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Beside You

Chapter 3

Ashtons POV
"You really like her don't you?" Luke asked me out of no where. I stroked her hair "she's my everything" i whispered planting a small kiss on her temple i smiled. "I am so happy for you" he said and i looked up at him. "You are?" i asked "Yeah, i may like her, but you will always be best for her." he informed me and my smile dropped into a frown. "Sorry" is all i can get out. "For what?" he asked me and i looked back down at Ashley who is still sleeping soundly on my shoulder. "I don't know" i admit. "She is so beautiful. You're lucky to have her." he told me and i tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "Thanks mate" i said and he smiled. "Anytime." he said and walked off. I smiled as i drifted off to sleep.
"Ashton, come here babe!" she yelled but she is know where to be found. "Right here!" she put her hand on my cheek. Damn she is freezing. "Where are you?" i choked as i felt my eyes burning. "Please help me!" she yelled and i could hear the pain in her voice. "Babe? ASHLEY!? WHERE ARE YOU?" i tried to yell but it came out as a whisper. She is no longer in reach, she keeps walking away. I finally let the tears go when she hollers back “I’m sorry Ash, I’m so sorry!” I am dying slowly. Days later i am now in a concert with the others but she isn’t with us. Now that i think about it, Luke is gone too. “Where is Luke? He has to be here for his part.” i said to calum but the tears streaming down Michaels face when he takes the front microphone says he won't be showing up. “What song?” i sighed “VooDoo Doll.” he answered. I started to bang on the drums. I cant take it. Knowing Ashley won't be here for the show. Damn, fuck, damn. “I don’t even like you, Why’d you want to go and make me feel this way?” Michael and Calum sang and i could feel the tears streaming down my face. “I don’t understand what’s happened, I keep saying things I never say.” i tried to keep hitting to the beat but i can’t concentrate. “'Cause I can feel you watching even when you’re nowhere to be seen, And I can feel you touching even when you’re far away from me.” i remember that is how i felt last few days. I keep feeling like she is right next to me… but she isn’t. “Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll cause I can’t control myself, I don’t wanna stay, wanna run away, but I’m trapped under your spell.” this is speaking to me. “And it hurts in my head, and my heart, and my chest, And I’m having trouble catching my breath.” it does hurt so bad. When i breathe, walk, move, EVERYTHING HURTS! “Ooh [2x] Won’t you please stop loving me to death?” i wish i could see her. “Well, I don’t even see my friends no more 'Cause I keep hanging out with you I don’t know how you kept me up all night Or how I got this tattoo.” its true i wish so bad every day that i could hang out with her over anyone. I MISS HER! “'Cause I can feel you watching even when you’re nowhere to be seen And I can feel you touching even when you’re far away from me Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can’t control myself, I don’t wanna stay, wanna run away, but I’m trapped under your spell.” I really am trapped. “And it hurts in my head, and my heart, and my chest, And I’m having trouble catching my breath Ooh [2x] Won’t you please stop loving me to death?” I wish i could stop missing her so much. “Oh, yeah, no, no, no, no. I can feel you watching even when you’re far away from me, And I can feel you touching even when you’re nowhere to be seen. Every time I see you, Suddenly my heart begins to race, Every time I leave, I don’t know why Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can’t control myself, I don’t wanna stay, wanna run away, but I’m trapped under your spell.And it hurts in my head, and my heart, and my chest, And I’m having trouble catching my breath Ooh [2x] Won’t you please stop loving me to death?” I run off the stage just to see if this is all true. “ASHLEY!?” i shouted and i know people are confused because everyone is staring at me. I looked down and there she is, hugging me, she’s so cold. “DAMN IT!” i shouted when she left AGAIN! “WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ME?!” i know i am going crazy but i can’t stand this… this emptiness i am feeling right now. “FUCK DAMN FUCKING FUCK!” i shouted and cried, clinging onto Calum and Michael. “Where did i go wrong?” i asked them. