When Louis stopped his car in front of the familiar building I felt a big lump in my throat. I hadn’t been here for over six months and it felt wrong of me to be here now. I looked down at the sidewalk as Louis opened the door for me. We walked into the building, him carrying my bags and me shielding my face from all the papz. I didn’t know why but there were tons of them here. As we entered the elevator and the flashes stopped I sighed in relief and leaned against the elevator wall. I heard Louis clear his throat so I let my gaze travel from the floor to his face.

“I’m sorry about that.” I looked at him confused and he kept on speaking. “I asked Niall to call in as many papz as possible.” I bit my bottom lip and looked down at the floor.

“Why?” My voice was a bare whisper. The elevator doors dinged open and we walked out into the hall.

“Because I want people to see that you came here with me. And if Michael comes the papz will photograph him too. We could use it later, or something.” He shrugged and opened the familiar door. He walked in before me because I stopped in my tracks. I looked into the flat and felt tears come to my eyes as all the memories came back. I wanted so badly for the last six months to be gone and that I was back in my old room. But I knew it wasn’t like that. I had left and now I was back. I heard Louis talking to someone and when I walked through the door I saw everyone sitting in the living room. When they noticed me by the door some became quiet and others, like Yvie and Niall, stood up and walked over to me.

“I was so worried.” Yvette exclaimed as she hugged me close. I winced when she hugged me a little too tight and she noticed it and let me go. I smiled kindly towards her and hugged Niall who was looking at me with worried eyes. When I let him go Louis came to stand next to me after closing the door. I smiled up at him and looked over to the people sitting on the couch.

“You’re not even going to say hi?” I smiled at them and lifted my arms to my best ability and waited for them to walk over to me. Perrie pulled me into a hug first and then Zayn. After him Liam hugged me and when Harry hugged me I almost cried again. They all said hi in their different ways.

“You hungry love?” Louis spoke softly into my ear and when I looked up at him he had nothing but love in his eyes. I nodded slowly and he kissed my cheek. I blushed and felt guilty. “Why don’t you go sit on the couch and rest a little? I’ll make you a sandwich.” I nodded and walked over to the living room as he walked into the kitchen. The others followed me into the living room. I stood next to the couch and then noticed Yvie standing close to me.

“You need help?” I looked up at her and nodded slowly. She had spoken in a low voice so that none of the others heard. She held onto my arm and helped me sit down on the couch. I winced in pain several times but I tried not to show it. When I was sitting down the others turned to me and I smiled at them all.

“So how have you guys been?” Zayn and Harry looked at each other and Perrie was looking at the floor, avoiding my gaze.

“We’ve been good. Missed you a lot though.” Niall spoke and I nodded to his words. I looked at Harry and he smiled weakly.

“Some of us been better than others.” I knew what he meant by that. And it made my heart hurt when he said that because he was pointing out that I had hurt Louis a lot. I looked down at my hands and we all stayed quiet for a long time. Louis walked into the room with a plate and sat down on the left side of me. Yvette was sitting on the other side.

“Here.” He handed me the plate and I took it and smiled to him. I took a bite of the sandwich, which was a cheese and ham sandwich with a piece of cucumber. It was really good and I finished the entire thing quickly, as the other spoke about stuff. I didn’t listen all too well but I think they talked about Michael. I sat there staring at my hands as I felt a familiar sickness in my stomach. I started to panic slightly as I pulled on Louis arm.

“Lou.” He turned his attention to me and gave me a weak smile. “Can you help me stand up?” He nodded and helped me up quickly. As soon as I was standing on my feet I ran to the bathroom and locked myself inside. I threw myself onto my knees and emptied the content of my stomach into the toilet. This continued for several minutes until everything was gone and I was feeling really weak. I flushed the toilet and leaned against the cold wall. I didn’t have the energy to get up so I just sat there. A minute later there was a knock on the door. I made a sound that signified I acknowledged the person outside the door.

“Johanna, are you alright?” Louis spoke with a soft voice and I found myself shaking my head. I sniffled and felt a wave of tears run down my cheeks. Lou must’ve heard me because he jerked the handle and his voice sounded really worried. “Jo, open the door love. Please.” I sniffled once more and pulled my hand towards the door. I unlocked it and Louis burst through the door instantly. He found me on the floor and quickly closed the door before kneeling down in front of me. He caressed my cheeks and wiped away my tears that were still falling.

“I’m so sorry Louis.” I put my face in my hands and felt the shame wash over me. I couldn’t believe what I had done. No matter how much I wanted this to be gone it was there to torment me. He kept on rubbing my back and kissed the top of my head.

“You have nothing to apologize for.” His words were soft but I couldn’t help but shrug back from him as he said them. He didn’t know what I had done. How could he be so sure? He tried to touch me again but I scooted away from him.

“But I do.” I shook my head and looked down at my hands. “It’s been six months Lou. I’m not the same girl who dumped you.” I broke my heart to say those words but they were true. Being with Michael again made me the same person I had been before. I was afraid all the time and blamed myself for it all.

“What ever happened is behind us now.” He lifted my chin with his finger and I shook my head. I looked towards the door and took a deep breath before speaking.

“Lou. I’ve done something so terrible…” I met his gaze and sighed. “So terrible that you won’t look at me the same again.” I pushed his hand away and looked at the floor. I heard him take a breath as if to speak but I broke his train of thought by speaking. “I’m pregnant with his child.” I heard Louis take a sharp intake of breath and he then sat down on his bum. I managed to lift my gaze to see his expression. He looked shocked. I thought he was going to be mad and yell at me and call me a slut, but all he could do was stare at me. He didn’t look judging and slowly his eyes turned gentle again. Without a warning he pulled me into a hug and held me close to his body. I breathed in his scent and hugged him close to me too.

“Whatever you decide to do, I will support you all the way.” He leaned back and placed his hands on the sides of my face. “I will follow you through the hardest of storms love. I would never leave you because a prick, that isn’t worth the light of day, did this to you.” He gently kissed my cheeks, since I had just thrown up, and then smiled at me. “We will work this out together.” I nodded and swallowed. He kissed my forehead and then stood up. “Come on. The others are getting worried.” I tried but failed to smile as I grabbed his hands.

He began pulling me up as I felt a sharp pain run through my abdomen. I screamed in pain and let go of Louis hands so fast that I slammed back down onto the floor. When Louis touched my stomach in panic to see what was happening I screamed more because it hurt so much. I faintly saw Harry coming into the bathroom and then leaving not long after. I couldn’t concentrate on anything but the pain so when Louis lifted me up I barely registered it. The last thing I remembered after that was Louis face right next to mine. And his angelic voice telling me everything was going to be alright.

Notes

I just want to let you guys know that I'm running out of chapters! So that means that when this story catches up with the same one on Mibba, it WILL take longer for me to update!

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