I was lying down in the property of the Michelson’s. Danny was lying down next to me. Her property is bigger than mine, she has a huge back door garden, a pool, a tennis court and a basketball court too. But the part I love the most, is the huge hill with a court.
The sight from the hill was beautiful. Danny and I use to sit there, leaning against her pine tree and looking down, getting soaked in fresh air. The court had a lot of grass, but not green, kind of yellow, like in a savanna, I like it. There were different flowers spread around the court too different colors… beautiful! I sighed, admiring the glaze upon that fairy tale sight and finally talked
“I said it!” Danny turned her head to me and frowned. My head was still resting against the tree, looking up.
The sky was completely clear, only the sun shined above us but we were protected from the harmful rays of the sun thanks to the shadow that the tree gave us. I smiled, looking up, when I noticed her confusion.
“Wait! Are we playing charades?” I frowned, a smiled in my lips and turned to face her
“Do you want to?” She nodded “Okay!” I was about to start when she cut me off
“You told Niall that you love him!” I widened my eyes
“Geez! Your charades skills are getting better since the last time we played!” We both laughed loudly
Danny was awful in charades. The last time we played it was a complete mess, Danny got frustrated because she couldn’t guess so we never played again. I never wanted her to feel bad about it so I never brought it up, until today when she said it, not me.
“So, your first I love you!” Danny sighed
“How was yours?” I asked, truthfully curious
“The worst!” Danny pulled her legs so they were bent now, she was completely turned at me now “It was after… You know! I really had deep feelings for this guy! He was leaving here when I grabbed his arm, pulled it back, looked him dead in the eyes ad said it!” She sighed again
“And what did he say?” I asked, a smile in my lips, hopping for a happy ending
“’That’s great! Now go say it to someone who cares!’” She quoted “How Gossip Girl is that?!” Danny frowned, going back to her original position, her head leaned against the tree, looking up at the sky, like mine was before.
I had no idea of what to tell her! How could I mend the damage that that guy made in her? Geez, I’m happy my parents protected me from those type of people. I’m glad they thought me the real value of an ‘I love you!’! My mom always told us that it would come out naturally because you can’t control your mouth when it comes to feelings… You just say it and that’s it! Maybe that’s why I never allowed myself to fall for anyone. I was afraid of what the emotions would bring out in me, and look, they brought out the worst in me, but also the best. Niall does that too, he brings out things he shouldn’t bring out, and, if I could I would describe him as a feeling… Love! Because that’s what he means in my life… Love!
I had no idea Danny was this broken, she never told me this before. As a matter of fact, we never talked about love in general. Sex? Sure! Grades? Problems in our adolescent life? Hell yeah! Guys that are complete jerks? Yes! But we never explored the deep feeling kind of theme, such as love and so many others related to it. This is another chapter for us, and I’m happy we are bonding in a different way… thanks’ to three simple words that carry a big amount of meaning. Maybe too much and that scared Danny! She never said I love to someone that’s not her family or me after that. One day we were talking about something and she said ‘Hey Angel, I have to go! I love you, bye!’ And she ran off.
I asked her why I haven’t heard her saying it to any of the boyfriends she had in the past years. Now I know that the phrase ‘Oh, you know, waiting for the right time!’ was just an excuse to hide how scared she was. I feel sorry that she wasted her first time saying it to that jerk who told her that. Danny was thought the value of those words too when she was younger, but growing up when you have everything and people are constantly judging you, isn’t easy! She lost some of the values that she was thought among the years. Just imagine, being called a ‘fatty’ when you were younger, how do you think she felt? She was obviously scared, but when she came back next summer, people almost didn’t recognize her. She was fit, hot, the guys were drooling over her, the other girls completely jealous, she got attention, attention she didn’t have before. Drunk in power, in this case, attention. Her virginity got lost, so did those three meaningful words to a bastard who deserves never to hear them again. I always warned her to wait, she didn’t care and now look what happened. I hate to play the ‘I told you so card’ but sometimes it needs to be played.
Instead of playing rough on her, I decided to go easy. She doesn’t have the total fault, it’s just how she is and if she likes who she is, I like her even more… To pieces! I looked at her, a smile in my face. She was still looking up, concentrated on her own thoughts. I shook her arm and she looked at me. Seeing my smile made her smile too to my happiness. I grabbed her hand and got up, her next to me. We walked down the hill till we got to the open field.
