Violent Delights
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•Come & Get It - Selena Gomez•
•H a r r y•
No matter how much marijuana I smoked, or how much cocaine I snorted, or even how much heroineI injected.. nothing could distract my mind enough so that I didn’t think about that girl, my girl. Chassidy Elizabeth Grace James. I’ve always loved that girl, and I always will.
It has been three days since I last spoke to Liam – thankful that he stays behind in Orlando to watch out for her, to be her friend, and most importantly to be there for her.. when I constantly fail to be.
Love is so different than any feeling or emotion I’ve ever felt. Even from the very first day, when we were still so young, every time I looked at Chassidy I got a billion butterflies in my stomach, my heart skips beats like crazy when I’m with her, and when she holds my hand… it’s like my lungs dry up, I can’t breathe. She makes me feel amazing inside and out, I miss those feelings. I miss us. I miss her.
We never officially declared to be together, but who even cares? I was with her and that was all that mattered. She didn’t have to be called my girlfriend for me to love her sweet self. She’s so beautiful, inside and outside.
No one has ever, or will ever, give me the feelings and give off the vibes that Chassidy does. It’s hard to love from a distance, knowing I’m the reason the distance is even there, but I do make it work partly. I haven’t killed myself yet, and I know she’s alive, so that’s okay I assume.
It’s hard, but it could be worse..
My eyes stare hard at my phone, a constant debate whether to call her or to ignore it. Usually I end up not calling, killing her and my own heart time after time.
“You got a call coming.’’ Niall breaks my silence, for a while I forget he was here.
I blink a few times, bringing myself back to the real word and that’s when I see my phone lighting up in my hand and the ringtone blaring through my ears.
A restricted call? Who in hell would be calling me from a restricted number? I sigh, rolling my eyes as I answer the phone casually.
‘’Hello?’’ I mumble.
There was no verbal reply, only a deep chuckle. I lift an eyebrow as I put it on speaker and sit it down so Niall could hear too, just in case.
‘’Who is this?’’ I ask, staring down at the phone.
As I get no reply one again, I ask the next thing, ‘’What the hell do you want?’’
The person clears their throat and waits a few seconds before finally responding to me, ‘’Better question.. what do I not want by now, Styles?’’
I quickly recognized the voice, not really wanting to have heard it today but sadly I did. Niall’s lips parted as he looked over at me, as if he was going to say something, but his face grew a blank expression towards me.
‘’Malik, I’m not playing no fucking games with you. Why the hell are you calling me from a god damn restricted number you fucking idiot, you know damn well I know your stupid voice.’’ I huff lightly, slightly annoyed right now.
I didn’t need to worry about me right now, I needed to worry about three things: why did he call me, what does he want, and what does he know?
“I was just going to tell you how gorgeous your little pride and joy looked this morning.’’ He says, I could hear the evil smirk in his voice.
‘’You better fucking stay away from her.’’ I snap, snatching the phone up and putting it closer to my mouth just so I know that bastard will hear me.
‘’Oh really.. but you’re not here to protect her, hmm?’’ He chuckles lightly.
‘’I swear.. on my fucking life.. if you get close to her, touch her, or do any god damn thing to her I will hunt you down.. and I will beat the shit out of you. Not with a knife, and not with a gun, but with my god damn fists.’’ I say through gritted teeth.
He can fuck around with his comments and his threats to me but no body can fuck with me about my girl – no body. Zayn has took so fucking much from me already, and he’s not taking Chassidy.
“Oh, yes, I’m sure.’’
‘’Try me.’’ I say simply.
‘’I’m just going down the list, Styles. Anne, check.’’ He chuckles.
I clench my fist so hard that my knuckles turn white. I hear Niall gulp gently, he knows exactly how I get about this, and he knows what I will do if I ever get my damn hands on that bastard.
‘’Gemma.. check.’’
‘’Shut the fuck up.’’
‘’And little innocent, naïve Chassidy..’’ He slowly says her name as if it was the exact thing he wanted, but he won’t get her – ever.
‘’You better pray tonight, Malik.. I know plenty of people, and I know how to find you. You think you’re so smart and slick, but I will find you.’’ I assure him, my Dad works for the fucking government, I’ll find that bitch.
‘’We’ll see how Chass likes this story.’’ Those were his last words, I hung up the phone.
My temper was beyond my limits and I couldn’t take it anymore. He just refers to her as Chass, knowing damn well she only lets four fucking people in the entire damn universe call her that – her mother, her father, Liam, and me, I don’t think Zayn’s name is on this damn list.
“We gotta get to Orlando.’’ Niall says.
‘’No shit.’’ I mumble as I stand up from my chair, shoving my phone in my back pocket. Chassidy is worth my life, worth anything. It's about time that I realize she needs me, at least closer by if not with her. She might be the death of me one day, but that's alright with me.
‘’Where are you going?’’ Niall asks as he follows behind me.
‘’To pack, go get your shit ready, we’re leaving tomorrow.’’ I say as I start up the stairs.
‘’But how-‘’
‘’Just go.’’ I tell him and he sighs.
A few seconds pass before I hear the door shut. I can get to Orlando, I know people, people like my father. I’m not going to Chassidy. I refuse to. Not because I don’t love her or want her, because trust me I do – but because I need to speak to someone else. I need to discuss things with a certain person, someone who can help me out. Someone who knows every little thing about me, all my bad at least – things I could never tell Chassidy. She would be ashamed of me, she doesn’t know all of my demons, only the simple ones.
This person is close to me, he might not like me all the time, but he can help.
