Stephanie's POV

It's been a few days since Harry and I decided that we would move in together. I've been in the process of moving all my things from the flat to his house - our house. It still sounds weird when I say that, the butterflies light up inside and flutter excitedly. I will finally have Amelia with me day and night - no more hand overs. It's the perfect life - for me anyway.
Though no matter how happy I am, there's till some thing - someone, hovering over in my head. Niall. The disappointed look om his face made me feel strange, why does he feel the need to show that sort emotion? Is he not happy for me to be with Harry? Did I screw him up that much that he may still want me? surely not. It's been too long since Niall and I ever became a 'thing'.

"So have you got everything now?" Chloe asks as she joins me in the kitchen. I lean back on the counter as I think about how much my life has changed.

"Yes." I answer softly and Chloe smiles. She stands next to me and sighs as she leans back too and folds her arms.

"God I don't want you to go." She groans as she looks towards me. "I love having you here. I'll miss being able to knock on your door and ask advice.." She sighs as I smile.

"Me too. It's going to be weird." I look away as I suddenly feel my stomach drop. For the first time, the reality has just sunk in. I love living with Chloe, she's helped me in so many ways.

"But you are moving in with your family, you've got your life back " Chloe grins and I nod as I turn to her. "Harry is good for you Stephanie" She adds positively and I agree.

"I don't think Niall thinks the same.." I mumble and she sighs s he looks away. "Has he said something to you?" I add and she doesn't look at me and softly shrugs.

"He.." She stops and looks at me. "Do you want he truth?" She sighs as her arms drop down to her sides.

"Of course..." I frown as I stand up straight and face her. She inhales slowly and then releases before looking at me again. "Chloe.." I sigh and she nods.

"He still in love with you. He didn't want me to tell you but he's been beating himself up over it. Please don't react-"

"I'm fine.." I lie. inside my mind is spinning round, Niall loves me? I can't believe that he still feels so strongly about me. I know I care about him, I know that I've wanted him in the past. But now, I am finally getting myself back on track with Harry and having everything that I've always wanted - I can't mess it up.

"He doesn't mean to cause upset, he just genuinely cares about you Steph. I don't think he's ever let you go." Chloe looks uncomfortable, I understand how awkward it must be for her - she's stuck in the middle.

"I feel awful.." I look away as I'm unable to forgive myself for dragging Niall into my life. He's such a lovely guy. "I care about him too." I bite my lip as I try stop my mind testing my heart - Niall. Niall. Niall. That's the only word that constantly spins around in my head. Why is this happening now? I just want to think about Harry and Amelia.

"Don't bad Stephanie. You're in love with Harry.." She nudges me and I look at her. Although she is smiling, I know it's to cheer me up and to help me feel the excitement that I had lost. "I shouldn't have said anything." She snaps as he starts to curse herself.

"It's not your fault." I sigh and we both stop as the door opens. I look over to see Niall heading in towards us. Chloe looks way and I just prepare myself on stay calm - don't over think Steph!

"Everything okay?" Niall asks as he places two shopping bags down on the table. He flicks his eyes between Chloe and I.

"Yeah." I force and I leave past him. I grab my final bits as Harry should be here within five minutes. I hear Niall question Chloe but focus on taking what's mine. I leave my keys hung up and I start to feel sad again. This won't be my home anymore. All those cosy nights in will no longer happen here.

"Stephanie.." Niall walks behind me and I turn around to face him. "Chloe.. she said she'd told you-"

"Yeah, but we don't have to talk. ."

"I want too." He looks at me with those soft eyes. I nod as I head to my room and he follows me. I close the door after him then turn to face him. "I'm not trying to be a dick.." He starts and I nod as I fold my arms.

"I know that.." I answer as Niall is far from that. He's too lovely and I am aware that he doesn't want to cause tension. "But this makes it hard.." I add and he nods.

"I know. It's so frustrating because I want you to be happy. It's just hard on me because I know that I'll never make you feel how he does." Niall's word cut like to knife. I hate how he's feeling. "My time with you was beyond great - it was incredible."

"But that was such a long time ago. You need to focus on someone else." I look away as I can't believe we are doing this.

"I've never really turned my feelings off Steph. Even my ex couldn't distract me from you." His words are powerful. They hit me harder than I'd ever imagine .

"I really don't know what to say.." I mumble. I don't know how I am supposed to react to this.

"You don't have to say anything." He sighs and I look back at him. "I wasn't even intending to let you know, but Chloe had different ideas." Niall adds.

"So what do we do now? " I ask and our eyes just lock. We don't say anything, we don't move. I know this isn't good for me or for him.

"You go and live your life with your family." He forces a smile. I shake my head as he knows full well that isn't going to be easy now. "We can just forget about this.."

"How?" I snap and his soft eyes turn into a glare. "You know that my emotions haven't just disappeared Niall. I'm so close o getting everything right and now this happens!" I turn away from him as I shake my head.

"But you know what you want? Right.." Niall questions and answers sigh as I tilt my head back and close my eyes. Why me? "Steph?!"

"Well . . yes!" I snap as I spin around on my heel and face him. "I love Harry so much, but now this fucks me up. You and I have been through-"

"You can't think like this. You want Harry so leave it. This is exactly why I told Chloe not to mention it." He snaps and I watch the frustration appear on his face.

"But then we wouldn't be real around each other." I walk towards him. His beautiful face fixes on mine. "This changes everything. I can't hide that I still care for you, I still have a soft spot for you whether I want to or not." He stays still as he takes in my words.

"So you feel the same?" He asks with confusion.


"Harry's here!" Chloe knocks on the door. I quickly push past Niall and open the door to see Harry talking to Chloe. He looks over and winks at me.

"You ready? Amelia is having tea at her friend's house so I was thinking we could get some food?" He smiles as he walks towards me. His eyes turn cold as he looks beyond me. "What's going on?" He asks as he realise it hadn't looked good with Niall and I leaving my room.

"We were talking." I look at Harry and his eyes fall on to mine. "Honest." I whisper and he nods although he slightly frowns.

"Okay. Well let's go I'm starving." He forces a smile and turns to say goodbye to Chloe. I glance back at Niall and he sighs softly.

"See you soon." He says and I slowly nod.

"Aw, come here Steph!" Chloe cries as she wraps her arms round me. I smile as I turn to her and hug her back. "see you soon.

"Miss you already." I laugh half heartedly as we pull away. Niall is still on my mind. I know I'm not going to rest now as my mind will be focused on him.

Notes

Ahh what a hectic few days!
hope you guys are well. sorry for a small chapter.

Stephanie nd Niall.... ugh, it's so complicated. But your thoughts on this means a lot for everyone's futures ;) xx