellen!” I said and she smiled
“Oh please, you can call me mum, it’s not like Danny doesn’t call that to your mum sometimes!” I smiled warmly
“Thanks mum!” I said, embarrassed
“Now, you two carry on with your talk, I’ll go do…” She looked around “…whatever it was I was going to do!” Both Danny and I laughed out loud as she exited the room
“She likes you, you know!” Danny said
“My mum likes you too, you’re like the daughter she never had, the daughter who talks back to her!” I said, smiling “Did you notice that she always smiles when you confront her? I think she actually likes that!” I laughed and Danny shrugged.
“I just think she’s too frigid. She needs to relax a bit and let go of the controlling issues she has… Oh, and the fast she makes you ‘not fall in temptation’!”
“At least I haven’t fall in the temptations of flesh!” I said, biting my lip next. Danny turned to me with a smile, a perverted smile on her lips. Shoot, I messed up
“You haven’t yet!” Danny said “And please, please don’t try to fool me saying you have never ever imagines how he is in bed!” She giggled “I think you even dreamt about it haven’t you?” She elbowed me and I leaned my head down, blushing heavily. I did not want to tell her about my random thoughts that night when me and him… when I gave him one of my firsts. Another one. I would be lying if I said my dreams weren’t…. intense. My body was just full of jumping hormones and … And I just had a dream. I don’t want to remember it, because it was… well, it just was. I blushed heavily “See, I knew you had!” She laughed “Damn, with a guy like that as my boyfriend I would do so too!”
I just smiled, feeing the pinching feeling in my cheeks get even bigger. I needed to stop thinking and talking about this. This topic, his body, all of his anatomy will be the death of me. And I’ll sin, I’ll gladly sin and die if his entire body is mine so I can adore him and touch his skin, caress his hair and feel his muscles, stroke his hairs and feel his lips on mine.
“I have to go love!” I said, crossing my arms around my chest as I stood in the middle of the living room
“Wait! Why? We were finally talking about DH stuff, c’mon Johanna, don’t leave me here all by myself!” She fake cried “Why do you have to go anyways?” She asked and I giggled
“Boyfriend plans!” I shrugged, feeling the intensity under my skin after I thought about those blue eyes that used to pierce into mine and warm my body automatically
“Alright! I can’t compete with your famous boyfriend!” She said, making a puppy face
“Your famous too!” I simply said and she smiled
“Yes, I am!” I giggled and pulled my jacket more to me, pulling the zipper up “What are you guys going to do?” She asked
“It’s a surprise, but I have to wear something cozy!” I said, shrugging
“Cozy as in P.E. cozy?” She asked and I nodded “Probably a good afternoon to spend with the love of your life!” She smiled widely at me and I smiled back “Have fun, but wear a condom! Safety above everything!” I got red again, looking at the ground
”Danny!” I pleaded “Your mom could be listening to us!” I said and Danny smiled
“Don’t worry about her, she can keep a secret! Now go, and remember…” I cut her off
“Safety first!” I giggled, turning around to walk to the door
“See you again in two days maybe! I’ll go burry myself in clothes and high heels. Christmas shopping spree!” Danny said
“Okay love, bye!” I said, getting out the house.
**
As I looked at myself in the mirror, I couldn’t imagine what type of feeling I would get when I saw him. My family was out of the house, I was all alone. My hair was pulled in a high pony tail. I was wearing a pair of tight black leggings that finished above the knee and a white tank top. Over the top I had a pink sweater and I had a pair of white all stars on my feet. I took a better look at my eyes and saw they were completely green. Of course they were, I was going to see my boyfriend in just a few minutes.
I wander if he feels the same I feel when I’m with him. I just feel things so intensely, what if he doesn’t? What if he questions himself about his feelings towards me? Does he really love me? C’mon, I’m being melodramatic again, and if I don’t calm down I’ll have a panic attack. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing.
“I’m here! X” I smiled widely and grabbed my black backpack, putting it on my shoulders and running down the stairs.