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I can’t look back. Don’t look back. PLEASE! “Ash, baby, i’m right behind you. I’m here for you baby. I love you so much.” she whispered and when i turned around “I love you-” she disappeared. When i cleared my head which took about fifteen to twenty minutes. We walked back on stage. “THIS NEXT SONG IS HEARTACHE ON THE BIG SCREEN!” oh shit this is going to kill me! Damn you Michael for picking these damn songs!!! “Started out like in the movies But it ended like a bad dream, curtains opened heard the crowd roar this one’s a repeat seen it before.” i know i am messing up the beat from crying. I miss her so much. I am starting to see shit. “screw it.” i whispered then threw my drumsticks on the ground and ran off the stage for the second time tonight. “I FUCKING MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH! WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?” i shouted falling to my knees. “Hey mate are you okay?” Harry asked me with the other 1D guys around him. “NO, FUCKING NO OKAY? SHE’S GONE!” i shouted and Michael ran to me and so did Niall. “I am so sorry. I know you miss her, and i know how much you want to see her again, you’ll see her again soon.” Niall and Michael told me and i looked up. “What the fuck do you mean?” i choked out crying. “You will see her in a few days… when tour is over!” Calum told me and i sighed in relief. “YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME!” i shout and they chuckle. “Sorry, we thought you would get over the distance but apparently not.” Louis told me. I smiled. “Thanks mate.” I said. But i don’t think I will stop this until i know i will see her. I looked at Calum. “WHERE THE FUCK IS LUKE?!?!” i asked and he chuckled. “You don’t remember, he said he would help Ashley get better, since she has the flu and couldn’t come on the tour. He is feeling a little better so he told you to come and she still calls you every night to say good night.” he said and i started to freak out. “WAIT WHAT? LUKE AND AND ASHLEY MY FENCE ARE ALONE?” i asked and they laughed. “No mate. Her mum is with her too.” he said and i smiled. “Can one of you play guitar for me? Zayn i need you to call Ashley on video call, she needs to see this.” i said and he nodded pulling his phone out. “I will play, what song?” Michael asked and i smiled “Wherever you are.” i said and he put his guitar over his shoulder. “Louis, you know how to play the drums?” he nodded and i gave him my drum sticks. “HEY ASHLEY!” Zayn shouted and i looked at him smiling. “POINT HER TO THE STAGE.” i said loudly and walked to the mic. Michael started to strum his guitar. I looked at his phone and she is crying. Luke is sitting next to her with red eyes and her mum is behind her with two glasses of water. Zayn moved to stand in front of me with his phone in hand. “For a while we pretended, that we never had to end it, but we knew we’d have to say goodbye, you were crying at the airport, when they finally closed the plane door, i could barely hold it all inside.” i sang by myself and Michael started singing with me. “Torn in two, and i know i shouldn’t tell you, but i just can’t stop thinking of you, wherever you are, you, wherever you are, every night i almost call you just to say it always will be you, wherever you are.” she is crying now and my eyes are tearing up at the moment. “I could fly a thousand oceans, but there’s nothing that compares to, what we had, and so i walk alone.” I sang to her and she smiled at me. “I wish i didn’t have to be gone, maybe you’ve already moved on, but the truth is i don’t want to know.” i know this song is more of a break up song but everytime i sing the chorus i know it gets to her. “Torn in two, and i know i shouldn’t tell you, and i know i shouldn’t tell you, but i just can’t stop thinking of you, wherever you are, you, wherever, every night i almost call you, just to say it will always be you, wherever you are. You can say we’ll be together, someday, nothing lasts forever, nothing stays the same, so why can’t i stop feeling this way?” i sang she now knows i miss her and how bad i am without her with me. “Torn in two, and i know i shouldn’t tell you,, but i can’t stop thinking of you, wherever you are, you, wherever you are, every night i almost call you, just to say it always will be you, wherever you are.” i sang softly and she gave Luke and her mum a hug. I walked to Michael to tell him another song i want to sing for her. “I miss you” i whispered to him and Louis. “Hello there, the angel from my nightmare, the shadow in the background of the morgue, the unsuspecting victim, of darkness in the valley, we can live like jack and sally if we want, where you can always find me, we’ll have halloween on christmas, and in the night we’ll wish this never ends, we’ll