I sat in the middle of it, Danny in front of me. She frowned, a vague smile on my lips. I love how she does this, it’s like she can predict I’m gonna d something cute for her. I smiled and pointed to a weed flower between us. She frowned and shrugged
“Just a weed flower!” She normally said and now it was my time to frown
“Some see a weed flower!” I shrugged “I see a wish!” I cut the flower and put it in front of her, my arm extended, my fingers completely closed around it like a small kid “Make one and blow!” I said
Danny looked weirdly at me, like I was crazy, but then she must have reminded herself that I really was so she just shook her head and smiled widely. It’s amazing how her blond hairs and her smile sparkle even more with the sun, her blue eyes getting more clear at every minute that passes. She thought about it for a second, looking at the sky, biting the inside of her cheek and then she looked down, directly at the weed, almost switching her eyes. It was really close to her nose… She took a deep breath and finally blew the weed away. The small seeds flew away to create new flowers latter. They slowly floated away from the ground and toward the sun.
Danny had a huge smile on her face, what only made me what to smile even more. She got up and encouraged me to do the same, when I did so, she started to run across the field, her arms stretched, imitating plain wings. I used to do that when I was happy. With a laud laugh I ran after her in the field. We ran towards different ways till we bumped into each other, falling in the burnt grass, hugging each other. We were laughing so loud, I think we scared the birds in the tree. I laid back, letting go of her and looking up, my arms next to my head and palms turned up.
“Thanks!” Danny said, grabbing my hand and taking it on hers. I don’t know how long we been laid on the grass but I know I got up when it was starting to get dark. It was Sunday and I have classes tomorrow. I sat and turned to Danny.
“Hey! I have to go! It’s getting dark and I want to rest because of classes!” Danny instantly rolled her eyes
“Johanna, we don’t have classes!” I frowned
“What do you mean we don’t have classes?” I asked, confusion installed on my head
“I mean, classes are over, Christmas vacation remember?” She asked and I giggled
“I’m sorry, I forgot! I’ve been… Off this last week!” I said, remembering my last week and how tiring that was for me
“yeah, I know! Well, if you have to go anyways, go! I wouldn’t want to take you away from your boyfriend!” She sighed “My baby’s growing up!” She spoke like she was old, really old, 15th century old. I smiled
“Well mother, birds have to leave their nests eventually!” I spoke like she did, cordially and got up. Danny laughed and I gave her a bow “I have to leave now mother, see you later!” She got up and hugged me out of the blue. I was shocked
“I love you little Angel!” I smiled warmly and hugger her tightly “Now, go see your boyfriend and leave my property!” She pulled back and I gave her a small and steady nod
I walked out of the Michelson’s property, getting into my car. Before I started it I dialed his number, the number I (accidentally I admit) had now carved in my mind. I joined the phone with my ear and leaned back against the cars seat, hugging myself and carefully listening to every beep that came from the phone.
“Hello?” The voice that I love said
“Hi love!” I spoke tenderly
“Hello my princess! What are you doing?” He asked
“Just sitting in the car, hearing my favorite sound in the world!” I said
“That is?” He asked
“Your voice!” I could tell he smiled “I know when you smile!” I admitted
“Well, you caught me there! I really was!” He said
“But anyways, what are you doing?” I asked
“Would you believe if I told you that I’m watching TV with a huge plate of food in front of me?” I smiled
“Of course I would. I know how much you love to eat!”
“Well, that’s just true! Anyways, any special reason that may explain why you called?” He asked
“Well, I didn’t knew I needed to have one when I called my boyfriend, but that’s fine I guess!” I faked annoyance and he noticedI was faking it. I had the confirmation when he laughed “But well, I called to ask if you have any type of plans for today!”
“Why? Are you planning on taking me on a date?” He asked
“We haven’t been on a lot of them have we?” I observed
“When you’re at home, with me, alone, it still counts as a date!” Niall said and I could tell he rolled his eyes. I giggled about it “Anyways, what are you feeling like doing today?”
