*Caution this chapter has many drug use
so read at your own risk*


Kady's POV
I looked around the room to see everyone dressed in black too. I wore a black dress.There was many people, including his mother and father who looked torn apart. Her mother had to leave the place because she couldn't stand seeing him in there. I couldn't believe this was happening just some few days we were still talking and now his dead. How could this happen? Why? All those questions were in my mind. I haven't slept in days I can't most of the time I'm in bed torn apart crying myself to sleep. I fill empty without him. I can't eat, every time I even try to get a bite of something I have to throw it out of my system. I've been also consuming drugs but there the only thing that actually make me feel a little better.
"Hi my name is Annabelle." a girl said stretching her hand to me so I could shake it.
"Oh um Hi." I said shaking her hand.
"You may not know me, but I know you. Pa-Patrick used to talk all the time about you he-he really loved you."
"How did you know him."
"I work all the MODEL AGENCY with him we became friends there. I knew everything about him because he would always tell me I even knew about his problem." Annabelle said as she looked.
"What problem?"
"Patrick never wanted you to know or anyone that he had a problem with his heart.
"What?! Are you talking about?" I said confused. I didn't know this how could he never told me that he had a problem.
"He had Coronary Heart disease since he was like 10 years old. His parents always did everything they could so he could keep living. And they did some surgeries they helped alot which made him live a normal life like the rest of us. But he would always live with the disease. He said that everything was going well until this past year when he started to have chest pains and a lot of stress. He had many mini heart attacks at the JOB but he would say that he was okay it was nothing important. But he always told me that he was very worried that one day he would have a heart attack that could kill him. And that's what happened 5 days ago, that heart attack that he always feared of, happened and nothing could save him." Annabelle stopped as she started to cry. I cried to I never knew he had a disease in his heart that was killing him. Why did he never tell me how could he tell this woman in front of me but not me.
"Why didn't he tell me." I said hitting the table where we were sitting.
"Because he didn't want you to feel sorry for him. He didn't want you to keep suffering. Yeah he told me what happened to you in high school. He didn't want to keep seeing like that he wanted you to always be the happy girl. He said that the best thing he ever saw was your smile. He loved it so much." I kept crying, I couldn't believe he never told me. That hurt a lot I had the right to know that something was wrong with him so I could at least I don'tknow help him.
"Hey Kady I know that this is very painful for you not only did he die like this but you also know that he had a HEART DISEASE that he never told you about. But he didn't do it to hurt you he just wanted to live until his death with you but seeing you happy with him. He didn't want to see you cry all the time suffering. Oh I almost forgot that this was supposed to be for you." She said as she took a box from her pocket.She opened it to reveal a ring a beautiful one with a diamond in the middle.
"Yeah it was an ENGAGEMENT RING he bought for you. He was going to propose when you would come back from Sweden." She said handing me the ring. I couldn't believe it, I didn't have any words to say. I took it from her and just stared at it.
"it was nice to meet you Kady, I should get going they will bury him and I am going to be there."
"Thank you Annabelle" I said getting up and heading out. I can't go to the funeral and see how they bury him. I just can't I don't have the energy to see that.
I just want to think that this is all a nightmare and that when I wake up I can call Patrick so he can come and calm me down. No he can't be dead I don't want to believe that he actually had a heart disease that killed him. If I believe it then I will go crazy. I walked done the street to see a guy that was giving something to another guy. I went walking to him because I needed to buy something that will take this pain away just for a while or probably forever.
"Well hello beautiful why are you crying are you okay do you need me to help you." He said as he got close to me trying to grab my waist.I pushed him away.
"I don't need that kind of help I just need something that can help me take this pain away." I said pointing to some white stuff he had on top of his car or a car.
"Oh well you should have told me beautiful. Well what I would recommend you since it looks like you came from a funeral try this." He said handing me a needle that was filled with some fluid.
"What is this?"
"Oh its a drug that can help you its Heroin and it takes you to a beautiful place."
"No here I just want some cocaine that's all I'm already getting used to it and that I haven't even expierenced this."
"Alright suit yourself." He said taking it away and handing me a small bag that was filled with snow. (Some people call cocaine snow because its white.)
I hurried home because I just needed it in my system already. When I got to my apartment I quickly opened the door and thew my bag. I sat on the floor and taking out the snow of the bag. I was putting it in lines. Then I rolled a dollar bill and and started to sniff it in. I layed myself on the floor. I felt like I was in a cloud. I started to laugh to myself. I had to so much energy now I felt great. I then closed my eyes and fell asleep.
*2 weeks later*
Harry's POV
"who the fuck does she think she is to not come to work." Zayn said screaming to Lou.
