I kept holding on to his hair while he detoured the kissed from my mouth to my neck, leaving soft and wet kisses all over my pale skin. He was over me, his hands in the sides of my head, supporting his body over mine not to let his weight fall over me. I was excited, yes, excited. I needed to do this, I wanted to do this. Or did I? I was just too angry to think. I held on to his hair again. He disconnected his lips from my skin to moan out loud in pleasure. As response, he pressed more his crotch on mine, making me moan this time.
He smiled against my shoulder and kissed the skin again. Suddenly, two hands grabbed my thighs and wrapped them around his waist, locking them firmly around him, making me feel him hardening under me. He bit my shoulder skin hard, making me moan loudly again. My body was numb in the places where his rough hands touched my body, like ants were running up them. He was brushing my thighs up and down, up and down. I felt uncomfortable wearing my clothes, now it all seemed very … tight. The environment inside the car was hot, burning hot. My breath was heavy and I was constantly trying to breath and failing in the process of trying. He started to pull my dress up till my thighs. My heart almost wanted to jump out of my chest when I hugged him by the waist.
I pressed him against my chest so he could feel my heart beat, so he could feel me, feel the same I’m feeling. He looked up from my shoulder and stopped on front of me, looking directly in my eyes. I could tell I was red. My lips offered him a huge smile, one he didn’t gave back. I turned serious and he immediately let me go.
The place where his hands touched me, was still numb but less, like something was missing… And it was. He sat back in the seat and I crossed my legs over the seat, turned to him who was turned to the front of the car. We stood in silence for a while, an awkward silence. Maybe I done something wrong and I didn’t notice it. He was, almost, lost in his own world. It happens a lot, he loses trail, just like I do. His eyes were fixated in one point of the outside and his lips were pressed in one hell of a thin line. I extended my hand and reached his arm, shaking it for him to wake up.
“Niall…”He cut me off
“Yo can’t do this!” He said and I stood silent for one second
Do what? Make love to my boyfriend? Lose my virginity to the person I love the most in this world? Do what exactly? His eyes were stuck in mine, piercing and burning at the same time.
“You can’t trust me in these things! I almost forgot who you were when you were responding to me!” I shivered
“F-Forget?” I asked
“I have been deprived of sex for the last, what? Two, three weeks? The only thing I could think about was being inside of you, cum inside of you with no protection what so ever, completely forgetting the fact that you are a virgin! I rather have you not responding to me than do this!” I was already blushed by the time he said he wanted to be inside of me.
I was feeling guilty. I was acting out of rage and I, accidentally caused this on him. I was feeling… tight too.
“I’m not comfortable!” I said in a whisper
“I-I’m sorry! I won’t talk about this if you don’t want to!” He said, looking deeply into my eyes, begging
“It’s not because of that, it’s….” I sighed “Forget it!”
“No! Tell me!” I looked at him deeply, not wanting to say it “Please!” He grabbed my wrist and put my palm over his chest “Tell me!”He whispered in a sexy tone, almost making me moan just from listening to it.
“I’m feeling tight!” I swear his heart skipped a beat when I whispered those words
He stood still for a second, not moving and his tightening in my wrist got looser. I looked over at him, he was looking at me. I unconsciously bit my lip when he started laughing. I made a full out of myself. I absolutely made a full out of myself. I did! Shoot.I blushed heavily and looked down, pressing my eyes shut.
“Look at me!” He asked and I slowly opened my eyes like he requested. He was wearing a smile and grabbed my hand “It’s normal!” He assured “You don’t have to feel uncomfortable! You can talk about this with me!”
“O-Okay!” I agreed
“I know I’m your first boyfriend! And I also happen to know all of that, was out of rage because of what they told you!” I lowered my head, feeling guilty. He made me look up, hi thumb covering my chin “I don’t mind being the misfit if it means I’ll have you!” I smiled widely, feeling my cheeks almost tear apart “But, back to the ‘I’m your first boyfriend’ thing, I want this to be special! We’re not in gossip girl, you’re not Blair Waldorf and I am not Chuck Bass!”
I laughed out loud, truthfully amused and he frowned at me, making puppy eyes at the same time.