“Something fun!” I immediately spoke “I have recently done some things that made me reverse to my childish self so something fun would do!” I laughed
“You never lost the three year old laugh!” I frowned
“Are you saying I laugh like a three year old?!” I asked “Well, you laugh like an old man!” I said
“Yeah, yeah! Admit you like my laugh!” I smiled
“I like your laugh!” I blushed. I hate when he does this, even by the phone he can make me blush
“Well, I like your laugh too babe!” I blushed harder “Are you blushing?” He asked “Forget it, I can tell you are! Anyways, get ready by nine, I’ll pick you up at your house for a fun night okay?”
“Yeah! See you later!” I said, sad I had to stop hearing his voice
“Bye!”
“Bye!” I hanged up and put the phone in my jackets pocket.
As I drove back to my house to ask my mom if I could go out, I thought back to the moment I said those three precious words I told Niall. What if it had happened like Danny. What if I had sex with him first and then told him? Would he still say it back?
I think, when it comes to love, the worst fear that someone needs to overcome is being tricked, fooled. I mean, if you really fall for someone and you tell them those words and they say it back, great, but there’s nothing that keeps you from thinking that it all could be a trick. For me, being melodramatic doesn’t help one bit. One of the symptoms is always expecting the worst out of things ad people. I don’t know why I am like this I just know that I am!
I sighed, trying to forget about the subject. I’m sure that what we have is true, pure and strong. If he says he loves me it’s because he does right? I think so and I’m not going to waste any more of my time thinking about this subject or my head will start to pound.
Outside y car was dark already, like really dark. One of the things I like the most when the sky is clear is, at night, the sky is also clear and you can see the stars. It’s so perfect, so beautiful… Romantic. I smiled, looking out the front window just for a couple of seconds while I was stopped in a red light. It was a full moon night and the moon was brighter than ever. Sure I don’t see the moon a lot thanks to the clouds, I can see the space where it should be but not the moon like I can see it now.
I jumped in my seat when the car behind me beeped for me to move. I got scared, tightening my hands around the wheel and noticing the red light turned to a green one. That was rude! I kept driving towards my house that was just around the corner.
When I parked my car in front of my house, my body was still tensed thanks to the beep that I didn’t expect coming. I get like that when I get scared. I just shook my shoulders and got out of the car, feeling more relaxed. Only my steps could be heard in the street, and it suddenly made me feel afraid. It looked like a horror movie when the people get killed in the middle of the street or something. I laughed at myself, repressing the tension inside of me and stopped in front of the door. I opened it with my key and immediately yelled.
“Mom, I’m home!” I can’t remember the last time I did this, but I felt like it today so I just went with it “Mom?”
“In the kitchen Johanna!” I heard her call
I walked in firm steps towards the kitchen and got in, sitting on a chair in front of the kitchens’ island. My mom was cooking dinner, her back turned at me and spinning the spoon in her hand.
“Where’s dad?” I asked, playing with a thread of my hairs
“He went to grab some desert!” She answered “You didn’t forgot about the party did you?” She asked me
“Party?” I frowned “What party?”
“Your grandparents annual party in two days, the whole family will be there, all of your uncles, aunts, cousins…” I stopped listening when she referred to my cousins.
This is the thing about my family, well, my maternal part of the family, my cousins HATE me! Only the girls, the guys I handle pretty fine, they are fine and all of it but the girls are impossible, all except one, Annie. My granddad is wealthy and so are all of my aunts and uncles. My mom was the only one that completely left aside my granddad’s money and started her own career and family without any of it. My cousins, I prefer to think of them as ‘lightly overconfident’. They like to show their richness to others and they usually pick on me because I don’t like doing it! I actually thank my mom for raising me the way she did because if she didn’t have, I would be like them and that’s for sure something I would not want. Danny usually comes with me to this things and she describes all of my cousins as ‘useless bitches’. I remember one time she said it too loud because she had too much to drink and, to shut her up, I pinched her arm and she jumped, making the champagne on her glass fall all over the both of us.We laughed like the two idiots we were but I was immediately the talking of the family and I had the speech from my mom. Danny apologized over and over again but I told her to stop, it actually was fun!
“…and you can bring that friend of yours, Niall!” I came back immediately
“W-What?!” I gasped
“I want to meet him, and why not do it with the whole family there?” I widened my eyes
That’s the recipe for disaster! Mt conscious told me. My family and my boyfriend in one room?! I don’t think so! It’s not a good idea, it will never be a good idea.