I opened the door, closing it behind me instantly. My heart ached to see him once more, to see him after what we have done. After that night. I was also worried, worried something might had change. But deep down, I knew nothing would change between us.
When I turned to face him, he was leaning against the car, a pair of blue large sweatpants and a sweater over his torso. He looked at me, from my feet till my eyes and smiled. I smiled back, walking quickly till I got to him. I jumped on his neck, feeling the smell of soap once I buried my nose in his neck.
“Hi!” I sweetly said when I felt his hand surrounding my waist.
“Hello!” He said in a whisper, tightening his hold in me “You’re incredibly good looking today!” I pulled back, frowning
“Why?”
“I look good, holding you!” He smiled “I look good on you!” I giggled, hugging him again
“What are we going to do?” I asked him and he planted a kiss in my neck.
“Come!” He grabbed my hand, pulling me towards the door of his car and opening it so I could get in.
Once I did, Niall ran to his door and got in. He started the car and I changed the radio to the CD he had in the car. I started singing
“The story f my life I give her hope, I spend her love, until she’s broke inside. The story of my life!” I sighed, recognizing the melodic angel voice
“You sing so beautifully!” He said and I smiled shyly
“No I don’t!” I said
“Yes, you do!” I giggled, noticing the car had stopped. Wow, the trip was fast.
I got out of the car and looked around. A football field. Perfect. I always had loved football. People who think I’m the perfect little girl don’t know the least thinking about me. I’m kind of a tomboy, well, just a single tiny bit. I love basketball and basketball. I don’t know why people think I’m so perfect just because I am who I am.
“You like it?” He asked, wrapping a hand around my waist
“I love it!” I said, looking at the green grass and noticing some feet on top of it “You brought the guys?” I asked
“Yeah!” He said “And the girls!” I smiled at him, giving him a small chaste kiss.
“Thanks!” I said, one of my hands on his cheek, pulling him to me
“The afternoon has just begun for us, we have a lot to do!” He said and I frowned, imagining what he was talking about.
He walked with me till the group who was waiting for us in the middle of the field. Hey were all in a circle, talking about something.
“Louis is in my team!” I heard Harry saying
“Lou is the best football player!” Niall whispered in my ear, making me swallow by the toen he was using “But I’m pretty good too!”
“Flatters much?” I asked, joking
“No, just the truth!” I laughed, calling everybody’s attention to myself
“Hi cute couple!” Eleanor said and I smiled
“Hi El!” I said, waving at them. Niall’s fingers were still holding to my waist as I walked towards them. “Is nice to see you all again!”
“You too love, I’m glad you took this dumbass back!” Louis said, wrapping an arm around his neck and messing Niall’s hair. He mumbled something to Louis and I laughed
“I’m glad I took him back too!” I smiled shyly and blushed a bit
“So, let’s play shall we?” Zayn said, making the ball spin in his fingers
“Let’s!” Perrie said and stole him the ball “I’m on Louis team, and so is Johanna! She had to win the first time she plays! It’s courtesy!”
“I think you’ll have a surprise Pezz!” Niall said and I smiled at him “Just pass her the ball!” He winked at me and kissed my cheek before he walked towards Zayn and Liam.
My team was Louis, Harry and Perrie! One of the team would have to have a missing member and we promptly said we could be that team. I was excited to play against Niall. I wanted to see if he was that good in football as he says. And I could actually confirm that as he passed by almost every player in my team, except me and Lou. With a big effort, he passed Louis and was now running in my direction. I ran to him, trying to take the ball from his feet, and I managed to do so. He was mad. He lost to me. I ran to the goal but I didn’t kicked the ball, I don’t have enough strength to make the ball get in, so I passed it to Lou. And we were winning 1-0. We celebrated and I felt a pair of hands pulling me to him, biting my neck hard.
“You stole the ball from me!” He whispered and I giggled, biting my lip
“I did!” I said
“You shouldn’t have!” He started to ticklish me. What is it with everybody and tickles?
