*Louis’ P.O.V.*
Everything started out so good and then I started to understand. While Johanna was standing on stage, giving her little speech to me, I understood she was going to leave me. She didn’t say it out loud but I understood. It was strange because during the last few weeks I’ve been afraid she would kill herself but I never once considered that she would leave me. So when I saw her run of the stage I instantly tried to follow her. Liam, Harry and Zayn had noticed that I started to move away from the group and so they followed me. I freaked out completely because I finally understood why Jo had been acting like she did. She had decided to break up with me. So when I saw Niall backstage I understood he must’ve known something so I instantly walked up to him.

“Where is she Niall?” I could barely breathe because I was so afraid of the answer.

“She’s gone mate.” All I could do was stare at him. How he say something like that. They were simply words that could mean anything but my gut told me they meant that she wasn’t coming back.

“What the fuck do you mean?” I didn’t want to realize what he said so I screamed at him. He had to be wrong.

“She left. And she doesn’t want us to follow her.” He truly sounded exhausted and I got the feeling that he knew this was coming. It hurt a little to know that my best friend helped my girlfriend breakup with me but I quickly shrugged it off.

“Look mate, maybe we should just go back to th-…” Liam spoke but I kept my gaze on Niall.

“I need to speak to Niall alone.” I interrupted Liam and waited for them to leave. Of course they did and when I knew they were out of hearing distance I spoke. “You know something.”

“Lou, listen I don’t know anythi-..” Instantly Niall began telling me a lie about how he didn’t know anything so I cut him off.

“Don’t lie to me Niall. You’re shitty at keeping secrets.” I snapped at him. His eyes showed the guilt he felt and it almost made me want to hug him, he wasn’t always the strong type.

“She left because she thinks you’re not safe with her.” I felt like I had just ran into a brick wall with a speeding car. Reality hit me and I couldn’t help but speak in a very small voice.

“So she’s moved out too?” Niall gave me a little nod before putting his hand on my shoulder.

“She’s still in London and she won’t move back to Sweden anytime soon…” He paused and I hoped he would say something in the line of; When its safe she will come back. To my dismay the words he spoke were the opposite. “She doesn’t want to see you.”

“Oh…” was all that left my mouth. Without thinking I turned around and walked away from Niall. I couldn’t be near anyone at the moment. I stopped when I got around the corner and could hear Niall knocking on a door. When nothing was heard he quietly spoke.

“He’s gone Jo.” My body stiffened when I heard her name. She must’ve been in the closet behind Niall the entire time. “You need to go now. Yvie is outside with a car, she’ll drive you to your flat.” I felt anger flare up in me as I heard their conversation. I deserved a better ending. They had been quiet for a little while when I heard the back door open. Staying silent a few moments more I heard Jo’s soft whisper.

“I am so sorry for breaking him.” Even though I was extremely mad at her for just ruining everything when it was going so bad I understood why. She told me once that she had nothing to keep her going, and now that she found me she did.

Being the drastic person I am I decided that tonight I was going to do anything it took to forget her, just for tonight. I stormed out to the bar and ordered five shots, just as a start. I knew I was going to regret this but I needed to get it out of my system. After the seventh shot everything went black.

The next day

I woke up because my bloody phone was ringing constantly. I groaned and dug my head deeper into the pillow. I heard someone groan besides me but didn’t think about it too much, figuring it was just Jo getting annoyed at my phone.

“Jeez Louis. Answer the bloody thing.” My head snapped up when the voice from next to me wasn’t Johannas. I felt my blood run cold when I noticed the dark curls on the pillow next to mine. The head turned and confirmed my fear. “Oh, don’t look so surprised Lou!” She sat up and I noticed she didn’t have any clothes on. I quickly turned my head, looking at my own body and realized I was naked too. The memories from last night came flooding back and I instantly knew I needed to get out of there.

“I need to leave.” I got up from the bed and heard her chuckle at me.

“You’re such a bore since that girl walked into your life.” She snorted and I turned around to face her as I put my pants on.

“Don’t you dare speak about her like that.” I felt the anger from last night flare up but towards the girl in the bed. I quickly picked up my shirt and put it on.

“Oh, please Louis. She broke up with you remember? And you were so keen on getting back at her for breaking your heart!” She laughed and I simply took my shoes and my jacket and began walking to the front door. I heard her get up from the bed and run after me. Just I reached the door and pulled it open she yelled my name.

“What?” I turned around and looked at her. She was standing there completely naked trying to look sexy.

“You sure you don’t want to come back to bed for a little while?” She was flirting hard but I didn’t feel affected.

“I have never wanted you, Danielle. And I will never want you. What happened last night only happened because I was too pissed to understand what I was doing.” With that I walked out the door, not even bothering to close it. I was so annoyed with myself and couldn’t believe even the drunken me would fuck Danielle. She started dating Liam when we first started out as a band, but soon enough we understood she was only doing it for the publicity and for the sex. She tried fucking all of us, some fell for it some didn’t. I have to admit I was one of those who fell for it. I got into the elevator and went down to the lobby. When I walked outside there were several paparazzi’s there. My phone started ringing again and when I looked at it I saw that it was Harry. I groaned and almost expected him to yell at me for disappearing last night.

“Yeah?” I answered lightly and waited for him to continue.

“You need to get home Lou.” I stopped in my steps and got confused.

“What happened?”

“You got a package.” I was almost about to ask him what this was about, a package wasn’t a big deal but when he spoke the next three words my heart stopped. “It’s from Johanna.”

