Do I Frighten You? 2
Chapter 23
Harry's pov
I don't know what scares me most, Amelia in critical condition, or the fact Andrew's future.
Today was just an unlucky day for me. I could not believe that I was standing over her bed, wires all over her body, She was barely breathing, she was unconscious, and the doctor said there was 50 50 chance she is not going to make it.
I had called her mother, I had to and now that they were here, I was just so shocked, I haven't seen her for over a year, and now this is my 2nd day with her, and it was all wasted. That is when I broke down. That is when I couldn't feel my hands anymore, my thoughts were rambling and I was lost. She was the only one that really knew about me. Someone that I could not portray and I just losing her could not come out in my mind.
The doctor had to push me out of the room, I couldn't move, I was utterly shocked by the way all of this happened so quickly. I needed her, I needed her with me.
I was out of the room, my back was against the door, and I brought my hands over my face, sobs escaped my lips. Everyone was here, Everyone from Middlewich. Her parents, Niall, Kate, and J.J. Ethan and Sophia. Andrew was in Amelia's mum's arms, and then there was me. What if I wasn't here. What if I could not be here, what if I never had this sort of future. What if Liam had killed me. What if I didn't show up to his stupid house, we could have been okay. This is all my fault.
Niall had rushed over to me and his hand came onto my shoulder.
“Hey, everything will be okay.” He said.
I couldn't speak, all I could do is stand there. I could not believe that this was happening. I was so confused. Seeing the wrecking of her car just hurt me the most, and getting a phone call. It was not bearable for me to handle and I can handle a lot of fucked up things.
I shook my head. I was lost, and honestly I never really cried in front of Niall off of these situations, I was always the brave one but he was the one to support me,we were the ones to always support eachother through these things, but this one was a more serious thing to be upset about, for me this is worse of what happened between what happened between Liam and the boys and I. This is something that hurt me ten times worse.
Later, we were all sitting there in the holding room, Andrew was laughing with J.J. He missed his best friend and he missed the memories that they had with each other and he wanted to continue to have them. He was basically his first and only friend from what I knew. They were on their stomachs drawing in a coloring book and laughing and showing each other what they have done. They had no clue what was going on and I wanted to keep it that way, I don't want Andrew to be grieving over something at this young age. He is too young.
“How do you think she is doing?” Sophia had asked me in a soft whisper.
“I don't know.” I responded softly not making eye contact with her best friend.
She didn't say anything after. Amelia's mum was also crying, she was done for right now, and she was hugging Bennett. Ethan looked out into space. I would know what he is feeling because of his younger sister being in a devastating car accident, and also not seeing her for a year. It must be harsh. It is horrible on me too.
The doctor door opened and we all looked over at a few doctors leaving the room. They didn't look at us, they just left.
“What if she doesn't wake up?” Amelia's mum cried.
I didn't want to think of her not waking up, she was just so young. This would not what I want to happen this was all just a dream and I am trying to wake up from it. I am just waiting to do so.
“Daddy look!” Andrew said pointing down on this paper.
“I see.” I manage to say and give him a small smile.
I haven't gave him anything to eat. I sighed and then stood up from my seat. Everyone looked at me.
“I am getting Andrew's food from the house.” I said softly voice hoarse.
Everyone nodded there head, but Amelia's mum.
“No, You are not leaving.” She said
I was confused and then she spoke again. “Amelia was going home and got hit.” She said softly.
I sat back down in my seat. Basically clasping back down in my seat. My body was numb.
“Why couldn't it just be me?” I begged and buried my hands in my face.
“No sad Daddy.” Andrew said and patted my head.
I wiped my eyes and looked at him. “I am not sad.” I gave him the best smile I possibly could and then picked him up and placed him on my lap.
J.J wobbled over to Niall he was still only 1, soon will be his birthday. I noticed soon I was going to have to be going back home. To work, I can't go, and I am not taking Andrew back to Middlewich. Never.
The door opened and a doctor had looked at all of us.
He walked over to us. My heart began to race. He stopped in front of us.
“Amelia Styles?” He asked.
We all nodded.
“I'm sorry, we tried.” He said softly. “The impact was too strong, there is nothing we can do.” He said, and fresh tears ran down my cheeks, and I turned away. Covering Andrew's ears. She's gone, my Amelia is gone.