“I want to meet him Johanna!” My mom demanded. I couldn’t say no to her if she had already made up her mind. If there’s a thing my mom has pride in saying she is that’s ‘stubborn like your grandfather’, and she really is and so is granddad!
“I-I’ll see if he wants to go!” I gasped, getting up “Oh and mom!” I called before exiting the room, holding to the doors frame with one hand. My mom turned “Can I go out? To ask him if he wants to come?! It’s important I do it face to face!” I said.
I was afraid that, y phone, Niall couldn’t understand the problem in the situation. I was afraid they would judge him by the outside and not by the content and that was a thing I told myself I would not allow anyone to do when I was with him. No judging, no talking in his back, no gossiping about him. He’s an extremely beautiful person and has to be judged by his content. I really need to talk to him in person.
“Sure!” She went back to cooking and I kept exiting “Oh, Johanna!” I stopped, not turning to face her “It’s black tie!” I sighed
Can I just say how much I hate these type of events?! It’s the only one II have to go to in the year, my family only gathers around Christmas, and I have to wear a silly tight dress to go and meet my family. It’s ridiculous and too expensive for my own taste
“I’ll have to go shop!” I said
“Take Maria with you!” The mention of my little sister made me smile
“I was planning to!” I sang, running to my bedroom next.
**
After dinner, I went straight to my room to get ready. I was expecting something fun so I wasn’t thinking about wearing a dress, not if I was doing something fun. I wasn’t going with shorts neither, it might get could, not mentioning my latest experience with them. I’ll just go with the normal jeans. I opened my wardrobe and took out a pair of jeans and a white tank top. I got out of my previous clothes and into those one. I picked a white wool jacket, a simple necklace and a grey scarf. I also picked the brown bag and land it on top of the bed. http://data2.whicdn.com/images/83010895/large.jpg
I went to my bathroom and took a look in myself. My hair was normally curled and falling over my chest. I took a look into my eyes. Stormy grey. Sure, I couldn’t stop thinking about the disaster that will occur in two days. I just can’t let Niall slip through my fingers because of my family. I shook my head, getting the control of my thought back. That will not happen, I will not let it happen.
When I think about the party, Danny should have picked her dress already, and so should M and she probably picked Ade’s and Jess’s too. I’m probably the only one who forgot. Danny is a regular, she knows that the day is always the same and my family expects her to come with us. This year it’ll be three people in my car, not just two. I walked to my room again after I shook my hair a bit to give it some volume. I ran out of the room when I noticed I was one minute late. What type of Londoneram I? British punctuality? I think that word is left out of my dictionary… When it comes to Niall! I was about to start going downstairs when I noticed I forgot my back. Rolling my eyes, I ran back to my room, grabben my purse and got downstairs in a blink of an eye.
“Mom, dad! I’m leaving!” My mom peaked out of the living room and nodded
“Have a great time sweetie! And don’t forget asking him if he wants to come!” My mom yelled so I could hear
“How could I forget?” I whispered to myself and opened the door to get out.
When I closed the door and tuned, a black Range Rover was waiting for me. I felt my heart pounding immediately. The rush of being with him was felt all over my body as I ran towards the car and got in.
He was completely beautiful, and he was just simple. His hairs were pulled up in a quaff. He had a blue t-shirt on and large pair of black jeans. Blue Supras in his feet. I smiled warmly at him and hugged him tightly. He gave my hug back even more tightly and I smiled against his neck, planting a soft kiss there later. He pulled back and looked into my eyes. It completely annoys me that my eyes can hand out my mood so fast. Seeing my gray eyes, Niall frowned
“Why are they g-” I cut him off
“I have something to tell you!” I blurted out. I was nervous, my hands were shaking and my stomach was flipping, not in a good way if that even exists. Niall swallowed
“Yes?”
“Hum…” How can I ask him’ Do I just say it like that and hope he says yes?