“Niall…” I laughed “Niall stop!” I yelled, trying to get rid of his hand “St-Stop!”I hugged his neck when he stopped “You get cranky when you lose!” I said in his ear, still trying to catch my breath.
“Hum, well, someone has to have that attitude!”
I smiled, kissing the place under his ear, sending shivers down his spine. He had goosebumps in his neck.
“You’re right, let’s go play!” I said, getting away from him. He wasn’t amused, I could tell that and I smiled widely when that happened.
We quickly went back to the game. I think we played for an hour till everybody was tired and ready to go home. But I knew Niall and I weren’t ready to go home. He said we had more to do this afternoon and I am completely exasperate to know what it is.
“Bye guys!” I said, waving from the window of the car tot the two cars in movement. Niall smiled at me and held my hand while driving “Niall, where are we…” He cut me off
“Shh!” He said and I frowned, I didn’t like this, I wanted to know where we were going.
The sun was still shining bright outside and carefree people walked in the sidewalks, accompanied by their lovers or family. Everything is just prettier when Christmas is near isn’t it? Everybody gets happier and joy is freely spread. I think what I like the most in Christmas, beside eating and actually being able of talking during dinner, is the street lights. I don’t know why, but I do like them. They just brighten everything.
“Hey, what are you smiling about?” He asked, parking the car
“Christmas lights!” I shrugged, smiling
“Christmas lights?” He asked, raising one eyebrow and smiling. He, then, shook his head negatively “God knows what goes inside your head woman!” I giggled
“Christmas is around Niall, I’m jolly!” I smiled and he laughed, kissing my lips before he got out
“Bring your backpack!” He said and I obeyed, getting out of the car. Niall’s arm surrounded my shoulders, walking me to the front door of the place.
He opened it so I could walk pass it and so I did. Niall held my hand once inside and took me to a wooded counter. Behind it was a very pretty blond with a pair of big breasts. Shoot!
“Hello Brittany!” Niall said in his normal tone. I thought even the girls hairs would change to red seeing the color of her cheeks.
“Hello Mr. Horan!” She didn’t even noticed me or she did it on porpoise?
“I’ll be going to the court this afternoon!” He said. I felt something pinching inside of me. That feeling again… I don’t like it
“As you wish sir. Can I do something for you?” She said and I noticed her eyes were starting to make the path down his torso.
She didn’t even stop when Niall cleared his throat. He was feeling awkward or was he liking it? I have no idea, I just know it was paining me to watch this. I turned my back at her, pressing my eyes shut.
“Johanna?” I heard someone call, someone I knew too well.
“Yes?” I answered, a bit rudely, turning around
“Are you fine love?” He asked and I nodded, my lips pressed in one thin line and my eyebrows frowning
“I am!” I said. He took a step in my direction, his hands held my waist
“I know your not!” He whispered sadly “Talk to me!” He begged and I bit my lip
“I feel awkward Niall!” I whispered and he smiled widely “Don’t judge me okay? She was practically undressing you with her eyes!” I snorted “What are we doing here anyways?” I asked and he smiled, getting closer to me.
“I am all yours love, nobody else’s. You know why?” He asked
“Why?” I asked, snorting
“Because you’re the one I think about every time before I go to bed!” He said and I frowned “No matter if I do flirt with other girls or not, wich I don’t by the way, you’re the one I always think about before I go to bed, because you’re the one I want! Always and forever!” He joined his nose with mine, giving me an Eskimo kiss. I smiled widely, giggling a bit and he smiled too, leaning down to press his lips on mine carefully, slowly but still passionately “Did I make your jealousy go away?” He asked and I blushed
“Yes!” I said
“Great, and by the way, I don’t like brunettes with blue eyes and fake tans!” He said, rolling his eyes “I like brunettes with very weird eye color and pale skin, I prefer girls who get goosebumps every time I touch them in the neck, or kiss them in the same spot!” I giggled when his lips came close to my neck, but he let go of me before he even kissed me there. He walked towards the blond girl again, but before he reached it, he turned to me and said so only I could hear “Oh, and I like virgins too!” I widened my eyes, aware of the redness of my cheeks and Niall laughed, turned around and kept walking towards the counter. We were only a few meters away from her since he followed me when I took three steps away from him.
