How I saved One Direction

I'm sitting on the plane and I don't know whether to be happy or not. My parents were arguing about two hours whether to let me go or not. At one point I almost gave up but Paul persuaded them. I looked in the seats next to me. Harry's on cell phone, Niall's eating snacks, Liam, I think is just took a selfie, Louis looks through the window and then write something. Probably published on twitter that they returning home. I stopped on Zayn. He sits on the seat without any emotion on his face. I don't know why but I feel sad because he is like that. I wonder what happened to him.I get up, even though I don't know how he will react, and then I sit next to him. Seems like he didn't notice my presence.

'' You okay? '' Although I see that he's not I asked 'cause I don't know what else to say. No answer.
'' If you have a problem you can talk to me. I will listen to you '' Again, I started with the hope that he will open up and say what's bothering him.
'' Yes. Because you are our psychologist now. Well, I don't need and don't want one. I just want to be left alone a bit. I want to be alone and I do not know why I agreed to this '' His words were unbearable.
'' I don't want a be a burden, and make sure that I wouldn't go with you if Paul didn't ask ''
'' And you're really long refused it. You started this idea to be here than again. Don't you see that I suffocating like this? But you don't really care for it. The main thing is that you're happy and you now become part of a team ''

I felt a lump in my throat is getting bigger. I wanted to speak. I wanted to defend myself. I wanted to scream at him, but words didn't came out of my lips. I only could feel that my face becomes moist. I hate crying in front of others, and to see me weak, so I got up and rush to the bathroom. I curled myself in ball in one corner and decided to cry out until I run out of tears. Does he really think I will be happy if they will be unhappy? Well, I'm for god sake fan, and foremost I want them to be happy and so I don't want to be a reason of their sadness. But I still think of myself and I know I'd freak out if they fall apart and especially now that I have the opportunity to at least try to keep them together. After an hour, or maybe more, finally I no longer could find tears. They stopped and a few minutes I felt good because I didn't feel anything. There wasn't the pain because of his words. But later I realized that I was better when I cried. 'Cause now hurts more, much more than before. I remain curled even when someone entered. What if he came to laugh at me? Or to insult me even more?
'' Layla '' I recognized the husky voice. Harry! I didn't react because I probably look terrible and I don't want him to see me.
'' Are you all right? '' Yes, I'm perfectly. I felt that he sat down next to me but I didn't move.
'' Listen, I know that Zayn is lately jerk but he pass through really hard period of his life. Try to figure out '' I raised head.
'' No. It's all my fault. Me and my clumsiness. I wish I never got stuck and I didn't find out that you want to fall apart. At least when I'd found out that you fall apart up and I'd cry like everyone else and mourn but now I feel worse. Zayn blames me because I forced you to stay even though I didn't do anything other than tell my opinion and I don't really know why is he behaving towards me like this. As I'm guilty to him for all the bad things'' Stupid tears are back again, so I buried my face in hands.
'' You're not responsible for anything. There are problems in his private life so he feels so bad, and blame others. I'm sorry 'cause you didn't met him before this. He became a different person '' He sighed hard the end.
'' But why? What is the reason? He doesn't want to say but accuses me that I could hardly wait to get myself in the team '' I sobbed, wipe away tears and turn my head.
'' He told you that? '' I nod.
'' What a jerk. I'll talk to him '' He gets up so I go after him.
'' Harry don't. I don't want a problems '' However, like he didn't hear me. He approached Zayn-in and stops in front of him.
'' I know you're bad but you don't have to be such a jerk! '' He shout and I twitched. I don't like when someone shouts.
'' Yeah. What did I do now? '' He folded his arms and I stand aside of his view because I don't want him to see how his words affected to me. All the time I try to get in shape but I think it's not as simple as it sound.
'' You insulted the girl because of your bullshit. Can you control yourself?? ''Harry is angry. I can see it and somehow know that it is not connected only with me. His fists are clenched so much, and his joints are pale now.
'' She's exhausting and irritates me '' He replied simply. I felt a lump in my throat. I irritate him? Fine!
'' Not her fault for Perrie '' In the moment when Harry mentioned her name Zayn jumped to his feet.
'' Don't mention her '' His normally tanned face has now received a red color. Color of fury. Okay. Now I'm afraid! I know that Zayn wouldn't hit Harry. At least I hope so. What happened to him and Perrie? I know that they've broke up earlier because of some problems and the story that he cheated on her.
'' Why not? It's her fault because you're like this'' Harry continued and it seems like he is trying to push him over the edge. Well, he does well. Zayn does its best to not attack him, I can say.
'' Harry, if you don't fucking shut up I will ... '' He shouted and Liam gets up.
'' Zayn, Harry enough! Your problems resolve elsewhere '' Both of them lower their heads. I'm glad that Liam is at least impartial.
'' Layla '' I twitch on my name. Liam is now turning towards me.
'' Did they scared you? ''
'' Zayn did a little . Harry tried to help me '' When I say that I realize how it sounds childish. Like it said three-year old girl, not me.
'' Come up with us. And you two, get your shit together. When we get to England you need to be normal and without bruises. You have enough time for it '' Wow, what an authority.
'' Yes mom '' Zayn says mockingly. It's good that he doesn't paying attention on me. I pass by Liam and sit next to him on the seat. This will be a long and difficult flight., I think and lean my head on the seat.

Notes

New chapter :D I know that there are a lot of mistakes

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