But I knew it had to end. I was trying to prolong the evitable but knew that in only days the verdict would be set. I had planned it all out, only two people knew about and that was Niall and Yvette. Yvette knew more than Niall did. I made her swear not to tell Niall, because if he knew he would tell Louis in two seconds. At the moment he only thought it was about me singing a few songs for Louis.

After Louis and I had gotten off London Eye we went home, the paps started to attack him and he decided it wasn’t worth it. On the way home we held hands and talked about nothing and everything. I was happy, truly happy in this moment. I would like to believe that Louis was happy too. When we got home we decided to bake, or well it turned out to be Louis baking and me sitting on the counter being in the way all the time. He was about to put the flour in when he turned to me with an evil smile. I couldn’t do anything but laugh at him as he inched closer to me with his hands behind his back.

“What are you doing Louis?” I put my hands and legs up, pushing him away with my legs. He shrugged and managed to place himself between my legs, do not ask me how that happened. I let out a nervous laugh since I almost knew what he was about to do and his smile only grew. I swallowed and put my hands on his chest. “Louis…” I spoke cautiously.

“What?” He asked sweetly and batted his eyelashes at me. I snorted and shook my head at him. He stood by the edge of the counter and looked my in the eyes. I found myself getting lost and as he leaned in to kiss me, all suspicious thoughts were gone. He pressed his lips against mine and I closed my eyes. Only about a second later I felt something being poured over my head. My first thought was that he had poured flour on me but then I realized the stuff was sticky.

“You poured the batter over me?!” I screamed but laughed at the same time. He laughed and when I looked at him I noticed that he had gotten some on his face, since he had been standing so close to me. I couldn’t help but snort in laughter as he just looked at me. “Why did you do that Louis?” I whined and wiped my face. He shook his head and walked over to me. He pulled my hands from my face and started to wipe my face with his hands.

“It was all an accident, I swear!” He looked at me with mockingly shocked eyes and all I could do was smile. “Looks like we have to remove our clothes and clean up.” He shrugged and leaned closer. His mouth touched my ear, sending shivers down my back. “And since we both got a little messy we might as well shower together.” I felt a warm sensation in the pit of stomach and bit my lip to keep the small moan in. Instead of responding the way he wanted me to respond I leaned back and gave him a cocky look.

“Really?” I leaned closer to him and grabbed him bum. “How about..” I started to whisper in his ear. “You go pour us a bath and I will make myself a little dirtier?” I heard him lightly groan and I tried to fight the urge to laugh. He leaned back and looked at me with dark eyes. I bit my lips but didn’t break the stare. I slight smile was on his lips and I waited for him to answer. My hands were on his bum still and I slid forward a little so that my area met his. He almost hissed at me as he peered down at the place where our bodies touched. I cleared to throat and he looked up at me with passion in his eyes. “Bath, now.” His eyes narrowed at me and instead of just walking away he grabbed my hand and pulled me into the large bathroom. He pushed me into the shower, making me laugh and shake my head. He turned on the water and let it get warm before stepping under the stream and pulling me with him. We were both fully clothed and I just laughed at how serious he looked. After I was pressed against his body his lips found mine. I gasped because I didn’t expect it but I recovered from my shock soon. I began kissing him back. He quickly turned the water off and I leaned back to look at him.

“We’re clean enough.” He stated quickly before attacking my neck with kisses and love bites. I gasped slightly and this time I couldn’t hold back the moan.

“I don’t feel clean.” My voice was raspy and he noticed that. He leaned back and somehow his eyes had gotten even darker.

“I guess I didn’t see the point in cleaning ourselves…” he leaned closer and nibbled at my ear. “Since we are going to do very dirty things to each other.” My breath caught in my throat and I began pulling at his shirt. He quickly pulled it over his head before connecting his lips with mine. Not breaking the kiss he lead my to my bedroom, it was the one closest to the bathroom. On the way there I lost my shirt, my pants and he lost his pants too. When we had stumbled into my room he pushed me down on the bed and placed himself on top of me. His lips smashed onto mine and I let out a loud moan as his hand found the wet spot between my legs. I lifted my hand to touch his chest put he grabbed it and pressed it to the mattress.

“Louis…” I whined and moan at the same time. He shook his head as he began kissing my neck. He kissed and sucked on a few sensitive spots and I knew I was going to have hickeys. He spoke between the kisses.

“I want to take care of you.” I felt myself get more and more excited as he spoke the words and he began kissing his way down my stomach. I was too euphoric to even be thinking about hiding my body. When he reached my panties he clicked with his tongue and began pulling them down. My mind was completely blank as I was feeling all those crazy feelings only Lou could make me feel. Before I knew it he separated my legs and his mouth met my warmth. I gasped in surprise and clung to the cover underneath me as I felt his tongue do wonderful things to me.

Louis let me finish and then we actually made love. The night was far the best one I had ever experienced, not just the sex but the intimate setting as well. He showed me how much he loved me and I showed him how much I loved him. Never before have he and I been so in sync.

We were both now lying in bed, panting and cuddling, when Louis kissed my head and spoke. His voice was a mere whisper and I closed my eyes to just listen to his voice.

“I know things have been different lately and I can see that you’re struggling.” He paused and I felt my heart rate quicken. I didn’t want him to start asking questions so I stayed quiet and waited for him speak again. “But I’m not going to question it. I’m just blessed to have you love me. I thought I loved someone before but it turned out to be something a lot less than that.” He leaned his head back a little and I opened my eyes to look at him. His eyes were glassy and I felt my own tear up too. He placed his hand on my cheek and wiped away the single tear that escaped my eye. “I love you and I will do anything to keep you safe.” He gently pecked my lips and then hugged me close. Silent tears slid down my cheeks as I clung to the man next to me. Only one thought ran through my mind.

That’s what I am afraid of.