“Here you go sir!” I turned, hearing her sad voice. I was actually sad for her.
She clearly had a platonic crush for him since forever and now I was feeling awful because I got jealous. It was kind of childish too. I mean… C’mon, I don’t need to be jealous right? So why do I keep having this feeling that whenever some girl gets close to him? Because she’s prettier than you! My subconscious said to me and I immediately pressed my lip against each other. Don’t have a panic attack Johanna, there’s no need to, he explained I to you, stop being insecure.
“Thanks Brittany!” He said, grabbing the keys and walking towards me, intertwining our fingers.
“You welcome sir!” She said and Niall pulled me towards a room.
I remembered he still hasn’t told me what we were doing there. He pointed at dark brown wooded door with the symbol of a woman. Next to it, there was a door with the symbol of a man.
“Get in, get changed, I’ll be waiting here the time you do so!” He whispered and I smiled, nodding. I pecked his lips and walked towards the door, pushing it and getting in.
The inside of the locker rooms were similar to the locker rooms of the pool she used to go to with Danny. The walls were white, the lockers were green and there were light color wooded benches in front of the lockers. I looked at my key and searched for the number 13. When I found it, I opened it and took all the clothes from inside the backpack. I took all my clothes off and put them inside the locker, closing it next. I kept the key in a visible place so I wouldn’t lose track of it. And I got into my skirt, my pleaded red skirt and my black t-shirt. I kept my white all stars and walked outside, the key in my hand.
Once I pushed the door back, I looked around to find Niall leaning against the wall, waiting for me. He was wearing a pair of tight pants, fitted in the upper part. A white t-shirt covered his torso and a pair of white sneakers were on his feet. I swallowed. Damn…
“Hi gorgeous!” He said and I smiled at him “You look wonderful!” He said, looking at my outfit
“You too!” I managed to say and he smiled
“Thank you love!” He kissed my now “Now, let’s go!” He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards another door. I almost didn’t noticed he grabbed a big bag with golf clubs. I swallowed. Please, not golf.
I tried to play it with my dad once. Awful, I threw the club in the water and hit the man that was with my dad in the stomach with the ball. Ad those balls aren’t light let me tell you. As Niall pulled me across a field till a golf cart, I couldn’t stop wandering why he would bring me here to do this. It’s one of his favorite activities? Playing golf? I’m being honest when I say I can’t imagine him playing golf. I really can’t. I mean, the uncontrolled, funny and not the least bit serious Niall, paying golf? I thought golf was supposed to only be played by serious people, like my dad, or Danny’s dad, or even Mark, one of my dad’s friends and the owner of a big architecture firm.
Niall was an excellent driver, even in golf carts. When I had a ride on one the first time, it was with my dad, and he didn’t have much control over it. Niall has it, completely. It’s like he does this often. I don’t want to make a scene in front of him because I don’t know how to play, but I would be disappointed if I fail.
“ What’s wrong?” He asked, concern in his voice
How can I tell him golf is frustrating to me? How can I tell him I can’t play without making a fool out of myself? I don’t want to make a fool out of myself in front of him… I don’t want to lose him and, although I feel like we have is strong, I don’t want to take him as granted. Because nothing in life is granted…
“You’ll see!” I chose to say
He nodded, and stopped the cart. He jumped out and I did so too, carefully because I had a skirt on. It wasn’t very short because I don’t do short skirts. I don’t actually think I own one. Niall started searching through his clubs and gave one to me. I looked at it, frowning. It was exactly as I remembered it the last time I was playing, heavy, made of steel and shiny. Niall put the sunglasses I hadn’t even noticed before in his eyes, probably to keep the sun from bothering him. And he walked towards me, grabbing my hand and pulling me to the court.
