Living With A Monster
Clara
~Clara's POV~
*Dont bother getting up no-one will care anyway*
Gosh I hate when Karlos is looking at me like that, but he was right, hes always right no-one cares about me. "FUCK OFF KARLOS" I scream. Mum comes running in "Clara what's happening? Where is he?" She's bombarding me with questions .. again. "Mum do you really care about me? Karlos keeps saying no-one does, is he right?" "Of course I care about you !! I love you and if Karlos was real I would punch him in the face for saying those things to you!!" You see mum can see Karlos, no-body can because he's not really there. I have schizophrenia which means all the things I see (like Katrlos) arent there, its a mental illness and i'm one of the lucky few kid's with it.
When I fially get up after like 1 hour of crying I feel as worthless as I have ever felt. I cant take it anymore. For over 2 years now he has been tourturing me !! Saying things like i'm worthless, no-body care about me, I should die ect.
He was right, I should die. It would be the only way to get rid of him. I dont have any friends so no-one would care. I have my breakfast " MUM IM GOING OUT" I shouted to mum who was upstairs. "Ok do you need money?" She asked as she walked down "Yea can I have like 5 dollars?" I asked, I really want some tea. After mum gave me some money I walked out of the house and took a bus to downtown London.
*Im glad your about to die*
As I sit down in Starbucks I realise Karlos is at it again. I feel a tear escaping from my eye as I hear a distant song playing. I think it's a One Direction song, i've never really been a fan of them but I do like their song 'More than this'.
*Hurry up and die already no-one will care*
I start to cry proply now. I run up the street as I think 'I have to do this now, but how?' I stop. Right there was a really tall building, I think it's a hotel. I realise its packed with screaming girls as walk in. The man at the front desk askes "Where are you going, Do you need a room?" I definatly dont need a room "Um i'm just visiting a friend if that's ok?" "Oh yea sure, the elevater is to your right" I turn around and head for the elevator. I think level 10 is the roof? As I press the 10 buton Karlos say's
*Yay I will be soo happy your only a bit closer, no-one will even realise there is a death pethetic girl on the foot path*
The elervter door opens. Yes it is the roof, I feel the cool brezze on my face. What is that noise? Is .. is someone playing the guitar on a roof? I look around with tears still on my face and my eyes still puffy form all my crying. I walk forward a bit, I cant see anyone. 'So Karlos here's to you' I think as I walk on to the edge.
"WAIT!!" I hear someone scream. As I turn aound I see a beautiful boy with blue eyes.
*Dont bother getting up no-one will care anyway*
Gosh I hate when Karlos is looking at me like that, but he was right, hes always right no-one cares about me. "FUCK OFF KARLOS" I scream. Mum comes running in "Clara what's happening? Where is he?" She's bombarding me with questions .. again. "Mum do you really care about me? Karlos keeps saying no-one does, is he right?" "Of course I care about you !! I love you and if Karlos was real I would punch him in the face for saying those things to you!!" You see mum can see Karlos, no-body can because he's not really there. I have schizophrenia which means all the things I see (like Katrlos) arent there, its a mental illness and i'm one of the lucky few kid's with it.
When I fially get up after like 1 hour of crying I feel as worthless as I have ever felt. I cant take it anymore. For over 2 years now he has been tourturing me !! Saying things like i'm worthless, no-body care about me, I should die ect.
He was right, I should die. It would be the only way to get rid of him. I dont have any friends so no-one would care. I have my breakfast " MUM IM GOING OUT" I shouted to mum who was upstairs. "Ok do you need money?" She asked as she walked down "Yea can I have like 5 dollars?" I asked, I really want some tea. After mum gave me some money I walked out of the house and took a bus to downtown London.
*Im glad your about to die*
As I sit down in Starbucks I realise Karlos is at it again. I feel a tear escaping from my eye as I hear a distant song playing. I think it's a One Direction song, i've never really been a fan of them but I do like their song 'More than this'.
*Hurry up and die already no-one will care*
I start to cry proply now. I run up the street as I think 'I have to do this now, but how?' I stop. Right there was a really tall building, I think it's a hotel. I realise its packed with screaming girls as walk in. The man at the front desk askes "Where are you going, Do you need a room?" I definatly dont need a room "Um i'm just visiting a friend if that's ok?" "Oh yea sure, the elevater is to your right" I turn around and head for the elevator. I think level 10 is the roof? As I press the 10 buton Karlos say's
*Yay I will be soo happy your only a bit closer, no-one will even realise there is a death pethetic girl on the foot path*
The elervter door opens. Yes it is the roof, I feel the cool brezze on my face. What is that noise? Is .. is someone playing the guitar on a roof? I look around with tears still on my face and my eyes still puffy form all my crying. I walk forward a bit, I cant see anyone. 'So Karlos here's to you' I think as I walk on to the edge.
"WAIT!!" I hear someone scream. As I turn aound I see a beautiful boy with blue eyes.
Notes
This is my first fanfic please no hate. Comment what you think of it, I know there are mistakes.Xx Maddy
update
1/4/14