Never Let You Go {Book 2}

The next two days went by so fast, most of them spent at the beach and on the boardwalk. I’ll admit I miss hanging out with Niall like this. It’s been too long since I’ve seen him this happy. I’m kind of sad that I will be going back home tomorrow; dreading it actually one because it’s cold in Iowa and two Niall isn’t coming. He gets to go back home to London in a week and so are the other boys. This month long break really did them some good, they’re talking about starting up the tour again the beginning of December which gives them two weeks to get things ready. Today Niall and I are driving to Anaheim and going to Disneyland, it should be a fun day.

“Hey Ni you ready?” I ask

“Yea babe be right out” he replies

It takes us about two hours to drive and when we get there it isn’t really that packed. There are tons of paparazzi around though; which makes me nervous because Harry doesn’t know that I’m here with Niall. I find a place to park the car as we walk to the entrance. The paparazzi have of course spotted us and are snapping all sorts of pictures of Niall and I, then the questions start

“Niall are you and Miss McGavin an item again?”
“Niall how is rehab going?”
“Are you starting the tour up again soon?” the questions were non stop

Niall being the little daredevil he is dragged me on every scary ride imaginable. Partly because he knows I would have to hold his hand on the rides. Which quickly turned into just full out almost having to sit on his lap too, some of those rides are scary as fuck. He finally let me choose a ride to go on.

“How about a calm ride on the love boat?” I say

“ahh Cassie c’mon love that ride is so boring” Niall whines

“Which is why it is prefect” I say

We wait in line for about twenty minutes talking about how much we miss hanging out together and reminiscing on the memories we’ve had with each other. Finally we are next to get on. Usually there were 4 people to a boat but we just so happen to get the boat that only seats two. This should be interesting.

“So Cassie how are things with you and Harry?” Niall asks, a sad look on his face

“Oh we’re ok I guess, I don’t know he’s been kind of distant lately” I say

We sit in silence for a few moments, Niall reaches over grabbing my hand to hold it.

“Niall what are you doin?” I jump a little

“Sorry love, it’s a habit” he says letting go

“It’s alright you can hold my hand if you’d like, really I don’t mind”

Niall reaches over and takes my hand holding it softly, his thumb making circle on the top of my hand. I scoot over to be a little closer to him. I lie my head on his shoulder as we enjoy this calm ride.

“Cassie,… I love you.. I hope you know that?” Niall says softly

“I know I love you too Ni”

“No you don’t understand.. I love you Cassie. I never stopped loving you. Seeing you with Harry tears me apart I can’t stand it” he says

I say nothing just sit there a single tear running down my cheek. Before I know it his lips are on mine, but I don’t pull away. I kiss him back; my heart is racing and I get the all too familiar butterflies in my stomach. I make sure I’m not the one to pull away first. After about a minute of our make out session Niall releases my face and just stares at me.

“Niall?” I say

“Yeah” he says

“I never stopped loving you either, I just… I just got used to not having you” I tell him tears streaming down my face

“Cassie, I’m tired can we go back now” Niall asks changing the subject

“Yea sure” I reply

We drive the next two hours I almost complete silence except for the radio that’s playing. Ed Sheeran’s song Photograph comes on so I turn it up to sing along. Niall is watching me the whole time he reaches to hold my hand and I let him with no hesitation. This song does something to me and the presence of Ni isn’t helping the situation either. Yes I love him, I never quit loving him. I knew this trip was a bad idea, I shouldn’t have come down here. I don’t want to hurt Harry but I can’t help the way I feel. We arrive back at Niall’s place; he invites me inside to eat and watch some movies. I agree as we head into the small apartment.

“I could make some pizza if you’d like” Niall says

“Ok that sounds great” I say looking at movies to watch on Hulu

We start watching The Ugly Truth which is a funny movie I might add and the pizza is wonderful, the movie ends and I get up to use the restroom. Looking at myself in the mirror I ask myself what I’m doing. Just why? Why am I allowing myself to get involved with Niall… I promised myself I would resist him; it’s hard to do than you think though. I go back out to the living room to see that he has put The Notebook on for us to watch next. Great!

“Niall what are you up to?” I ask

“Nothing why?”

“Well you have The Notebook on” I say

“Yeah I thought we could watch it for old times’ sake” he says

I agree to watch the damn movie with him after he begs me for 5 minutes. Halfway through the movie Niall reaches over to put an arm around my shoulders. I scoot closer to close the gap left between our bodies and lay my head on his shoulder. It feels right, Harry won’t do this with me. He never wants to watch romantic movies with me. Lately it seems like all he wants to do is fuck, and quite frankly it’s getting old pretty fast. I love Harry but not the same way I love Niall; I’m so confused. Niall leans down without hesitation and kisses me softly on the lips. The kiss intensifies rather quickly and we are in the bedroom undressing each other before either of us realizes what we are doing.

His tender kisses trailing down my neck, the sweet nips he takes sends waves and waves of pleasure through me. I’ve got fire in my heart and I’m ready to release it. Niall is trying to be gentle and romantic but all I want is to tear into him.

“Niall please will you just let loose and fuck me” I blurt out

“What about Harry though” Niall reminds me

“I..I.. just do it” I tell him

With that Niall and I have the most amazing sex ever. He was gentle when he had to be and rough at the same time; it was an experience that was just out of this world. And now here I am waiting to board a plane back home. My boyfriend will be back tomorrow and I am hoping to god that the paparazzi didn’t get any “Good” photos of Niall and I while I was down there; And this little rendezvous will remain a secret.

Notes

UH OH what has Cassie done??