Do I Frighten You? 2

“I am sorry, I was in a rough place when you guys left, I didn't know what happened to me.” He said softly.

I nod and then look around the house looking how completely wrecked it was, has he not cleaned it in a year? I know what I am going to be doing while I am in this house, because it won't be sitting in this house while it smells with alcohol. I didn't want to talk about it while Andrew was here.

I stayed silent but I could feel Harry's eyes on me. I moved to the couch and sat down, this was just like how we met for the first time. It was just so different though this wasn't what I was planning it to look like. I thought that this was going to be a more cozy place to be.

I looked up at Harry his eyes were still on me and then he looked away and rubbed the back of his neck. “I'll clean it up, give me minutes.” He said and then moved and picked up all of the bottles that he didn't need and then threw them away. I watched him as he did.

Andrew moved his way towards the couch next to me, and leaned on me. He must have been tired.

Once Harry had finshed cleaning up a lot of the mess he sighed and then looked around. “Welcome home.” He said with a smile and then I managed to smile.

“It's been a year.” I spoke softly. “What happened while I was gone?” I said softly.

“I- There was just to much on my mind.” Harry said.

Harry's pov

I couldn't be honest when she asked me that because what was running through my head was.

Oh, I thought you didn't love me anymore, I thought that you left for someone else, so I decided to drink my life way and give up the effort. Oh and as well there were girls here, but I didn't sleep with any. The guys expect Niall were messing with them and wanting them here.

I know if I tell her that I know that she will be upset about it and I didn't know what to do, what if she hates me, what if she wants a divorce, I don't know what I would do. She would say something like Do you know we have a child together and do you know that it was hard for me to raise him on my own.

I just wanted her to feel the better for me. Not the worse. I don't want to lie. I mean I wasn't technically lying I was being somewhat honest.

I just wanted her to be happy, I know that she is going to find out sooner or late, I had grabbed the vacuum out the closet and then I made my way towards the living room where the broken glass and stuff was and cleaned the rest of the room.

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I never wanted her to see the house like this again and I didn't think that she would like it, I didn't want Andrew to see me all of this.

After we fed andrew something that I still had in the fridge that wasn't alcohol or anything we had went to bed, Andrew coulldn't fit into his crib that they left her anymore, he had grown so he had to sleep in the bed with Amelia and I.

“Harry?” Amelia said softly.

“Hm?” I said looking at her.

Her eyes were slightly open. “Do me a favor.”

“What's that?” I whispered.

“No more drinking.” She said, and then closed her eyes and fell asleep.

I sighed. I know she didn't like me drinking but it is the only thing I can do when I am stressed out, it clears my mind and it makes me feel better.

Notes

I have been sick, And then there was new years, and I had been busy, I need to stop saying that I am going to update.. I keep breaking my promises and i feel horrible for it. i just haven't been thinking properly lately and i know that this chapters suck. I need to start pre planning again which i plan on doing tonight.

bare with me..

All the love .x