Icing on the Cake

~38~

All four of us sat down at a table by the pool and we all had a drink in our hands. I could feel the tension, and I decided to blurt out the question I had been thinking for months. “Are you guys going to be pissed at me forever?”

Michael hesitated like he was thinking of what to say. As he was about to open his mouth, Ashton spoke up. “I don’t know, probably.”

Sadness and anger came over me. “What did I do Ashton?”

“You know what you did!” Ashton. “You ruined our careers!”

“THEY ended our careers!” I clarified. “All I did was be myself. You were never asked to conform. They wanted me to be someone I wasn’t.”

“And you couldn’t take one for the team?”

“I DID! For five years I lived a lie. And how dare you, Ashton, how dare you expect me to have to go through that!”

“You think this is MY fault?” Ashton said, heatedly. He stood up and walked towards me, and started yelling in my face. “We had fucking EVERYTHING! We had it all! We had everything we ever dreamed of!” Ashton grabbed me by the shoulders and forcefully picked me up. My shoulders screamed in pain as he grabbed them.

“You threw everything away!” Ashton screamed. “And for what? So the world could know Calum puts his dick in your ass?” In a fit of anger, Ashton threw my body against the ground. I hit my head at the edge of the pool and my body flopped into the pool. I managed to clutch onto the sides of the pool with my arms. I held my breath, afraid I was underwater. I couldn’t get my wits together enough to move, my head was throbbing. My body started thrashing. I put a hand to my face and realized my head was above water, and I gasped for air.

“Get out of my house!” Calum yelled to Ashton.

“NO!” I screamed. “Ashton, you need to hear something.”

“And what’s that you queer?” Ashton asked me.

“Want to know what happened?” I asked. “They controlled everything. I had to go back in the closet, I had to grow a beard, ‘butch’ up my clothes, drink beer, watch my diet, take shirtless photos like a prostitute, kiss girls. How would you have liked to been forced to date a man? Every time I gave even a little resistance they threatened to take everything away! They said I’d be letting you guys down, and that you’d hate me. And you know what? That bitch Megan was right. But I decided I wasn’t their puppet! I kissed Calum, I shaved my face, I put a shirt on, I wore pink, I ate a fucking cheeseburger and yelled fuck you the whole time. The fact that you wanted me to live a lie proves that you are a shitty friend!”

“You took everything away from me you prick!” Ashton screamed, coming towards me. He leaned down to me in the pool, placed his hand on the top of my head and pushed it under the water.

Notes

Damn. I really can't write a 5SOS fanfic without antagonizing one of the 5SOS boys.