All Hidden Away

“HARRY!” I half scream walking into the kitchen, to find all four lads sitting around the table eating bacon and egg sandwiches. Harry looks up quickly swallowing.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?’ he asks not moving but showing obvious concern.
“Not really no,” they all frown but don’t stop eating. “I’ve been expecting Modest for two days now, and I’ve been sitting around doing nothing.” I go and sit in the open seat beside Liam and drop my head into my arms that are now resting on the table. “I need out… I need to go for a run!” I mumble frustratedly into my hands.
“We know you do but, luv, it’s not safe for you to leave with so many people everywhere.” Says Louis taking over the situation having already expressed to me how he feels the same. I raise my head to look at him, my eyes pleading.
“Just to the coffee shop down the block… please?” I ask looking around the table. Niall and Liam won’t meet my eye contact knowing that they would say yes, but piss off the over protective Louis and Harry who are looking at each other like a quarrelling couple over ‘should the daughter go to the frat boys party or not’.
Harry scrunches up his face and runs his hand through his hair. “If Louis and Paul go with you then yes… but only to get coffee. Tash I promise that once stuff is sorted with management it’ll be better…” he says offering me a small smile. I haven’t been able to leave the house since I arrived two days ago, and I know that doesn’t seem long, but im the only girl in a house full of boys who have lived together for years. It’s not exactly easy.
“Surely Lou will just cause more problems?” asks Niall gently.
Harry shoots him a look. And then looks at me. “Fine, Paul and Jem… just.” Harry comes and stands behind me, resting his arms on my back. “Just stay safe and don’t do anything stupid… mum and Gem will kill me, okay?” I can tell all im managing to do is stress him out, but I need out of the house. I have a small balcony I can get to from my room where I have been sitting at to try get some space, but even that hasn’t helped. I nod and lean back into his hug.
“Thank you, Hazza.” I say with a smile.

Having pulled on my black Blink- 182 hoody, a pair of jeans and my trusty honey coloured boots, I walk back downstairs while plating my long hair down my back. I reached the end and tied it in place, only to have Louis run past me and ruffle the top of my head.
“Oops... sorry luv, but it looks better this way.” He says with his cocky smile. I can’t be bothered to fix it and just leave the mess on my head. I get to the lounge and see Jem and Paul sitting very lax talking to the guys.
“See, now doesn’t her hair look lovely?” asks Louis with a smug look from next to Harry. I flip him off and go sit on the other side of my brother.
“No offence Jem and Paul… but how necessary is having the two of you? Im sure I’d be-”
“No, sorry Tash… we are both coming with you and there isn’t anything you can say to change our minds.” Paul cuts me off, standing up. He starts walking to the front door and im following before Louis and Harry are standing with me and pulling me backwards.
“Tash, we wouldn’t do this is it wasn’t your safety that’s an issue. We love our fans but they can sometime-”
“Many of them are batshit crazy and will hurt any girl seen leaving this house. And don’t get me started on the paps.” Said Louis with a straight face. I nod and pull them both into a hug.
“I know, I don’t enjoy it, but I get it.” I say with a smile, “need me to bring anything back?” I ask pulling away.
“Just four coffees.” Says Harry with a smile handing me some cash from his pocket. Louis suddenly disappears before coming back with a pair of Harry’s sunglasses and his famous grey beanie.
“Just wear this, yeah?” he says pulling the beanie onto my head and handing me the sunglasses. I smile gratefully up at him and give him a hug. He hugs me back tightly and passes me to Harry.
“Any trouble and you come home, yeah?” I don’t understand why he is so stressed about this.
“It’ just coffee Hazza…” I mumble looking down at my shoes. He nods and pulls me into a hug.
“Come on, get going.” He says placing a kiss on the top of my head. I wasn’t short, same height as Louis, but compared to my brother I was. I pull away, grab my fully charged phone, my earphones and my handbag where I put the money he gave me. I walk to the door to see Paul and Jem already waiting for me. I smile at them politely.
“okay, so we haven’t ever been out with you before like thid, and people are going to assume one of the boys is with you, so there will be crowds which we will keep to a minimum around you because of the, um… claustrophobia, luckily we have had practice with Niall so…” I nod in understanding, finally feeling the nerves.
“we will keep you safe, promise.” Says Jem with a small smile. I haven’t had much to do with him but he seems nice enough.
“okay, so first things first, if you don’t want questions, keep your head down, and put the sunglasses on. Stay between Jem and I and whatever you do, do not go wandering into the crowd. Am I clear?” asks Paul in his professional voice.
“Crystal.”
“Alright, let’s move out, remember head down.” He says opening the door; I quickly put my earphones in and start playing some music. I take a step outside and walk towards the car, a hushed silence falls on the group of fans who have never seen ‘this girl’ before. I start hearing questions being thrown at me over my music and am glad I made the decision to put them in. I quickly get into the car through the door Paul has opened for me. I sit down and take out one earbud.
“Alright?” asks Jem who is now sitting next to me. I nod my head and give him a small smile.
I pull open the group chat to the boys,

This is ridiculous! How do you manage every day????

