Best Mistake

| Memphis, TN, USA | 11:47 February 1st, 2015 |

I slowly shut the door of my new apartment. To be honest with myself,I didn't like this place. Niall, a friend of mine back in London, had promised me I would find my answer here. But what answer? I had asked him, but he just told me that I'll "find it when the right time comes, trust me". But yet..I don't believe I will.

Softly, I sit my bags on the floor and begin to give myself a tour of the new place I will be spending a few years, maybe the rest of my life, at. I glance down at my arm as I grab a handle of a door. I see the most beautiful name inked on to my skin. A mark of passion and love that will be there 'till I turn back to dust.

I remember getting that tattoo. I had gotten it three hours after I knew she was out of the country. God, I was only three years ago. I was eighteen. She was sixteen. I didn't understand what love meant, I had thought. Until I looked into her beautiful, amazing, crystal blue eyes and realized that she was the one I was supposed to spend eternity with. But instead, I'm alone.

I can still see the way her eyes sparkled in the sunlight. The way her long, blonde hair looked when it rained, the tiny droplets of water over her. I can still see the way she would smile at me every time I looked at her. I remember the way she would never yell during an argument, or a fight, but when I'd leave for days and wouldn't call or text..she wouldn't get mad. She'd just cry.

You would think that most girls would never want to see that guy again if he made a drunken mistake, right? Well, Not Haley. She would always be glad to see me, at any time. But she left me. All those days and nights we spend together. The moments that mean so damn much to me..just gone forever.

I couldn't tell you where she went off to, I have no clue. No one knows. She didn't tell Niall, and she was really close to him. He was the only friend of mine that she actually cared to be around at times.

I roll my bottom lip in as I exit the bedroom and continue looking as I think to myself. I feel the cold metal of my lip ring. Haley was the only person who favored the idea of me getting one. I remember she was with me the day I got it. I thought she was gonna die because she was so nervous. It didn't last long though, there wasn't any pain to it really, well to me there wasn't.

My apartment would be much better..if I wasn't so lonely and all these fucking memories of the love of my life weren't surrounding and haunting me where ever I went would just stop...

Some people just don't notice the pain I'm in every day because I can't have what I want. And that's her. That's all I want. Only her. But I guess we all want what we ain't got.

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