All Hidden Away

A deafening silence descends on the room. Lou keeps staring at me, mouth agape and as pale as a sheet. I feel like I can’t breathe. All I do is just sit there, barely moving for what feels like hours until Louis takes a protective step towards me, coming to stand next to me.
“Harry…” says Lou again, this time turning to my brother, making eye contact and quickly turning back to face me.
“Liam, won’t you take Lux and the guys out for some ice-cream?” He says passing the little girl to him. The boys rise and look at me sympathetically, knowing they have been dismissed. I jump as Louis wraps an arm protectively around my back. Luke steps forward and gently places a hand on my knee.
“See you downstairs at about six, unless you message me and want to go earlier.” He says as a smile crinkles his eyes. I nod and am grateful for the offer to leave the house earlier. Once everyone other than Lou, Harry, Louis and I has left the kitchen I jump down from my seat and extend a hand over to Lou. Not really sure what I am doing, but simply carrying out the actions.
“Hi, I’m Tasha. Nice to finally meet you…” She doesn’t move and I withdraw my hand and stand there awkwardly.
“Lou I can explain.” Says Harry rubbing his temples as Louis steps forward gently placing his hand on my back trying to tell me it’s okay, clearly picking up on how uncomfortable I am.
“No. There is no way you can explain a girl of about eighteen looking like your fucking twin.” Says Lou shaking her head and taking a step closer to me. “She looks more like you than Gemma does…” She talks as if I’m not here and I pretend that it doesn’t scare me.
“This is my sister, Natasha Styles.” Says Harry in a monotone voice clearly sceptical at jumping strait to the truth. He steps forward and to my other side, opposite Louis.
“But –” she starts but Louis cuts her off.
“It’s a long and complicated story, but yeah. It’s true.” He says confirming it. My hands start to shake; I feel like this could mess up everything but at the same time I don’t understand why I’m freaking out, she’s a family friend right? A few more silent seconds pass when suddenly I am pulled into a big hug and look to see Lou’s wrapped around me and laughing. My eye’s go wide and I gently place my arms around her in return.
“Oh my god. This is amazing… but so weird! Harry – you could have told me!” she squeals pushing me out at arm’s length and smiling widely until she sees my wide eyes and tense body. “I’m sorry, I just… I was in shock.” She says before pulling me back into another hug.
“That’s – it’s okay.” I say frowning, not really sure what is going on.
“How have you kept this a secret!?” she screams once she has let me go.
“As Louis said, its complicated…” he says laughing slightly playing with his hair. She turns to me.
“I really cannot wait to get to know you more! Are you coming on tour with us?” she says still smiling. I think I’m going to like Lou, she seems to be such a happy and fun person.
“Uh, yeah. I am.” I say smiling back sticking my hands in my pockets.
“Yay! I’m not going to be surrounded by only crazy boys!” she says still laughing.
“Come on Lou, lets explain everything over a cup of tea. I’ll message the boys and tell them to come back.” Says Harry leading the way to the lounge. I stayed in the kitchen making some more tea but heard Lou and them laughing. The first person to find out who I hadn’t plan on telling. And she noticed because we look like twins. Maybe it’s just because she knows Hazz so well? I hope so at least.

“So because you are coming on tour, and you don’t want to be known as Harry’s sister… you have to date Luke Hemmings…?” she asks frowning at me as she sips on her cuppa. I nod grimacing.
“Doesn’t seem like too much of a compromise to me.” She says laughing. I join her laughter and shake my head. “I can’t get over how identical you too are…” she mumbles for like the fifth time.
“but you wouldn’t notice it if you didn’t know Harry right?” I ask frowning.
“No! Not at all, I just. It surprised me. I promise you, love, people will be more focussed on you and Luke, than you and Harry.” She says smiling gently. I nod as I hear the main door open. Lux runs inside.
“Mummy! Li Li got me the nicest ice-cream with sprinkles and a cone even!” she says jumping onto her mum’s lap. I smile.
“Really? And did you get mum any?” she asks playfully.
“No, we ate it all, sorry.” Says Niall walking in and sitting down next to Lou and Lux.
“You… You ate it all, Niall.” says Michael walking in. Ashton follows behind and looks at me questioningly with his eyebrows. I smile and nod, letting him know all is okay.
“Alright - well, Tasha, if we want to be ready by six we best get going.” Says Lou standing and placing Lux on Louis lap who immediately starts playing with her. I look at my watch.
“… It’s only three?” I ask frowning. She smiles.
“God, I swear you are exactly like Harry. Come on. Go take a bath, wash your hair and everything while I talk to Luke.” I nod and head upstairs to shower but I hear a small conversation.
“Just, no heels or skimpy clothing. She and I will both kill you…” says Hazz laughing.
“I have strict orders from Claire, but I’ll see what I can do…”
Well this would be interesting.