“You like Gossip Girl?” I asked, holding in a bigger laugh. He nodded “You kind of are Chuck Bass!” I said and looked to the ceiling of the car “You are, well, were the womanizer! I’m still unsure if I really got you hooked or not!” I said and sighed.
Suddenly two hand pushed me against the bench of the car again. I was in my back, him over me, again. His eyes were stuck on mine, piercing and burning. I stopped breathing when he leaned down and started kissing my neck. I rolled my eyes before I closed them in pure pleasure. I don’t know if I like this effects, the ones he has on me. I grabbed his hairs and he bit my neck, hard. Before I could yell out of pain, he kissed me, preventing me from doing so. I immediately relaxed and all my neck was right now, was numb.
“Now, don’t you ever question that!” He breathed against my lips “You think I would stop with another girl if it meant having sex?” He asked “No! I wouldn’t because it’s hard for a guy to stop! How will I cover this up now!” He pressed his crotch on mine
“Niall, don’t…” I begged and he smiled
“Do not worry!” He formally said “I don’t want to do it, here!” He looked around the car “Filthy! Though, we might someday!” I gasped and he smiled widely, laughing by his nose with my expression “Let’s go out? Face your family, tell them everything is alright and we are bigger than this! Let’s?”I nodded
I composed myself, pulled the skirt of my dress down and shook my hairs to give them more volume. Niall didn’t need a thing, he was perfect. He always was, to me at least. His hair was messed, his clothes fitted perfectly and tighten in the perfect places. He got up and searched for something in the compartments in the doors. He grabbed a pair of black Ray Bans and put them over his face, covering his blue eyes.
“Why would you…?” I asked and he cut me off
“I didn’t have much sleep. I forgot them when I left here to go and steal you all to myself!” I smiled sweetly
“You should sleep more, though you can’t really see the bags underneath your eyes!”
“Let’s go shall we?” he asked, truly anxious
“Are you nervous or something?” He nodded “Why?”
“Because I’m afraid your parents won’t like me anymore because of this!” I laughed
“I’ll protect you!” I leaned and kissed the tip of his nose sweetly “Let’s go!” I said, opening the door, holding his hand and pulling him out of the car. We walked towards the huge entrance of the hall. It was huge. It was like, twice my size, all made in black wood and had windows in the side.
I sighed before I pulled Niall into the room again. The scene in front of me made me get dizzy. My mom and Jackie’s mom, my aunt Sophie were side to side, turned to her and they looked like they were arguing. The room was full of chairs, five of wich were being occupied by the remaining members of my family, my dad and my sisters. When I turned to my dad, my expression was worried. He was already looking at me and I shivered with that. I asked him mentally if everything was okay. He gave me a small nod and I smiled
Jackie let out a groan of anger and walked towards the door, with was right behind me and Niall. She walked right by my side, and when we were side by side, her turned to the door, me turned to the room, she talked.
“I hate you!” I smiled sarcastically
“Oh! Grab a chair and wait for me to care!” She groaned again and got out of the door. Niall was biting his lips when I turned to him, trying to hold on a laugh inside. I smiled to him. He grabbed my waist out of nothing and my head popped in response. Not a good idea Niall! He didn’t care that I was struggling to make him stop, he kept holding to my waist and pulled me to the dance floor.
“Niall, don’t! I don’t know how to dance!” I whispered and he smiled
“You don’t remember that night?” He asked “I made you dance, I can make you dance right now!” I smiled
“Hum… Can you?” I provoked and he smiled malificently
“I can!” With that he made me lean down, almost touching the ground, him holding me tightly, not letting me fall. I laughed out loud, holding on to his neck for my life. He pulled me up, making me spin and, when I stopped, he hugged me by my waist, pulling me close to him. His hands were slightly brushing my bum, luckily I was turned to the place where my parent were. And they were watching us like hawks. Everybody was, no one was eating yet since the lunch got late and they put music on. My family is the sat back and relaxed type of people, they don’t like action very much. I like how active Niall is, it’s different, and funny and cute.
