**Ring, ring, ring**

“Cassie, you need to get over here right now” my brothers tells me through the phone

I hurry and take the kids to Harry and race over to the hospice center. Nate is standing outside in the freezing ass cold smoking a cigarette. Niall and I get out of the car and walk over to him.

“He’s gone…Papaw is gone”

My heart drops, legs grow weak. I feel like I am going to be sick. I burst into tears and start yelling.

“Why! Why god why! This isn’t fair. He was my best friend he was everything to me and you took him”

After I calm down a bit we go inside. I walk into the room and see his lifeless body lying on the bed. He doesn’t even look like my papaw. His skin is a cold grey, lips an ice blue. I take in every inch of him knowing this is the last time I will be seeing him for a long time. I feel myself start to tremble.

“Be brave baby, he’s in a better place now” Niall says holding me

“I..I know I’m just going to miss him so much” I bury my face into Niall’s neck.

Niall’s phone rings and he answers.

“Hello”
…
“Are you kidding me, right now”
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“I guess I’ll be there as soon as I can, you’re sure you can’t take care of it?”
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“Fine, yes I understand.. yes see you soon”

“Who was that?” I ask

“Mark, someone broke into the house and I have to go home to check out the damage and talk to the police…I’m sorry baby I love you” Niall rambles on

“It’s ok I love you too. I understand Ni, I’ll see you soon enough” I say

The coroner comes to transport Papaw to the funeral home around 1 a.m.

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I decide to ride with Niall to the airport and bid him farewell. After his jet leaves I go to the hotel where Harry is staying to pick up the kids.

“Hi, you look like hell. What happened?” he asked

I looked up to him, my eyes red, puffy and tired from crying. I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes once again as sadness takes over my body.

“He… he died Harry, my papaw is gone” I sob

“Oh, I’m sorry Cassie” Harry says pulling me into a hug

I go in and sit on the couch by the electric fireplace. Brynlie, Oliver and Olivia are asleep in the bed. Harry makes some tea and sits down beside me so we can chat for a while. Before too long I fall asleep, I feel Harry get up and put a blanket over me then place a small kiss on my temple before lying on the floor to sleep himself.

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Three Days Later:

The service was nice. Papaw had a military style funeral. Mamaw was a mess, I tried to stay strong for her; for everyone, but sometimes the bravest, strongest people break. My heart feels like it was going to shatter all over again. Niall couldn’t make it back, all flights were grounded due to the massive snow storm. Liam and Soph went back early too but at least I had Zayn, Lou, Taylor and Harry. The kids helped to keep my mind occupied too. Dad told me that my aunt will be staying with my mamaw during the week now and go home on the weekends so she will be looked after.

“So the wedding is coming up soon” Zayn said

“Yes in two months, February is right around the corner”

“Yeah it is, how’re you doing?”

“I’ll be ok. I just need some time to grieve, but I’ll be fine” I say

“That’s my girl” Zayn laughs

I didn’t really give it that much thought but our wedding is coming up very fast. Everything is already paid for though so no stress there. I just want to be back home with Niall. Hopefully the storm lets up enough by Friday so we can head back home. Until then I guess I’ll just visit with mamaw and remind her and myself that good bye doesn’t mean forever.

Notes

Sorry it's been almost a week, i feel like this update sucks :( anyways i had to call an ambulance last friday to take my mother in law to the hospital because she was so sick she couldn't move. i met them there and wasn't there ten minutes before she flat lined (basically died) for a minute and 45 seconds before they were able to revive her. After all sorts of testing the doctors found out she has a deadly blood infection called sepsis. thankfully the antibiotics have reversed it and she is slowly going back to normal. she'll be on an IV when she comes home so i will have to give her medication to her through her IV and get the joy of looking after her now seeing she will be living with us.. so that's what has been up also idk if i mentioned it but my son had an EEG done to see if he's been having seizures and it came back normal so YAY