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You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)

Guilt (Chapter 13)

(Zayn’s P.O.V)

“Harry? What happened to Ivy?” I whispered yelled at him as I opened the door.

What the hell happened again? What did he do this time?

“I didn’t do anything alright Zayn, move…she need a place to stay,” he stated sternly. As much as I dislike Harry, he does have a soft spot for Ivy. This is the second he has brought Ivy to our house and he did it at his own will. Last time Ivy told me everything, how her aunty treated her and how Harry took her to cool off. I was really surprised when she told me that because I was not expecting that. I actually thought he was not as bad as I thought he was, but then he proved my judgement wrong the next morning.

“Are you just going to stand there or are you going to move?” he asked getting annoyed and I muttered sorry in return. I don’t know what happen this time and I can only assume that it has to do with Ivy’s aunty again. But what I don’t understand is that how did she ends up harry again?

“Did you stalk her or something?” I questioned as I moved to let him in, “who do you think I am? I am not a creep like you,” he spat. Yeah, this is the reason why we don’t get along and I don’t think we can ever get along to be honest.

“You have to explain to me everything after you put her to bed,” I demand, “I don’t have to fucking tell you about anything,” he growled.

“You have to at least the situation that Ivy is in,” I said back harshly, “she got kicked out by her bitchy aunty alright,” he said angrily, “and she will be staying here from now on,” he stated. What? Why did she get kicked out for? How the hell did that happen? Is this why Harry is bringing her here?

Harry walked upstairs without another word. Everyone in the house was already asleep and I was staying up to talk to Perrie on the phone. I don’t know how the two of them got into this situation and it is already 11pm. I took a notice that Harry didn’t take Ivy to the guest room but instead he took her to his own room.

I sort of just stood there trying to process what actually is going on. Ivy is going to stay with us and Harry haven’t really asked his dad or asked my mum. I am sure Kevin and my mum doesn’t mind but that clearly didn’t bother Harry.

“Are you just going to stand there or go back to whatever you were doing?” he asked harshly as he walked back downstairs and walked out of the house. Where is he going? Is he just going to leave her here in my hand? But then I heard a sound coming back from the outside and I saw Harry bringing back a big suit case with him. Ivy is going to stay with us for real and the information has just sunk in.

(Harry’s P.O.V)

Gosh that nerd face is annoying as fuck. This is the reason why we will and never get along. We are way too different. I placed Ivy’s suit case on the side of the bedroom and took off my clothes to get ready for bed. I decided to sit on the soft bed and observed Ivy’s beauty in the dim light. She looks so peaceful and angelic.

Even in her sleep she is breath taking, her chest rise and fall as she breathes in the air. I kind of feel like a creep…you know watching her sleep but I don’t care anyway, I can’t help it to be honest.

I lay down next to her on the left side of the bed and still looking at the beautiful girl. I have this huge urge to kiss her as I looked at her plum lips parted a little but I have to restrain myself. Just when I thought I can control my hormones, my body jerked up and my lips touched her forehead softly. When I realized what I was doing I moved away quickly while trying to not wake her up.

(Ivy’s P.O.V)

“I am sorry for forcing you to come tonight,” I said sadly and my dad chuckled. “Even if I am busy…my little girl will always be my first priority,” he cooed hugging me tightly. It was finally the end of the year and our school is have an awards night for the academic and sports athletes.

“Are you ready you too?” my mum asked happily, “wow my baby girl…you look beautiful,” my mum continued. I smile brightly at my parents, “we are so proud of you Ivy….we are really lucky to have a precious daughter like you,” my dad complimented.

My parents are truly the sweetest people in the world, they are so humble and as you can see, I am the lucky one here.


We were all singing along with what was being played on the radio and laughing about at our fail attempt. We were just really excited and happy that we made through another year of my schooling.

“Next year is your last year of school,” my dad yelled with happiness through his laugh. “Our baby girl is finally growing up,” my mum replied sounding disappointed, “they grow up so fast,” she whined to my dad.


