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Off The Rails

Chapter 1

“Shit!”
I sat up as quick as I could looking down to see I was in a white t-shirt obviously not mine, then I looked over to see who the lucky man this time was. To be honest I have pulled better like seriously I must have been on some strong shit to of thought that was ok.

“You have done it again well done”

I stripped of the t-shirt and put my dress back on, only now did this throbbing headache hit me. I struggled out of the apartment and realized I was only down the road from where I live thankfully. I needed to sneak in and avoid my mother I don’t need another pointless argument and then the comparing to how successful my brother is and how a waste of skin and bones I am. I walked up to my front door and slowly put the key and turn it, opening the door slowly and quickly I turned around and closed the door quietly behind me to then turn around and see my mother standing there.

“Trinity Tomlinson where have you been”

“Oh didn't I tell you I stayed at…”

“Some random guy’s again”

I didn't have to say anything she knew she was right she knew what I was like. There was no point me even trying to lie this time around to be honest I don’t know why bother anymore.

“Trinity what have I done to make you act like this, you go out every night and get of your face not just on alcohol but drugs to, you have all these one night stands you’re a mess what have I done”

“You neglected me” I shouted she looked taken back but it was the truth.

“NO I haven’t young lady”

“YES you have. Ever since your darling son Louis Tomlinson became famous nothing I do is ever going to be as great as that and YOU always remind me.”

“No I don’t come on Trinity don’t make up pathetic excuse”

“Seriously mum come on I got the chance to choreograph the whole routine for Rock Challenge (a dance competition) BUT you never took any notice you didn't even come and see any of the shows because Prince Louis was performing”

“Now Trinity it wasn't like that it’s not like that”

“It is mum whatever I do you will never be proud that why I have given up I could never get your attention trying to be successful so why not chuck it all away and wash it down with some vodka sounds great to me”

I barged past her and walked on upstairs and went straight to my room I crashed out on the bed and fell straight to sleep. After a well-deserved sleep I looked at the time and it was 6 pm not bad. I didn’t waste no time in getting changed and making my way out of the house and down to the local park. It didn’t take long to get there and I was soon greeted by my group of friends sat in our usual spot.

“Trinity over her babes”

I walked on over to my group of friends Marnie, Chloe, James and Owen. Me and James
were the only smokers in the group at the moment due to the others were quieting smoking well trying to quit. We were all heavy drinkers though, almost every night we have a good piss up maybe not every one of us will be there apart from me I guess. I sat down with them all and I got out my fags I didn't want drugs today well not yet.

“Have you tried these yet there new out”

I pulled out my pack of fags to show James there sterling was now bringing out their own version of fresh taste and to be honest it was the best make out there at the moment.

“Sterling have taken over the fresh taste think it’s so much better then Pall Mall”

“Really well I will be the judge of that”

“Oh can we try one”

“Thought you lot were quieting”

“We are in the process”

I just laughed and handed out a fag to everyone and they agreed with me they were better, conversation just flowed from there and our night had begun. Soon we decided to leave the park and we were now heading on out the bars. Where we were such regulars I got to know the bouncers so we didn't have to queue which was great. The club was blaring out music just like any other night; soon the drinks started to pour down my neck and before I knew it my lips were locked on another stranger. He started to lead me on outside and I followed him without any questions, as soon as we got outside our lips were connected once again with hands moving all over each other well that was until some stupid bitch started screaming towards us.

“Get off my boyfriend you whore”

We pulled apart and the guy was shocked he struggled to even pull a sentence together but soon came out with the same old bullshit every guy does.

“It’s not what it looks like I promise”

“It’s okay I know you wouldn't normally go off with a slut”

I was shocked normally the girls go crazy over the guy not this one she wanted me and with her calling me a Slut that was a bad move. You see I can handle name calling but ‘slut’ is just the trigger to my aggressive side you could say.

“Call me a slut one more time…I dare you”

“….SLUT…”

That was it I walked on up towards her she tried to act cool on the outside but you could see in her eyes the fear. I brought my fist back and then…….she was collapsed on the floor my fist collided with her face and it knocked her over.

“Never call me a slut”

I was about to walk away when I felt to hands grab my wrist and handcuffed them together. I turned my head around to see a police man. Well at least I didn't go home with a stranger again and have another one night stand. The police man was talking but I wasn't really listening he put the breathalyzer in my mouth and I breathed in to it.

“Right as this is your second offence and you are under the influence of alcohol you will be staying overnight in a cell to sober up and then we will escort you home in the morning”

I just smiled and nodded knowing tomorrow I am going to get my head ripped off, after the first offence I promised it wouldn’t happen again but opsey. I got dragged out of the car and was soon put in my cell un-cuffed I looked around to see a really shitty bed.

“Fuck sake Trinity”

I couldn’t help but whilst lying here to just think about life as you do, I mean we all do it when we hit rock bottom we all take some time out and just think Fuck. I don’t like who I have become really I mean I don’t even make time for my sisters anymore to busy downing drink having drugs or sleeping for a day. Nothing is going to change though I know I won’t change I would miss the drink too much miss the highs. I tried to sleep but I couldn’t it sucked not being able to have a phone right now or even a magazine. I walked on over to the sink in the cell and splashed some water in my face looking at my reflection I saw the moon in the mirror. I turned around to look up to it and tears began to fill up my eye lids this is normal for me. You see the one person in the world who understood me and actually paid attention to me when my brother was successful well that person has gone. She always said to me though one day you will look up to the moon and when it’s whole you will fill whole. Well that day hasn’t come and I doubt it ever will. I went back over to this thing they call a bed and tried to sleep off the alcohol I knew I would need some rest because tomorrow isn’t going to be pretty. Finally getting to sleep I dreamt about weird things, I had a talking elephant trying to convince me that the monkey was a murderer. I quickly woke myself up and shook the weird dream from my mind. I could see it getting light outside indicating I would be able to go home soon. Hopefully mother will be out and I can just crash down on to my bed and have a proper sleep. I must have drifted back of as I was now being woken up by an officer he got me my things and I was free to go home. I was saying no to the ride home but there were not allowing it, they wanted to make sure I actually went home and got there safely. As the policeman drove up I saw a couple of cars that were unfamiliar parked outside my house.

“Shit”

“What’s wrong Miss”

“Nothing no just family I guess”

“Right well come on then they are most probably wondering where you are”

“Doubt it”

Getting out of the car the officer followed, great he was going to explain what happened just what I needed. Ready for the shit storm about to blow.


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