He let his chin rest in my shoulder, making me feel his heavy breathing in my neck. I laughed, ticklish and Niall laughed too. He grabbed me by my waist and spin me around in the air, making me laugh louder. When he land me back on the ground, my feet sipped and we both ended up falling in the middle of the ground. We were laughing like two lunatics, something people don’t do when they fall, but he’s different, we’re different and I like it very much.
“I won’t try to make you dance ball room dances again, you really don’t have skills love!” He said while we got up.
“Hey!” I hit his arm slightly and he held on to it, faking being injured. I laughed low pitched and kissed his arm, in the place where I had hit him. He smiled “Better?”
“Better!” He answered and I pulled him to where my sisters were.
Lunch was being served. Finally, this is too much time without eating. I sat next to Niall in the table reserved for only my family. The environment seemed tense, my mom just didn’t quit looking at me and I was feeling terrible about it.
“Just say it!” Danny mumbled “Katrina, please! You’re making the whole environment here go down the toilet!” She said.
Here’s the thing, my mom is like a mom to Danny, Danny’s mom is like a mom to me. Best friends share everything… Well except food, because I don’t share food with anyone. I think my mom likes how frontal Danny is, she always answers with a smile to her statements and all. Talking about Danny, where was she? She just got in here and sat in the place I have saved for her, next to me.
My mom looked at me and I sighed, giving her a nod. She needed to know if I wouldn’t mind talking about these stuff in here. She didn’t want to cause a scene and that I made already by my own with no one’s help… Well, I have Danny’s help in everything I do, so.
“Niall…” I shivered, here comes the storm “… what do you want from my daughter!” I gasped in the spoon of soup I was trying to put inside my mouth.
“Mom!” I warned her not to continue out of embarrassment
“No, no! I-It’s fine!” Niall said and then sighed “I want noting but the best for your daughter Mrs. Skyes!” Niall said “I like her very much, she’s one of my best friends!” He looked at me and I smiled widely. Our hands were now connected under the table.
“Then you should know that you are not the best for her!” My mother said and I widened my eyes.
This is what I feared in her. Always thinking that I deserve better than anything, that our family deserves perfect things and people. She needs to get back to the real life where perfect people don’t exist. I tightened my eyes and Niall let go of my hand. I opened my eyes to look at him.
“Mrs. Skyes, I-I…” She cut him off
“Did you see what you cause there? Two cousins that always got along were turned around because of you!”
“Katrina, that’s enough!” My dad said, noticing the expression in my face
“No Tom, I need to tell him the truth, he needs to hear it “You won’t ever belong here with us Niall. You won’t ever be the best for our daughter, you won’t be able to make her happy, even as just a friend!”
“Well you said I looked happier! You were the one who said it remember?” I said and she shot me a deadly look
“Stay quiet Johanna, this is between me and him!” She said and I turned my palms into fists “You boy are taking my daughter off rail. She doesn’t study anymore, she doesn’t read anymore. Everything she does is towards you now! You’re not good for her Niall, and if you really want the best for her, you’ll leave her alone!”
I squeezed my eyes. How can my mom be such a monster? How can she be saying this to the person I love? I just can’t stand here and hear her say these things to her.
“Katrina!” My dad warned.
I knew he was looking directly at me, noticing my expression. I knew he was worried about me, about my happiness and how this moment could ruin it, forever .If Niall believed those words, it would be the end of what I call an unbroken heart.
“Not trying to disrespect you or anything ma’am, but I think I know what your daughter need to be happy, and she seems pretty happy with me!” Niall’s words seemed like music to my hears. I opened my slightly wet eyes and looked at him astonished. He was talking back! He really was talking back!
“Young man, don’t you dare…” He cut her off
“Don’t you dare what?!” He faugh back with his words, weird thing is, he was oddly calm “I won’t dare to say that I know your daughter better than you know her? Well, guess what, I will! I really do know her better than you do!” He said “Have you ever stopped and considered that you have raised a beautiful woman who loves everybody for the way they are and is not judgmental like the rest of your family here? Do you think I don’t feel the stares on me? You think I don’t feel a misfit here? Guess again, I do feel like a misfit! Not because I don’t have money because I do, actually I have as much money as you guys do, maybe even more! These…” He pointed at his arms and raised his palms latter “These are a choice of living! I do feel like a misfit but there are some things you have to accept for the people you hold close in your heart. I’m accepting this because I hold her close. I’m not here because I want to, I’m here because she asked me to! I feel like a misfit but I’ll always face that if she wants me to. Now ask yourself if I’m not the best for her!” With that, he got up from his chair and walked towards the outside of the house.
