~Clara's P.O.V~

Here it goes. it's now or never. "WAIT!!!" I turned around . Oh my, wow, standing right there in front of me was the mose gorgeous boy I have ever met. He was looking me right in the eye, he stared at me with beauiful blue eyes.

*He'll never like you hurry up and die. Bitch*

Oh no, Karlos has made me upset again and now im crying, and the worst part, in froont of a boy!!. "Hey don't cry, what are you doing up there? My name's Niall" He said "Er.. um" What should I say?? "My name's Clara" Wow really, is that all I can come up with? "That is a beautiful name Clara, why dont you come down from there love?"

*I hope someone will hurry up and push you off, if they do, no-one will care about your body on the pavement*

I start to look around, to see if there is anyone else there. It's only me and Niall and I dont think Niall would push me. I start crying again. I come down from the edge and Niall pulls me into a hug, I wish he would just stab me, just to make the pain go away. "Love are you going to tell me wat's wrong?" I often wish people knew about my condition so that they didn't have to ask a stupid question like that. "We've only just met and you expect me to tell you my whole life story?" I looked up at him. He looked back and said "Why dont we go get some tea or something then?" He smiles, I smile back and say "I'd like that" It's been a while since I last went on a date and I felt happy for once.

We walked towards the elevater whe all of a sudden Niall said "You should be warned I am famous, and those girls down there love me." He flicked his hair like a super model and wiggled his hips. I'd forgotten about all those people down there. When he wiggled his hips the looked really funny I couldnt help but giggle. When we got the the bottom floor I could see what he ment, there had to be atleast 200 girls and paparazzi out their screaming. Niall grabbed my hand and wispared in my ear "I Promise they wont hurt you, as long as you hold my hand you'll be safe."

*I wish you get trampled and die from all those people there. No one would even notice you on the ground dead, that's because no-one loves you*

I felt really scrared after Karlos said that, but Niall was draging me out the door. If he wasn't holding onto my hand I would of swarn I Karlos was right, me getting trampled. After what seemed like forever we got to the car, I realised I was wearing some sweats and a hoodie!! I cant go on a date wearing that ! "Um con we stop at my house so I can get changed?" "Oh yea of course you can."


I went upstairs and got changed as fast as I could (http://www.polyvore.com/date/set?id=81752426). I walked down stairs and mum said "You look dressed up, where are you going?" "Oh im just getting some tea with a new friend of mine" She looked at me and said "Does he know abou.." I cut her off "No not yet, I was getting to that" I walked out of the house aftter saying goodbye to mum.I saw Niall leaning againt the car door looking at me. "You look beautiful." He said. I blushed, that was the first time anyone other than my parents has called me beautiful.

We drove to Nandos's, we were met by some more paparazzi, but not as many as last time so it was ok. We sat down and ordered some food and tea. I was amazed at the amount of food Niall had ordered, I didnt order very much since Karlos always says 'no-one will ever like you if your fat, but your are so nevermind' . Niall ate as soon as the food got there, I just sat there looking at him filling hit tummy. After 5 minutes of slient eating Niall asked me "So how come you cry so much ? I don't mean it as a bad thing or anything." I loked at his wondering where I should start.

~Niall's P.O.V~

When we got to Nando's we ordered our food, like always I ordered lot's of food. I was lookin at her beauty as she ordered some salad and tea. She was skinny, a bit too skinny. The waitress came with all the food, and I stuffed my face. I looked at her, her eyes were still red rom her crying earlier. Then I remembered something "So how come you cry so much? I don't mean it as a bad thing or anything." She looked down, like she was thinking. She looked back up at me and started "When I was born, my parents alway knew there was something wrong with me. The never knew what exactly. I always showed the symtoms." What is she talking about? She sighed, then continued "When I ws 10 I had an imaginary friend, 5 years later I still had her. It's not normal for a 15 year old to have imaginary friends so my parents took me to a psychiatrist and they diagnosed me with schizophrenia." She looked at me. Wow, I was not expecting that. She kept talking "I have a voice called Karlos he tells me horrible things like im worthless, no-body loves me, I should die." She started to cry again "This morning Karlos said I shouldnt bother getting up, no-one would care. He was right, he has to be right. No-one loves me and today was the worst I have ever felt before. I was sick and tired of hearing his voice and seeing him laugh at my pain. I felt the only way to get rid of him was to end my life... I walked up to the hotel and went to the roof. I heard you play the guitar, I was glad one of the last things I could of ever heard was the sound of your guitar. Karlos kept encouraging me and kept saying 'jump, jump please just hurry and end your pathetic life' I got on up on the edge .. and then.. you stoped me. Thank you." I looked up at her. This was definatly not the date I was planning it would be. But I felt sad for her, I could never imagine what she must be going through. I was speechless. She loked at me and said "I guess you dont want anything to do with me, no-one ever does, i'll just be on my way then" She stood up, I couldn't let her just leave after all she's told me "No dont go, I do care. Why not we make a deal? You could come over to my hotel and meet some new friends, i'm positive you'll like them. Please?"

Notes

Yep.. yeeeea um i'll just be um wiriting

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