“Just tell me what it is! You’re making me nervous!” Niall said, caressing my cheek with the back of his hand. I closed my eyes and smiled vaguely, enjoying the repeating touch of his hand. When I noticed the words were out of my mouth
“My family wants to meet you!” I immediately opened my eyes, widening them. Niall laughed
“Was that the reason you were so tense?” He asked and I nodded “Silly. Come here!” He opened his arms and I fell into them. He caressed my hair, playing with the threads “These are like silky pieces of heaven!” He whispered, still playing with my hair, making me melt against him “But, you don’t need to be tense about it!”
“You don’t understand!” I moved my head from his chest to look at him “They judge!” I buried my head in his chest again “And my cousins are simply awful!”
“Wait, wasn’t just your family? As in your mom, dad and sisters?” looked at him again
“No! It’s in two days, my whole family in my granddad’s house! Black tie event!” I unconsciously bit my lip, waiting for his answer. He widened his eyes
“You in high heels?” He asked “I’m IN!” I giggled
“I don’t know if I’ll be able to escape the heels this year!” I sighed and Niall looked at me feeling pity. I showed him my tong and he laughed
“Now, let’s go! I have our night planed out!” He announced and I frowned, getting back in my place.
“Where are you taking me?” I asked
“Neverland!” He simply answered like it was the most natural thing on earth and I smiled stupidly.
Niall started the car and drove to the place he was taking me: NEVERLAND
**
I now understand why he said he was taking me to Neverland. I never thought that Niall would remember bringing me to a fun fair in the middle. What descries better childhood than a fun fair? To me? Nothing. I spent a lot of time here with Danny when these are in town, each year we come here with my sisters and send our time eating cotton candy and riding the carrousels.
Niall and I walked out of the Ferris Wheel, he helping me get out of the stand. I jumped to hug him, him holding my waist close. I smiled against his chest when I felt him landing my feet in the ground slowly. My happiness disappeared when I saw a girl crying while talking to a guy. They were arguing that’s for sure. They finished talking and he walked away she stood in the same place, her eyes closed and still crying. I felt sorry for her, I just wanted to hug her. I held Niall’s neck closer still with my eyes glued on the girl, feeling the warmth and the good smell emanating from his neck calm me down.
“Why do we close our eyes when we cry?” I whispered “Or when we kiss?”
“Because… We know the best things aren’t seen, they are felt with the heart!” Niall answered me. I closed my eyes, completely melting against him. He pulled me back and looked deeply in my eyes. I smiled warmly and h clashed our lips in there, giving me a smooch. I knew he didn’t deepened the kiss because we were in a public place and he wanted to keep low record. I smiled again and turned my head to the girl. Niall followed my eyes, frowning.
She was still crying, now her face was covered by her hands and she was sat next to some friends of hers.
“What if I ever end up likeheartbreak that big?” I asked him. He thought about it for a second
“You know, a heartbreak is a blessing from God. It’s his way of letting you realize he saed you from the wrong person for you!” I frowned
“I don’t get your point Ni!” I said
“I happen to know that I’m the right person for you!” He smiled widely and I put my hands in my hips
“And how do you know that?” I asked and he hugged my waist, spinning me around and making me laugh out loud for too long until he landed me again, our bodies touching each other
“Love is about finding our similarities and respecting our differences, I think we’re good in that! Plus, there’s all those three words thing and all!” I blushed and he kissed my cheek, holding my hand “Come! It’s getting late!” I nodded and he pulled me out of the fun fair and into his car that was parked in a dark corner of the parking lot.
“So!” I got into the car, closing the door behind me while Niall did the same “Caterpillar: Done! Tunnel of Love: Done! Ferris Wheel: Done! Loop-the-loop: Done! Screaming Swing: Done! Russian Mountains: Done! UFO: Done! Roller Coaster: Done! And most importantly, COTTON CANDY!”
“That’s done too!” Niall laughed and started the car “Are you nervous for your families reunion?” He asked me
“A little bit!” He frowned, looking at the road
“Why?” I knew what he was thinking
“It’s not because of you! It’s because they know how to judge people based on the outside and ignoring the inside!”
“You don’t love y outside?” Niall asked, hurt in his voice
“I love all of you! Inside, outside and most importantly, I love the person I become when I’m with you!” I said, visibly relaxing him. He sighed and reached my hand holding it while driving till I got to my house

Notes

Sorry for the delay! I had tests this week, but anyways, here it is a new chapter! Enjoy :))