“Lou… please no.” I say looking at the dress she was holding. It looked so tiny, like a little black Barbie dress, was almost completely shear lace, and I swear it wouldn’t even cover my bum if I were to wear it. My pulse quickened with anxiety at the thought of it. She giggled.
“Look, we won’t wear it for tonight, I just really really want to see Harry’s face.” She says laughing, picking up a massively tall pair of heels.
“I will fall and break an ankle in those… and be taller than Luke.” I say picking them up. And looking at the death traps.
“Come on! Where is your sense of adventure?” she asks looking at me with pleading eyes. I sigh.
“What am I actually wearing then?” I ask frowning as I pick up the thin material.
“A nice pretty crop top, skinny black jeans and sneakers with a bomber jacket.” She says smiling softly.
“You’re kidding! That’s basically what I was thinking of!” I say smiling at her.
“Yes, but I doubt you were going to wear a nine fifty-pound jacket…?” she says looking at me. My mouth falls open. “Only if you wear this to scare Harry…” she says pointing at the dress. I contemplate it for a bit.
“Well Lou… Blackmail works…” I say, making her smile as she jumps up and down. “But won’t it take too long to change twice?” I ask looking at my watch.
“It’s only just gone five, we can do hair and make up the same for both looks… Tasha, I know it must be hard... but just remember we all have your best interest at heart. I already think of you as a sister.” She says smiling at me. I smile back.
“His face best be worth it…” I say laughing as I pull on my bra and underwear.

Lou blow-dried my hair and left it to curl in its own natural way, reaching just above the base of my spine.
“Lou? Would it be possible for me to plat my hair for the real outfit? I think it might work better?” I ask unsure.
“Oh my god! Yes, it will look stunning! Now I know you’re a natural girl… but I need to put some makeup on. I can’t ignore some orders…” she says apologetically before giving me a smoky eye and a dark lip stain. “We can change the lip if you want?” she offers. I look in the mirror and hardly recognise myself… and I can’t tell if that’s a good or bad thing.
“There… all done. Now for the dress and shoes…” she says moving away from my vanity unit and towards my bed where the clothes lie.
“Do people really put this much effort in for a date?” I ask in disbelief as the shear fabric is pulled over my head. The fabric is clingy and I was right. It hardly covers my bum.
“You should see some of the girls who just want to meet your brother, let alone get into his pants…” she says smiling. I frown and make a face. They are just people…
I stand up straight and feel self-conscious at how the dress hugs everything and exposes ninety percent of my legs. I walk back over to the vanity and put in all my favourite earrings. I have about seven piercings in the one ear, but normally I wear small studs and my hair is down so people rarely take not if them. I also put on my gold delicate charm bracelet Louis and Harry got me for my sixteenth birthday. Whenever they went somewhere new they got me charm.
“Wow… you’d shoot me if I said maybe where this right?” asks Lou as she stands back to look at me. I shoot her a death stare. She laughs as she helps me put on the shoes. I do the buckles of the simple, black T-bar stiletto heels and stand up, now towering over her.
“I think you’re going to be a smidge shorter than Harry now!” she says smiling. “walk around a bit and see if they feel alright.” She instructs as she grabs a can of hair spray, doing some last minute touches. I do as I am told and find it surprisingly easy to walk in the shoes.
“Unbelievable…” she says shaking her head. “Most models don’t look as elegant as you do right now.” I blush at her words.
“Someone actually came up to me one day while I was at university and said I needed to model… I told them no thanks. Not because I didn’t want to, but because of Harry actually.” I say walking around my room and stopping at the mirror. I don’t know who the person in the mirror is. But she isn’t me. She seems like she can go out with Harry and not have a panic attack in the confined spaces caused by the fans. I smile.
“You didn’t let yourself do a lot of things because of it… hey?” she asks stepping behind me. I nod and look down.
“My best friend is going to shoot you, he wants me to dress like this all the time…” I say pulling up my phone.
“Picture?” I nod and we stand together and take a pic for Stu. I send it before looking back in the mirror and I start to laugh.
“You like it, in a weird way. Don’t you?” she asks smiling. I tilt my head to the side and nod.
“Is that weird?” I ask turning to look at her.
“Not really, change is good sometimes.” She walks to the door. “I’ll get everyone in the kitchen and the video ready. You can come down when you are ready.” She says before whistling and calling everyone to the kitchen. I look back at myself. This better be funny. My phone buzzes.

Who is that?! Love it! X Jared says pwetty…

Says Stu. I laugh and dump my phone on the bed before making my way to the door. I take a deep breath and open it. Slowly descending the stairs into the kitchen I keep my eyes on the floor the entire time. I hear the conversation drop completely from inside and once I enter the doorway I finally look up.

Notes

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