Adam.
•H a r r y•
No matter how much marijuana I smoked, or how much cocaine I snorted, or even how much heroineI injected.. nothing could distract my mind enough so that I didn’t think about that girl, my girl. Chassidy Elizabeth Grace James. I’ve always loved that girl, and I always will.
It has been three days since I last spoke to Liam – thankful that he stays behind in Orlando to watch out for her, to be her friend, and most importantly to be there for her.. when I constantly fail to be.
Love is so different than any feeling or emotion I’ve ever felt. Even from the very first day, when we were still so young, every time I looked at Chassidy I got a billion butterflies in my stomach, my heart skips beats like crazy when I’m with her, and when she holds my hand… it’s like my lungs dry up, I can’t breathe. She makes me feel amazing inside and out, I miss those feelings. I miss us. I miss her.
We never officially declared to be together, but who even cares? I was with her and that was all that mattered. She didn’t have to be called my girlfriend for me to love her sweet self. She’s so beautiful, inside and outside.
No one has ever, or will ever, give me the feelings and give off the vibes that Chassidy does. It’s hard to love from a distance, knowing I’m the reason the distance is even there, but I do make it work partly. I haven’t killed myself yet, and I know she’s alive, so that’s okay I assume.
It’s hard, but it could be worse..
My eyes stare hard at my phone, a constant debate whether to call her or to ignore it. Usually I end up not calling, killing her and my own heart time after time.
“You got a call coming.’’ Niall breaks my silence, for a while I forget he was here.
I blink a few times, bringing myself back to the real word and that’s when I see my phone lighting up in my hand and the ringtone blaring through my ears.
A restricted call? Who in hell would be calling me from a restricted number? I sigh, rolling my eyes as I answer the phone casually.
‘’Hello?’’ I mumble.
There was no verbal reply, only a deep chuckle. I lift an eyebrow as I put it on speaker and sit it down so Niall could hear too, just in case.
‘’Who is this?’’ I ask, staring down at the phone.
As I get no reply one again, I ask the next thing, ‘’What the hell do you want?’’
The person clears their throat and waits a few seconds before finally responding to me, ‘’Better question.. what do I not want by now, Styles?’’
I quickly recognized the voice, not really wanting to have heard it today but sadly I did. Niall’s lips parted as he looked over at me, as if he was going to say something, but his face grew a blank expression towards me.
‘’Malik, I’m not playing no fucking games with you. Why the hell are you calling me from a god damn restricted number you fucking idiot, you know damn well I know your stupid voice.’’ I huff lightly, slightly annoyed right now.
I didn’t need to worry about me right now, I needed to worry about three things: why did he call me, what does he want, and what does he know?
“I was just going to tell you how gorgeous your little pride and joy looked this morning.’’ He says, I could hear the evil smirk in his voice.
‘’You better fucking stay away from her.’’ I snap, snatching the phone up and putting it closer to my mouth just so I know that bastard will hear me.
‘’Oh really.. but you’re not here to protect her, hmm?’’ He chuckles lightly.
‘’I swear.. on my fucking life.. if you get close to her, touch her, or do any god damn thing to her I will hunt you down.. and I will beat the shit out of you. Not with a knife, and not with a gun, but with my god damn fists.’’ I say through gritted teeth.
He can fuck around with his comments and his threats to me but no body can fuck with me about my girl – no body. Zayn has took so fucking much from me already, and he’s not taking Chassidy.
“Oh, yes, I’m sure.’’
‘’Try me.’’ I say simply.
‘’I’m just going down the list, Styles. Anne, check.’’ He chuckles.
I clench my fist so hard that my knuckles turn white. I hear Niall gulp gently, he knows exactly how I get about this, and he knows what I will do if I ever get my damn hands on that bastard.
‘’Gemma.. check.’’
‘’Shut the fuck up.’’
‘’And little innocent, naïve Chassidy..’’ He slowly says her name as if it was the exact thing he wanted, but he won’t get her – ever.
‘’You better pray tonight, Malik.. I know plenty of people, and I know how to find you. You think you’re so smart and slick, but I will find you.’’ I assure him, my Dad works for the fucking government, I’ll find that bitch.
‘’We’ll see how Chass likes this story.’’ Those were his last words, I hung up the phone.
My temper was beyond my limits and I couldn’t take it anymore. He just refers to her as Chass, knowing damn well she only lets four fucking people in the entire damn universe call her that – her mother, her father, Liam, and me, I don’t think Zayn’s name is on this damn list.
“We gotta get to Orlando.’’ Niall says.
‘’No shit.’’ I mumble as I stand up from my chair, shoving my phone in my back pocket. Chassidy is worth my life, worth anything. It's about time that I realize she needs me, at least closer by if not with her. She might be the death of me one day, but that's alright with me.
‘’Where are you going?’’ Niall asks as he follows behind me.
‘’To pack, go get your shit ready, we’re leaving tomorrow.’’ I say as I start up the stairs.
‘’But how-‘’
‘’Just go.’’ I tell him and he sighs.
A few seconds pass before I hear the door shut. I can get to Orlando, I know people, people like my father. I’m not going to Chassidy. I refuse to. Not because I don’t love her or want her, because trust me I do – but because I need to speak to someone else. I need to discuss things with a certain person, someone who can help me out. Someone who knows every little thing about me, all my bad at least – things I could never tell Chassidy. She would be ashamed of me, she doesn’t know all of my demons, only the simple ones.
This person is close to me, he might not like me all the time, but he can help.
Adam.
Notes
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