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How to Move

I don't know what

I didn’t know what was up with Louis and I had the feeling I didn’t want to know. He had been acting weird since the first time we met. I know we haven’t that many times, and I have been trying to ask Harry what his problem was. The only answer I got each time was something in the live of ‘He wasn’t feeling well’ or ‘He’s got a lot on his plate’. I knew that all of Harry’s words were bullshit but I didn’t question him any further.

After I went into the room I was going to stay in I practically kicked the boys out and began to unpack. When I was done with one of the big bags I opened the next one but stopped when I looked at the photo that was lying on top. It was a photo of me and my mother. We were on holiday on the summer 2012 with my brother and his family. We were smashed together with the sun in our faces. Smiling like two dorks we looked really happy. As I looked at that photo I felt my legs give out as I thought back to that summer. I sat down on the bed that had already been in the room and felt tears roll down my cheeks. I missed my mother so much and felt completely lost without her. I hadn’t seen her in three years now. In the beginning I talked to her a lot but as soon as I finished school our contact stopped. She had moved back to Stockholm and I decided to stay in Lund to finish my education.

I heard someone clear their throat in front of me and when I looked up I saw Liam standing there. He looked at me with the concern written all over his face. He walked over to me and knelt in front of me.

“Johanna, are you okay?” He spoke with soft words as if I was going to break at any time.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” I sniffled and wiped the remaining tears away. As I spoke I nodded. I looked down at the photo in my hands.

“Who’s that?” I looked up at Liam who was looking at the photo in my hands. He gently pulled it from me and turned it around to take a better look at it. “You two look a lot alike.” He smiled at me and then looked down at the picture again. I smiled as the memory came back again.

“It’s my mom.” My eyes were on the photo and saw Liam nod above it. I heard him sigh and when I looked up at him he was smiling back to me.

“Why were you crying?” His question hit a soft spot in me and I straightened my back and grabbed the photo from him.

“I just miss her that’s all.” I tucked the photo back into the suitcase and then went to walk out of the room.

“Then you should call her.” He spoke matter-of-factly and I stopped in the doorway. I turned my head slightly so he could hear me better.

“It’s not that simple.” I dropped my head a little and sighed. When I heard him take a deep breath as if he was about to speak I turned towards him. “Just drop it Liam.” I shook my head and then walked out from my bedroom. I knew I had to explain everything to the boys someday but I just wasn’t ready yet.

“There you are!” Niall grabbed me and pulled me out into the kitchen with an annoyed expression on his face. I started to panic a little but when we entered the kitchen I realized he wasn’t actually mad at me. The rest of the boys were laughing their asses of and when I looked at Harry with questioning eyes he laughed even harder. When he calmed himself down a little bit he pointed at Niall and explained.

“Lou told him that we couldn’t eat until you were finished.” I looked at Niall and felt laughter bubble up. I doubled over in pain from laughing so hard and he spoke to me with a whiny voice.

“Come ooon! Let’s eat already!” He pushed me to the counter and I almost fell into Louis. I looked up at him with an apologetic smile.

“Sorry you had to wait.” I shrugged and stuck my tongue out to Niall.

“It’s fine, it’s only Niall who’s fairly hungry so…” He smiled at me but when I stepped a little closer to grab the plates behind him he froze and the same stone face was back. I sighed as I piled up the food on my plate. As soon as I placed what Niall thought was enough food on my plate he pushed me to the side and started grabbing food. I laughed it off and went to sit by the table. As I began to eat the thought that I was going to see these boys almost every day settled in. I could really get used to this.

Comments

@kaylabear
Oh this means the world to me! The story is finished and I'm trying to edit it into a book since it is some of the most emotional stuff I have ever written. Thank you so much for reading this! :)

I have to say I love this story! I did once have a physically and verbally abusive relationship and it is hard to open back up! I love how you are bring awareness to this and how it is hard cause you do believe it is your fault! I love Jo and love how I relate to her! Please keep writing :)

This fic.......wow. I've been reading it for a while and I just fell in love with it completely! I'm about to read e sequal, which I can't wait to read! But I thought I should just let you know how brilliant and well written this story is.

@BriLovesStyles
I can't even tell you how much you personally mean to me now! This comment isn't only making my heart swell, it made me cry when I read it! I don't always like my own writing my I post because of people like you, and it truly means the world that you like it!
I will continue to write for as long as I live and I will continue to post stuff just for you and for people like you! Thank you love, and I love you! <3