Everything I Didn't Say

“Kay, it’s 4 am. Let’s call it a night?” I chuckled lightly at what she said. “If you can call it that. Go sleep now okay?” She groaned a bit and promised to rest as soon as I hang up so I ended the call.

I finally laid down but my mind still kept running. “It is four in the morning, Luke. Close your eyes.” I tried to order myself to rest but the thought of her going to sleep miserable like that made me feel uneasy.

“You better be sleeping right now or else I’ll come over and make sure that you are!” I tossed my phone up in the air and was already regretting sending that message right away.

I’ve known her all my life but only now have I gotten this close to her. “Is he still mad at me?” I grunted at that question and rolled to my side. She likes him; hell, she actually loves him and I feel like I’m the worst jerk in the world for not being able to relieve her of her heartache.

“Yeah, sorry…I really don’t know.” That was all I could say to her, nothing more, nothing less. They are both my friends but I can’t just tell her that he will never like her and I can’t just tell him how big of a douchebag he is to her.

“Aislinn, why won’t you let me sleep?!” Was it normal to be this concerned for a friend or am I feeling something else? I shook my head and closed my eyes.

It wasn’t good that I was questioning myself about this. The situation is already as complicated as it can get. She has liked Calum for the longest time and Calum hasn’t really looked at her more than as an older sister. And me? I really don’t know where I fit in all of these. All I know is I care for both of them; I care for her a lot.

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