(Ivy’s P.O.V)

“I love you Ivy.”

I can’t seem to get it out of my head. Harry loves me? He really loves me? Why though? I am completely blind and who knows what I look like. I could look like a horrifying human being. Yes! My parents and Zayn’s family have complemented me, but other than that……no one really think I am beautiful and I believe that I am not.

Does he love me though? Or is he only saying that because he wasn’t in the right mind. I think that reason is more legitimate. I mean he did use me this whole time to get into my pants and as a result……he would receive five hundred grand. Thinking about it still makes my blood boil, but it wasn’t his entire fault. I am at fault as much as he is.

But actually hearing him say ‘I Love you’ was a shocker. I can’t distinguish whether he is genuinely in love with me or his confession was still part of his little game. I used to think I am starting to know him, but boy was I wrong.

My judgement s about humanity is completely wrong. I know there are many bad things in this world…..well more than I can count really. But, there are people who are out there that are crueler then cruel. Eviler then evil and most important of all…..they are heartless.

But, I on the other hand am naïve. Way too naïve and only see goodwill in people. I mean that can be a good thing, but being naïve makes you blind…..which mean I have another coat of blindness in me.

Even though what Harry did was wrong and it still disgusts me, I forgive him. It wasn’t because he was dying in front of me, I forgive him because deep down I know I am just as guilty. What happened to him now is also my fault.

I’ve always taught to forgive people, despite what they did to me. Growing up was tough, with bullying and with my parents not having a good job. I used to be very aggressive and angry all the time because I am not normal.

I am different, an outsider, a mutant…..that’s what they call me. I used to hate being me….when I was little. But my parents taught me to forgive the people that hurt me, taught me not to hold grudges because that’s what will make me truly happy.

Hating people and wanting revenge only fills your mind with negative thoughts. Having too much negative thoughts take away the purpose of living and the feeling of being happy. My parents are the most down to earth and the most forgiving people I’ve ever met.

My grandparents don’t want anything to do with them…..from both sides, yet they don’t blame them and forgive them for not truly understanding. Let me assure you…they weren’t the nicest grandparents.

So despite the person I hate so much in this world, it makes me feel better when I forgive them. I feel more alive and happy. If I know deep down I hate a person for doing something to me…..I will never be happy with my life or myself because I didn’t forgive them. If they end up losing their life and not receive my forgiveness….I will forever feel guilty.

That’s why I forgive Harry. I know I forgive him even before the accident, but sometimes the tamper in me is still uncontrollable. I still have that angriness inside me that makes me react, but deep down I know I forgive Harry the moment I found out about the bet.

Hearing Harry say he loves me makes me want to repeat his words back to him in reply, but I couldn’t. I don’t know what I truly feel about Harry, but I know he is someone I really care about. Despite all the ups and downs we’ve been through, I still care deeply for him.

Harry has been unconscious for two days now. They doctor said that his health condition are getting better slowly and he should wake up soon. The accident didn’t end up being as bad, but still very traumatic. His got three fractured ribs which will take time to heal. He also hit is forehead quite hard on the cement from falling due to force which consist of him needing seven stitches.

The whole family was relieved that he didn’t need surgery. Kevin didn’t ask me how it happened but was just glad that Harry is alright. If they did end up asking me, I wouldn’t know how to answer them.

I am now currently sitting in the hospital chair while holding Harry’s huge hand. I’ve stayed here for two day straight now. Margret, Kevin, and Zayn all told me to go home and rest but I couldn’t.

I can’t just leave Harry like this all alone; he needs to know that despite how things have turned out for us….I will still be there for him. Also I want to be there when he wakes up. I talked to him; tell him what ever come on my mind. I may seem like a lunatic but it felt right for me. Having Harry’s presence near me makes me feel less alone and I hope he feels the same.

When tomorrow comes
I'll be on my own
Feeling frightened of
The things that I don't know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes

I started to sing Jessie J song ‘Flash light’ softly because I absolutely love the song. Since I’ve been talking for hours, I am sure Harry is bored of hearing me chatter…singing a little melody should be a little better.

