I felt awful. I know you might scold me for feeling awful about a guy loving me, but the thing was I thought I loved him back. I wasn’t going to tell him because that would just be cruel. So when he looked me directly in my eyes and told me he loved me, I couldn’t respond. I was completely star struck by his words. I could really tell he meant them and it made my heart break. I didn’t want to hurt him but what I was doing at this moment was worse. I knew I couldn’t say it back because that would only complicate things even more but I wanted him to know I cared. So I did the only thing that came to mind.

I crashed my lips against his and hugged his body close to mine. His arms snaked around my waist, pulling me even closer. Our lips moved as in sync. He placed his hands on my hips, digging his fingertips into them. His tongue licked my bottom lips, asking for entrance which I gladly allowed it. As I parted my lips and our tongues met I heard him moan. I smiled, knowing I did that to him and tangled one of my hands in his hair as my other one began searching his body. My hand slid down his chest onto his flat stomach. When it reached the hem of his shirt I gasped and realized what we were doing. Louis pulled back and looked at me with dark worried eyes.

“You okay?” I smiled sweetly, and actually meant it, and nodded my head. “Because if you’re not ready we don’t have to do this now. We can wait.” His words were low and I could tell he fought every bone in his body to say them. He desperately wanted this but he didn’t want to force me. I nodded once more and pulled his head towards mine.

“I want this Lou.” I crashed my lips onto his and without thinking the words slipped out of my mouth. “There is no time to wait.” I whispered them so low I was sure Louis didn’t hear them. And if he did hear he didn’t react. I kissed him with so much passion that a low moan escaped my lips. He let out a small laugh which I ignored. My hands once more found themselves at the hem of his shirt and I snaked them underneath and began caressing his stomach. As I moved my hands slower upwards he caught my drift and quickly pulled his shirt off. I let out a small laugh as I looked at his shirtless chest. He looked so glorious and I couldn’t believe he wanted me. He began walking towards me, we let each other go because he had to get his shirt off, and I began backing away.

The sudden fear of him not wanting me when he saw me naked came creeping back and I wanted to run. Soon I walked into the wall behind me and he trapped me by putting his arms on either side of me. I was looking at the floor but forced myself to meet his gaze. He wasn’t looking at me with hunger filled eyes, he wasn’t mad I backed away from him. He was looking at me with sympathetic eyes that told me he understood why I suddenly felt insecure. He locked his stare with mine as he moved his hand to the bottom of my shirt. I swallowed hard because I knew what he was going to do. He had seen my stretch marks before but not in this sense. We were about to have sex but I knew that my body wasn’t attractive one bit.

His other hand left the wall beside me and he grabbed the hem of my shirt. He slowly pulled it over my head, without breaking eye contact once. He dropped the shirt I had been wearing on the floor and I stood in front of him in my bra and pants. I began moving my arms to cover up my body, not feeling comfortable with him seeing me like this. He grabbed both of my wrists and shook his head.
“No.” I was about to speak when he interrupted me again. “No, you’re beautiful Jo.” I swallowed hard and threw my arms around his neck. My lips connected easily with his and they moved in sync. He broke the kiss after about a minute and pulled me towards his bedroom. My heart rate increased because I was beginning to feel excited but at the same time nervous. We walked into his bedroom and he closed the door behind me.

He closed the blinds so that the room got a lot darker and I smiled because I knew he only did it because he wanted me to be comfortable. When he turned around he stopped mid track and stared at me. His eyes roamed my body and I felt myself blush. Other parts of my body reacted to his stare and when I walked over to him my steps weren’t hesitant. I stopped right in front of him and stared at his chest. I placed my hand on his chest and slowly pulled it down towards his stomach. I soon reached his pants and heard him hiss when I let my fingers slid inside of the hem. I pulled him towards me ever so slightly and when I looked up to meet his gaze he wasn’t looking at me with worry anymore. He was looking at me with raw passion and it made something ignite inside of me. I felt the small confidence I had grow and when I gave him a wicked smile he only returned it with a similar one.

Several thoughts about what I wanted to do to him ran through my head but I quickly decided not to spook him too soon. I pulled him so that his back was to the bed and then I pushed him so that he fell on it. As I waited for him to place himself in the center of the bed I bit my lip, the pure sight of him making me crazy. Before he could react I was on top of him, kissing his lips sweetly. I moved down to his neck and began sucking it, I knew it would leave a hickey. Louis grabbed my hips and pulled me towards him and I felt his excitement through the pants. My hand quickly moved over the growth in his pants and he groaned.

*Louis P.O.V.*
All I wanted to do was throw her onto the bed and have my way with her, how very primal that sounds, but I knew I had to make her feel comfortable. I had closed the door and was now folding the blinds so that the room became a little darker. She seemed afraid of showing me her body. I thought that if I made the room a little dimmer and dark she might come out of her shell. When I turned around I stopped in my tracks and all I could do was stare at her. Even though she might not have the ideal body she was purely gorgeous to me. My gaze met her for a few seconds and I saw the raw desire that I knew was in my eyes as well. I let my gaze drift down her body as I thought about all the way I could make her feel, make her moan my name and make her feel my love. Before I knew it she was walking towards me with dark eyes and a determined look on her face. She stopped only inches away from me and her gaze locked on my chest.

It was now my turn to feel a little self-confident. I knew she thought I was too good for her but I wanted her to have the best. I wanted her to have the best experience there was and the question was, was I the one to give it to her? When I felt her hand on my chest I snapped out of my own thoughts and looked at her. Her eyes were still focused on my chest and her hand was moving slowly down towards the hem of my pants. She stopped for a moment before pushing her fingers inside the hem. I hissed involuntary because she was so close to the throbbing limb. She pulled me closer to her. When she looked up at me I felt every cell in my body needing her. She looked so innocent but at the same time devious. She smiled a wicked smile, as if she was hiding something I would want to know. I returned that smile and her back straightened ever so slightly. She didn’t notice it herself but I did.

She pulled me around so that my back was to the bed and then she pushed me hard so that I fell on it. I rearranged myself so that I was lying in the middle of the bed when she all of a sudden was on top of me. Her lips quickly connected with mine and the kiss was filled with passion. She then began kissing my jaw and when her lips reached my neck she began sucking on that one spot that drove me crazy. I grabbed her hips and in a swift movement pulled her body towards mine. My pants were beginning to feel really restricting and I felt like she was moving too slow. Her hand slid over the growing pain in my pants and I groaned. I couldn’t take it anymore. I grabbed a hold of her hips and flipped us over. She squealed in surprise and laughed lightly. I gave her a sweet smile and pecked her lips. Her eyes were as dark as the night and I felt the hunger rise again.

“No more teasing.” I said slowly as I unbuttoned her pants and kissed her passionately. This was really happening and it was something both of us are going to remember.
*End of Louis P.O.V.*