TAHLIA’S POV

After we all finished swimming we finally started the fire. I grabbed a blanket from Harry’s car and made my way to the spot in the sand where the fire was set up. The sun was just setting and it looked gorgeous. I sat down on the beach wrapped up in a blanket and stared off into the sun. All my worries seemed pointless in this moment. I felt infinite. The fact that my life was full of secrets seemed meaningless. My childhood of being teased seemed meaningless. Everything was meaningless. Everything has its downs and now was the suns down. I kept getting flashbacks from my childhood.

“Are you ok Tahlia?” Harry questioned.

All of the other guys were talking and eating but I was sitting alone staring into the sun. Should I tell Harry what’s on my mind and about my bad flashbacks? Or should I pretend to be the happy chappy that the boys know. Happy it is.

“I’m fine Hazza” I smiled reassuring him, “I’m going for a walk” I continued while getting up and dusting off the sand from my legs and bum.

As I walked along the beach I pulled out my phone and texted my best friend Eleanor.

To: El-bear

I’m getting bad again.

I almost instantly got a reply.

From: El-bear

Aw babey girl! Keep your head high and chin up! I’ll see you tomorrow at modelling and give you big cuddles. Try to ignore and forget the flashbacks. Do you want me to ring you? Xxxxx

To: El-bear

Thanks girl. I hate remembering but I can’t stand to forget. No don’t worry about ringing me I’ll hold together hopefully xxxxx.

I looked into the ocean and thought how easy I could end all of these flashbacks and terrible memories. Tears rimmed my eyes and I tried to blink them away but that only made it worse. Soon enough I was bawling my eyes out and dropped to the sand. I heard my name being called by all of the boys and I tried to pull myself together so I didn’t have to explain but there was no use. The tears would not stop. I struggled to breathe calmly and started gasping for air. I saw someone running towards me but I couldn’t make out whose silhouette it was since it was getting dark and I couldn’t see clear from all of the tears.

“Tahlia what are you doing?” I heard a familiar voice say.

“Nothing.” I tried to get out smoothly but failed. I looked up to see Dex.

“Tahlia niagara falls is coming out of your eyes, something is wrong. Tell me” he said as he comforted me in his arms.

“I hate it!” I spoke angrily.

“Hate what?” he said confused.

“Everything!” I snapped as more tears easily flowed out of my eyes.

“It’s the flashbacks again isn’t it?” he said understandingly.

I nodded as no words would come out of my mouth.

“Tahlia how about you start having some good flashbacks and memories?”

“But there are no good ones!” I said a little too angrily.

“Well we can make some, here’s a first. Tahlia, you are so beautiful. I love the way you speak sarcastically. I love how you’re just like one of the guys. I love how you are a tom boy. I love your competitive streak. I love how you’re so random. I just love you.” he said without breaking any eye contact.

I was speechless. He loves me? But no one loves me?

“I have wanted to tell you that since the day I met you” he spoke again, breaking the silence.

“I don’t know what to say” I finally said.

“You don’t have to say anything.” He said as he leaned in to kiss me. I backed away.

“Oh…” he said offended.

“No I’m sorry. I want to kiss you but I have tears running down my cheeks and I’m a mess at the moment.” I said trying to assure him that I did want to kiss him.

“You’re not a mess, you’re beautiful” I blushed at his words. He always knew how to make me smile. He grabbed my hand, pulled me up from the sand and we walked back to all the other boys.

“Oh good you’re ok Tahlia, we were worried” Harry said engulfing me in a big hug. Then quickly pulled me back and looked into my eyes and at my face.

“What’s wrong? Why were you crying?” he asked inquisitively.

“Nothing” I replied amazed at how he could tell that I’d been crying. He gave me a don’t-lie-to-me look. I shook my head and he rolled his eyes knowing that I didn’t want to talk about it.

The rest of the night consisted of cuddling around the fire with blankets, eat, roasting marshmallows and Niall playing the guitar. He started strumming and began singing;

Well, you dawned on me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

Now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool dawn run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

And nothing's gonna stop me but divine intervention.

I reckon, it's again my turn

To win some or learn some.

But I won't hesitate

No more, no more.

It cannot wait,

I'm yours.

Well, open up your mind and see like me,

Open up your plans and damn you're free.

Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love, love.

Listen to the music of the moment, people dance and sing, we're just one big family

And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved, loved

So I won't hesitate

No more, no more.

It cannot wait,

I'm sure.

There's no need to complicate.

Our time is short.

This is our fate,

I'm yours.

Do you want to come on, scootch on over closer, dear

And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed.

I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons.

It's what we aim to do.

Our name is our virtue.

But I won't hesitate

No more, no more.

It cannot wait,

I'm yours.

Well, open up your mind and see like me,

Open up your plans and damn you're free.

Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours.

So please don't, please don't, please don't...

There's no need to complicate.

'Cause our time is short.

This oh, this oh, this is our fate.

I'm yours.

Oh, I'm yours

Oh, I'm yours

Oh, oh,

Baby, do you believe, I'm yours?

You best believe, you best believe, I'm yours.

He finished singing the last line and winked at me while mouthing “I’m yours”. I leaned into Liam and pretended not to have seen Niall’s little flirtatious moment. My head rested on Liam’s lap as I lied down with a thick blanket draped over my petite body. The smoke from the fire started stinging my eyes so I shut them and just listened to the boys talk about everything. Their voices rang through my cold ears as I drifted off to sleep in Liam’s lap.

Notes

This was kinda just a filling chapter guys! I'm just trying to get some drama into this story to make it more interesting! Tell me what you think.
btw your comments motivate me so thankyou xoxo