And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And in the dark I found lost hope that I won't fly
And I sing along, I sing along, and I sing along

The reason why I love this song so much is because I feel a like I have a huge connection with the song. I am standing in the dark right now myself and I wonder who is going to my flashlight. I ask myself that every time I listen to the song. I hope I will able to find someone who will make me feel complete, happy and get me through all my tough time. Always be there for me.

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're getting me, getting me through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can't lie, it's a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're getting me, getting me through the night
'Cause you're my flashlight (flashlight)
You're my flashlight (flashlight), you're my flashlight

Singing this song while holding Harry’s hand makes me feel weird. Weird in a good way. I mean I haven’t sung in a long time. I would wish that Harry is my flash light for some reason…..I don’t even know the reason myself. But I know he is not, even though he says that he loves me, he is not my flash light. Well, he hasn’t proven to me that he my flash light, even though once I almost thought he was.

(Harry’s P.O.V)

My head hurt like hell and every time I breathe, I feel like I was one step closer to dying. But I could hear a beautiful singing which made the pain ease down a bit. I don’t know who is singing but she has a beautiful voice and the song remind me of Ivy straight away.

I see the shadows long beneath the mountain top
I'm not afraid when the rain won't stop
'Cause you light the way
You light the way,
You light the way

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're getting me, getting me through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can't lie, it's a sweet life

Stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're getting me, getting me through the night

Light light you're my flashlight
Light light light light light, oh
You're my flash, oh

I didn’t realize how well this represents my life. Every word, every lyrics of the song remind me of Ivy. She is my flash light from the day I met and I know she will always be despite where we stand in the future. I realize that I need Ivy more then she needs me….I need her to guide the light for me, keep me on track…..what scares me the most is she won’t be there when I can finally open my eyes.

You're my flashlight

I was disappointed when the song came to an end. I could feel the warmth inside me disappear when something let go of my hand. Someone is here with me. I know someone is here with me and whoever the person was…..she sung to me and I wanted to complement her on how beautiful her voice was and how she opened my eyes to see who is the most important person in this world is for me.

“I thought you were my flashlight Harry……..I will be back soon,” I know that voice….it’s Ivy….I can tell it’s her from anywhere. She was the one who sang the song to me? Wow….I didn’t know she can sing that well. Am I her flash light? No! I can’t be….I have never been one…..but I want to be her flash light…just like she is for me…..from now on it time for her to see the shining light.

I could feel her soft sweet lips land on my forehead and I wanted to hold the moment forever. As fast as the kiss came, it was gone again. I tried to open my eyes; well force is a better word to use.

I struggled with this stupid heavy eyelid of mine. It’s like I am having a battle between my internal thoughts and my physical movements. I know Ivy is going to leave me and I don’t want her to. I tried and tried. When I open my eyes I want to see her beautiful eyes looking back at me.

“Harry….you are finally awake,” Niall said excitedly giving me a gentle hug as I can finally open this stupid eyes of mine. What? Where is Ivy? I looked around the room frantically to find any sign of her but she wasn’t there. There was only Louis, Alex and her there other bitches standing around my bed.

"Did you find anyone here before?" I asked while praying that Ivy was actually here and I wasn't hearing things. " Ummm no.....why?" Niall answered with a confuse face.

Ivy was not here…..was she ever here? Was I only imagining things?

Notes

Here is the next update :D I guess Ivy is still uncertain about her feelings......what will happen next....stay tune and find out......I LOVE JESSIE J (I just have to include her song in there.....I also think it represent Ivy and Harry's relationship well) - so was Ivy really there or was Harry hearing things?

- Also......I don't know if you guys have notice that a certain 1D member is missing, I was surprise that non of your guys have asked about him (Comment me the missing member that you think) - That if you can remember who was included that is not Harry and Zayn :)

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