The Carrot Lover
Chapter Seventeen
Emma POV
As soon as I said that, Niall's facial expression softened and we ate our french toast. When we finished eating, Niall suggested that we go for a walk in the park.
"I know it sounds too classic, but how about it?" Niall said.
"I would be delighted to," I replied in a fake British accent.
"You suck at that," Niall said in between laughs.
I put on a fake hurt expression, and said in reply "I know." I really wished I could be with Louis now more than ever. So I decided a walk in the park would be good. I walked up stairs and got dressed in This.
When we left, I started thinking about the kiss. I had lied because I didn't want Niall to feel bad. Once you hurt the leprechaun, he is wounded for a while. And by that, I mean he doesn't stop crying for at least two or three days.
We arrived at the park a few minutes later and continued to walk in silence. Not the good kind of silence, but the awkward kind that makes you hope that the other person would say something. Niall soon breaks the silence by saying something I never thought I would hear him say.
"You should answer Louis' calls"
When he said that, I instantly knew what he was referring to. Over the course of the past two days, Louis has been calling my phone, but I just ignore him.
"Why?!" I say with coldness in my voice. I know he would be able to answer me.
"He probably has a good reason!" Niall shouts.
I turned around and started walking towards Niall's car. He turns around and starts following me. I begin to walk faster until I have reached his car. We drive home in silence.
"So you're taking Lou's side?" I ask with confusion and anger in my voice.
"Yes, I am!" Niall shouted," because unlike you, I actually gave him a fucking chance you slut!" The words escapes Niall's mouth and I felt my eyes water. I knew better than to cry in front of him, so I blinked back the tears that were threatening to spill.
"Niall, I thought you said you loved me? That you believed me? That you thought that what Tom Parker did was rape and not me being a slut?" I said, my voice cracking at the end.
"I did. But the word did is past tense. I told you I DID, but not anymore. And I was stupid for that!" Niall screamed. When he said that, I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. He was the only one who cared about me. And I lost him too. My life was turning into when I was 16 all over again.
"No Niall, I was the stupid one. I was stupid for believing that you even fucking cared! But you didn't! You never cared at all! You just wanted to break me even more than I already was! I hate you!" I screamed as loud as I could. And with that, he stormed out of my apartment, and left his spare key on my table. I soon received a text message saying,
I know I left my key to your apartment there. It's because I'm never coming back. Goodbye.
- Niall
I ran to my room and started sobbing. I started to calm down and I go up and walked into the bathroom. I slid it across my wrist three times. One to calm down, Two to feel better, Three to escape the pain. I got a text from Liam.
I heard what happened with Niall but I'm taking Louis' side.
- Liam
I soon received one from Harry, too. It said the exact same thing. Now I was waiting on Zayn's to come but it never did.
A Few Days Later
I hadn't slept for the three days since Niall left and I received those messages. I also hadn't eaten anything except for seven crackers for the whole duration. All I did was run three miles a day, drink water, and not get any sleep. I heard a knock at the door, and I wondered who it was. I crept my way to the door and opened it a crack to find Zayn standing there.
"Are you going to or not?" I said, a look of panic on my face. I was in deep shit because even though I never really bothered with Zayn, he could read me better than a book.
"Going to what?" Zayn asked curiously.
"Going to say that you're on Lou's side," I said, my voice dripping with hurt. I knew that he was here to say that.
"Actually I'm not. I'm here to say that even thought every one else has left you, I'm still here," he said. Damn he could read me better than a book.
"When was the last time you slept?" Zayn asked.
"Three days ago," I said. Zayn then picked me up bridal style, and carried me to my bedroom and layed me down on the bed and tucked me in. As he walked out I said,
"Zayn don't go" I wanted him to get in with me and cuddle.
"Do you want to cuddle?" Zayn said. Stop reading me, Zayn, I thought to myself. He got in the bed and wrapped a protective arm around my waist. He moved his hand further up, until it was on my rib cage. He then moved it down so that it was on my stomach. He moved it up again as if feeling for something.
I got out of bed to use the bathroom, when Zayn said,
"Not to be rude or anything, but could you take you shirt off for a minute?" I was nervous at first because that meant he might see my wrists and where I cut them, but I knew that I could trust Zayn. I slowly pulled it over my head. Zayn gasped when it was completely off. He gentley ran his fingers from my collarbone, all the way down to my hip bones. It was a little weird since I wasn't wearing a bra, but as said before, I could trust him.
"Y-You're nearly a-a-a-anorexic," Zayn stuttered with confusion and worry in his voice.
"When was the last time you ate?" he said calmly.
"Two days ago. Why?"
"What did you eat?" he said.
"Seven crackers. Why?" I said.
"You need to eat something or you could become even more anorexic," he said. I liked how he wasn't being rude, but he
was being very calm and kind.
"And you need to stop cutting," Zayn said, tracing the cuts I had previously made.
"I know that you may or may not know this, but I will always be here for you," he said, as we both got back into the bed. He started singing, trying to get me to go to sleep.
I'll be here
By your side
No more fear
No more crying
And if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else
And in a few minutes, I was asleep.
As soon as I said that, Niall's facial expression softened and we ate our french toast. When we finished eating, Niall suggested that we go for a walk in the park.
