Clash

“No.” I cried out in despair. I didn’t even notice that I had gotten up from my chair and hold Harry at the collar of his shirt. He put his hand over mine to keep me from strangling him, which was really impossible to do but I didn’t care at this point.

Harry has his eyes narrowed as he looked at me and I know he had expected this reaction but he didn’t like it one bit as I was in a position to possibly hurt him and the fact that I reacted like this over Niall, didn’t do any good as well but I couldn’t help myself because even though I’m with Harry it doesn’t mean I stopped caring about Niall and he is still one of my dearest friends and I don’t want him to get hurt ever.

“He volunteered Anna, I swear I did not ask him but he wanted to do it himself, so what else can I do about it, you know Niall.” He tried to reason with me as he was still staring me down and I felt my heartbeat going back to it’s normal rhythm. I got my hands of off him and sighed deeply but I didn’t sit back down. Instead I grabbed my plate en threw it in the sink, causing it to break but it was just a plate.

“Anna please calm down.” Harry tried but I couldn’t be reasonable at the moment because I hated this life, I didn’t want anyone to get hurt in something as stupid as this and to be honest even though I was in charge I never knew what it was that made Harry this powerful or Bradley for that matters.

“Harry I never asked you this but what is it that makes you so goddamn powerful?” I asked him angry and this made him open and close his mouth. I know he never expected me to ask him a question like that because I never really wanted to know what he did but at this point it was really important because there must be a reason why this city had two active gangs.

“Drugs love, what else?” He said quietly and I immediately felt that he wasn’t proud of it.
“Why in heavens name?” I asked him trying not to judge but deep in my heart I was judging him badly because I really hated drugs and I never got why people used it in the first place as it will only kill you in the end. “Why do you want to know this all of a sudden?” He asked confused and that’s when I realized that he never trusted me enough to give me the intel and to think I tried to be in charge of this.

Although I have to admit that I just let Liam do all the work with Louis because I didn’t want to get too much involved and also I was in mourning but now I was Harry’s right hand and I needed to know these things.

“Because you named me your right hand.” I rolled my eyes at him, fully aware that he hated it when I did that. “Don’t you think a right hand is supposed to know these kind of things?” I asked him as if he was dumb and I know he was getting angry at me but I knew he wouldn’t do anything to me. “Fine but don’t you sit there and judge me because you don’t know anything about it.” He was angry and I almost apologized but I stopped myself because this had to happen sooner or later and as I wasn’t in a good mood anyway this was just the best time to discus it.

“Well explain it to me then!” I told him and he sighed deeply and pulled a hand through his hair, this was something he only did when he was nervous but I couldn’t help him in the area at the moment.

“It was the only way I could survive and make a living for my mom and sister and I guess I just never felt the need to get out, as I’m pretty successful.” He acted as if it was nothing but didn’t he understand that he could go to jail if he gets busted.

“You know you don’t have to do this right?” I asked him but he shook his head in a way that made it clear that he thought I didn’t understand where he was coming from but I did. I mean I never been in a situation like that but I can imagine things can go wrong drastically and that you can’t see another path but now that he was back on his feet again he really should stop with it.

“Now that you provided a safe home for you mother and sister, why not stop?” I did know the answer to this but I needed to hear it from him. “I like the power.” He shrugged and that was that, there was nothing I could say to get him to stop dealing and the worst part was that he made me an accomplice and could get me locked up as well. I sighed because now I knew why detective Mackenzie was asking around.

“Sure you do but don’t forget that you can ruin a lot of lives with this including mine.” I walked away from him towards my bedroom because I had enough for one night and I just wanted to go to sleep and start fresh on a new school day. Harry stopped me though by placing his hand on my arm, he turned me around so I was facing him and when I saw the guilt on his face I was dreading his words.

“I do need you to do something.” I sighed again and waited for him to spill it out. “About college, I really don’t want to take it away from you but we really need you with us, this does mean you have to quit for real this time and focus on a medical degree.” I stared at him with a blank expression as I didn’t know what to say to him right now but I did feel like screaming as this wasn’t something I had seen coming.

“Okay.” Was all I could say and that brought a shocked expression to his face because he thought I would fight it but what was the use of that, as he already made up his mind?
I pulled myself out of his grasp and walked to my bed where I just collapsed. “Anna?” I heard the worry laced through his voice but I didn’t care. I just needed to shut down me feelings and the things I wanted. Next thing I know I’m again on my feet and walk over to my keyboard and without blinking, I opened a window and threw it out like a crazy person, I didn’t even check to see if there wasn’t someone walking.

I didn’t stop there as I also threw away all my sheet music, along with my laptop and everything that I had bought for college, I was completely losing my mind but it felt good, it felt liberating, it felt as if I needed to do that, that is until Harry pulled me away from the window. I turned around so I was facing him and crashed my lips against him, not taking any prisoners. I forced my tongue in his mouth and I battled with his tongue. I know I had shocked him but he couldn’t resist me and he began to kiss me back, pulling me by my hair and as he forced me towards the bed, I had time to be rational but as soon as my conscience began to talk I shut it down completely.

Harry threw me on my bed and swiftly pulled of my clothes until I was completely naked. He didn’t leave me hanging as he also got rid of his clothes. He didn’t waste any time to foreplay this time and without checking if I was ready for him he just slammed inside me, making me cry out in surprise, which turned to lust in a split second. He seemed to understand what I needed, as he turned us around making me sit on top of him. I needed to be in control and as I moved my body on his I felt the tension built in the pit of my stomach and Harry kept saying my name.

After a while he sat up and wrapped his arms around me so I was pressed against his chest, we were still moving but the pace had slowed down, I didn’t realize that I was crying until he told me. “It’s okay baby, I’m so sorry.” He said with a raspy voice. He kissed my shoulder and my forehead and he eventually made enough space to kiss me gently but passionate.

He moved my hips slowly and soon enough the tension that was building came to it’s highpoint and when he pressed his thumb to my center, I exploded. I actually saw stars, I forgot about my surroundings and the only thing I could still see were Harry and me in a peaceful world without bad things. I know that Harry was going for his own pleasure as he moved my hips faster and that was fine by me, as I wasn’t fully back to the bedroom. My legs were still trembling the minute he came. He didn’t pull out but only pressed me tighter against his body.

I closed my eyes and soon enough I felt myself drifting off into nothingness.

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