wish this never ends.” she wiped her eye with the sleeve of her shirt. “I miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you. Where are you, i’m so sorry, i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight, i need somebody and always, this sick strange darkness, comes, creeping on so haunting everytime, as i stared i counted, the webs from all the spiders, catching things and eating their insides, like indecision to call you, and hear your voice of treason, will you come home and stop this pain tonght, stop this pain tonight?” i sang tears rolling down my cheeks. I know everyone in the stadium can see me crying right now but i could give a fuck less i miss my girlfriend. “Don’t waist your time on me you’re already, the voice inside my head, i miss you, i miss you, dont waste your time on me you’re already, the voice inside my head, i miss you, i miss you, don’t waste your time on me you’re already, the voice inside my head..” she’s crying and smiling and crying more, i love her so much. I can’t wait until i go back home to see her. “Don’t waste your time on me your already th voice inside my head, I miss you, i miss you. Don’t waste your time on me you’re already the voice inside my head, i miss you, i miss you. Don’t waste your time on me you’re already the voice inside my head, i miss you, i miss you. Don’t waste your time on me you’re already the voice inside my head, i miss you, i miss you.” i finsihed the song happily and softly. “I love you so much, and i wish you could be here with me in my arms. I can’t wait to come home. I miss you and love you so much. You’re my world and my everything.” she smiled “I miss you too, i love you more, you mean more to me than anything. I can’t wait for you to come home either.” she said and i started to cry again. “Babe, i have to go, i will call you as soon as i get back on the bus.” i told her and she nodded. “I love you!” she said loudly. “I love you too babe. I miss you so much.” i told her and Zayn hung up. “Thank you guys so much! This means so much to me if you need a drummer i can drum for you for your next few songs.” i said and Harry, Niall, Liam, Louis, and Zayn nodded. I smiled as Niall and Liam kissed and Louis and Harry kissed. “Thanks mate.” Zayn said giving me a hug. “That was so sweet.” he whispered into my ear. They all grabbed their microphones. I went over to the drums and sat down on the drum stool. “We are doing Through The Dark.” Zayn told me. I always wondered if she likes him. She talks about him a lot. She is always fangirling about him. She is 16 so i can understand if she is obsessed with him. I wish i knew. I will have to ask her when i get home. A few days passed and i found myself on my way home. Ashley said she, Luke and her mum are picking the eight of us from the airport. My music is blasting in my ears. I am sitting next to...Zayn. This can’t get anymore awkward for me. “So how is Ashley?” I think he is trying to make conversation so i take my headphones out. “Did you say something?” i asked him and he chuckled. “How’s Ashley doing?” he asked and i got silent thinking for a moment. “She’s actually good. She’s picking everyone up with Luke and her mum.” i informed him and he smiled. “Cool.” he said and i put my earphones back in. Next thing i know Here Without You by 3 doors down is playing. I am singing to it and before i know it i am seeing nothing but black. “Dude, wake up.” Zayn shook me, waking me from my dreamless sleep. “We’re about to land.” he informed me and i thanked him before putting my seatbelt on.

Ashleys POV
“What time does his plane land?” Luke asked me and i looked on my phone. “In about an hour so we need to leave.” i informed him and he nodded. “MUM! LETS GO!” i yelled and she came rushing from her bedroom. “I’m coming!” she yelled and got her jacket on. As soon as we got in the car we sped off in the direction of the airport. 45 minutes pass and we are waiting for their plane to land. When they got off we met them at baggage claim. I hugged Ashton first thing. “I missed you so much!” i cried into his neck. “I missed you too, babe. I missed you so much!” he said back kissing my hair. We stood there for about ten minutes just hugging. Me crying into his shoulder when he got home is something i have been waiting for. “I love you.” he said to me his voice cracking at the end. “I love you. What’s wrong?” i asked him pulling away just enough to look him in his beautiful brown eyes. “I just missed you.” he said pulling me back into his arms.

Notes

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Comments

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