"I know it sounds too classic, but how about it?" Niall said.
"I would be delighted to," I replied in a fake British accent.
"You suck at that," Niall said in between laughs.
I put on a fake hurt expression, and said in reply "I know." I really wished I could be with Louis now more than ever. So I decided a walk in the park would be good. I walked up stairs and got dressed in This.
When we left, I started thinking about the kiss. I had lied because I didn't want Niall to feel bad. Once you hurt the leprechaun, he is wounded for a while. And by that, I mean he doesn't stop crying for at least two or three days.
We arrived at the park a few minutes later and continued to walk in silence. Not the good kind of silence, but the awkward kind that makes you hope that the other person would say something. Niall soon breaks the silence by saying something I never thought I would hear him say.
"You should answer Louis' calls"
When he said that, I instantly knew what he was referring to. Over the course of the past two days, Louis has been calling my phone, but I just ignore him.
"Why?!" I say with coldness in my voice. I know he would be able to answer me.
"He probably has a good reason!" Niall shouts.
I turned around and started walking towards Niall's car. He turns around and starts following me. I begin to walk faster until I have reached his car. We drive home in silence.
"So you're taking Lou's side?" I ask with confusion and anger in my voice.
"Yes, I am!" Niall shouted," because unlike you, I actually gave him a fucking chance you slut!" The words escapes Niall's mouth and I felt my eyes water. I knew better than to cry in front of him, so I blinked back the tears that were threatening to spill.
"Niall, I thought you said you loved me? That you believed me? That you thought that what Tom Parker did was rape and not me being a slut?" I said, my voice cracking at the end.
"I did. But the word did is past tense. I told you I DID, but not anymore. And I was stupid for that!" Niall screamed. When he said that, I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. He was the only one who cared about me. And I lost him too. My life was turning into when I was 16 all over again.
"No Niall, I was the stupid one. I was stupid for believing that you even fucking cared! But you didn't! You never cared at all! You just wanted to break me even more than I already was! I hate you!" I screamed as loud as I could. And with that, he stormed out of my apartment, and left his spare key on my table. I soon received a text message saying,
I know I left my key to your apartment there. It's because I'm never coming back. Goodbye.
- Niall
I ran to my room and started sobbing. I started to calm down and I go up and walked into the bathroom. I slid it across my wrist three times. One to calm down, Two to feel better, Three to escape the pain. I got a text from Liam.
I heard what happened with Niall but I'm taking Louis' side.
- Liam
I soon received one from Harry, too. It said the exact same thing. Now I was waiting on Zayn's to come but it never did.
A Few Days Later
I hadn't slept for the three days since Niall left and I received those messages. I also hadn't eaten anything except for seven crackers for the whole duration. All I did was run three miles a day, drink water, and not get any sleep. I heard a knock at the door, and I wondered who it was. I crept my way to the door and opened it a crack to find Zayn standing there.
"Are you going to or not?" I said, a look of panic on my face. I was in deep shit because even though I never really bothered with Zayn, he could read me better than a book.
"Going to what?" Zayn asked curiously.
"Going to say that you're on Lou's side," I said, my voice dripping with hurt. I knew that he was here to say that.
"Actually I'm not. I'm here to say that even thought every one else has left you, I'm still here," he said. Damn he could read me better than a book.
"When was the last time you slept?" Zayn asked.
"Three days ago," I said. Zayn then picked me up bridal style, and carried me to my bedroom and layed me down on the bed and tucked me in. As he walked out I said,
"Zayn don't go" I wanted him to get in with me and cuddle.
"Do you want to cuddle?" Zayn said. Stop reading me, Zayn, I thought to myself. He got in the bed and wrapped a protective arm around my waist. He moved his hand further up, until it was on my rib cage. He then moved it down so that it was on my stomach. He moved it up again as if feeling for something.
I got out of bed to use the bathroom, when Zayn said,
"Not to be rude or anything, but could you take you shirt off for a minute?" I was nervous at first because that meant he might see my wrists and where I cut them, but I knew that I could trust Zayn. I slowly pulled it over my head. Zayn gasped when it was completely off. He gentley ran his fingers from my collarbone, all the way down to my hip bones. It was a little weird since I wasn't wearing a bra, but as said before, I could trust him.
"Y-You're nearly a-a-a-anorexic," Zayn stuttered with confusion and worry in his voice.
"When was the last time you ate?" he said calmly.
"Two days ago. Why?"
"What did you eat?" he said.
"Seven crackers. Why?" I said.
"You need to eat something or you could become even more anorexic," he said. I liked how he wasn't being rude, but he
was being very calm and kind.
"And you need to stop cutting," Zayn said, tracing the cuts I had previously made.
"I know that you may or may not know this, but I will always be here for you," he said, as we both got back into the bed. He started singing, trying to get me to go to sleep.
I'll be here
By your side
No more fear
No more crying
And if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else
And in a few minutes, I was asleep.
Notes
Hey guys, I tried to make a long chapter. It took me about 5 hours with my ADD, but I finally did it. I hope. Hope your summer is good! Comment your ideas on how you think the next chapter should go! Or message me! This is probably my favorite chapter. I can seriously feel zayns fingers running down my abdomen everytime I read it. Is that weird?- Heather
xoxo
Like the first chapter - again lol!
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