“We can’t help it dear, now I have to keep my eyes on young men that might want to call me father in-law,” my father jokes, “don’t you ever say that…I am not ready to hear that yet…she is till my baby girl,” my mum sobbed a little.

“Mum…don’t worry, I am still your little girl and will always be…dad…you don’t need to worry about boys,” I assured them both.


“I wouldn’t be so sure…having a beautiful daughter will always concern me and….” my dad was cut off by a really loud sound ‘BANG’ and the last thing I could remember was the bright light shining through.

“Mum….dad?” I opened my eyes as I heard a lot of voices everywhere surrounding me.

I tried to get up but I couldn’t, my body was aching all over, “mum…dad,” I screamed.

“Please calm down miss,” someone lady told me, but I couldn’t calm down, my heart was leaping out of my chest and everything didn’t make sense. I could feel something was not right. Something is very wrong.


“Mum…dad,” I cried louder this time and my body is jerking up frantically.

“Mum…dad…where are you?” I sobbed.

“Ivy? Ivy wake up,” I shook up head as I jolted by someone shaking my body.

“Mum…dad?” I questioned, “Ivy it was a dream,” a familiar British accent said softly. British accent …Harry? Harry…it was a dream?

“Harry?” I sobbed, “Hey…I am here,” he told me sweetly while rubbing my back trying to calm me down. I couldn’t calm down, the dream was too realistic…it felt exactly like that day….that day my life went downhill. After the accident, I had the same dream over and over again. But it has been a month now without the nightmare of that day and now it is coming back again.

“Hey it was just a dream alright,” he reminded me while hugging me. It was not just a dream…it was real, I wish it was just a dream like harry had said but unfortunately it wasn’t and I can never take it back. It was a reality that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Having to lose two of the most important people in the world to me was heartbreaking but knowing that I was the reason for it makes it a lot more badly.

Guilt is not a person an object but a feeling, a feeling that you get when you committed something and regret it. Ever since I could remember, my youngest memories, I’ve always been guilty. Now I know, from the moment my mum became pregnant with me, I was guilty, I was guilty for becoming a human being and as time started to grow my guilt started to grow along with it.

The accident was the jackpot to my guilt…it reveals all my guilt in that one moment, that moment in time where everything went wrong.Guilt will always be there with me no matter where I go or where I am in life.

It is a part of me.


Notes

Here is the next chapter beautiful people :)
I hope you all like this chapter....it's a bit boring sorry....but you get to see what Ivy's parents were like I guess. What do you guys think of Harry now? He is weird aye?

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Comments

Please update :)

@JustBloo.

See......we need more people like you in this world <3 <3 Yes!!!! you were very helpful and I messaged you with the biggest spoiler everrrrrr ^_^

@PS2Live the dream


Was I helpful? I have a problem conveying my thoughts into understandable sentences lol But what can I say? I'm just a fanfic reading girl willing to do anything to see her otp continue their story ;)

@JustBloo

DO you know how much LOVE I have for you?? If you don't......well.....I LOVE YOU dear <3 <3

Hey!

I had this same thing happen to me too! Weirdness! But anyways...

I honestly think that this story has so far been written wonderfully. If there wasn't a plot or designated outcome, I sure as hell couldn't tell. But I know sometimes lack of "structure" puts a strain on the author just because of writer's block and other things like that.

I think from here, you can look at what you've written so far and ask yourself possible ways you can go next and sketch out and organize the rest of the story from this part (sometimes brainstorming concepts with someone else really makes the process easier and in some cases cleaner), and then go back to previous chapters and tweak certain things just so it' ll all wrap up nicely.

OR....

You can rewrite it (as you previously stated) and do things differently. The only problem that may arise with that, is since you are so far along in this story (40 chapters) the people that have previously subscribed to your story and have followed it this far may have trouble getting used to a new storyline and character adjustments.

But that's assuming there was a story line before (which it has seemed like), which you said there wasn't. So it's definitely a hard choice.

I think you should trust your gut and do what seems best to you. Everyone else will get over it :)

I'm here if you need a brainstorm session or a convo just to sketch out storylines by the way.

Ivarry shipper for life lolol