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How to Move

This time is different, the rules don’t apply.

This time is different, the rules don’t apply.

The party kept going and Louis got his drink. We sat talking a little and then I pushed him to the middle of the room, I told him he had to say hello to everyone. So I mostly followed him around when he received congratulations from all the people around us. Three out of four times he introduced me to them too, even though I would’ve liked not to be introduced. I didn’t pay any attention to the people who were talking to him and when they spoke to me I simply nodded and they continued to talk to Louis. In my head I was thinking about the second song. I was going to break his heart but to everyone else it would look like I was declaring my love, which I in some sort was. Everything would make sense and I know he’s not going to like it.

Louis was currently talking to Harry and some girl he had on his arm, I think her name was Sarah. I stood next to Lou, holding his hand tightly. Every now and then he squeezed my hand as if to tell me he’s there. I looked at the ground and instantly felt a hand on my shoulder. When I looked up I saw Niall there. He pointed to the big clock on the wall, it showed that the time was 11.15. I nodded and he began walking towards the stage. I pulled Louis’ hand to get his attention and when he turned to me my heart broke completely. He smiled sweetly to me and waited for me to tell me what I wanted him.

“I need to get on stage again.” I smiled and he looked surprised.

“Another surprise?” I nodded and leaned forward to kiss him. I kiss long and with so much love. When I leaned back he looked quite shocked but still really happy. “What was that for?” I grabbed his hands and stared at them.

“I just want you to know I love you.” I looked up at him again and he had an adoring smile on his lips. “And that no matter what happens I will always love you Louis.” He gave me a sweet smile once more and leaned forward to give me a kiss.

“I love you too.” He turned me around and slapped my bum. “Now go! I want my gift!” I laughed lightly as I walked away but the smile faded quickly. I walked over to Niall where he stood behind the stage. When I approached him I noticed Simon standing next to him. I thought it was curious but shrugged it off.

“Johanna!” Simon called as soon as I was in hearing shot. I nodded to him and waved.

“Hi Simon.” I smiled to him but it didn’t reach my eyes, I could only think about Louis at the moment.

“I know what you’re going to do, Niall told me.” I gave Niall a glare and then focused back on Simon. “I can’t let you do this.” I was about to speak but he put his hand up. “You are going to go out onto the stage, give a speech about how much you love him and a big cake will come out. After that you leave the party.” I looked at Niall and he looked at the ground.

“It doesn’t seem like I have anything to say in this matter.” I shrugged and crossed my arms.

“I’m sorry but no. We are protecting both you and Louis by stopping you from doing this.” I looked at Niall again and gave him a pleading look.

“But the song would explain everything.” My words were barely a whisper and Niall nodded.

“I know. But we’ll record it and give it to him.” Niall looked like he was feeling really bad for telling Simon. But I understood why he had done it. He loved Louis like a brother and he knew that if Simon found out, he would stop me from doing it in public. I sighed and shook my head.

“I guess this is the best way.” Simon nodded and handed me a mic.

“Just nod this way when you’re finished, so they know when to bring out the cake.” I nodded and took a deep breath. Simon walked away slightly and Niall went to stand next to me.

“I’m not sorry for telling him, Jo. I’m just sorry this has to happen at all.” We were both looking out onto stage and I shook my head.

“I understand Niall.” I heard him let out a small breath. “What are you going to tell him when I leave?” I knew would have thought about this, even though I felt a little offended that they had it all planned out.

“We’re going to say that you left and asked us not to come after you.” Simple but true. I looked at the ground and took Nialls hand.

“Thank you Niall for being there for me. I know I put you in a tuff spot.” I looked at him and he sent me a smile.

“Anything for your best friend.” I let go of his hand and took a step forward. When I thought of something I looked back at him with sad eyes.

“Will I get to say goodbye to the others later?” He smiled softly and nodded. I gave him a slight nod and turned around once more. I felt my feet move on to the stage and the music began to die down.
As I positioned myself in the middle of the stage I felt everyone’s eyes on me again. I brought the mic up to my mouth and began speaking. “Well hello everyone, again!” They laughed slightly and I fake laughed too. “It is so incredible to think that in no less than thirty minutes 2018 is over!” They all clapped and I fake laughed again. I tried my hardest not to show my pain. “But as I said before, we are here to celebrate a certain mister. This, well I guess you can call him a man, is one of the kindest people I have ever met. Even though I have only known him for about six months he has helped more than anyone has ever before. He had me open up and he made me love again. As you might have figured, he and I have a little fling.” They all laughed because they understood, he had introduced me to everyone as his girlfriend.

