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Good Intentions ⇼ Luke Hemmings

Twenty-Seven.

I woke up from my nap on the couch to a knock on the door. I groggily stood, walking through the kitchen and pulling the door open. Kaylee let herself in with a tub of ice cream. She rummaged through my drawers and grabbed out to spoons, turning to me and smiling. A confused look spread over my face.
“Am I forgetting something?” I asked, staring at her pajamas. She laughed, playfully rolling her eyes.
“Oh.” Her smile faded. “You’re serious?” It came out as more of a question. “You must be hanging out with Mallory too much.” She frowned. “We’ve been synced up since high school! How could you do this to me?” She faked a pout before handing me a spoon. “Well, I still have killer cramps, so regardless we are continuing the routine!” That’s when it hit me. I hadn’t gotten my period this month. Without a word, I followed her to the couch and watched as she scrolled through Netflix to find a film. Every month we did this, suffering through our periods with films, ice cream, and junk food.

“I can’t believe you.” She teased. “How could you make me suffer through this alone?” I laughed, shrugging.
“I only see her at work, it’s probably just stress or maybe I’m getting sick.” Kaylee scoffed.
“How can you be stressed? I’ve got a four year old and I haven’t had sex for six months! I’m stressed.” I shrugged. “I’m not trying to be rude.” She defended. “I’ve just seen your hair falling out before you miss a period. That’s crazy.” Shrugging, I shoveled ice cream into my mouth and turned toward the telly, allowing Kaylee to put on a horror film. Conversation was limited as we watched The Stepfather, eating bite after bite of ice cream.
“I have some crisps and cookies in the pantry. I’ll go get them.” I set my spoon down, getting sick of the cold sensation as I got up to grab more junk and two sodas.
“Hey, where’s Luke?” Kaylee asked with ice cream in her mouth.
“He had therapy today and then he went to visit his mum.”

“Any word about the flats and the girls?” I asked, losing interest in the film.
“Yes!” She exclaimed, nearly jumping up as she set the ice cream down and grabbed the crisps. “Ash and I were speaking to James and he said he felt so much more comfortable giving the flats to people we trust because he trusts us and we’ve always paid on time. So, they paid the deposits and can move in any time within the month. I believe Cal and Steph’s lease expires in two and a half weeks, but Mikey and Ella’s expired already so they’re moving in on Wednesday.” She grinned. Three days, I thought to myself, three more days of ‘solitude’ before each apartment became another home. Just like in high school when we spent every day with each other. And I don’t know if I can handle that.
“That’s so great!” I smiled, turning back to the telly.

“Romy?” Kaylee asked, pausing the film.
“Hm?”
“I know it’s none of my business but I am a little worried. You’re nearly six days late. You’ve been using protection, right? Condoms and shit?” I bit my lip.
“Yeah, we have.”
“And you’re not worried something happened?” She asked, her words rang in my head until I finally spoke.
“I wasn’t until you mentioned it.” I scratched the back of my neck.
“Well are you going to take a test?” She inquired, turning her body towards mine.
“I don’t think it’s necessary.” I shrugged.
“Are you sure? You never know, condoms break all the ti-” I cut her off.
“Kaylee, please.” I frowned. “I don’t want to think about it. I don’t want to worry.”
“Well you’ve got to.” Her voice was stern. “Listen, I’m not trying to be ‘the mom friend’ just because I am the mom friend. I’m worried, okay? That’s exactly how it happened to me. We used a condom and it broke and we didn’t know. I’m just saying you should at least be a little concerned.”
“I’m sorry, Kay.” My eyes fell to the floor. “I just can’t imagine it. I just enrolled for my class and I’m working full-time and taking care of Luke. It would ruin everything. And I don’t want to think about it unless I’m sure.” Kaylee was silent for a long while.
“Maybe we should just make sure.” She whispered. With tears holding themselves back, I nodded.
“Okay. Yeah.”

***

I stood nervously in the Family Planning aisle that Kaylee and I had walked to, glancing around to make sure no one saw me.
“I don’t know.” I sighed, frustrated. “I don’t think it matters.” I wanted to cry. I felt like everyone was staring at me and I couldn’t help but cower into my shell and have difficulty answering Kaylee’s questions. “Just get what you got.” Nodding she grabbed a few and we headed to the self check-out, rushing to get out of the uncomfortable environment. As we walked back, Kaylee held the bag.
“When will Luke be home?” She asked, entering our building.
“No idea.”
“My flat, then. Ashton and Jos are out until 7, we’ve got plenty of time.” We hurried into her flat, heading straight to the bathroom. “Okay.” She breathed. “Here.” I sat on the toilet, Kaylee turning away from me to give me privacy as I peed on one stick, held my urine in, set it on the floor, then another, and another, and the last one.

My breathing was fast as I pulled my pants up, turning so I wasn’t facing the sticks. I sat on the floor against the tub, and Kaylee say next to me, holding my hand.
“Five more minutes.” She whispered. “Have you thought about the outcome? What you’ll do?” I shrugged, feeling numb.
“I don’t know. My mom only got pregnant once and she couldn’t again. What if it’s my only chance?” Kaylee nodded slowly and I held my breath for a long while.
“It’s time.” She nudged my arm.
“I don’t want to look.” I shook my head.
“Then I will.” She released the grip from my hand and crawled over, peering closely at the sticks. Her eyebrows furred as she read it. “Positive… Negative… Negative… And positive.”
“What?” I asked. “Is that even possible?”
“You should go to the doctor. You should talk to Luke. I’ll go with you if you want.” I shrugged.
“I don’t know. I should go home. I’ll call you, okay?” She nodded, hugging me.
“Goodbye Rom.”
“Goodbye.”

***

“I had such a good day.” Luke rambled. “Saw my mum, got dinner, I’m making progress again-” I zoned out, thinking of how he would react. “-and now I get to fall asleep with the most beautiful woman in the world.” I gave him a small smile. “You know, my dad used to call my mum that. The most beautiful woman in the world. I thought he was crazy because she wasn’t and I thought he’d say that to be nice. But then I met the most beautiful woman in the world. And now I understand.” He stared at me with a wide smile, pulling me close and kissing my forehead. “Things are so good right now, Romy. I want them to stay like this forever.” And in that moment, I absolutely hated myself because I couldn’t tell him.

***

“I am utterly exhausted.” Luke complained, falling onto the bed next to me. We’d spent the day helping Ella and Mikey move in. We helped unpack, watch Josi, make dinner, doing everything possible to help them feel at home quickly. It had taken 16 hours of the day, and it was now midnight—Luke and I were exhausted, to say the least. I still hadn’t told him about the pregnancy tests, and regretted every moment I couldn’t bring myself to do it. All I’d been doing was thinking about it and I came to a sound decision. I just couldn’t tell him. “Hey I’ve been thinking.” Luke turned to me. “We should move in together-” He paused, looking confused, “-I mean like bedrooms. I sleep in here every night anyways and I think I should move my things in.” I gave him a small smile.
“Yeah. I’d like that.” I whispered, staring at the ceiling.
“Hey.” He rasped. “Hey.” When I didn’t look at him, he moved his body on top of mine. “Hey. Pay attention to me.” He whined, kissing my cheek.
“Sorry. Yeah?” He frowned, sighing.
“Are you okay?” He asked, “You’ve been so distant and sad lately. Are you alright?” Now was the perfect moment, I told myself, do it now. Tell him. Now.

“I have to tell you something.” I whispered.
“Are you going to breakup with me?” His voice cracked as he tangled a hand in my hair.
“No! No, no, no, no!” I defended. “No, Luke, it’s not that. I just-” He cut me off.
“What is it?” He asked.
“I took some tests.” I spoke slowly, gently pushing him off me and sitting up.
“For school?” He followed my lead, grabbing onto my hand and pressing it to his lips.
“No. Um… I don’t know how to say this. They were pregnancy tests.” His face fell and almost turned white. He looked as if he was going to be sick. “They came back as two positive and two negative. So… I have to go to the doctor. I’ve an appointment tomorrow.” He didn’t speak. “You can come if you want. I’d really appreciate it. I need you there.” I began to get choked up, the tears forming in my eyes. “Luke I can’t get rid of it. If there’s a baby in here-” I set a hand on my stomach. “-I have to keep it. I want to keep it.” He pulled me into a hug and I began crying into his shoulder.
“I’m so glad you said that.” He whispered. “If there’s a baby in there, I want to keep it, too.”

***

We sat nervously in the office waiting for the doctor. I’d explained the situation, how we’d gotten two negatives and two positives. Understandingly, the doctor promised to do multiple urine tests and a blood test. I didn’t know what i wanted the results to be, all I knew was that I wanted the baby if it was there. Luke reached over to grab my hand, he looked at me and smiled.
“I don’t know what to wish for.” I whispered.
“Me neither.” He laughed, shaking his head. “I kind of hope it’s there.” He confessed, earning a smile. “Me, too.”

“Well, Ms. Baker.” The doctor came back in with a sheet of paper. “Congratulations. You’re 6 weeks and 2 days pregnant.” I covered my mouth as tears spilt onto my cheeks.
“Really?” I squeaked, looking at Luke.
“Really.” The doctor smiled. “It’s about the size of a bean.” I don’t know why I was so happy, but Luke grinned at me in return, making me cry even more.
“I’ve got a little bean!” I exclaimed, wiping my cheeks as I laughed. The doctor smiled, laughing as he wrote something down.
“I’m going to give you some names of prenatal vitamins you should start taking. You also may want to schedule an ultrasound soon, you’ll want your first one around 12 weeks. Here’s a list of doctors in the area you may want to see or check out. I suggest Dr. Alver. He is very available, affordable, dedicated, and qualified. My wife and I used him as ours and he was very kind and we felt like he really knew us. If you have any questions until you decide on one, go ahead and give me a call. Congratulations again, Ms. Baker.” As the doctor left the room, I couldn’t help but hug Luke.
“We’ve got a little bean.” I told him. He nodded, holding me tight.
“I can’t believe it.” He smiled, kissing the top of my head.

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@Allie Miller
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ohhhh!!!! getting right on it

@exiiliious
Same. Well, I guess you probaly figured that out from the reference and my profile picture of Gerard Way. XD

@Ana Hemmings'
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OH MY GOD!! I cried so hard when their son died! I'm not okay(anyone else catch that MCR reference? No? Ok then.)! Please update this!!!