I don't know what scares me most, Amelia in critical condition, or the fact Andrew's future.
Today was just an unlucky day for me. I could not believe that I was standing over her bed, wires all over her body, She was barely breathing, she was unconscious, and the doctor said there was 50 50 chance she is not going to make it.
I had called her mother, I had to and now that they were here, I was just so shocked, I haven't seen her for over a year, and now this is my 2nd day with her, and it was all wasted. That is when I broke down. That is when I couldn't feel my hands anymore, my thoughts were rambling and I was lost. She was the only one that really knew about me. Someone that I could not portray and I just losing her could not come out in my mind.
The doctor had to push me out of the room, I couldn't move, I was utterly shocked by the way all of this happened so quickly. I needed her, I needed her with me.
I was out of the room, my back was against the door, and I brought my hands over my face, sobs escaped my lips. Everyone was here, Everyone from Middlewich. Her parents, Niall, Kate, and J.J. Ethan and Sophia. Andrew was in Amelia's mum's arms, and then there was me. What if I wasn't here. What if I could not be here, what if I never had this sort of future. What if Liam had killed me. What if I didn't show up to his stupid house, we could have been okay. This is all my fault.
Niall had rushed over to me and his hand came onto my shoulder.
“Hey, everything will be okay.” He said.
I couldn't speak, all I could do is stand there. I could not believe that this was happening. I was so confused. Seeing the wrecking of her car just hurt me the most, and getting a phone call. It was not bearable for me to handle and I can handle a lot of fucked up things.
I shook my head. I was lost, and honestly I never really cried in front of Niall off of these situations, I was always the brave one but he was the one to support me,we were the ones to always support eachother through these things, but this one was a more serious thing to be upset about, for me this is worse of what happened between what happened between Liam and the boys and I. This is something that hurt me ten times worse.
Later, we were all sitting there in the holding room, Andrew was laughing with J.J. He missed his best friend and he missed the memories that they had with each other and he wanted to continue to have them. He was basically his first and only friend from what I knew. They were on their stomachs drawing in a coloring book and laughing and showing each other what they have done. They had no clue what was going on and I wanted to keep it that way, I don't want Andrew to be grieving over something at this young age. He is too young.
“How do you think she is doing?” Sophia had asked me in a soft whisper.
“I don't know.” I responded softly not making eye contact with her best friend.
She didn't say anything after. Amelia's mum was also crying, she was done for right now, and she was hugging Bennett. Ethan looked out into space. I would know what he is feeling because of his younger sister being in a devastating car accident, and also not seeing her for a year. It must be harsh. It is horrible on me too.
The doctor door opened and we all looked over at a few doctors leaving the room. They didn't look at us, they just left.
“What if she doesn't wake up?” Amelia's mum cried.
I didn't want to think of her not waking up, she was just so young. This would not what I want to happen this was all just a dream and I am trying to wake up from it. I am just waiting to do so.
“Daddy look!” Andrew said pointing down on this paper.
“I see.” I manage to say and give him a small smile.
I haven't gave him anything to eat. I sighed and then stood up from my seat. Everyone looked at me.
“I am getting Andrew's food from the house.” I said softly voice hoarse.
Everyone nodded there head, but Amelia's mum.
“No, You are not leaving.” She said
I was confused and then she spoke again. “Amelia was going home and got hit.” She said softly.
I sat back down in my seat. Basically clasping back down in my seat. My body was numb.
“Why couldn't it just be me?” I begged and buried my hands in my face.
“No sad Daddy.” Andrew said and patted my head.
I wiped my eyes and looked at him. “I am not sad.” I gave him the best smile I possibly could and then picked him up and placed him on my lap.
J.J wobbled over to Niall he was still only 1, soon will be his birthday. I noticed soon I was going to have to be going back home. To work, I can't go, and I am not taking Andrew back to Middlewich. Never.
The door opened and a doctor had looked at all of us.
He walked over to us. My heart began to race. He stopped in front of us.
“Amelia Styles?” He asked.
We all nodded.
“I'm sorry, we tried.” He said softly. “The impact was too strong, there is nothing we can do.” He said, and fresh tears ran down my cheeks, and I turned away. Covering Andrew's ears. She's gone, my Amelia is gone.
Notes
I cried, I really did, I am sorry, my heart hurts so bad right now.
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