Once In a Lifetime

Sometimes I’m still shocked at how good of friends I’ve become with the guys.
Liam and I share a common trait of being responsible, so we tend to talk a lot of business. Louis makes me laugh and helps to bring out my silly side. Zayn is so laid back we can talk about anything and usually do. Niall and I have lots to talk about since I like sports almost as much as he does. Plus he’s like that great guy friend that you can talk to about other guys. You know, give you the guys perspective. He’s the only one I’ve told about my feelings for Harry. I’ve made him promise not to tell him.
Sometimes I feel like I should just go for it and tell Harry how I feel. What if he doesn’t feel the same though and things get awkward between us? I want Harry in my life however I can have him. So just being friends has got to be better than not having him in my life at all. Geez I’m such a mess.
I just continue to hang on to this hope that Harry has feelings for me. As more than friends that is. When H & I hang out it is something special. Whether its going out to grab some dinner, hanging in the hotel watching a Friends marathon, or watching a football game together, it always feels so amazing and so right.
Now that the tour is over there’s a bit of promo to be done for the new album and then everyone gets a well deserved break for a bit before the new tour starts. A rest sounds good and I know the boys definitely need it, but I can’t imagine being away from them for so long. Well ok one of them in particular!

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