Lou- Bear: not all its cracked up to be luv x
Hazza: just trust P & J n you’ll be fine x

Liam and Niall don’t respond but read my message. They are probably playing Fifa or something.
The car starts moving and gets to the gate at the end of the driveway, girls swarm the car in hopes of seeing one of the boys, but are moved away with violent honking coming from Paul.
“Can they um… can the windows break?” I ask unsure of the safety of the vehicle.
“not really, the lads once had to apply pressure to the other side of them to stop them caving in, but that was a while ago.” Says Jem trying to comfort me.
I nod and put my earphones back in, it’s not too long until we pulling up to the little coffee shop on the side of the road.
“Okay, no Louis Tomlinson escapes, okay? Harry will kill us, and then you…okay?” says Paul joking with me and making me smile. I nod and am quickly ushered out of the car. There are a few people but not many. We go into the café and I stand in line with Paul to order while Jem goes to find us some seats. It’s a pretty big café and is beautifully decorated. It’s nice and quiet until someone recognises the godforsaken beanie on my head.
“OH MY GOD! THAT’S LOUIS TOMLINSONS BEANIE!!” one girl screams to my right. I quickly look up at Paul who has taken a defensive stance next to me.
“And isn’t that Paul?? Like THE Paul??!” screams another. I walk forward ignoring the comments of various people. Jem is quickly by my side again, not risking anything. I place the order of one Cinnamon Latte and 6 grande cappuccinos. I pay the lady and wait for the coffee to arrive when suddenly im pushed forward by Paul.
“I need you to stay calm okay? Just breathe…” my heart rate increases at the prospect of what’s happening. I look around and see that the shop is suddenly full of many people trying to push forward. Some shouting out for certain people I have never heard of, and some girls just screaming. Im pushed forward again, now leaning against the counter.
“Paul…” I whimper starting to feel every ones presence coming over me. I feel a sudden need to remove my hoodie and try cool down.
“Yeah I know, just breathe, try not make scene or it’ll just make it worse. It’s not you they are all after thank god…” he mutters.
Suddenly it seems all the girls in the restaurant are screaming out names I can’t quite catch. I look around and just see a wave of people. The room tilts and my heart rate increases. Every space in the room is occupied by a body. My mind goes into over drive as I start looking for somewhere to go to. My breath catches in the back of my throat.
“Paul…” I try again.
“It’s okay, come on, Jem grab the coffee we need to get outside now.” He says grumpily and grabs my arm and starts pushing us through the swarm of people. All I can see is heads and chests and soon my breathing is turned to quick gulps of air. Suddenly Pauls hand isn’t on my arm and people are pushing me back towards the counter. I push against them and head towards the door and fresh air. I push as hard as I can and see a small gap through the sea of people. I run for it and quickly leave the Café and sit on the floor outside the door. I can’t see Paul or Jem. I close my eyes and try taking deep gulps of air which is refusing to enter my lungs, causing a burn I know all too well. There is someone now standing in front of me that is too tall to be Paul. I keep my eyes closed still trying to steady my breathing. I know im shaking and probably look like a kid on drugs who just OD-ed.
“Hey… um, are you okay?” an Australian accent asks me. I nod my head not trusting my voice. “you don’t look it… can you, um can you open your eyes for me?” the guy asks politely, almost like he is unsure of himself.
“Luke… mate who is - shit is she okay?” another accent asks. I open my eyes and see two figures swimming before me. I grab my bag and pull out my phone.
“ple- please call Harry.” I say passing over my phone in between my ragged breathing.
“Sure, Mikey call the contact Harry quick.”
“Hazz –Hazz- Hazza” I get out between quick breathes, my heart rate is slowing down now but I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus.
“What’s your name sweetheart?” the one in front of me asks. He has blond hair and is very, very tall and a small black lip piercing on the corner of his mouth.
“Tasha!” someone else answers for me I nod confirming the answer. Everything swims again and starts to go black from lack of oxygen.
“Paul?” the tall one asks really confused before I fall forward and everything goes black.

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