"Zayn she is going through some stuff her-"
"I don't give a fuck what is happening with her this is not why we pay her." Zayn said cutting her off.
"Shut the fuck up Zayn!" Liam said as he looked at him worried.
I don't know what has happened with Kady. After the photo shoot when Kendall did that stupid prank that was the last time I saw her. Liam said she had to take care of some business and Lou said the same thing. But what had to take so long that she hasn't came back. I miss her I really do even when she insults me I don't care I just like her presence. I want to know whats going on did Patrick take her away or something.
"Maybe we should just find another person since I think this means she quits." Louis said sitting on the couch playing with a soccer ball. When I heard him say that I jumped.
"No we don't have to do that. Lou where does she live I'll go find her." I said as I looked at Lou. I saw Zayn getting up too.
"Fucking Harry leave her already stop fucking trying with that Bitch. I rather find someone else to replace her she fucking gets on my nerves."
"Shut the fuck up Zayn nobody cares what you think." I yelled at him which made Louis and Niall get hold of me. Zayn was already getting his fist ready.
"Hey,Hey were are not going to fight for this. We are a band but also we are like brothers Zayn calm down and Harry you too." Louis said as I still didn't care I felt like socking Zayn out for expressing himself like that of Kady.
"Lou please tell me where she lives." I said giving her a begging look.
"Harry I don't think its a good idea she's going through a lot she doesn't even answer me." Lou said.
"yeah Harry last time I texted her she said she doesn't care about coming back." Liam said.
"Liam I need to know whats going on with her let me find her."
"Alright mate." Liam said getting up and looking for her address.
"Liam are you sure?" Lou said to him as she went to him.
"Yeah maybe he can do something." Liam said to her. I had to find out what was going on with her.
Kady's POV
I kept sniffing the snow but I didn't get a feel of it.
"Ugh this doesn't h-help me. I-I need something m-more strong." I said to myself. I need something more strong to keep that feeling of pain away from me. When I drug myself I feel so great my mind goes blank and I forget everything. But now the snow isn't helping anymore it doesn't give me the hits it used to give me before.
I know that what I'm doing to myself is a very bad thing, but there's nothing I care about anymore. I don't have a family or someone to protect me. Patricks gone and his never going to come back. His the only person I loved and will love. There's nobody in this world that cares about me. The drugs are my only hope they make me feel great. I don't know what people talk that this are bad things they just give you help. I keep sniffing the snow but nothing. I got up and went to look for my purse but everything looked like it was moving. When I found it I ran out of there and went to the streets to look for the dealer.
"I need something more strong." I kept telling myself. I kept walking and people kept looking at me but like if they felt sorry for me. Fuck them they don't even know what I'm going through. I finally came to the street where the dealer was.
"Hey beautiful." The dealer said giving me a creepy smile. He turned around to give me a small bag filled with snow.
"NO I-I nee-need something m-more strong." I said
"Oh well I can give you what I told you last." He said getting the needle.
"What is it?"
"Heroin it is way better than cocaine you just have to inject in on your arm."
"Here just g-give it to me." I said handing him his money and leaving back home. I kept staring at the needle I just wanted to try it, no I needed to try it , my body kept shaking and this pain in my heart was getting worse.
When I got home I swung to the door, I didn't even close it or anything I went upstairs to my room and got a rubber band to wrap around my arm. Then I took off the tap of the needle. Then I injected it.
Harry's POV
I got out of my car and went inside a building then I got the elevator to the 4th floor. I kept thinking in my head what will Kady do when she would see me. I hoped she didn't close the door in my face or scream at me. The elevators door opened and I stepped out looking for the number. "Its room 32" I told myself looking for it. Then I saw it but I didn't think it was her apartment. The door was swung open. I didn't know if to go inside. I stepped a little in to see the inside like if a tornado went in there. Stuff was everywhere, it was a huge mess.
"Kady" I said in a normal tone. I was looking around the kitchen was the only place that didn't look so bad.
"Kady" I said again but no answer. I decided to head up stairs.
That's when I saw her on the floor twisting like if she was possessed.
"Kady, oh my KADY are you okay." I said getting on the floor with her.
"Make it stop it hurts make it, I can't breathe." She said putting her hands to her noise. Blood was coming out.
"Kady why did you do this? why." I said as she stopped screaming and twisting. Her hands fell from where they were.
"Kady,Kady can you hear me?" I said as she looked like she was dead. I got up and called an amublance and they said there were in there way. I looked around in her room and saw a paper and a ENGAGEMENT RING. I went to where the things were and read the paper. It was an invitation to a...........
"No! Patrick died!

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