Scars

****Casy's P.O.V****
we were in the car on the way to my house, Luke was driving and for some reason he seemed so nervous, it was cute. to comfort him I grabbed his hand and gave him a helpful smile he looked at me shocked and smiled too. "why do you look so nervous" I ask removing my hand from his. "it's just....I never really had friends, well a girl that was my friend and I don't want to screw it up" he said setting both hands on the wheel.

"don't worry you wont if anyone will it would be me" I say and Lena nods in agreement. I look back at Michael who was sound asleep with headphones in. we finally get to my driveway and it took Luke 5 times before he could properly park. "who in the hell gave you your drivers license" Michael yelled once he woke up. "um....I don't know" Luke said as we all got out. Luke headed for my front door but Michael stopped him.

we could go through the front door because my step dad is more than likely drunk and I didn't want Luke to see that. we sneek through my back window and go in my room witch is tiny as fuck. "sorry my room isn't big" I say sitting down on my bed. "its okay" he said taking a look around my room. "so....want to play video games and eat pizza and yea" I ask sitting in Michael's lap.

"yassssssss" Michael said picking me up and Lena started playing music. Michael started slinging me around and I fell on the floor. Michael laughed his ass of as I did the same. Luke came over and helped me up. "so how long have you and Michael been dating" Luke asked sitting down on the bed. me and Michael looked at each other and laughed so hard Lena did the same. "we....don't.....date" Michael managed to get out of laughs.

"oh sorry" Luke said awkwardly. "it's okay" I say turning off the music. "so how about Lena you call to get the pizza and Michael pick out a movie" I say laying down on my bed. Luke scoots next to me. "its okay you can lay down" I say and he does. "so who are you dating" he asks looking over at me. I dryly laugh and say "don't have one". "really" he asks so shocked. "yea why are you so shocked" I ask looking into his blue eyes.

"your just so beautiful....I guess" he said and I smile. "thank you" I say he smiles and Lena moves me over closer to Luke so she could lay with me. Michael lays next to Luke and we turn the lights out. the movie started out slow and Michael was already ready to scream, we were watching 'your next'. the door bell rang and I went down to get it. as soon as I walked down there I could smell the beer.

I open the door and grab the pizza. I try to run up stairs but it was no use my drunk step father stopped me. I set the pizza down as he pushed me on the floor and started kicking me. I just laid there, it was no point to try to stop him. he slammed his beer next to my head. he pulled his hand back but my mom stopped him before he could punch me. she helped me get up and looked at my bruised, cut face. "who did this to you" she asked touching them.

"nobody" I say grabbing the pizza and heading up stairs. we tore apart the pizza and finished the movie. it was 9:30 by the time the movie was over so we decided to go to sleep. I made a little spot on the ground where Mikey and Luke could sleep.

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I woke up at 12:30 a.m from a nightmare and I relizied it was not a nightmare it was what happened today. I got up not trying to wake anyone up I grabbed my razors from my nightstand. I went into the bathroom locking the door. I took my razor that was sharped the most. I pushed down deep, blood started to flow out of me, seeing red made me do it deeper. I went faster and deeper each cut.

a knock came on the door and I stopped. "who is it" I ask "Luke" Luke said. "I'm almost done" I say cleaning up the blood and pulling down my sleeves. "okay" he said I hid the razors in my shirt pocket and opened the door. "here you go" I say and smile he smiled back and walked in. I wonder if he has a girlfriend, he's really hot so I don't see why he wouldn't. I walk back in bed.

Lena gives me a weak smile. "wrist" she asks and I hand it to her. she swips lightly against my cuts. "it needs to stop" she says "im sorry" I say drifting asleep. same nightmares only getting 5 hours of sleep at night needs to stop not cutting.

Notes

okay so my computer is so fucked up rn
its really annyoning
like my story "us" I so screwed up rn and im so pissed
anyways im doing a new thing called
QOTD: she's broken because she believed
so yea some will be sad and some will be positive
I will also do
QOTW: how long have you been a 5sos fan
and
AOTW: since 2013
anyways BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE