Mist's POV



I really feel bad for agreeing to go out with Niall. I don't even know what went through my mind to agree, but I know that Josh deserves better. Although this night with Niall and Yaden made me think about Josh and I. I'm not thinking about giving Niall a second chance, not at all, but it made me think about the choices I'm currently making in my life. I mean, my life is great; I have an amazing work, friends and family, I have my beautiful baby boy and now Josh too. I have Niall back in my life and after tonight, it feels great to know that my son knows his father. But Josh is taking the character of the person Yaden sees as a father, and I don't want that. Niall is trying, he really is, and I do believe that he grew as a person. I believe that he is good for my son, for our son, and he's working for a place in Yaden's life, that's truly amazing through my eyes because I never thought that I might see that day coming. But on the other hand, although I don't like Josh taking the character of Yaden's father, I don't like how we rush into things. I mean yes, I like him, but I only like what I know. And I don't know a lot, that makes it hard for me. These past few days here had such an impact on my life, and my nerves and emotions are out of control since we arrived here. Although I owe Josh an apology for my behavior tonight.

"Josh," I sigh, pushing my thoughts away. I sit down next to him before bracing myself for the conversation that lies ahead. I hope Josh understands. "I'm sorry," I whisper to him. And I truly am.


Josh stays quiet for a few seconds, but asks me if I kissed Niall in the harshest tone I've ever heard coming from him.

"Wh-What?" I stutter as I frown. Where the hell did that come from? "No," I shake my head at him.

"Whatever it is you're doing to me Mist, it's driving me insane," Josh shakes his head too. His words hit me pretty hard and it makes the conversation that lies ahead even harder for me.


I gulp and stay quiet as I look at him, letting his words hit me so I have enough courage to tell him what I want. Josh looks up at me from between his fingers before he pulls his phone from his pocket. He looks at the screen and puts his phone away before turning back to me.

"I think we should slow down," I speak my thoughts with a sigh.


I watch as all sorts of emotion wash over Josh as my wave of words crash him. He gulps and shakes his head. "Whatever," he replies with a laugh.

"I'm not saying we should end anything Josh, just listen to me," I plead in a soft voice.

He looks at me with a sarcastic smile and folds his arms over his chest. "Enlighten me," he winks at me.


I look down at my hands as I rub the sweat from them on the sofa. "I really like you," I confess. I can feel his eyes on me but decide not to pay much attention to it. "But we don't even know each other Josh, and we're just moving too fast. I mean, let's stay friends and go out together, you can visit me or I can visit you," I look up at him. "If you'd like," I whisper. "But let's get to know each other better before we continue this," I point between Josh and I.

He stays quiet and looks at me, his smile faded and he's now frowning. "Yaden thinks I'm his father," he mutters.


"I know, and that's another point too. What if we don't work out? I mean," I gulp as I look away from his intense gaze. "What if we get to know each other better and decide we're better off not being together? Yaden will be devastated," I frown at my words. "I only want what's best for my son," I confess in a stronger voice.

Josh nods and stands to his feet. "I'm going to get going. I'll text you when I land in NY," he mutters as he walks to the door.


Seeing what I did to him breaks my heart, but Yaden comes first and I'm not letting anyone hurt my son. I take a deep breath as the door closes after Josh left.


"You're back," Lilly's voice fills the hotel room. Her hair is messy and her lips swollen. She looks tired yet full of life.


"Did you fuck Harry?" I ask her with a raised eyebrow as I place my chin on my arms that are laying at the railing of the sofa.


"Maybe," she winks at me.



"He's coming," another voice fills the hotel room. "Oh, hey Mist," Harry awkwardly scratches the back of his head. His hair is always fluffed in a rough way, but anyone can see that he just had sex. He walks closer to Lilly and whispers to her, but it was loud enough that I could hear. "I thought she won't be here?" He questions her.


"I came back. And don't worry, I know you guys had sex," I laugh. "I'm just glad you didn't wake my son," I tell them seriously. "I don't want that sort of stuff happening when he's around," I tell them as I stand up from the sofa.

They both mutter a 'sorry' and a knock is heard on the door.


"That's him," Harry says as he walks to the door whilst combing through his hair. "Well hello pumpkin," Harry chuckles.


I frown at his words and turn to face the door. This night can't get any worse, seriously. Niall's eyes land on me and he shakes his head in disappointment.

"Niall," Lilly clears her throat. We both look at her. "I have food," she tells him with a smirk.

Niall shrugs and walks past me to the kitchen. Lilly takes lasagna from the oven and Harry gathers plates.


"Come on," Lilly smiles at me. She clearly doesn't know what happened tonight..

With a loud sigh, I walk to the kitchen and sit on the only open chair, the one next to Niall. Lilly dishes up and Harry gets juice for everyone before we start eating. Niall finishes first and goes for a second plate when Yaden's cries run through hotel room. I immediately get up and notice Niall's worried face. I rush to my room and pick Yaden up, he lays his head on my shoulders and snakes his arms around my neck.


"Baby you're warm," I frown at him. His body is heating up and I really hope it's not a fever, whenever Yaden gets sick he gets it bad. But he's only gotten sick twice since he was born. I walk to my bed and put him down before undressing him. He watches me with bright blue eyes as I take his pants down. Niall's eyes flash in my thoughts as I watch Yaden's. By the time I finish undressing him, I pull out one of his baby boxers and dress him into them, hoping that having him dressed in only boxers would help with the fever. I walk to his baby bag and take his temperature meeter out. Yaden starts crying again and before I make it to him, he throws up. Panic rushes through me once I see red drops in his vomit, that's not normal. I push him up and try to hush him as I rush out of my room with crying Yaden in my arms. Tears fall from my eyes in worry as I practically jog to the kitchen.


"Lilly," I sob once I reach them.

Everyone looks at me in worry then at Yaden. Yaden throws up yet another time, and even with vomit covering my body I don't care, I just want my baby to be safe.


"I don't know what's going on," I cry as I rub Yaden's back. "He has a bad fever and he's throwing up blood," I cry as Harry brings me a cloth he wetted. I thank him and wipe Yaden's back. Yaden throws up again and Niall rushes to my side.


"Harry give me your car keys!" He yells as he takes me and Yaden in his arms. "Now Harry!" He yells again, startling both Yaden and I. Yaden's cries become louder and Lilly hands me his sippy cup while Harry gives his keys to Niall. I pull Yaden away from my neck to wipe his face with the wet cloth. There's blood running out of his mouth and his face is red. His voice is dry from crying and it breaks my heart to see my little baby like this. I don't know what's going on with him.


"Mist let's go!" Niall yells again. It's clear that he's panicking too. Lilly starts crying and Harry embraces her, whispering sweet things in her ear to calm her down. I haven't even noticed that I stayed frozen in my spot till Niall yanked on my arm. "Mist please, we need to get him to a hospital," Niall pleads with a worried expression. I hold Yaden close to my body and take the hand Niall is holding out for me.

Notes

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