“Thank you, Niall!” Danny said, raising her eyebrows, turned to the plate of soup.
“Are you proud?” I asked, my hands still in fists, tying to held back the tears from the nervousness.
“Johanna…” My mom warned
“No more warnings! I’m sick of warnings! Do you have any idea of how much the person who left that door means to me?” I said. Unfortunately, I wasn’t gifted with the ability of talking low pitched like my boyfriend did “He means the world to me! How can you judge him based on his looks when YOU thought ME that it is a bad thing to do? How can you tell him he’s not good for me when you don’t even know the sweet things he told me, the actions he had towards me!”
“All boys are like that Johanna, they just have one thing in mind. They trick you to believe what they want!”
“He’s not tricking me!” I rolled my eyes
“Did you…?”
“Yes mom, I did! Sorry to be a huge disappointment for you and for this whole family who thinks they are so perfect. Well, guess what, you’re not. Let me start from the beginning!” I said, getting up and turned to the rest of the people in there. They were starring at us already “Jackie!” I pointed to her “No personality at all, she’s mean, judgmental and awful to everybody! Brook is a sex addict, yes honney, everybody saw you with Trevor last year. Marcie, fake as a Barbie!” I turned to my uncles who always judge my mom “None of you are better than my mom so stop even referring to us as ‘the misfits’ because we are WAY better than you and you know it, that’s why all the hate towards us!” I said “You’re all superficial, awful, mean and hurtful and I’m sick of it!” I turned to my mom “And you, right now, aren’t being any better than them! I hope you realize what you just did mother! Thank you very much for the ruin of my day!” I mad a bow towards everybody in the room. Loudly and with marked steps, I walked out of the house.
I haven’t called my mom ‘mother’ in a long time. I always call her ‘mom’, I only use the other choice when I’m truthfully hurt and mad! She knew it, I knew it. We both knew it, and right now, I felt the most angry a human being can be. My eyes were almost blind with hate, hate towards my own mother. My body was unconsciously trembling, my legs felt num, my arms were twitching. Deep down, I knew she was trying to consider what’s the best for me, but I won’t let her or any other person in the world take the guy I love from me. Not a chance. But again, she could have. I need to find him, quickly!
Only then it hit me. I just talked back to my mother! Oh shoot, I did it, all by myself! I felt, strangely happy for the did I had done. But the happiness I felt was in a secondary plan now, I had to find the man I love, and fast!
I walked towards the place his car was. And he was standing next to it. He was leaned on the hood of his car, his legs crossed and so were his arms in front of his chest. He was wearing the Ray Bans he so carefully had put on top of the table when we sat to have lunch, and was looking up at the sky. Thanks to the graveled floor, my steps became louder, giving away my intentions of getting close to him. Although I couldn’t see his eyes, I noticed his eyes were now on me. He turned his head to face me but he didn’t move the rest of his body.
I was waiting for, at least, the opening of those two arms I like so much. At least a hug, can’t I have one? I sure need it! His eyes were dead on me, I could see them sparkle behind the shades, but I wasn’t completely sure about why they were sparkling like that. I was five meter away from him. The breeze moved my hairs and the tree leaves too, along with Niall’s hair. The sound that was offered by the tree leaves was the only thing I could hear, but I would only be happy when I could hear Niall’s breath nest to my hear.
Over the sound of the breeze in the leaves, I saw him sighting. His chest moved up and down. I couldn’t hear it, but I’m sure sighting isn’t a good thing. I walked slowly towards him, my eyes on the ground. I stopped one step away from him. He was staring at me, I could feel it. I slowly looked up and he sighed again. My heart cringed in my chest and I felt like I was numb, al of me was numb.
“What’s wron-“ He cut me off
“I wanna break up!”

Notes

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