He put a ball in place as I stood a few meters away from him. He was leaning, the tight pants were now letting me really notice his bum. Like I haven’t felt it under my hands yet. I recognized the position he was in as the same my father used to have. With a swing, he hit the ball. Ad it flew till the middle of the court, landing with a loud sound I could hear.
He turned to face me. Although I couldn’t see his eyes, I knew he was expectant and that killed me. Not to be capable of filling his expectations killed me a bit inside because I wanted to, I wanted to always fill his expectations.
“C’mon now!” He hurried, walking in my direction and pushing me to the place where I should start in.
Of course he assumed I had played already so I just stood there, all by myself, knowing I would disappoint him. I grabbed the club as I could and put myself in a place where I knew I would probably hit the ball. I heard a laugh coming from behind me.
“You’re not even holding it right!” He laughed and I frowned
“Whatever!” I snorted, swinging and hoping I would hit the ball. Wrong!
The ball kept in the same place as it was before and I snorted. I didn’t knew how to do it, I never was good at this. Never ever. My dad tried, and he tried very hard to teach me, but I constantly got people around me hurt so I just gave up. It was the best for me and for the people around me… Damn, I was a mess!
“Here!” He appeared behind me, grabbing the club and putting it right in my hands. His body was completely covering mine as I could feel every muscle of his body behind me. We were glued “Knees bent!” He said, bending his own knees and I did the same because he pushed my knees to the front too. “Bum out!” One of his hands surrounded my waist, right on top of the band of the skirt and pulled my waist to him a bit. I swallowed, feeling every muscle I owned under my belly button, tightening “Straight back!” His hand pressed in the middle of my back, pushing it to the front and now my back were perfectly straight. So much it was even hurting me. “Now, relax and swing the club!” He whispered in my ear and I nodded. His hands covered mine over the club and he swung the club in my hands with me.
Of course it didn’t fall as far away as his did, but I was actually capable of hitting the ball now, that was a big step. I smiled, knowing only him and his caring could make me do this. I felt so weird when I was with him. Always. There’s not a single day that goes by when I’m with him that I don’t feel strange, strangely in love. But I wanted to know, I needed to know if the things he felt were the same as mine, just in case, to prevent any type of misunderstanding from my part, my curious part.
“How do you feel when you’re with me?” I said, leaning my head ninety degrees so I could look at his expression
“I…” I could tell he didn’t knew how to answer it. I turned around to face him. He took a step in my direction and held my hand “Do you feel your heart fastening when I do this?” He asked and joined our bodies quickly “Do you feel the need to be this close to me?” He asked and I swallowed. He approached his face of mine “Do you want to kiss me every time I do this?” He asked again and I nodded this time “Do you need to feel me? Do you need to touch me?” He asked and one of his hands was now behind my neck, making me lean behind
“I need you, always!” I breathed
“You want to know how I know all of this and what you just have told as well?” He asked and I nodded. He leaned in, whispering in my ear like it was a secret “Because I feel the same!” I smiled widely, looking to the ground “Because there’s nothing else out there for me besides you!” He breathed “Boys do feel the same as girls!” He pulled back, leaving a soft kiss in my neck. My body was now completely full of goosebumps. “The ones who think we don’t are just dumb! All people have feelings and all of them are the same. People grown attached to each other, they start caring and soon enough they’ll love the person… Because that’s what’s happening here!” He motioned his hand between the both of us “Love!”

Notes

How long has it been? Two weeks? I'm so, so sorry you guys.School is killing me and I have a teacher that's just awful and she simply dislikes me for no reason what so ever so I have to study hard for her classes and exams. And I had a lot of them thise two weeks. I'm so sorry, it's my fault!
Ps: Shout out to Dots and her amazing story Silent. Please readi it you guys, it's awesome. She's one of my best friends and her story is soo good. I read all of it and you guys can't even imagine what will happen. Please, please read it, it's important!
Love you all, and once again, sorry for taking so long. School sucks :P