Dear Hanna
I Belong With You, You Belong With Me
Chapter 17
HANNA'S POV
I neatly aligned my plate with chicken wrapped with lettuce and green peas plus mashed potatoes. I sat at the kitchen table, by myself. By my side was a garbage can filled with tissues.
I twirled my fork around the plate as my head leaned on my hand. I then quickly finished my dinner. After I tidied the kitchen, I sat down and thought. Cleared my mind. I thought of Ireland. She was so pretty and flawless. One man was gonna be lucky.
I then heard a knock on the door. I stopped for a second. It had been a while since I heard a knock. I saw the figure through the glass. Niall.
I opened the door slightly.
"Hanna I know it's you." He said.
"Why?" I asked.
"You put Vanessa on the paper, smarts." He said.
"I just thought I was a blur to you." I said.
"I know I should have realized what was in front of me." He said, in a high tone.
"Well if I mean so damn much to you why did I become another and you and dani had this whole fairytale romance. When did I become just invisible and alone." I said, loudly in his face.
"Because I lost it I was a freakin idiot. I didn't see what meant to me. I thought you died, those were my thoughts." He said.
"We'll if you died I would feel sick over loving someone other than my dream." I said, loudly.
"That's why I'm here to apologize for the stupid last 8 years." He said.
"I saw the papers, Drunk Niall Kisses Girl," I said, "you want to say sorry by having sex with my sister."
"It was not even real. Our love was real." He said.
He came closer as he approach for a kiss. I felt our lips lightly touch and then I pushed his shoulders back.
"Also you hurt out daughter." I said.
"The drinks got the best of me." He said.
"You're promise was to protect and raise Ireland, not treating her like a rag doll." I said.
"I just need a second chance." He said.
"I'm open to that but come back and tell me who you love when you choose." I said.
"Can I just stay the night?" He asked.
"It's the least I can do." I said.
"Thanks." He said rubbing my shoulder, "I appricate it."
LATER THAT NIGHT
HANNA'S POV
I gently closed the door and ushered Niall to my sitting room.
"Where's Ireland?" I asked wanting to avoid the subject I knew was coming up.
"At a friends." He answered flatly.
"Oh." Was all I could get out.
"Why didn't you contact me earlier?" He tried to suppress the anger.
"I did. On Instagram, Facebook, twitter. I even called. But I see you we're too busy sleeping with my sister and drinking. Real nice!" I tried to calm myself.
" God damn it Hanna!!! I was so mad that you didn't have a funeral, so was Dani! And we both just went depressed! You have a boyfriend what the hell is the difference?" He raised his voice a little.
"I flatlined! And my mother wanted me to have a different atmosphere! She didn't want me around YOU! You being depressed is no reason to choose my selfish sister over your daughter. And I got a boyfriend when you the father of my child didn't recognize me! You didn't remember me. Cicero said The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living. That's not the case here. If you would excuse me I need to go to bed." I was crying now and stepped up the stairs. Niall yelled from the sitting room.
"I didn't mean to really! And I never meant to fucking choose Dani who isn't selfish over her. She is our daughter. Always will be. I guess we changed. We could still work you know!"
"How? I don't know this person standing in front of me. I try to see the old you, the one that helped me finish my bucket list, made me feel loved when I didn't think so. Stopped my self harm, the man who wanted to be a good father. Not an occasional good father, a man who couldn't recognize the woman who he changed into a better person. I just don't know Niall." He was now face to face with me, I could feel the heat of his breath fanning on my face, the heavy scent of his cologne that I missed so much.
"Fine, but lets be friends first, so we get to know and love the new us." I smiled and launched my self in his arms enhailing his scent. So badly did I want to kiss him. I missed those pink lips.
"Ok, but don't get Mad if I can't control myself and end up kissing you." I could practically hear the smirk in his voice.
"Can't say that I would mind either." I pulled back and smiled.
"I'm tired where's my room?" He begged yawning.
"Right this way sir!" I laughed hooking my arm in his.