“And speaking of the birthday boy! Where are you, monkey?” Some people began shouting and I located him amongst them. I smiled sweetly towards him and the other people almost disappeared. “I do love you Louis. I know I’m not easy to handle, and some things that happens in the future will show you just how much of a pain in the ass I am. But I want you to know that no matter what the newspapers or anyone tell you, I will forever and always be yours at heart.” I almost saw the realization in his eyes but I kept going. “You made me realize that I am good for something.” I turned so that I was facing the crowd a little bit more and spoke to all of them. “So with that I wish you all a happy new year and hope you may find love and happiness where ever you turn!” I turned my head to nod towards the side of the stage and then I looked at Louis again. “And happy birthday Boo!” They huge cake came rolling out onto the floor next to Louis and everyone turned to it. I quickly ran off the stage and found Niall standing there.

“You’re crying.” He handed me a tissue and began walking me towards the back door.

“He understood Niall.” I began sobbing hard and he hugged me tight. I sigh as he rocked for back and forth.

“Where is she?!” We heard Louis yelling not far from where we were standing.

“Louis, calm down mate.” Liam was with which made me a little bit more relaxed. Niall began pulling me towards a closet nearby and pushed me inside.

“Stay here and lock the door until I get back, ok?” I nodded and he shut the door. I heard Louis voice get closer and when Niall spoke I understood they were just outside the door.

“Where is she Niall?”

“She’s gone mate.” The space outside the door was quiet for a minute before Louis’ voice was heard.

“What the fuck do you mean?” He yelled at Niall. He sounded really mad. I choked down the tears that were threatening to fall and continued to listen.

“She left. And she doesn’t want us to follow her.” Niall sounded tired because he also knew why I left. They were yet again quiet.

“Look mate, maybe we should just go back to th-…” Louis interrupted Liam when he spoke.

“I need to speak to Niall alone.” I heard the others move away and understood that all of them were there. After a while Louis spoke again. “You know something.”

“Lou, listen I don’t know anythi-..” Louis interrupted him too.

“Don’t lie to me Niall. You’re shitty at keeping secrets.” They fell into silence. I hoped they couldn’t hear my breathing or my crying.

“She left because she thinks you’re not safe with her.” He sounded so sad when he spoke the words. He knew that all I wanted was for Louis to be happy and safe but he couldn’t be that with me. But he
also knew that Louis wasn’t going to let me go so easily.

“So she’s moved out too?” I think Niall nodded but I couldn’t see it.

“She’s still in London and she won’t move back to Sweden anytime soon…” He sounded like he wanted to say something else. He took a deep breath before speaking again. “She doesn’t want to see you.”

“Oh…” I some shuffling around and soon someone knocked on the door. I didn’t open it or anything but soon enough Niall spoke up.

“He’s gone Jo.” I sniffled lightly and unlocked the door. When he saw my face he pulled me into a quick hug and then he dragged me to the door. “You need to go now. Yvie is outside with a car, she’ll drive you to your flat.” I nodded and walked out the door. I looked back at him one last time and felt more tears fall down my cheeks.

“I am so sorry for breaking him.” I said nothing more and gave him no chance to respond. I simply turned around and walked away. I instantly saw the car Yvette was sitting in and without any words got in. She turned to me instantly and looked at me with worried eyes. I diverted my gaze and looked out the window.

“How are you?” She asked with the softest voice I’ve ever heard. I shook my head and refused to meet her gaze.

“Just take me home.”

Comments

@kaylabear
Oh this means the world to me! The story is finished and I'm trying to edit it into a book since it is some of the most emotional stuff I have ever written. Thank you so much for reading this! :)

I have to say I love this story! I did once have a physically and verbally abusive relationship and it is hard to open back up! I love how you are bring awareness to this and how it is hard cause you do believe it is your fault! I love Jo and love how I relate to her! Please keep writing :)

This fic.......wow. I've been reading it for a while and I just fell in love with it completely! I'm about to read e sequal, which I can't wait to read! But I thought I should just let you know how brilliant and well written this story is.

@BriLovesStyles
I can't even tell you how much you personally mean to me now! This comment isn't only making my heart swell, it made me cry when I read it! I don't always like my own writing my I post because of people like you, and it truly means the world that you like it!
I will continue to write for as long as I live and I will continue to post stuff just for you and for people like you! Thank you love, and I love you! <3