“I’m coming.” I hung up the phone and waved over a taxi that was passing by. I told him the address and within minutes I was standing in the elevator in our building. I was breathing quickly because I was freaking out and my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. When the elevator doors opened I ran to our door, throwing it open to find Harry sitting at the kitchen table with a small package in front of him. Niall, Liam and Zayn were standing in the kitchen talking about something, but became quiet when I walked in.

“Hi Louis.” Zayn spoke and sent me a weak smile. I nodded to him but kept my eyes on the package on the table.

“Is that it?” Harry looked up at me but I didn’t meet his gaze.

“Yeah. It was on the table when I woke up. Along with these.” He opened his hand and showed me
the keys Johanna had been using when she lived here. I took a step forward but before picking the package up I looked at the guys.

“Do you guys know anything about this?” Both Zayn and Liam shook their heads but Niall looked at the ground. He knew what is was but I knew he wasn’t going to tell me. I nodded at them before focusing back on the brown package on the table.

“Lads, I think we should leave Lou alone with this.” Niall spoke up and when I looked up at him he gave me a small nod. I looked at the others and they just shrugged.

“Fine with me. We’ll get some breakfast. You want some Louis?” I shook my head and waited for them to leave the flat. When I heard the door shut I sighed and picked up the package. I slowly began to open it and soon realized it was a DVD. There was something written on it, I could tell it was Jo’s writing. Watch Me I took a deep breath as I walked into the living room and placed the disc into the DVD -player. I sat down on the couch and pressed play.

Her beautiful face popped up on the TV and she looked really sad. Her eyes were red as if she had been crying and she looked tired. She was looking at the ground and sniffled slightly before looking up into the camera. Even though she looked like a mess she was the most beautiful person ever.

“Hi Louis.” Just by her saying my name I felt tears form in my eyes. “I know you probably hate my guts right now. And I understand. I do too.” She nodded to herself and looked down at her hands. “I know that what I did might seem selfish and evil.” She looked up into the camera and tears had begun rolling down her cheeks. “I know that by doing this I am hurting you, even though I promised to never do that.” She looked so helpless. “I love you Louis.” She choked on the words and tears poured from her eyes. She placed a hand over her mouth and shook her head. “Gosh! This is the tenth time I’ve tried to record this for you.” She kept shaking her head, probably feeling stupid for crying. She didn’t like crying.

“I’m just not good enough for you Louis.” I automatically began shaking my head. “And I know you’re shaking your head right now, but it’s true. You deserve someone who can be seen with you, someone who isn’t a danger to your safety.” I so desperately wanted to argue with her about this but she wasn’t here. The tears rolled down my cheeks quicker. She took a deep breath and looked down at her hands again. “So before I disappear from your life for good, I wanted you to have another present from me.” She looked up and then behind the camera. When she focused her eyes back on the lens my heart broke. “Oh, and don’t be mad at Niall. He only helped me because I begged him.” She nodded to someone behind the camera and I understood it was Niall when someone playing the guitar sounded. I instantly recognized the song and felt tears form once again.

“Can't believe I’m packing my bags
Trying so hard not to cry
Had the best time and now it's the worst time
But we have to say goodbye”

Tears were streaming down her face as she sang with closed eyes.

“Won't promise that I’m gonna write
Won't promise that I'll call
But promise that you won't forget we had it all”

I could see the words were hurting her and I wanted to yell at her to stop.

“Cause I was yours for the summer
Now it's nearly over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
I was your summer love
I will always keep you safe from danger”

She shook her head and opened her blue eyes to stare into the camera. I felt like someone stabbed a knife into my heart as she kept singing but looked like she wanted nothing more than not mean the words.

“Wish that we could be alone now
If we could find some place to hide
Make the last time just like the first time
Push a button and rewind
Don't say the words that's on your lips
Don't look at me that way
Just promise you'll remember
When the sky is grey”

She took a shaky breath and wiped her cheek. The tears didn’t seem to stop, not for her or for me.

“Cause I was yours for the summer
Now it's nearly over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
I was your summer love
You always will be my summer love
So please don't make this any harder
We can't take this any farther
And I know there's nothing that I wanna change”

She choked on the words and Niall played the riff for the next line one more time. She sent him a weak smile before singing the last lines.

“Cause you were mine for the summer
But I know it needs to be over
Feels like snow in September
But I always will remember
You were my summer love
You always will be my summer love”

When she stopped she looked at her hands and let out a soft cry. It hurt seeing her like this, my happy Johanna was none existent and on the screen sat someone who was heartbroken. She gathered herself before looking up into the camera, looking broken beyond repair.

“My heart will forever belong to you Louis. Just understand that I am doing this for you.” She straightened her back and tried smiling. “If destiny is feeling kind, someday we might meet ad the conditions might be right.” She put her hand over her heart and tears continued to roll down her cheeks. “Oh, and I put something in your room. You can throw it away if you want too, I understand.” She leaned forward, placing her hand on the camera as if to turn it off. “I love you Louis, always have and always will.” The video turned black and I sat there staring at the screen for a few minutes. I then quickly got up and practically ran into my room. When I opened the door I noticed a small box on the bed. I walked over and picked it up. When I opened it inside there was a small necklace that said 1 true love.

I was going to keep this. I was going to have her close to my heart every day and hope that someday I would have her here again.

*End of Louis' P.O.V.*