HANNA'S POV
I neatly aligned my plate with chicken wrapped with lettuce and green peas plus mashed potatoes. I sat at the kitchen table, by myself. By my side was a garbage can filled with tissues.
I twirled my fork around the plate as my head leaned on my hand. I then quickly finished my dinner. After I tidied the kitchen, I sat down and thought. Cleared my mind. I thought of Ireland. She was so pretty and flawless. One man was gonna be lucky.
I then heard a knock on the door. I stopped for a second. It had been a while since I heard a knock. I saw the figure through the glass. Niall.
I opened the door slightly.
"Hanna I know it's you." He said.
"Why?" I asked.
"You put Vanessa on the paper, smarts." He said.
"I just thought I was a blur to you." I said.
"I know I should have realized what was in front of me." He said, in a high tone.
"Well if I mean so damn much to you why did I become another and you and dani had this whole fairytale romance. When did I become just invisible and alone." I said, loudly in his face.
"Because I lost it I was a freakin idiot. I didn't see what meant to me. I thought you died, those were my thoughts." He said.
"We'll if you died I would feel sick over loving someone other than my dream." I said, loudly.
"That's why I'm here to apologize for the stupid last 8 years." He said.
"I saw the papers, Drunk Niall Kisses Girl," I said, "you want to say sorry by having sex with my sister."
"It was not even real. Our love was real." He said.
He came closer as he approach for a kiss. I felt our lips lightly touch and then I pushed his shoulders back.
"Also you hurt out daughter." I said.
"The drinks got the best of me." He said.
"You're promise was to protect and raise Ireland, not treating her like a rag doll." I said.
"I just need a second chance." He said.
"I'm open to that but come back and tell me who you love when you choose." I said.
"Can I just stay the night?" He asked.
"It's the least I can do." I said.
"Thanks." He said rubbing my shoulder, "I appricate it."
LATER THAT NIGHT
HANNA'S POV
I gently closed the door and ushered Niall to my sitting room.
"Where's Ireland?" I asked wanting to avoid the subject I knew was coming up.
"At a friends." He answered flatly.
"Oh." Was all I could get out.
"Why didn't you contact me earlier?" He tried to suppress the anger.
"I did. On Instagram, Facebook, twitter. I even called. But I see you we're too busy sleeping with my sister and drinking. Real nice!" I tried to calm myself.
" God damn it Hanna!!! I was so mad that you didn't have a funeral, so was Dani! And we both just went depressed! You have a boyfriend what the hell is the difference?" He raised his voice a little.
"I flatlined! And my mother wanted me to have a different atmosphere! She didn't want me around YOU! You being depressed is no reason to choose my selfish sister over your daughter. And I got a boyfriend when you the father of my child didn't recognize me! You didn't remember me. Cicero said The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living. That's not the case here. If you would excuse me I need to go to bed." I was crying now and stepped up the stairs. Niall yelled from the sitting room.
"I didn't mean to really! And I never meant to fucking choose Dani who isn't selfish over her. She is our daughter. Always will be. I guess we changed. We could still work you know!"
"How? I don't know this person standing in front of me. I try to see the old you, the one that helped me finish my bucket list, made me feel loved when I didn't think so. Stopped my self harm, the man who wanted to be a good father. Not an occasional good father, a man who couldn't recognize the woman who he changed into a better person. I just don't know Niall." He was now face to face with me, I could feel the heat of his breath fanning on my face, the heavy scent of his cologne that I missed so much.
"Fine, but lets be friends first, so we get to know and love the new us." I smiled and launched my self in his arms enhailing his scent. So badly did I want to kiss him. I missed those pink lips.
"Ok, but don't get Mad if I can't control myself and end up kissing you." I could practically hear the smirk in his voice.
"Can't say that I would mind either." I pulled back and smiled.
"I'm tired where's my room?" He begged yawning.
"Right this way sir!" I laughed hooking my arm in his.
FLIPPING UPDATE!
8/20/14